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It doesn't give me the physical problems (me guessing dose is a lot lower) like it does otherwise....much much more gentle, not strong and if you're looking for that it wouldn't be considered a good value per dollar.

I feel like the Japanese are more in touch with spirit and the depth of their being despite still having alot of social problems. Based on their anime, music, films, the way food is consumed, mannerisms like not overly relying on language, etc.. they're also more appreciative of classical music. Their world seem to be transforming more and more into art which is synonymous with Beauty. The French comes to mind in terms of open-mindedness...

@Cammy yes depends on your sensitivity but 1g was pretty powerful for me..

I don't mean the guy, I mean when a guy talks on and on about sex it's like he's talking to a sex doll who has no other dimensions to them, (the girl might feel like a dumb animal). And also yeah the mystery of it is lost... Sprinkles works best ;).

There's more ofc but "getting started" seems to be sufficient. Maybe just get the Awakening course when it comes out.

@NoSelfSelf You can also embrace being a shapeshifter depending on the situation to an extent or another... I mean not many options, we're all actors when facing egos, just some realize it some don't. Just have fun with acting when you can't be "yourself" ! Actually wait... why can't you just be yourself anyway? Well "yourself" is kinda infinite so the options are endless... but you might have some natural tendencies.

Book: Book of not Knowing by Peter Ralston. Deconstruct all your beliefs and conditioning (while still maintaining ability to function..), notice what is being constructed in your awareness (and in others) when you're going about your day. That paves the way for self-realization..

Because you're trying to wake yourself up and those things are all leading you to it.

You're attracted to what you're attracted to.. can't really force that..

It's not even about creepiness, just lacking substance and depth I'd say.. like.. that's the only thing you can talk about or see value in, in relation to the other. It makes you feel like you're just some dumb animal. Edit: it really really depends on how you're talking about it and whether there's already chemistry or not, and whether that's the entire conversation or just sprinkles.. basically if no chemistry it becomes creepy.. and the challenge would be to gauge that/receptivity.

Maybe you need to talk to someone? It sounds like alot of pent up feelings to me... Sometimes it helps to just talk to someone (ie, therapist, a friend..). Psychedelics can be crazy powerful I would do low dose to start. And I didn't touch it until I was done with therapy and self healing, deconstructing etc..but everyone has different comfort zones. Some people combine psyc with therapy..

@Juressic yeah if you imagine it you will and it'll feel like it's "real", but it's still imaginary.

Hmm... I liked the kitty with yarn...

Even 5 mg can be too much depending on your sensitivity, health condition, the purity of the substance, the time of the day. Just saying it really can wildly vary. I think I am extra sensitive to it... still recovering from chest pains from a 4mg one 2 nights ago.

@Jonsey Hey hope you're doing okay. If you need money you need money, no need to moralize about it.. I see too many falling into the opposite trap of trying to be spiritual with money when they do just need more savings in their bank account and some basic things. There's nothing wrong with satisfying material needs/desires. Best of luck at your new job.

Which dmt? Yeah low dose is best to see how you react.. sensitivity can wildly vary.

@Michael Jackson there’s some truth in what he says.. I was really feeling I’m not this avatar anymore and “transcended” and returned “home” after some early trips. But you kinda have to hide and pretend to keep a body here lmao. You might get locked up in a mental hospital telling others you/they’re God. (I’m exaggerating a bit..). Though I wasn’t suicidal so I’m not sure what he meant by “done on earth plane” exactly here. I guess there were trips where I didn’t wanna “come back” yet..

This topic goes very deep. For some people, there'll always be a sort of dissatisfaction before one realizes that both the feminine and masculine are within themselves no matter the "biological gender". It is the suppression of both polarities that at least partially contributes to the longing for "the other" side. We don't yet live in a society yet where the expression of masculine and feminine is accepted/encouraged, allowance of such a range of self-expression - whatever comes naturally for the individual. There's suppression on both genders to act only according to their biological assignment, many people strongly possess both polarities in them and this seeks to be seen and understood, but mostly society rejects this notion one can be "bi-gender". On the women's front, if it is the case more are wanting to become man, it seems to me a push to equalize power and sovereignty where it is imbalanced. It is objectively the case that women on the whole do not get as much say in their lives (ie trusted to make their own damn decisions), and are given as much independence no matter where they go - their family, work, or relationships. Most women are forever treated like "subhumans" and not whole beings whose voice and autonomy are just as valid as a man's, they're treated like they're servants to the family system and those with more power. Society on the whole attempt to silence and trample on minorities and women, and treat them as lesser and like slaves. Now they don't even get a say in abortion in even one of the most developed countries. So don't be surprised when slaves rebel. When you say "self-hatred", it's more like hatred projected onto women by their environment, that slowly feeds onto the girl growing up. This clip is yet another instance of denial of women's voice by defaulting them as "crazy". And finally, because you are God, being treated as much lesser than God is not gonna fly for long. The thing I wish gender-dysphoric people knew is, they are actually God! And that they possess both polarities. They're not what they seem. And this is just an avatar. Imagine the amount of self-love that would bring.

Yeah I get that, it's just if it's not resolving it then there's maybe more to look into. How it worked for me was therapy and then there was some lingering depression which taking anti-depressants short term helped lifted me out of it. I mean this was purely experimentation on my part so maybe different for you. Just experiment and see, also you can try different anti-depressants too, some are way more compatible to you than others.

There's something to be dug up there, the antidepressants won't do it for you, it just tries to mask/makes you dissociate from it - which is why you feel that you should feel more. Therapy and low dose psychedelics like mushrooms are pretty good combination. I should mention don't take psychedelics with anti-depressants could lead to serotonin overload.

Ughh... You don't need anything. You are perfection, you just gotta realize that about yourself..

I'd go with what's the most self-loving option. ?

Yeah was giving it a chance and curious about how he is doing it.

Only 1/3 in. Feels pretty culty .