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Which education system? American, Chinese, Canadian?

San Pedro, Huachuma, Is much more powerful in a group ceremony under the guidance of shamans. If you can make that happen you'll get a lot more out of it.

Distance yourself from enablers like the internet and your computer. If you go to a healing retreat or meditation retreat where you are in close living quarters with other people and it's impossible to look at porn and or masturbate, you'll notice the urge come back but with a different relationship to it. While in this kind of situation, you'll have a better chance contemplating your relationship to masterbation and porn and hopefully be able to bring back your insights to your normal life.

Pork is the one meat I try to avoid since taking ayahuasca. It's the one meat that absolutely clashes with the medicine, and I feel better not eating it. I try to limit my meat intake regardless, but pork I don't touch. The rule of thumb with food is the more simple the better; the less work your body has to do to break it down and turn it into a human being.

The topic of death has been coming up for me a lot lately and tonight (30th) I did just under 2g of mushrooms I had left over. I had a light trip for the most part, not many visuals if any but did a lot of inquiry about decisions I have to make: life, relationships, things coming up. At what I thought was the end, after I sat down and digested the trip for a bit, I had to pee and I was hungry too. First I smoked a little weed and collected myself. Some time passed and I had a feeling in my gut. I got up to pee and I started getting tunnel vision. Halfway through peeing my pants were slipping off and I fell over peeing on myself in the process. I climbed on the toilet and proceeded to die. I had a feeling I was going to come back from this but I wasn't sure at the time. Vision started becoming starry and I could hear a sound like when I take DMT. I also have some hearing damage in my right ear, I only mention it because I could loudly hear and feel a vein pumping in that ear. The things running through my head were all the things I've heard about death; including a Ram Dass quote. It was like a DMT trip overtaking me, losing vision and sense of existing. If I never did DMT this would have been terrifying, but it was actually kind of comforting once I was in that familiar psychedelic space. This was different though. I enjoyed it more after it was over and I was sure that I wasn't going to die. Eventually I realized I was literally dying on the toilet like Elvis and had to get up to go ride the rest out in my bed. I sat up gradually coming back, hearing was the last thing to return and it took its time. I was hot sweating and then had shivers. I ate a banana after. It's hours later now, technically new years eve here, wide awake at 2AM wanting to document this down.

Happy new year! Oh man... Delicious ?

@Serotoninluv The non discriminatory speech is a great point. Not only does using broad words like "people" deflect the question, or rather the implications of the question, it allows his supporters to draw their own conclusions. He can use this speech with racist, homophobic, etc. Members in the audience without ever needing to directly appeal to them with hateful language. I've also noticed the chopper talk as well. It definitely makes him seem like he's too busy to do a long interview, not too different from the "I can't stay long" technique in pickup.

"America first!" is usually a term I hear from toxic nationalists. We do have a number of issues at home, but the USA has had its hands in global affairs for too long to flip flop now. Take the recent news about Syria. The president made it seem like it was in the country's best interest and that the troops stationed there would come home. What actually happened was redeployment in Saudi Arabia and southern Syria with more troops. It's a nice idea to just stay out of it but it gets tricky when the issue of international trade, resources, and conflicts arise. The issues go much deeper than immigration. North Korea, for example, is not just a US concern. Do you remember when they were testing missiles by shooting them over Japan a few years ago? South America really needs our help as well. Between what's happening to the environment, politically, and economically there's a lot of corruption and devilry the people are struggling with. Those issues dove tail with the crime in central America; the cartel being able to fight off police with military efficiency. Just a few examples, but my point is that we can't look at these problems so myopically.

Special Containment Procedures It's a made up place that has prisoners to test interactions with SCPs, which can be harmless objects or deadly creatures. There's a video game about it And some neat animations It's all creative writing and it goes through a community filter that approves which ones become SCPs. I see it as a beautiful artistic expression of Sci Fi and horror imagination. This really shouldn't be in Government/politics though, maybe a mod can move it somewhere else?

His supporters are unyielding. Anything is possible.

@OmniYoga Leo has a video on concentration that might be helpful. Something like "How to boost your meditation gains" and another on concentration. Lookup how to go into access concentration.

A regular massage helps the muscles sit in a more relaxed and toned way

Kundalini yoga has a technique called "breath of fire" that will help. Qigong is all about moving with your breath (Tai chi is basically the same) Singing will help, even if it's just in the car/shower But the most important thing to keep in mind is that a lot of us breathe in "reverse" Your stomach should inflate like a balloon when you breathe in. Most people breathe the other way around unconsciously. Try this, set a timer throughout your day to repeat. When it goes off, remind yourself to breathe the right way. Once you've trained this up you'll breathe better unconsciously.

My personal rule: do NOT go back to your ex I have always found someone better--even when I thought nobody else could top the last one.

Todd Valintine recently left RSD and went solo. His new YouTube page is more focused on dating; it looks to me like he advanced to stage green and left behind RSD for that reason.

Joe brings up this point in a few of his podcasts. He has debates about deplatforming people. He believes it conflicts with the first amendment. The argument is that private businesses have a right to censor what is on their platform. I think there is some moralizing going on and he wants to give everyone a voice. I don't think he realizes the dangers of this. I've heard Joe Rogan described as a "Social chameleon" before, and that seems to be the case with some of his more controversial episodes.

Here's an organization that is helping with the Amazon https://www.amazonteam.org/

@ttm energy is divided into feminine and masculine. Don't confuse this with gender. Feminine energy is creative and intuitive. Masculine energy is logical analytical. Ayahuasca grows in a swirling shape and Huachuma is very phallic looking.

I recently came back from Ecuador where I did ceremonies with both, and I'm going back to voulenteer in January. The biggest difference is that ayahuasca is an internal experience and San Pedro is more of an external experience. Aya is feminine and Huachuma (San Pedro) is masculine. This is true down to their shape. With Aya I felt as if I was in the presence of an elder feminine spirit, I could "speak" with her, ask her questions,let her guide me through the healing experience. Huachuma is more of an external sensation that takes you out of your head. Visually it was similar to lsd, but the feelings it brings up... It's almost like a truth serum in that whatever your problems are tend to come up, subconscious or otherwise. If you are doing it In a group then you can feel what's going on with them. Pain, love, fear. Their feelings are your feelings. I didn't like Huachuma as much because I'm a bit of an introvert and the stuff makes you anxious and shaky, but it's a powerful medicine. Doing both at once is intense. I posted a trip report if you'd like to go to my page and read more about it. These won't enlighten you, but they will help if you let them. Aho

@Synchronicity you mention "mental toughness" in conservatives. Would emotional intelligence be a more accurate term? Liberals do tend to be more reactive in that sense. You also mention self restraint being pushed into lower consciousness. I see it as more of a foundational thing that is gained at the lower levels and used to advance. It's also important to keep in mind that as in depth of a model as it is, SD is just that; a model. No matter how useful of a model it may be it comes back to the map not being the territory.

Kundalini yoga would be a good start

I got a real good laugh from that, thank you. As for Leo, correct me if I'm wrong but didn't he already make the distinction between having an enlightenment experience vs being enlightened? Not only that but I seem to recall him saying it's possible to fall out of enlightenment.

Get into pickup, at least start talking to girls you don't know in a social setting. If you learned from this you won't go lowering your value again. Get some practice in, look for the "shit tests" and once you've been around the block more you will be ready once another girl like her comes around. Grow from this experience. Good luck.

CBD topical cream is great for when it flares up. Massage helps for prevention, and you can look into Reiki for a metaphysical treatment.

So I made a post about two months ago saying I was going to Ecuador to do ayahuasca. This is what happened... Before I even left the states, two days prior I had a kidney stone. I've been working to break them down and they just started acting up for the first time in about 6 months; I hadn't had them before. So after taking all the necessary steps including an ayahuasca diet, I hopped on the plane and had to pee every hour. I have never been out of the states before and while I was meditating on the plane, I began to get emotional and even started crying a bit. I checked where we were on the gps and we had just left US air space. I feel like I was already connecting to the medicine. The trip down there was good until I landed in Quito. Once we landed I was feeling a bit dehydrated since it's hard to get a good amount of water on a plane, and we had to sit on the runway for what felt like an hour before we could taxi to our gate. I say it felt like an hour because my kidney was acting up and I was in pain; I wasn't keeping track. Once I got out of the plane, before I could even get to security, I couldn't walk. I was trying to ask for some kind of pain killer, but they really don't have much as far as that goes; they didn't even know what Motrin was. Luckily I had a 5 hour layover so I had time to get a double IV in an Ecuadorian airport. Long story short I made it to the retreat just fine. *The medicine* I brought a small journal to write down my experience. I won't go into deep detail since the shamans say the more you talk about it the less effective it is. Food for thought with future trips as well. I will share some things I wrote down though. The first ceremony was so profound. The shamans were amazing, one was a musician with a beautiful voice. We start by praying with tobacco and setting our intentions. Once the medicine was passed around the shamans began playing their Icaros. The taste of ayahuasca is like tart berries and a little earthy; I liked it. I had visuals as soon as the second Icaro started similar to what you would see on DMT. It was so beautiful and as it was happening I was going on an emotional roller coaster ride. I felt like I was in the presence of an elder that I had known for a long time but never got to meet in person. To me, this visual part was an introduction to healing: beauty and pain. While this was happening I could hear people throwing up (purging) around me, which just added to the message. This was different from any other trip I have had. This is more like connecting to a person- a spirit. We got along quite well. It's like I understood her. I know that sounds weird but it really is connecting to a spirit, having brief conversations, and being taken to places. I actually annoyed her at one point. I was over analyzing the things she was doing and eventually she stopped. It was like being totally sober for a few seconds, which was all I needed before saying, "Oh" and releasing control. This was powerful in that I realized this was something I've always done. A powerful tool, but one that frequently got out of hand unknowingly until then. Immediately after I realized what I was doing she resumed. It was like having someone rub your back, stop for a few seconds, and then resuming...not literally of course. Visions are different from visuals. Visuals are pretty and can be powerful, but visions take you somewhere: childhood, an operating table, the jungle, etc. After this first ceremony I asked her not to give me visuals again unless I needed them. I didn't. The real healing takes place unknowingly. Days after, the medicine stays with you doing its thing. They say it stays with you for life in a metaphysical way. The visions were pretty intense. I didn't purge until long after everyone else. I came to the conclusion (after talking to staff and the shamans) that Aya likes to stay with me longer than most people. A lot of people were full of energy and eating ceremonial fruit after the first ceremony. I could barley move let alone eat. I slept in the Maloka that night with several others. Journal entry after the first ceremony- "Purpose and wellness I don't even know where to begin. I feel like I've known mother Aya for years. She is love, wellness, and ultimate wisdom. I understand her. She guides but does not lead. One must dance with mother Aya to understand her. She is love, compassion, and strength. Sometimes she will give the answer, but one must learn to find the answer himself. She is powerful. Respect comes first. Love, gratitude, and understanding build upon a foundation of bravery. She says my purpose is to follow the Eagle and Condor (referring to the Eagle Condor prophecy) and wants me to live in Ecuador. I haven't decided if or when. I have thought about becoming a shaman in the past, but after last night I think this is my purpose. It combines my passions into one thing. Christine (the founder/shaman) said I would make a good one. I must heal before I may heal others. The road ahead will be a long one and difficult, as is the nature of healing. Healing is bravery itself; looking inward and wanting to make a deep change. I have much work ahead." Aya told me this first encounter was mostly identifying things and out next ceremony together would be the intense one. She was right. *San Pedro (Cactus of the Four Winds, Huachuma, Saint Peter’s Cactus)* Ayahuasca is likened to the presence of a grandmother where as San Pedro is compared to a grandfather. This ceremony was first thing in the morning, no food prior, just cactus juice. It didn't taste bad, again I liked it but not as much as ayahuasca, same goes for the overall experience. So this was kind of like LSD in some ways, visually speaking, if a fly whizzed by your head you could see a trail of it for a few seconds. It is stimulating and you get the urge to walk around. It opens you up on an emotional level so you can actualize your experience from the ayahuasca. The shaman would, one by one, have people going on to a rug sitting across from him with the sacred fire in between. I had some father issues come up; I realized I was upset with him for choosing to die from cancer after fighting it so hard. While it was my turn on the rug (which was a cougar pelt) the rain came down so hard he had to walk over to me to talk. The rain made our conversation private from everyone else, quite the experience. There were 4 tobacco sessions in the San Pedro ceremony total. It took the whole day and well into the night. After this ceremony the kidney pain came back. Water carries intentions so the water given to us was ceremonial. I talked to the shaman about this for the future, but that night I had to nurse a pain in the side. One of the volunteers made me a hot pack, and after a lot of water, aspirin, and walking it off, I fell asleep, finally, with that hot pack on my side. Did I mention that the people working here are amazing? So open, loving, and caring. Made a lot of friends there =] *The sweat lodge* This ceremony was my favorite and combined both medicines. It was two watered down doses of San Pedro and one dose of ayahuasca. Everyone enters the brick sweat lodge in their swim wear, enters and exits a certain way. The ceremony was representative of death and rebirth. The sweat lodge was shaped like a womb and at the end of the ceremony you are soaking wet and get wrapped in a blanket like a newborn. After you are 'born' there is a big meal and bonfire. I've never done a wet sauna and this was intense. Once the tobacco went around and the hot stones (glowing hot) were added, the doors (blankets) shut and the whole room went dark. The shamans would sing their icaros and douse the rocks with wet cedar. You start sweating intensely immediately. The power round was the 3rd round of this, after the San Pedro, and ayahuasca was given. I had no visions; it was pitch black. After this round I experienced true gratitude. I remember being on the floor, head to the mat, hands clasped together over my head saying "Thank you...thank you" until English got hard and "Gracias...gracias" became easier. ceremonial food was passed around after and then we moved on to the last round, which was much easier...for me anyway. Coming out into the cold, starlit, Ecuadorian night was truly a re-birthing experience. Newfound gratitude and love in my heart, I had a beautiful night with the rest of the guests. The healing that took place here was amazing. I saw transformations happen that were so profound it was like talking to all new people. The kidney pain stopped after that night. It would return once more after the next San Pedro ceremony and after that nothing up to the present. *The second ayahuasca ceremony* From my journal, "Last night was as intense as Aya had promised. Everyone was under a heavy healing energy that kicked our asses. I purged late like last time near the end of the ceremony. I ate fruit after the ceremony and walked back to the dorm. A final wave hit me alone and sent me on my most intense experience. I saw visions of family history heart disease and cancer risks. I'm going to do a heavy detox back home and really watch my health." After this ceremony I ate a bit and went back to my dorm. There were only a few people there so it worked out well that after I went to bed I had a huge wave hit me unexpectedly. I feel like that happened on purpose. I began to see heavy visions and realized that I had food in my stomach. Not good. She explained to me that in order for her to do work, I have to get my digestive system to stop doing its thing. I asked for the strength to crawl out of bed and out the door. How much you eat is NOT relative to how much you purge. I threw up so much and unlike any other time in my life. It felt like there was such an unimpeded path from stomach to mouth. After that I had to throw up out the other end.... Once that was all done and I was empty, the real healing began. I was taken onto an operating table, shown xrays of myself that don't exist in any kind of dimension we know, and was a little scared at first. I didn't fight though, I made it through without problems. That was so profound that I opted out of the optional extra ceremony. I knew deep down that I didn't need it. *Walk of Power* The last San Pedro ceremony was done with a short hike and the founder leading us. This was the walk of power and it was a beautiful day/night. Once again we ended late at night and went over deep issues that came up. I talked about my health and the shaman assured me that she could see in more ways than one that I was healthy. She recommended I fast if I want to detox. I'm currently one day into a water fast, my first fast ever. That night I had to drink a ton of water before I went to bed because the kidney pain was now hurting me when I peed. I think that meant that it was finally passing. Regardless I have not had an issue since. I know this isn't quite like a typical trip report, and that's because ayahuasca and San Pedro are a ceremony and not just a trip. They are also difficult to explain but I recommend everyone try the medicine at some point in their life. *The integration process* "You are the medicine" is what the shamans told us. One has to be strong to not let slip away all that was gained in these ceremonies. Once I was in El Salvador flying home, I could already feel a huge shift in energy. It's hard coming back to the states after something like that. One thing Christine said was that it is easy to be zen on a mountain top, but the real work is going back into society. So true. I've been dealing with backsliding, ego, and feelings of isolation since I left. This fast I am on has been helping so far, I already feel less of an attachment to my vices and gaining mental clarity. I am planning on going back to do work exchange there next year but I have a lot of personal work to do until then. I have a purpose visualized and a lot of self searching to do. I have been back for about a month or so now trying to put all this down in words so I appreciate you reading this if you made it this far I cant recommend Gaia Sagrada enough to anyone interested in doing this. My experience was probably more painful than most so don't let my kidney stuff scare you away.