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@Feel Good thank you, man. I commit to finishing the course fully IN ORDER even though i might hate it and come up with excuses. I will do I think a few days intensive to contemplate the course really deeply, because im tired of being dust in the wind. @0000will0000 I dont have places in my town where I could socialize with people my age, the average age is 62. I am planning on going outside of town, though that will take money and that's limited.

@YogiLogan you seem like a pro, how am i supposed to do the practice? the way it is comfortable? for example in KP1 inhaling and exhaling for 6-8 seconds and in mahamudra to bend the knees, or to try hard and manage 10 seconds and straighten the legs with pain? sometimes when I do KP1 and I inhale and exhale too much time I feel the lack of oxygen as a pain in the lungs.

@Elisabeth you're right, I can come back to the course later to do it 100% properly. thank you, i think ill do that.

i also think theres something wrong with me often. i came to the conclusion that if i cant change it, i shouldnt give a fuck, doesnt benefit me in any way. you should be able to stop the thought if you dont believe it, if you believe it, see if you can improve or check it somehow, if not, stop thinking about it, if you cant stop thinking about it start meditating.

the questions I ask to decide whether i join some new age stuff are the following: can this benefit me in any way? is it just superstition? lets say I try the thing, do I see that its working? does it hinder my growth in other areas?

My neck twitches sometimes, if no pain, ignore, move on

"What is the biggest Mindfuck?" there is no answer to that, because different people hold beliefs differently, so for different people the biggest mindfuck will be different

@Brittany by survival i mean that currently i dont have a job and i depend on my parents because im studying. i need to figure out what to do in the world in order to earn money, survive later on.

yeah, im doing the course, thats what this post is about, as i wrote. im in the life purpose assessment part and im struggling to answer the questions because i dont care that much about what ill do in the future. im only worried about my survival for now. yeah but there is urgent stuff that could be somewhat fixed, like social anxiety, emotion regulation. also i meant not only shadow work, but stuff like having a relationship, experiencing fun stuff, going on adventures, taking psychedelics, etc.

@Joseph Maynor then how do i deal with the lack of passion i have towards it? the whole discovery of a life purpose comes out of passion.

according to the yoga system to clean the energy channels, energy will move more freely. its almost always done before yoga practices ive seen, like in inner engineering it also takes a short time

@herghly I think nadi sodhana is important

I genuinely wanted a life purpose before and i believe i still do, but after a year and especially after a few trips i got clearer on what i want and my motivations changed dramatically. the course will be useful later on anyway.

after my first ever psychedelic trip on LSA about a year ago I started to think that it did something to my brain, like bad short term memory, difficulty talking to people, forgetting words, impaired ability to think and conceptualize and more. about a day after the trip I didnt sleep the night because of the fear of it. My guess is that none of that is true, and im tricking myself to believe it is so. Tricked myself since that trip. because i believed it actually started to manifest and it seems like im experiencing those symptoms. Truth of the matter is, I dont know if really something happened to my brain, or my awareness changed or whatever. I want to figure that out and stop believing it at least, if thats the case. how do I stop believing I have problems?

@Sockrattes I think you are neither

@Arkandeus I have energy in the body, i shake often. i feel right now energy in the tailbone, in the head (medulla), hands. i feel a strong pressure in the chest sometimes. i feel pleasant sensations in the body, like joy, but its not fulfilling like regular joy, its not enough. i felt before very unfulfilled, but now its better.

I dont get what you mean by object. if it's all one how can you distinguish between different senses? it's true that the commonality of all senses is that they are experienced, but what's so special about it?

in my present consciousness I dont care about knowing what I am or who I am, it doesnt give me anything. in my present state of consciousness why should i care about something if it doesnt give me anything?

If everything is new, can you orient yourself? know where to go, what to do.. arent you overwhelmed? I remember after an lsd trip I had to walk home and I didnt recognize the path so I had trouble going home. I also dont see how what you say is connected to enlightenment. maybe its the opening of the third eye, but not nonduality.

bs, women are attracted to the vibe the man gives off. maybe if you have more money and status you're more confident, hence better vibe, but you dont have to have money and status to have confidence.

I feel the same, its often very hard to understand for me what's written in a book, but relatively easy to listen. maybe its a skill that has to be built though, i dont know.

@Paulus Amadeus I am excited for the suffering ill experience during it

wtf, am i tripping? you replied to my post from another topic. lmao

theyre growing in their own way, otherwise they would be depressed/suffer. if you notice that your partner suffers help them, if theyre ok, it means theyre going their own path.

Do what you think will bring you the most excitement and joy, if you have to force yourself to do something it means you are not at the level of the activity yet. for example Ill take a meditation retreat this summer for 10 days and im extremely excited for that, im not dreading it whatsoever. im also excited to read books. if it doesnt feel right for you dont do it, follow your bliss, that way you will get to the high level stuff naturally.