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I like to focus on my breath and the pressure on my feet when I'm walking. When I'm in the shower, first I listen to the sounds, then I feel the warmth ( or coldness, depends on the shower) from the water. Then I try and feel into my body, and notice tempertures. Feel the sensations of comfort and discomfort. You can literally focus on anything that grabs your attention but I think it is important to have something that grounds you in awareness, like your breath or feeling into the body.

@Visitor So I could do it not during specific session but just when I'm meditating and reading? mhh alright, I will give that a try

@Leo Gura Haha, that is golden!

Exactly dude , it's beautiful right? That this type of change is happening within you, me and countless other people.

This is what Adyashanti said "Strangely, when you can face fear and not look away it loses it's power and can't stay since it derives it's power from your resistance." Damn that's so beautiful, but so hard to actually do though

So, I've done some solid work on fear and I still plan to keep at it as best as I can. What I've been noticing during my contemplation is that I start to intellectually realize what fear is, why it occurs, and exists. It is so weird to me that I have realized this but I still have a deep rooted anxiety. I know what to do when the fear arises, I've practised this aswell. -- Say to yourself it's okay to be afraid. Then let it exist and don't interract with it, just let it be-- But the same fear that I feel like I've overcome many times, just keeps returning -- Not trusting my heart and being afraid it stops--. Is there anything I'm missing here? Why is it so hard for me to meta- accept this fear and why does it keep returning even after I've gone through so many panic attacks and resistance. I know my signature is giving me a perfect answer to this, but even when I'm in higher consciousness states it still feels so hostile and hard to let it be

A man who lives on the street asked me for the newspaper when I passed by him with my bike. In my unconscious frustration I acted like I did not see him and rode on. Later when I came to realize that I was stuck in my head and completely lost touch with everything going on. I felt bad about it, I tried to brainstorm where he could have gone. Then I searched for him untill I found him, I apologized to him for my rude behaviour and gave him the newspaper.

This is so incredibly powerful. When I started doing this today, I felt a sharp pain in my stomach, most likely from the resistance that was built up. Now that I just finished I just feel so free and light. I wonder if I should do this guided session once a week or try to embody it another way

@Visitor When I asked this to myself, the reply I got was " You need love and validation from others since you can't do it for yourself."

@jimrich Thanks for the advise. Currently I'm waiting for a reply to start psychotherapy. I'm really hoping this will help me.

@jimrich But whenever these feelings come up during meditation or in my daily life ( I feel them the most intense when I meditate) I become so incredibly scared. It just feels too painful, I can't come up with anything I should do at these moments. My mind just goes " This is bad... This is real bad, keep this up and another panic attack starts. Your heart wil start with palpilations again" I know I'm not my thoughts, but they sounds so clearly and robust in my head. Like they're made of metal. I just lose it completely at that point. I try to watch them. But I still feel wrapped up inside of them. So it feels so wrong

@Alii Why so rude?

@Toby Thanks for the recommendations, I will definitely consider buying these

@S33K3R Mhh that sounds like something paradoxical, which is basicly everything on the path so it must be right . I do fear feeling fear though so this is going to be quite difficult.

@Truth Thanks a lot, I will start doing these exercises. I just did the enquiry part and turns out I'm afraid to be alone. I traced being scared of dying back to this. So now I've got some solid work to do @Toby Thanks I will add this to my contemplation sessions . Edit: Something I just realized is that when I ask myself what does fear consists of. I get the answer " An uncomfortable feeling in my stomach and a lot of negative thoughts that make that feeling feel worse" @Toby

Thank you, beautiful illustration

I think when a loved one is terminally ill, there will always be a feeling of sadness. The difference between someone enlightened is that he is not identified with the emotion. He is aware of this emotion but still feels the deep underlying peace of being. It is never easy when something like this happens, my wishes to you. I hope that your loved one finds peace.

@Danielle Ye for some reason it makes me pretty emotional. I will not see a lot of the people I had good relationship with anymore. I will miss my teachers and my good friends, all the times having fun, walking around through the school. Hard for me to let go of these things.

So that just happened, I graduated highschool with amazing results for my exams. Before I started actualizing, meditating, etc. I would be so incredibly happy and excited. Now I just feel nothing, I feel some slight relief but it doesn't really mean anything to me. I don't know if I should see this as a good sign-- I don't get fulfilled by materialistic things anymore-- or as a negative things since it feels like my emotions are not as explosive and grand anymore Anyway to sum it up, I find this reaction from myself pretty weird. I have this culture that is telling me this is something amazing, that should make me really happy. But it doesn't really touch me as like a high meditative state does or being in nature. It feels plain and shallow

@Alii You might be right. I feel sad and alone and I wanted some people to listen to what I had to say. My bad for making this into a nee thread

This is hard, for me too. People say that when you recognize the ultimate truth you. see life more as a game to be played. Something to have fun with. So my guess is, as your awareness grows, so does your ability to feel peace and joy. Which automaticly makes you look at everything less serious and makes you see the peace and joy underlying every situation.

So yesterday I did my first contemplation session. The question I was asking myself was "What is fear?" I noticed during this session that I wanted to ask myself a lot of different questions "How does fear arise?", "What can you do to stop fear from ever entering your system?" , etc Are there basic questions I should keep using for every topic, or is it not bad to ask any question I come up with. Thanks for helping everyone

@Christian Alright thanks, this will help me get started.

@Christian Alright, so when doing "What is fear?" It is best to focus on that one question for the entirety of the 15 min session?

Notice, even when your mind is having a thought diarrhea, awareness is there. How could you recognize that you are having these thoughts if it weren't for awareness? Awareness is always available, even when your mind is jumping up and down and screaming. You just have to ask yourself "Who or what is aware of these thoughts?" If you want more information on this, check out a couple of Rupert Spira's videos. In my opinion he explains it very clear and easy