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Do you mean that I need the "other stuff", in order to sustain myself getting to the happiness place?

what I meant is that whole happiness you're talking about could be achieved using the practices, in daily life too, I didnt talk about happiness that depends on sitting in a cave. I asked if I could achieve that, using solely practices, why would I need all the other stuff? I cant sustain it now obviously, but i can get to that point using the techniques, so why would I need other stuff?

+1 @Leo Gura Yeah, an update is needed for the existing videos about happiness

The ego may want enlightenment only if it deludes itself, isnt it? yes or no? because how can it want to eradicate itself?

it's more like an association. Like you probably associate love with the color red, anger maybe red too, depression as dark/grey, spirit with blue maybe. the chakras are ultimately nerve pathways I think, but the associations can be ascribed to colors and shapes.

I think he's turquoise because he said at some points "there's no good nor bad" and he seems to me (maybe im wrong) like he's way past his ego, at least in this video. Ive also seen in the recommended he talks about spirituality so that's the vibe I got off him. I think his point was that creativity is built on itself, that man cant pull something absolutely new out of his ass, he's always using stuff that he learned. Also I think he talked about specifically human creativity, which is limited (I guess?)

Whenever something takes some effort, when I have to think, to exert physical or emotional labor, I dont want to do it. Lately all im looking for is these small dopamine hits, and if something doesnt give me them, i dont want to touch it. I know that there are people who love to think critically, love to exert themselves, and I was like that at some point. Why am I not like that now?

that just blew my shit away, my yoga practice will become so much better now

no, I mean the reason I react is habits and the subconscious, on an intellectual level I understand its not rational. yeah, for a year @ajasatya omg motivation speeches NEVER work on me and that one opened my eyes so much. What I really took from this video is the engagement part, I notice that what attracts me in life is superficial stuff that gives me a good feeling, like watching tv shows, imagining being somewhere beautiful, but I realized is that this stuff is mediocre, what really life is about is, engagement, and I barely do that, im just an observer all the time. @ajasatya@Consept you're both right, im too comfortable right now so I dont want to do anything. I dont want to get fucked in the ass later so ill get fucked in the ass right now but slighter. thank you, those comments actually changed my perspective. for some reason I dont give a shit that im gonna die and that life is short, as much as I actually contemplated that I dont care. I actually did a gratitude journal for a month, it was grueling, I hated it and it didnt make me feel better.

It feels I can control it like I control my muscles. maybe it's stupid but hear me out. It may be connected to prana or some other shit. It feels like im creating pressure at certain parts of my body, I can create it at my head, chest and legs. I can also control the area around my throat such, that I can make myself genuinely laugh and experience some kind of joy. Same for the feeling of before crying, I cant cry on purpose though, just the feeling. I have a little machine that measures blood pressure, and I measured my blood pressure once when I was completely relaxed and once when I made my whole body feel that kind of pressure. Im not flexing any muscles, though sometimes when I do it too hard my body starts to shake. anyway, my pulse during the tense period was about 28 points higher (from 60 to 88) and my high blood pressure went up 10 points (from 120 to 130). im not doing anything with my breath too, it's kind of just a feeling i can control. Can anybody else do it? I noticed that I can do it after the kriya and an lsd trip.

lmao your comment triggered victim mentality in me and I slapped myself (mentally) I dont know, I do feel excitement for hedonistic activities (kinda rarely but still) I also have sometimes anger fits (by myself though, not at other people and not at myself, just anger, at life maybe)

I feel its not worth it

So to get that life purpose I gotta suffer, yeah?

but I also struggle in the dating scene. I have a lot of anxiety and fear about it (only in the body, in the mind I understand its stupid) and I just feel it's not worth the emotional labor, im lazy about it.

Lmao finding my life purpose is one of those things I dont want to do that takes work

lmao ive also been doing this recently, it felts kind of relaxing and good, and then I felt the hearbeat in the heat and that was somewhat pleasant.

This feeling is accompanied with a feeling that it's hard to breathe. I feel like this almost all the time. It affects my mood greatly, im not enthusiastic about anything for a long time already and I feel like I start to get depressed, I feel like there's no hope for the future being good because anything I thought of before as "good" seems from my point of view in the present as lame. I do know on some level that it will pass though, so I still have lingering hope. That feeling also intensifies when I think of doing something that requires effort, like doing the life purpose course or reading a book. I think it's because im extremely extremely mind dominant, I think ALL the time and analyze everything. im ALWAYS self conscious when I feel certain feelings, for example if I feel joy, I become aware that I feel joy, I cant just experience joy. As proof for this as the cause, I know that when I do mindnumbing activities like drink alcohol (I rarely do) or watch movies all the bad feelings alleviate, that is, unless my mind doesnt let me get into watching the movie. How can I deal with that permanently? I meditate for about a year now.

what is that? a chinese mafia?

ok so I tried the blood pressure test again and in a few seconds I managed to change my blood pressure from 106/54 to 145/79.

or im just descending into negative patterns

I just finished my exams and I have 2 months of freedom, and for some reason I feel anxiety, like something bad is going to happen. I have a few plans for the summer: 10 day vipassana retreat 10 day ashram volunteer work besides that I have free time, and in that time I want to: Finish my life purpose course pick up women at evenings in live get dates on tinder read books I feel anxious and I dont know about what. I do watch some tv shows as a way of relaxation, it's extremely comforting and it's hard not to give in. Maybe it's guilt? Also I dont have a schedule, I cant fall asleep until 3-5am, I went to sleep at 6am today and woke up at 10am, hoping to change my rhythm. Im also not sure whether I really want to use tinder and pick up women (because they're probably going to be low quality, because ill go to clubs and such, no other choices). I do have a lot of sexual dreams though and desire for a women though, so I guess I have to. can I do something to alleviate the anxiety? im not even sure if I have it, it's on and off. edit: *** posted it mistakingly in the spiritual sub, not sure if it's the right place.

Does it have negative consequences?

extremely inspired, excited very much, I came up with them. wasnt that implied if I said I felt good when watching it? it's pretty nice, yeah unfortunately the average age in my city is about 60, so there are no young girls in public places, only in clubs, which is very sad indeed, im trying my best, if there would be a better way I'd do it. it's not that I listen to people, it's that im not sure in my desires, they are on and off, very unreliable. thanks, im already trying to do that, I hope it will help, I also think that it's the cause somewhat.

no im not. im living life. ive never had sex or a girlfriend so I want to try it out. I know that it wont fulfill me, as you see im going to a vipassana retreat.

meehh.. it's around that area I guess