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Thanks for asking. Main challenge recently: Not knowing if I'm actually getting the chemical that I got... Or not laced with other things. When it's in a powder... Right now I am seriously questioning what I got since my last post of near death experience from supposed "5-meo-dmt" as I tried it again on very low dose, it gave no expanded consciousness whatsoever and just made me shaky as hell and laid out. In general: Currently I don't feel the need for psychedelics as much or for some time since my series of awakenings from mushrooms. My last mushroom trip things have merged..the realization that my baseline consciousness is no longer differentiable from the heightened consciousness (at least on that one). I feel that now I have just as much clarity and view things fairly accurately when off of psychedelics, feel just as deeply, without some of the side effects and distortions/exaggeration that happens sometimes while on trips. I am extremely sensitive to my environment as well (eg, how conscious it is) and trips tend to amplify the shit out of this... So it's a way for me to be a bit more self-loving and not overextend/overwhelm as I already carry some weight off of trips. (I've got enough to chew so to speak). Some things I may still want to experience on mushrooms is samadhi states. Embodiment is more where I'm working on and expanding my "baseline consciousness". This is good news for me personally.. though I can see how some may view it as, but I'm just sharing honestly.

Daww.. thanks @Razard86.

welcome. Definitely a very loving kind of presence. And synchronicities are happening all over the place with the messaging.. around aligning with universal consciousness.

That's the child-like wonder you're re-discovering ... this time, without the "ignorance".

Wonderful... glad you got to experience that. Had similar ones also.. The love was inside you all along.

@Devin I hear you. That kinda thing takes maturity, prob harder to find in younger women who are just starting out and looking for some safety/security. Feelings kinda develop naturally too... Ultimately no perfect solution to that, can't control how others feel about things. Communication helps. Just communicate clearly and the rest isn't up to you how others decide to see you.

This guy got fired coz he was "too smart" ...

@Elton Ok yeah that makes sense. Yeah it was a really good topic to zoom in and expand on. People don't get this kind of message elsewhere usually. And lot of progress is made through good, timely decisions, and taking responsibility for oneself. Glad that it gave you more clarity!

@Elton Not making fun just saying it has similar messages to some other motivational speeches in the past, to get you do the work, just interesting that this one stood out so much more for you.. maybe it's the integration of spirituality and living as the finite self aspects. I apologize that it came off that way, sometimes I have a bit too much fun with posting... trigger-happy.

LOL he has been making some motivational ones since the beginning. Maybe you missed them... Similar flavors just not put in those exact words. ? All the best!

Based on a bunch of assumptions is all I'm saying, that weren't true to what I was sharing. I didn't even meet these guys, and I don't even want fwb in the first place. All I'm trying to say is people change their mind all the time. And sometimes don't know themselves.

Lol way to turn this into a bunch of assumptions.

@Loving Radiance Problem with that line of thinking is that this is her "therapist" not some friend. A good healthy/productive therapy relationship is not to be treated lightly because you share a lot of information that you might not just share with anyone. A professional should simply know better in this case when she hears that voicemail. And her response being that dismissive is not okay for someone getting paid to do this work. It's a very obvious conflict of interest case. And a professional would try to refrain from that kind of thing. Like maybe even going as far as shooting OP's idea of suggesting to "help her friend" down in the first place, being able to forsee problems with that ahead of time, for the sake of creating a safe space for OP. This speaks to either lack of experience/training or ethics. It's all good in the end really... Helps people see the potential limitations of therapy.

I don't know about majority... Some seem very conflicted/confused to me. I sense alot of fear of getting hurt/rejected. There are literally guys who say they want fwb but then tell me they want "love" within the same week. And the "feminine" has a say in this too dammit.

Ahaha yeah saw that one. They're babies forever. ?

Found out about this when I was researching about aquarium pets..

Why not embrace some of that? Do you really want the complete opposite... Someone with no attachment to you whatsoever? There are things you can say to lead them to the kind of connection you want, but also appreciate what you have too.

He's a pretty solid resource. I think I just got my fill coz I get his stance and how he approaches current events. Similar with lot of other progressives.

@Devin that's what I meant. Sometimes many lifetimes later for example.

There's a kind of "seriousness" to humor you could say. Because good humor is an embodiment of love and high consciousness, it takes discipline (like to shift yourself to view things in a light-hearted way). It's a kind of leadership, to uplift the spirits around you.

@King Merk you're welcome!

Truth prevails no matter how "buried" they might be in this moment.

Also watch out for the therapist attempting to make you feel sick longer when you're just having a pretty normal proper reaction (like saying "working on trust issues" in this case when clearly she's the one violating that trust). This is a dynamic to keep you going as well even though you may no longer need as much therapy (knowing this takes some self awareness). It can be pretty sneaky. I find especially the "good ones" can sneak this in there when you have an issue with something they're doing. They have alot of power because of how vulnerable you are with them and can easily take advantage of their authority. The more considerate thing for her to do would've been to at least ask you if you would be okay with them talking. Don't be too surprised if one of your therapists by the end of it you come to the realization.."just who was I talking with there?". It doesn't matter even if they're licensed. A good actor can act good for an hour for $150-$200 an hour. It tends to be that the more conscious ones charge less. I generally advise people to use therapy as a peripheral not a primary. The primary healing is in your hands and once you take that authority and responsibility it'll be a lot easier to part ways. It can still be very hard but ultimately the therapy is not a sustainable long term solution. And... we don't know your therapist, I just share bit of my experience to soften the blow if it does happen to you. Trust your gut feelings on it. All the best with it.