ValiantSalvatore

The transparency issues . Insight gone wrong, did not even watch 1 second of Twitch drama. I watched to mutch reality TV while playing halo . American laws are amazing to contemplate .

Bro, even if you come from a TIER 3 perspective, you could be hardcore retroflecting (punishg one's own face) as shadow exist in higher releams of existence. Having Leo partially as a role model caused me a shit hole of issues lol. Because I also don't know sometimes what I am doing and integrating the shadow is painful. Imagine it like Itachi or smth. if you enjoy anime. Accepting dark qualities and checking into shadow work is quiet important. I did like 2-5 years of this even publically anonymously with disgusting concepts and owning them, is not that fun. In that sense the shadow might appear as other in higher self and you are retroflecting yourself. So to speak. For most this is not an reality, it's even insane that someone can point it out, as a consideration. With a bit of though love . There are also more hardcore methods, for example Holotropic Breathwork and Leo has a video on this. I am using the 3-2-1 process as these apparently deals with higher levels I am unsure how holotropic breathwork/shamanic breathing is a thing for TIER 3, to to speak as barely an individual fully functions at that level. As well as for TIER 2 and TIER 1 pathologies at TIER 2 and TIER 1 are very visible. Some also funnel all their energy into it like vultures. So again I get the idea that hate promotes attention and is a currency lol.

That is interesting, that is similar to sharing the principle from Steven Covey. Seek first to understand and then to be understood, which is quiet difficult in practice, as you consistently make the effort to understand the perspective of another person as long and until they feel understood. Asking questions promoting empathy and re-stating the experience of the other person in one's own words, until the other person feels understood. Ironically, many don't even yearn for the empathy they just appreciate the ego validation lol, so I for sure can relate as sort of an "empath" and beign under constant attack of "wolves in sheep clothing", as vengance is an interesting topic in itself. Funnily enough I just read this which gave me a bit insight into the game of not playing a game, as this game also exists... and I am pretty good at that . https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cynicism_(contemporary) Definitely going with the flow can be scary because of the "self" as well as if others parts "lower selves" arise from a for example TIER 3 perspective there are certainly shadows and personality/ego is arising, some are so "stupid" and consistently test that to validate their ego games. It's a good feedback to see for oneself where one is at imo. That's that! It's funny I never realized how far energy could go in terms of attention, and I like it that it comes to my awareness thanks to you! This is what I notice a lot so positive energy and positive action are certainly important and then "haters" basically arise to unit and band against even the positive agenda. Which is incredible to witness, especially in a weak position. Expressing hate in a creative way (giving my best to change some attitudes) can help to showcase and display discreprancies, this is why I enjoy a lot of rap music, although sometimes these messages are to much and sometimes they do alleviate a lot of pain paradoxically, as it helps me to relate to a reality that is basically projected upon me and partially lived. Ego's certainly love beign hated, hate is a great motivator the concept of mastery also goes into depth of using this as a motviator to overcome obstacles, although you most likely only get a dopamine kick for a phasic dopamine reward to overcome obstacles like mice . Pun intended. So, unsure hope this helps to disambiguate the tension in the thread. There ceratainly is a way to communicate more effectively and holistically, it's a matter of practice and even AQAL. I mean why are business letters written in such a formal way? To disambiguate tensions.. politics are ridiculous, although games "have" to be played ultimately imo. The game of no game is also a game, that is why I love Alan Watts so much as a philosophy , even in that experience you can most likely find meaning etc. etc. I don't think he is the best role model though lol. Hope this gives some clarity. Doing my best to evolve currently, although I am basically pissed out 99.9% of the time in my existence .

The perspective of drives might help to distinguish and disambiguate the idea of ego. Survival as a perspective is a very beige type perspective and the lowest and earlierst starting form of human evolution Then you basically have "survival" as a perspective up to holistic qualities at stage turquoise where embodyment is visable and palpable especially, when meet at an eye-level in terms of capabillity. Many force themselves into a fear morality instead of beign couragous and breaking boundaries, even if in the end it might turn out wrong. Anyway, this is sort of my two cents for the whole thread. Somehow the topic of gaslighting turned into one of my usual threads . Checking out SD theory might explain the stuff in a more holistic manner, so you might find more of what you are looking for in terms of ego. Just attacking ego and mentioning ego and forcing the ego of other to arise, is not imo a very prolific way of creating more "god-realized experiences" though love at one point is to much, and it's fully stage red concept that is heavily over-used imo, from a more "hyper-masculine" reality. Which I am not denying... So, yeah there is that . My natural brain activations, also seemingly make me more ego-aware, yet let's see if the jelly spirit comes back . Guilt could also be a hot-topic to talk about. Shame simply is a social modulator...

I did not read the entire post nor do I have currently the time to fully read it although I'd love to! The simplest answer that I can find it the following what helped me: Awarness is auto-corrective the more conscious I become the more automated my responses are to "stuff" that is toxic like gaslighting The more integration of my shadow that I am doing the more I am aware of these phenomena appearing in my consciouness/mind The more I notice people are attempting to act on good inentions and are causing harm, the more I am inclined to forgive them if possible! The more I notice sentences and wordings that caus gaslighting in simple terms any You: (non-dialogical statemnet). You're hurting me. You're so sensetive. You're so angry all the time. You're so XXXX. Is a lack of responsibility of accepting one's own emotion. The solution is stating I statements like 'I am hurt and angry because of how I was treated in our last conversation". " I am offended by your comments of depciting me as an over-sensetive cry-baby". Is a more monological way of dealing with "power" issues and gaslighting. As it's an attempt imo to gain control over an agenda in a toxic way. A technique also to be more assertive is negative inquiry to then ask. What is it about my fishing on Sunday that seems to disturbing to you? As assertivness is a healthy quality to develop and make this a broken record! Keep saying that until there is a definite and clear answer. This can break the cycle, I am not an expert, assertivness and power disambiguation are two techniques that are quiet effective. Also non-judgement and in that sense again "awareness/consciouness is auto-corrective" as the !YOU! -> does not retroflect on the !YOU!. So there is no eternal self-flagellation from the self called other?! Hope this makes sense. The most and easiest answer is 99.9% of humans are incapeable of holding monolgocial power -> dialogical power -> translogical power: Making I statements -> monological (no blame) Making we statements not YOU statements -> co-operation /dialogical power in 2'person with as many "persons" that are a second person... We could be more aware of our intentions to not sabotage our relationship. Our relationship seems like it's bleeding I feel very hurt about it. I would like us to re-connect and I suggest we can look into topic X together, so our relationship could flourish more! etc. etc. Making trans-logical statements and experiences -> Be non-judging loving, let go of power and agenda, accept the big picture of the conversation. A statement that disambiguates a lot of power for me is: That might be. That might be true. That very well may be. Certainly, although ultimitately I do not know. It's tricky I did a course online on how to disambiguate power. Some cling very well to it and I notice focusing on Truth > Power.

It's not discussed in academia/business sectors as much. Therefore the knowledge and implementation of it is a huge hurdle. Morals and emotions are imo even a larger issue than most other lines if development. Most are also lazy and bitch and moan about their situation, without having a significant reason and some are just very hardcore and bulldoze their development. Being consistent is crucial, I am a development addict, yet have internal issues. Most of the ppl here, could read and watch the videos and books again to have a bit more of a intuitive discussion instead of overly relying on unconscious imprints. Survival does not determine development it's an aspect of development and survival is uplifted through that. Maslow and Graves are very important to understand personal psychology and grow as a human being. Also shadow work tremendously and just life-long learning in generell. Most ppl here have a function in the grand scheme of life and SD can have a huge impact in awareness of pitfalls and working points to grow upon. A poor homeless man without money could be stage turquoise as a human, yet his life conditions and environment might not be there. This is possible as development can regress during stress etc./ life circumstances. The larger issue is having the balls to implement this stuff at a high leverage point as well as to create a structure of one's own that integrates these values. Values determine internal behaviour and orientation. Also Interpretations of these..

Spiral dynamics is simply the value line of development. That is the most simple way to explain it. Spiral dynamics is not cognitive development... unfortunately it would partially be IQ as well as the abillity to take perspective, in terms of depth and span... if that makes sense and my memory is correct. Can recommend Kosmic Consciouness audiobook from Ken Wilber he explains 99.9% of the stuff there. I loved this audiobook to death pretty much on every journey I undertook... https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spiral_Dynamics

Maybe maybe not . At least not yet. Doing a masters in applied computer science...hope it will go well!

As they are interested in cross-paradigmatic understanding and holism mostly. That is what I would say .

I fall into the same trap, that most painful and obvious solution is to embrace a creator/artists mindset and accept that there are obstacles and challenges and see it as growth opportunity. Setbacks are inevitable. This is in a nutshell my personal experience. I struggle with this also from time to time.

The spiritual line is endless, so and all of this stuff is so complicated. You can most likely tell when to take the debate and not. I stopped arguing after seeing Leo's blog why debates don't work. Psychdelics for example are an Orange/Green phenomena and Green/Orange when reading about psychedelics it's nothing very new imo. Just to gather and harness the experiences of it is the new stuff. Most lack proper moral contemplations about all-beings and love for example which get's for me personally close to total ego dissolvement, altough. I do have issues at lower practical stages out of decisions I made and high goals/visions. I dunno at best reading and watching the videos doing the work. Meditation/Psychcedelics/Shadow Work etc. is all quiet rough. Also many are different. I have a strong stage green self-expressive drive that I need to take care of before I can self-actualize for example. That is why I journal a lot, a differnt form of art gives me more leverage to self-actualize. All of these theories build an AQAL building TOE's and AQAL's is highly important imo... otherwise you are not really TIER2. Everyone can be enlightened even at stage beige/red/blue/purple. As the spiritual line is endless. I meet enough drug lords to tell the difference till now . Leo even made an entire playlist: (1/11) Technical clarity is sort of an issue. As so much of this stuff is the same... This episode is especially good, even just as a small reminder etc. Many here now are legit imo here. Language for example is it's own game. etc. etc.

Agree! I barely watch him as I don't like him personally as he does not push himself to Tier3 like most psychologits and westerners and for example Freud was afraid of eastern philosophy and stuff. I would not argue he is at full TQ as I feel a lot of rest/peace states personally when I feel like I am fully at TQ from a personal experience (TQ = turquoise..). I could watch and learn more from him, although I find Leo to be for example of higher development even with shadow etc. Sometimes I feel when I watched Schmachtenberger at the past, when all of this JP stuff happend he functioned more from a lean functional emotional self, that cares about epistomology and sharing of information and finding global solutions sort of. That was my impression I barely watch him, as have a lot of hickups in blue/orange stages. As I had a very very Green upbringing. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2br1K6V6l3kmeBhbEugF6w/videos This channel is also good for a direct practical explanation that shows sort of how "normal" teal is some of the members don't even think they are there, as it's so difficult to proove at and there is the steady bias of burden of proof.

It's rare to have a forum that has potentially so many highly developed people, like compare from a lower perspective how many lower/earlier stages you meet. At best you find high Greens who are open and loving and might even excell at the emotional line at TQ, yet lack moral development at TQ. Where I also have issues as points of reference besides Wilber.

When doing the courses, there are tell-tale signs although it's difficult to explain, when nobody does the courses, as there barely is any research and scientifc modern agenda, reduces most things to scientific studies. So there is always the burden of proof... Some are there and don't even know it. That is the joke. The bigger issue is integration and creating structures for growth. That is sort of the real work of Tier2 as well as many coaches/life coaches/software engineers work at Teal. Although with mostly low moral/emotional development.

For a good review check this: https://spiraldynamicsintegral.nl/en/turquoise/ https://spiraldynamicsintegral.nl/en/yellow/ As well as you can buy the course on Integral life to go through all the stages. Tier2 mosty called Teal takes a lot of study and work to integrate. I've been listening for it and practicing it for years with even small courses on InsightTimer offered by Ken Wilber. Reading almost all Wilbers and doing the work. IMO even when I meet integral people at integral life who are TIER2. It's not easy to detect. For example I spiral down the most when I have physical and mental issues, when I exercise and work regularly and sleep regularly I function highly at TQ as an more symbol aware individual referencing a bit of snippet knowledge from Susan-Cook-Greuters Ego-Development Model. Leo has a video on this!!! Must watch almost!! I notice how important it is to study it in more detail. I did the full course on integral life and did every exercise besides the stage turqouise one and I notice for example. As the three main lines that dictate as far as I know full Tier2 are: cognitive line of development, emotional line of development and moral line of development. (check kosmic consciouness for a reference book/audiobook by Wilber). I for example struggle with a Yellow/Turqouise moral and emotional line as there are not many individual emobdying it. Values and Needs are even seperate... if you want to get technical. Although they are part of AQAL Schamchtenberge is a good example of fully TQ at the cognitive and moral line, I doubt his emotional development. Seen other masters who are way way above him see Peter Ralston for example as a fully living Tier 3 individual. As soon as you hit stream entry you basically are functioning at TIER3. Tier2 is pretty low of a devleopment imo, it's not that hard anymore. At least that is my opinion without studying it like a rigid academic, although I studied and did enough to tell. I am at Teal and sometimes broken Teal because of life circumstances. The two links above are a good reference. Most forget that all of the stages are online... so they only focus on ego instead of seeing through the ego! As Tier2 is not egoless it's highly ego-aware! That is an important distinction. Most here are most likely currently low-high Yellow as the rational "dogmatic/scientific reductionistic" oranges somehow left the forum. After years of beign here... check my profile I can tell mostly who is at a high functioning stage, although it get's confusing even after having done the courses. Ken Wilber is at Tier3 -> First ego-less stage coral/indigo + morals + emotional line = Full Tier3 according to Wilber criteria. No idea what Leo thinks about this topic... Obviously, appealing to authorities. Cook-Greuter is great in terms of making a scientific study of Tier1 and Tier2. Although my science is rather rusty currently... Even if you did the development it's revoke able to a degree according to Wilber at least. So when you did the work and fall of you horse, you can climb back up. There are regression within the model explained.. claiming anything is an issue. See how Leo reaches alien intelligence and the next one comes. OMFG I reached it too, trust people by their actions mostly.. not their words imo. I dunno how many people I corrected here about this topic.... https://integrallife.com/glossary/third-tier/ Focusing on third3 would do better than focusing on Tier2. Tier2 is quiet shallow imo after meeting some and many of them as well as enlightend masters face to face. Leo is doing fantastic work, although it's extremely difficult to embody, and stuff changes all the time. My personal opinion I think Schmachtenberger is a pussy because he does not push himself to Tier3. and because he wears a German surname for a little bit of bias.

I like it! Never read about him till now! It's similar to Ken Wilbers integral thinking and partial truth recognition in a more holonic sense I like it!

100% agree just skimming and listening to audiobooks etc. About western philosophy and hearing it in a nutshel, it's close to dead almost if there is not an integration of topics like matter and energy, that are excluded 99.9% of the time in academic topics. As it basically is a hot topic imo. I go to Wikipedia some philosophers and mathematicians even though I am not fluent in them. Like IIRC Euclid and Heracleitus are just insane sources of life philosophy imo. I like Marc Aurel also for example and Lao Tzu in terms of contemplating when I find the time to do it currently... Yeah, I feel this is missing and to be honest as a black/white person a lot of humans project this sort of hope towards me in Europe and even when I have psychdelic experiences, I'd be seen as a loon as most cohere to a fear moral instead of looking at this stuff from a couragous viewpoint with more positivity and practical implementation. Most dismiss and ridcule stuff like this, yet it also takes serious work. So I see the seemingly paradoxical nature... Same mystecism should be called philosohpy applied as for example an integrative practical approach imo! Yeah that sounds to me very holistic as I lack the conceptual framework of philosophies I tried for example on Wikipedia to remember all of the technical terms, and it was simply to much without serious study and then you can easily get lost. What would be cool is to have an array of concepts explained to contemplate about as many other majors are fundamentally lost in the chaos of survival. Then Leo says for example 1h of meditation or psychdelics/yoga/kriya yoga is way better than philosophy and I can see why, it takes thousands of hours to understand this even tiny bits and pieces. This is why I like for example Ralston and Alan Watts as they give you a living version of most of these philosohpies even when you never read them.

Sounds almost like me . It's not holistic enough, there are a few professors who give you a sense of holism after watching Leo's video about holism, and they interconnect stuff, although this was at a polytechnic... now it's way to open and most of them don't make an effort like Lex Fridman and/or Huberman to share their research for consumers and create a plattform to be more integrative and functional at Yellow, so to speak and value discussions and sharing information highly as lean and functional as possible even with long videos. A lecture has so much technical depth. Also the pressure to not develop yourself and just offer stuff, it's a huge circle jerk of development. For example we have great offers, yet it's not easy to support yourself financially and then take part in that offer, for example Yoga/Meditation/Research programm etc. Then billions of distractions, most are to nihilistic and a nihilistic sort of postmodern thinking is pervasive in academia it has advantages of not taking stuff and failure so seriously and move on with life, yet it lacks meaning. I miss a Prof. like Leo that I had similar, as he was more practically concerned... and a perv... with the fundamental integration of knowledge into ones life. Most yearn for comfort/security and emotional support and higher earnings, so philosophy itself is quiet exotic imo. Although I feel there is space. There is a misunderstanding of the individual functioning as a paradigm. I'd stll like to know even now besides Leo's pure philosophy, which is way to advanced to beginn with. What is practical philosophy and how can it help me for example make practical steps in my life that produce comfort/security/financial freedom. It's fine having partial truths and making mistakes, this is what I dislike partially about academia most are so hyper-focused on their personal absolute truths. I dunno it's tricky I don't know a solution besides chopping philosohpy down to an applied version of it and to share and life by itself. Usually the critiques imo are good for example reading about anarchy gave me insights into how stage purple societies work. I also find it odd, that usually only 90% of philosohpy is attributed to the west and not the east and there barely is anyone integrating both like Daosim etc. similar to Alan Watts and or even Shinzen Young in their own works. For example I prefer Alan Watts as an applied philosopher even if his personal life was quiet odd, he gives a lot of pointers. Most westernes are stuck in their heads and the east is adopting that attittude of survival imo. There is no spirit in philosophy which sort of sucks. I am not an expert this is my opinion. For example we have a toasmasters programm for 13€ which is cheap... most don't see the value of personal development imo and only care about survival. So everything goes and communication flies out of the window as it's often my way or the highway at one point even though there is more community etc. Anyway this is my opinion...

Without diving into 10x detail I appreciate the rant lol, when talking so some Artist and A.I art the aesthetic of intelligence and beauty is certainly trainable. So I can see why you'd rate it lower. I was simply blown away by IT's harmonic halo type holonic seeming expression. I don't know all to many art concepts and I only like highly-modernized tech art and steampunk stuff, can be very cool. I hope A.I can be used to deconstruct and! create new ways in which higher needs and intuitions are valued. I am also tired of the narccecism in media. It is slowly fällig spart imo, with a lot of game changer spiritual people displaying healthy "narccism" as narccism itself is not as bad, yet the clinical compulsion is. An artist/creator world is certainly painful. I am more optimistic that we can use this with artistic concepts and create a way to emperically integrate socital changes and represent an accurate reflection. So ppl reflect about existence and think for themselves. Applying some holistic optimism(Trust mehr it's not easy lol) and focusing on providing better and more options for self-transendence and causing less toxic viruses and pip dreams is important. Especially waking up the masses to higher levels of reality is and seems daunting! 100%! I certainly enjoy Midjourney style if this is a thing. Typing from phone, sorry for typos.

No, omg I wanna see it . If you can share I'd appreciate it. Just made an account here, no idea what can be done in the near future. https://beta.openai.com/examples https://creator.nightcafe.studio/ Way to complicated right now to do it as a beginner .

There are tests for neoteny features as far as I know where you can detect if a person regardless of male/female is attracted to people with neoteny features aka also a lot of female survival. IIRC this was from an audiobook sex at dawn and some cultures orgistically stimulate their children because they think it's healthy and or was healthy for mentioning the source of my information. Might be a dark and taboo topic, yet it's crazy when you consider it with just open-mindedness etc. Although this requires legit science and not whacko research without any responsibillity so to speak, as these topics get easily abused and out of hand. I was suprised to learn of this and this is sort of from loose ends of my memory. https://www.sciencedirect.com/topics/medicine-and-dentistry/neoteny#:~:text=Neotenous features were said to,attractive in cross-cultural studies. The point is without AQAL it's not easy to discuss these things as it's morally wrong to sleep with minors. I mean hell as far as I know men can be attracted to an hourglass silhouette on the wall.

No idea what happend it was intersting to me that he interviewed pornstars (Mr Giri) and to see their psyche as he seemed like a guy interested in mental things and mindsets, I think he had XXXTentacion also on there or some podcasts if I am not confusing. So for some dark-media shit it was kinda cool, no idea some "fear virgins" just spam report out of hate. I dunno don't like the idea that he is beign cancled as he seemed like a "low profanity sort interested in the depth of the jungle" kinda guy. In a sense it's a form of snobery and classism lol. imo

Is there a good way to use the endocannabinoid system? I just read an article today that it's also in our ANS and not only in the brain receptors? What are natural agonists for BDNF and NGF? I would eat more nuts now and natural sugars, as I seem to be able to withstand a lot of sugar without receiving drawbacks. I love apples for example blueberries, strawberries, cashews, honey, hazelnut etc. I bought an audiobook about alkaline foods, so I'd like to go more into that direction for now. I could listen to it, when I fall asleep.... Any good foods for studying long-hours I can instantly integrate into my diet? I eat a lot of bio creme cheese and salmon and I have no idea what other fishs for example are good besides Tuna, as I am a newb at eating see creatures lol.

I found a more natural solution to clearing symptoms of depression like exercises and eating whole-grained foods and taking care of my dopamine levels, although some of my lectures currently are so hard, I am drinking loads of coffee. As I still have some issues with suicidal feelings and I noticed that healthy eating (although can be fking expensive), is one key aspect to staying mentally healthy. How can I naturally create a more phasic dopamine drive? Is coffee that bad when it keeps me of suicidal feelings, as this is neccessary otherwise so much trauma is coming up I sometimes can't focus and the tonic dopamine drives. I sometimes crave sugar and heavy dopamine giving substances like coffee and marijuhana although I cold turkey quitted marijuhana, I can use music as a dopamine drive and I usually dance a bit in my room, although it feels embarrassing as I often have a camera on and I never danced in my room to my music. To create some phasic dopamine drive, just beign "hardcore" and doing push-ups etc. can be boring. Any idea on what foods I can use in my diet? I have a larger cooking arsenal now and some ideas around health any input is appreciated! I never thought dopamine would play such a huge role. TLDR; Questions: I believe I have a low base dopamine drive (I crave it a lot) How can I appreciate my tonic dopamine drives more? How can I naturally create a more phasic dopamine drive? How can I prevent dopamine craves, as I often crave huge surges of dopamine and then crash, what can I do including ideas for exercise? Any ideas for studying? I am using a 7 blend mushroom coffee for some BDNF and NGF factors, I am not an expert yet at biology, I appreciate any health tip as well as technical advice! What I eat mostly organic brands: Whole-grained everything! Cream-cheese Salmon Chicken of any sorts(higher quality) Apples Bio-Yoghurt Nuts: Cashew mostly Spinnach (from freezer) Legmues/Vegetables: also from freezer (high quality etc.) Chicken Blueberries Strawberries I have the issue of beign injured and boredom. Can food counter-act boredom lol, I really do not like eating. Any mindset tips that helped you to appreciate food more and you stayed with your health goals etc? Mineralwater seems to help me a lot sometimes, any tips with drinks besides drinking water?

@Michael569 Yeah, I can eat a lot and usually I exercise and I would approx eat 4-5 meals a day (3 "big meals" ideally), which can be bothersome to others, as I seem like a glutton although my body.(more vatta-dosha-dosha-vatta in case these papers interest you fire/wind mesmomorphic for a bit of armchair philosohpy with science I bet) I dunno I have issues with my sex drive as when I exercise everything is healthy as I naturally crave sex a lot and I sort of feel it's energy mostly in a meditative way as long as it does not bother others to much, yet I cancled my gym membership and foused on buying utensiles for studying, so I have to wait. As I am changing gyms. I never thought I have to go through such hell and I am still stuck, needing to operate my knee. So my goal was to focus on eating joint friendly food. Yes, I avoid negative feelings partially with coffee as my bodies ANS is triggered heavily because of my scar basically at every in and out breath. For example during a panic attack I cried for my mother and remembered stuff, where I was in the hospital as a child as I was operated at birth, and I had to go ther for post-examinations. It was one of the top clinics. Even now when I breath normally I feel a lot of love my mother has provided my during that age and it makes me cry and remember a lot of good "inner child" experiences... The rush in dopamine definitely helps with suicidal feelings and I simply can't exercise as much as I crave intense exercise. I do some push-ups here and there. So I notice what feels good! Doing my best definitely going to push some now! Subjectively I feel more resillent when I drink mushroom coffee and mix it in my food and, especially when I mix it (did it once so far) I notice how sort of the placebo effects kicks in I dunno I tested some supplements, I like organic mushroom powders so far. With Lions mane, reishi and other mushrooms that are typically common, although they are farmed organically. As far as I can tell. I wrote down my goal in a holistic health book to feel more whole and to train holistically, I skimmed the book. Let's say I presume my neurons can draw more loose ends and tie them? As I think mushrooms are more brain focused and nervous system focused. My vision is consistently alternating, so I don't have a fixed position currently, as I don't find a functional way to create and even print out my vision and correct some mistakes. I definitely avoid hard work, as I noticed not having a wu-wei mindset doing what you love can kill you with burn-out I love working a lot up to 12h a day even, if you include exercises and I do breaks and chill and stuff, the point is my life is sort of dwindling because of injuries and mental health issues. Coffee I drink it a lot as hunger subsides, buying a lot of crackers and snacks that are healthy and whole, I feel over-stimulated as I am not stimulated enough and I notice the drawbacks hard from dropping coffee, even marijuhana currently. With exercise this stuff get's out of my pheremon system?... quiet quickly if my intution is correct. Walking meditation is great to enjoy more tonic dopamine drives, I crave and yearn for knowing a lot and I like meditating on headphones. As a trigger practice, so I am unsure sometimes. Yeah, this is painful although my ears are bombared with music in the gym mostly, in nature it's a bit harder as I like to train outside sometimes without headphones and I focus, my workouts are usally also faster done. In that seems I seem to be doing good, sometimes I am to good at self-deception it seems... found some new ideas also in my holistic health book! Thanks for answering! Yes, a have a variable type diet (equatorial and polar are the other) so I usually feel apparently a lot what I eat, eating salmon/tuna/(chicken if good meat), cheese without pastorized milk. I often am in a caloric deficiet, as I could eat for 50€ a day with my body size, and it's annyoing I already eat whole grains and mix breed into my morning eggs with salmon to have more glykogen? and glucose? available... eating fruits and yoghurt in between can be an issue, so I would need some ideas, although I have to structurally integrate some stuff first I think. Hope this semi-confused post is okay, for example I ate two hands full of whole grain spaghetti with cheese and pork, as sometimes eating pork? Somehow feels good? I dunno I feel more calm and satiated. Red meat I somehow don't like that much anymore. I seem to have issues with my electromagnetic field if we can get "wu-wu" like that, yet I dunno. I leave the post at that ?, hope there is some possible feedback for this still not integrated fully information&data hell.