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Adding another point, what about Taxi Robot Cars, Cooking Robots, etc. that works by themselves? It’s already replacing some humans, it will help for sure the people with disabilities for example, but I guess at this stage, these things has it’s limits that if you’re aware enough, you could use it as a advantage. In the long run, we gotta work with it rather than against it.

As a full time artist, I don’t feel afraid towards AI art, I could see it as another “human being” making his own thing, each human is unique, so a AI can be. I could use AI now to look up reference for my work, sometimes I don’t find the precise reference I was looking for, with that said, use it as a advantage. Yes some people will prefer use AI art to save $$$$, but I guess at this stage is not yet perfectly made so you can use let’s said 50 or so % of what you been looking to create using AI and make it your own twist. Again each human has it’s own style, make that so unique so is not easy to be replicated like others.

I’ll add this important detail but I had a history of porn addiction and masturbation, so when I got really bad on those times as previously sayed, everything got worsen, and you could said I was already a very social guy and still am. I have to talk with people on the art gallery expos in order to expand my connections, had a “ok/good” number of people I had hooked up with (nowadays I have to work more with that, focusing on making a lot of money first and feel independent enough so I can get my first car). Had gotten better tho thanks to the healing process.?????

Experimenting with journaling here, I’ll still keep my deepest secrets elsewhere. So it’s been a month since I started a new job on a health store, I was being late with my rent (3 months to be exact), been stuck on finish some art commissions on time so that is why I look up for a job that I could relate. Since 2019 I been forcefully working on some healing process, if you see my first posts here on the forum, you’ll see that I was being WAY too out of touch with reality and being suicidal. I’m doing WAY a lot better now thanks to ayahuasca and people who guided me well to heal, there is still a lot to work on me tho, forever but, at least less neurotic and more connected with Being than ever before. My plan right now is just to make some money to satisfy some material needs, hopefully I’ll get some vacations or free time during the holidays so I can keep doing a couple of more ceremonies to heal, I’m not in a hurry like at first tho. Will be on the job at least a year, keep doing art freelance also. I hope to inspire others to keep going and show there is hope on our fkn darkest days, you just gotta dive deep inside of you, where all answers lies there. ?????

I’ll add, I was also on deny to have a 2nd job, is been 5 years since around finale 2017 that I decided to be a full time artist and it just sky rocket there, I just had to do some pauses since some disconnection and suicidal episodes in my life back on 2019. On summary, for some reason, when I purchase my flight tickets to continue my art career with a friend on New York (October from 2018), I disconnected from myself. How? Idk still today, it felt like, and this is gonna sound weird ok? It felt like as if “consciousness” disconnected from my head, as if my “awareness or consciousness” was unplug from my mind or brain and I became autopilot, it felt like if you turned the light of your room/awareness off. I roll with it for a month, I used to do a lot of law of attraction, meditation and affirmation everyday (at least mostly) since I was 18 (now I’m 26), and after purchase that flight, I just felt like if a “magnetism of consciousness” was pulled off my mind or head, I know this is weird to explain but that is how it felt. When I came back to my country after a month of try to survive on NY, had to change all my plans, couldn’t met nor live with my friend, I was still feeling the same so I started to work with my natural resources that I know: do camping on nature, do Temazcal, do low doses of some psychedelics, yoga kundalini, etc…NONE of them worked! And I was being vegan even before this happened (vegan since 2018 before the flight, din’t felt any of this before). So on january of 2019 I did for the first time DMT smoked with a few friends. If I recall well, not sure, maybe the person who offered the substance (the setting was on her apartment in front literally from the beach so it was safe, she had some dogs on her room tho), mixed a bit of marihuanna on the DMT. To sum up the trip story, after the 3rd hit, the first thing I saw was some doctors repairing my “mind or head”, or doing some kind of work, as if they understood what was going on and I was having a surgery... I saw all my life like a movie clip that could take infinite path and choices, when the dogs on the room barked I could see them on multiple colors running all over my head I guess. The thing is that by the end of the trip, I saw like my “3rd eye on a purple fire” (like the fire eye character from Lord of the Ring) burning and after the trip. The first few hours of the trip felt “ok”, you feel maybe like a fkn rockstar or at least that is how I felt, but I knew deeply that something wasn’t right, I was acting a bit arrogant I guess or narcissistic. On the around 2nd day, as soon as I woke up, I started to have suicidal thoughts automatically, like, I just woke up like that, and that is where I started to write here on the forum seeking for help and look up for professional help and they told me I was having a severe PTSD episode and depersonalization symptoms, I even started to lose hair by how stressed I was on those conditions! It was very fucked up and distorted all my perception on those times. That same year I started to work with ayahuasca and after my 1st session, the suicidal thoughts stopped, what happened there I think I’ll leave it on another post, but it was HARD tho. ???

Amazing documentary series about Magic Mushroom, LSD, MDMA and Mescaline, based on the book “How to Change your Mind” by Michael Pollan. They show some awesome researches with people that had dealt with PTSD, bipolar disorder, miscarriage, suicidal thoughts, cancer and other situations on a clinical setting and a brief history of the substances, 4 episodes only.

@acidgoofy I see, I have not yet experience 5-MeO so I can’t said much about it. ??

@Leo Gura Depends really I would said, I been in both scenarios where they gave me a too much of ayahuasca (full cup) in this case in a past which wasn’t a good idea for a beginner, but also taking it little by little I also screamed because it got to the point where it opened my “pandora box” of what I had to confront. So screaming and rolling around is gonna depend of specific factors imo, depending the traumas we gotta confront. ??

Oh ok, I see. I read the “I do not” from Leo as “Well I’m not doing pretty well these days” responding the post he did that Connor seems to be doing pretty well these days. P.S.: Sometimes I have to traduce some stuff to spanish so maybe the phrase has a extra meaning that I don’t know, thanks tho.??

Why @Leo Gura?

But Leo?! Jokes aside, I’m not so impress to a degree tbh. Since I was in highschool when I started to see Leo’s content (beginning of his channel) and listening to Eckart Tolle, I din’t vibe with her and still, something felt a bit off, so it happens with other creators. I can apreciate her insights tho, no doubt she has some valuable content, I remember this was when I was learning about chakras and emotions.

I came a long way before taking the vaccine because of my skepticism. I had to look up for a 2nd job so one of the places I was being interviewed it was required being vaccinated and I said “fuck it, what’s the worst that could happen?”. So I went to Walgreens and took it yesterday, today is 2nd day, so far the side effects of yesterday it was a pain on my arm where they put me the shot (after some hours), maybe some tiredness during the day so I took some naps here and there. The pain gotten so bad and annoying by night that it was difficult to sleep on some poses so I was flexible with what I could do and not force force the arm, even if I move it a little it was annoying. I would compare the pain if you had some sexy time hickey in your arm, well a bit harder than that. ???? Today I woke up with less pain in the arm and have a little of headache. I would prefer way a lot to do Kambo but of course it hasn’t been studied if it works for protecting us from such virus, even tho it boosts our immune system like a fucking sky rocket. Either way, we have to move forward in life doing whatever is necessary so, don’t be afraid to take it if you have to for some important choice in your current life, I might review here my 2nd shot in a few weeks. ?? Score: I’ll give it a, nah jaja…

Interesting and great video from Jubilee: I thought I was heterosexual most of my life until I got out of a relationship on 2018 (I was 22), questioned why I felt that I was missing something in my relationships, contemplate for months if I was actually homosexual or bisexual until I got a experience with a man and it clicked for me, that I am bisexual. After that I could allowed myself to accept and love me even more.???? Share any experience if you feel identified. ??

Thanks for share your story @Loba.????? I think I’m in a similar percentage of your potencial attraction, maybe like a 60 female and 40 male, I need more experience with males tho.

+1 Before I touched any psychedelic, my first substance was MDMA (aside of weed and alcohol but they weren’t as life changing in my consciousness as MDMA). I was on like my 2nd year on college and I felt a bit lost and confuse with my life, I know already I wanted to be a artist but still. On summary, I took it close to a beach with a trip sitting friend. The trip started after a few minutes already, visually the colors were getting brighter and brighter, feeling a lot of fear because I din’t know what to expect, it felt literally like if a rocket is about to launch. After 30 or so minutes I was just up there trying to understand what was this feeling of overwhelming pure joy and ecstasy to the point that you want to cry. For the first time in my life (or at least that I remember of), I had this experience of “being outside of my head”. I was walking veery slowly and calming seeing other people dealing with their “struggles”, I felt people’s emotions like never before, I just wanted to hug them with unconditional love and said that I love them (thankgod my friend was there to guide me if not I would hug literally everyone lol, I hugged her and gave her thanks for everything❤️?). I ended sitting on the sand (away of being inside of the beach ofc, I was aware of keeping my distance even tho I felt the water was also giving me her unconditional love) and start crying, and during my crying I felt I started to purge traumas (like visuals inside my head, sort of blurry), and asking “what should I do to improve my life? What do I have to let go?”, and when the answer came, I was so in shock that I din’t wanted to believe it and it was that I have to break up with my girlfriend at the time, my mouth dropped. I had other insights like be more in love with myself, tell myself that I love me and everyone to the point of cry. After that night and sleep like a baby hehe, I still I couldn’t believe that that is what I was supposed to do, but I din’t do it, overtime the relationship became very toxic, I should’ve told her maybe at least a few days after the trip. After that experience I started to meditate more daily, try to reconnect with that experience of be here now in the moment, I had done it only like 4-5 times in my life and I’m getting to my 30s, I prefer psychedelics nowdays. I suggest to ALWAYS have a Test Kit, measure your height or weight and do the math by some number that right now I don’t remember that is gonna be your “enough for a good trip dose”. I belive I learn it from here:

@Gesundheit2 In my experience yes it was a change of perspective but at the same time a change on my baseline of consciousness. Instead of having almost 24/7 suicidal thoughts, you just not having it anymore, so by definition your baseline consciousness had changed. The thoughts of “what if” might be never gone or at least I don’t think about it but, is not as compulsive as before. This is the difference from having a “glitching” computer/mind vs not that much anymore if not none.

@Gesundheit2 I belive it does, someone can change drastically from being suicidal to not being suicidal, it changes overall the baseline of his consciousness, at least on my experience it seems it does, depending also of which one I work with.

@puporing Lovely????❤️¡Ahó!

@Matthew85 Thanks!??

@Danioover9000 Thanks alot, it was done in procreate.

@puporing Thanks!??

@OBEler I was dealing with suicidal thoughts and intense despersonalization symptopms a few years ago and I can confirm this, it helps brother.?? I don’t know anything about psilohuasca so this is new territory for me, gonna check it out. Best of luck for you guys if you trip together. ??❤️

¡Feliz cumpleaños @Leo Gura!????? I did these sort of quickie pieces, different versions. I know there is alot I feel I could improve with more time but, hope you like them (the spiral blush thing is just a reference for infinity/nature).

Nice, let us know how it goes if you feel like. I’ll probably do mushrooms again soon too, is been like 2 years since I took a pause on doing them. I been offered to do it in nature so, most if not all my mushrooms trips had been on my apartment alone, city area.

@puporing Anytime sister, I might not be the best to explain the full details if there is like a scientific one hehe but, I also had eating hours before tripping sometimes but nothing heavy like a banana for example. To my understanding, if the stomach is empty then you can absord whatever you put into it at best with no interruption but that is my take. I feel like I don’t have a problem with having nausea anymore, I don’t know why some people want to avoid it, I know is unpleasant but, if you ever do ayahuasca, kambo or something similar, you’ll see that is a way how the body is cleaning itselfs or so to said, purge maybe traumas, etc., in my pov of course. If you want to avoid it that is ok too but, I think I got to the point that I had purged so much with other tools that I’m ok if I have to do it even on command hehe, sucks at times but, might be needed. ??