Adam M

try again but harder...enlightenment is not some kind of frivolous pursuit like learning a new instrument. Only when your highest priority is Truth/Enlightenement does the real enlightenment start. Truth is not my highest priority so I waste my time studying enlightenment and doing other things like traveling. I honestly feel that I am not ready yet to honestly and seriously pursue enlightenment at all costs. How can u have tried so many times before if you clearly dont understand many of the basic principles of doing enlightenment work?

Matthew 6-7 New International Version (NIV) Giving to the Needy 6 “Be careful not to practice your righteousness in front of others to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven. 2 “So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. 3 But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 4 so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. Prayer 5 “And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. 6 But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. 7 And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words.8 Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him. 9 “This, then, is how you should pray: “‘Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name, 10 your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. 11 Give us today our daily bread. 12 And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. 13 And lead us not into temptation,[a] but deliver us from the evil one.’ 14 For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15 But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. Fasting 16 “When you fast, do not look somber as the hypocrites do, for they disfigure their faces to show others they are fasting. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. 17 But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face, 18 so that it will not be obvious to others that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. Treasures in Heaven 19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy,and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven,where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. 22 “The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are healthy,[c] your whole body will be full of light. 23 But if your eyes are unhealthy,[d]your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness! 24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money. Do Not Worry 25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes?26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]? 28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith?31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Judging Others 7 “Do not judge, or you too will be judged.2 For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. 3 “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4 How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5 You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye. 6 “Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces. Ask, Seek, Knock 7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. 9 “Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets. The Narrow and Wide Gates 13 “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14 But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it. True and False Prophets 15 “Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. 16 By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles?17 Likewise, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. 18 A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit. 19 Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20 Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them. True and False Disciples 21 “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22 Many will say to me on that day,‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’ 23 Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’ The Wise and Foolish Builders 24 “Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. 25 The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. 26 But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. 27 The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.” 28 When Jesus had finished saying these things, the crowds were amazed at his teaching, 29 because he taught as one who had authority, and not as their teachers of the law. Make sure to read between the lines here...lots of wisdom but very easy to misinterpret with the wrong metaphysical context Enjoy

Lol that would be great...I have no doubt that your workshop would be full if you decide to visit Toronto!

My friend and I would definitely attend if you came to Toronto...I'm even considering flying out to either Chicago or NYC to attend one of these meetings!

Buy a very small, pocket sized notebook and carry it with you everywhere you go. When you leave the house you should think "Have I got my wallet? My cell phone? My car keys? My pocket notebook + pen?" You will have ideas and important thoughts throughout the day and you will want to write them down. Capturing your ideas is a very important habit because sometimes your mind is blessed with ideas and thoughts at random times and it would be a waste not to plant the seed in your notebook. Your ideas are seeds and your pocket notebook is the garden in which you plant them. DaVinci urged all of his followers to carry around a sketchbook everywhere they go just as he did so that they can capture their important observations that they make about life. Furthermore, once you write some of these ideas down and your notebook begins to get full, you can take some time to add the most important ideas to your commonplace book which is akin to watering the seeds. Whenever you are feeling unmotivated you can open your pocket notebook and read some the inspiring quotes that you thought of or that you wrote down. You will be like Marcus Aurelius, constantly writing notes to yourself about how to live a good life. I've recently started doing this because I am currently reading DaVinci's biography and I thought that it was a fantastic idea (it also is important for my life purpose) and I've already has some amazing results. Tip: get the smallest one you can find so that you are motivated to carry it around

@Tony 845 many people believe that their thoughts are responsible for their decisions... I challenge you to look into your direct experience and see that most of your decisions are not logical but feeling-based.

@molosku getting shrooms in Pai (best ones are from Valhala) is a piece of cake...no worries about laws at all

Here it is: @AdamDiC and I are staying at a place called Pai in northern Thailand. We got many reccomendations from many people to try the 'mushroom shake' from this little jungle shack called "Valhalla." So we woke up early one morning, skipped breakfast and meditated for an hour before riding our bikes towards Valhalla. The shroom shake tasted like banana and cocoa and it's impossible to tell how many grams or what type of shrooms. However the guy said that it was enough for one person. I'm pretty sure they were not dried, but fresh. After downing the shake we went for a short walk where a nice dog followed us and we found a little sanctuary in the middle of the jungle just off the path as the shrooms started to come on. I set the intention to connect more with nature on this trip. There wasn't much nausea but I felt a strong body load and a little dizziness as I began to see the shroomy patterns on my hands and other surfaces. There was noticable speckles, lines, and patterns on my hands. A giggly feeling began to take place as I enjoyed the wavy vibe and began experiencing different types of energy and body sensations flowing through me. I surrendered my body to these sensations and allowed my arms and upper body to flow with the energy and it felt sublime. I noticed the beauty of the jungle plants, insects, birds, and salamanders that surrounded the hut. I could feel my conciousness expanding as I allowed my thoughts to flow freely. The shrooms began to take my thoughts into deeper and deeper territory until eventually I was having profound insights about the nature of existence every second. There was very little nausea at this point and I was mesmerized by the sheer beauty and vibrance of the trees and animals that danced in front of my eyes. I continued to have thoughts about the Garden of Eden and the Genesis story in the bible. I slowly began to understand how conciousness and what Lao Tzu calls "the ten thousand things" are related to each other and require each other to remain balanced like yin and yang. For some reason I equated the beauty and form of nature (and of all things) as feminine energy and conciousness as that masculine energy which allows all phenomena to exist. There cannot be anything without conciousness. Without the primordial knowing of awareness. I began to see myself as an instrument through which reality can observe and enjoy it's own beauty. I noticed a deep sameness in all things and also that all things are different. All the beautiful trees and insects and animals were different. But they were also all the same. My trip partner and I were constantly laughing and giggling and enjoying the awesome feeling of love and wonder that came with every mystical insight. I noticed how important my vipassana meditation practice is for allowing me to differentiate concept from actuality. I also noticed how important my philosophical understanding of certain metaphysical ideas was for helping me make sense of what was happening to my conciousness. I began to stand up and allowed the shrooms to move my body and mind any which way they liked and the surrender felt amazing. I also began to talk in a very rhythmic and poetic and also musical tone that both my trip partner and I were able to tap into at the same time. I would say shit like... "Sameness and difference... is the dance... that allows... shit to be." "Sameness... is always the case." "Tune into the music of now" "I AM an Instrument" There was one point where my trip partner and I looked at each other and we both realized at the same time. "I'm scared of you..." "I am you." And we both started dying of laughter as we enjoyed being each other. We were basically thinking the same thing and we were able to finish each other's thoughts. I kept saying: "It's all the same...but different." And it was very profound. We sat and danced and sang in our hut for about three hours as we continued to peak over and over again. It felt almost as if I was continually being separated from God and then reconnecting again with a beautiful "OOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHH" And it appeared that this was one facet of the trip as my identity continued to expand and retract and expand and retract over and over again. The best way I can explain it was like fucking God in and out in and out over and over again and it was bliss. "The separateness creates (me and all things) and allows the oneness to be rediscovered. In this way, reality continues to fuck itself through me over and over and over" I was very calm and tranquil and blissful. I also moved very naturally, relaxed, slowly, and mindfully. I felt like an 80 year old tai chi master. After about four hours we started coming down and we noticed that the entire time we were sitting under a giant hornet's nest (LOL). Of course the giant hornets didnt want to interrupt our communion with God so they left us alone as we left them alone. The entire time the dog stayed with us and protected us in our vulnerable state. The come down was pleasant and we were very tired. I went for one of the most scenic walks of my entire life afterwards and then we stopped in on a beginner's yoga class. By that time the shrooms were almost completely out of our system. Words cannot describe how amazing and profound the peak was. The part cannot encapsulate the whole...it's so obvious. But I tried my best Hopefully y'all enjoyed hearing about my most enjoyable and profound trip thus far in my spiritual journey. Pictures

Readjust your expectations. Leo's "lack of content" is a result of your high expectations for him to share 'everything'. In truth, at no point did ever Leo say that he would share everything with us. And if research is so important to you then maybe u should free up some time to do it yourself. Your laziness and false sense of entitlement is horrible for me to read.

I recommend to stop caring. Just listen to your body. Don't be so neurotic.

Do a retreat. That helps me get back in touch with why I'm meditating by showing me deeper levels. Or maybe do some shrooms :)):)

Consider Seeing a psychologist. You are fabricating false stories about your life that some psychotherapy work may help to unravel. "I hate everything, I hate myself." Why not create a mantra that you repeat 50 times a day. "I LOVE EVERYTHING, I LOVE MYSELF" You can be whatever you set your mind to. You are the one who is choosing to identify with such a negative thought-story.

@Ampresus I'm 18. Here is what I would have done different. Less video games Less smoking weed with degenerate friends. Less porn. More reading about anything that interests you in the self help field (you can start on Leo's book list) More effort developing my social skills especially with girls. More focus on more productive hobbies such as playing an intrument or learning Adobe photoshop. Your life is terrible too compared to what is possible with self-actualization work. Meditate every day for 20 minutes. ACTUALLY FKN DO IT.

This is what I have heard according to my studies. After the buddha's enlightenment, he was tempted to not teach because his discovery was so profound that the masses would not understand. However, he realized that even if not everybody could understand. SOME PEOPLE WILL. And that is worth it. I read this in Walpola Rahula's "What the buddha taught" A great read for those who want the essence of buddhism

Hey guys I'm 18 years old and just finished a couple of vipassana retreats in Thailand. I have always been a gifted student and have always enjoyed learning about the world from a young age which is why I love actualized.org so much. I feel that going to college/university to would be a waste of my time and money because I learn best on my own. Plus, I have all the information in the world available to me on the internet for relatively cheap. I have a great business idea that involves learning (my top value) and I think I'm just going to work on that while I just spend most of my time reading, taking notes, contemplating, and meditating. What do you guys think? Is going full autodidact a valid path? I would like to hear your own stories or some feedback

@zenny wow thanks for your help dude, will definitely check out these sources :):) @ajasatya I will definitely not leave college out of the picture...I recently learned about the california institute of integral studies which is a progressive college in cali that offers degrees in psychedelics and conciousness....so may be worth checking out Sometimes though I feel that people use college as a way to STAY in their comfort zone because there is less motivation to create opportunities for yourself..

@Girzo ah yes, thank you for the great advice. Thankfully reading, meditating, and contemplating are also an important part of my business pursuits but I do understand that I will have to make sacrifices.

@aurum I live w my parents plus I can find math tutoring work...also lifeguarding.

Keep meditating. Consider simplifying your lifestyle to make more room for what REALLY is MOST important for you. Take time to figure out what that is.

Lol you're not enlightened

Same here...I took a year off and am currently doing meditation retreats in Thailand... So I guess that's pretty good for a turquoise university and the professor is me lol I dont think that I will be going to university... I learn better as an autodidact anyways, I don't feel that the time/money investment for a university/college is worth it for me personally.

Ah yes, I'm sure the model is wrong and you are right...its hilarious because spiral dynamics even predicts this type of arrogance at stage orange. The main problem here is that you simply haven't SERIOUSLY studied the world from enough perspectives (coming from someone who is stage yellow) and that you lack fundamental conciousness of the present moment which allows your self deceptions to go unnoticed (which is something that a turquoise thinker like Leo would tell you) But overall, you fail to recognize that every argument you're providing has already been completely disproven not only by Leo, but by many other thinkers in history (like Heraclitus and Niels Bohr)

@AdamDiC

Hey guys I just finished another 10 day retreat at Wat Chom Tong in near Chiang Mai, Thailand... The relationship between thoughts and experiences is subtly changing. As I am consistently (as I can) observing impermanence, dukkha, and non self in this present moment. It is easier for me to deal with emotions such as - fear - anger - craving - doubt - pain This is because I am forced to acknowledge impermanence in this moment. My practice consists of 60 minutes of walking meditation with focus on acknowledging walking steps followed by 60 minutes sitting meditation with focus on breathing and various touching points of the body. Most of the practice is simply labeling body movement, feelings, and thoughts. I'm taking a couple day-long breaks between retreats because they are very intense and physically and mentally taxing. 2 nights ago I meditated for 50 hours straight without sleeping or bathing... with 20 minute breaks between each round of walking and sitting and slightly longer breaks to eat. My appreciation for Buddhist teachings has grown tremendously as Buddhist philosophy clearly and precisely shows the path toward enlightenment. Wish me luck...I'm trying my best to stay disciplined.

Yo guys...Jesus was right...Buddha was right...Mohammed was right...they all point towards non-duality "Even this view, which is so pure and so clear, if you cling to it, if you fondle it, if you treasure it and are attached to it, then you do not understand that the teaching is like a raft, it is for getting across but not for holding onto" - Buddha In the same way Jesus' teachings are meant to be a tool for finding truth for yourself but the teaching itself cannot be truth because it is just words and words are only partial.