Hugo Oliveira

My sleep was healthy before taking 2.5g of mushrooms some years ago, After it, a had insomnia for some months. I got better after using EFT, but still taking too long to fall asleep. Recently I took a small dose of LDS and can't sleep again for more than a week. My doctor prescribed a med that "works" but I'm avoiding because it only helps when I take it, don't solve my insomnia and I'm developing resistance. I would love to know if someone passed through something similar. Thank you!

Could you describe it better? Is it some behavior or desire?

SOMA breath gave me almost instant relief. It's free and worth trying. I suggest visiting their website.

I'm really curious about it. He has great feedbacks from Tonny Solo who is a good guy into pick up I think. I'm wondering if his course isn't just some meditations contextualized with non-duality theory and bla bla

Hey guys! Just returned a few days ago from a solo 5 days retreat. I did a lot of meditation + kundalini and kriya yoga practices combined with fruits diet and 2 days fasting. AAaaaaaannd..... as soon as I returned I perceived consistent results in my spirituality. I'm amazed because these are the first results I could really see without using psychedelics (YEEAH IT'S POSSIBLE!! <3). Among these effects, yesterday while I was driving, I had a strong feeling of love and connection with existence combined with synchronicities and insights. But along this experience, I perceive myself feeling some discomfort and fear. It's like if I was alternating between this connection with the divine and total ignorance about life and existence and feeling lost. Then my mind comes in, and I had some conflicting and neurotic thoughts. For example, I was listening to a song and the singer said something deeply aligned with what I was thinking. But after that, my mind started to consider in a paranoid way, all the songs as if they are communicating personally with me. So I'd like to ask you: How can I avoid to be trapped in this kind of paranoia? How can I better differentiate true insights from crazy thinking? And how people like Leo can do such intense psychedelic trips and be safe against confusion in these "places" where reality is being so deeply questioned? Much love for all of you!

When you do self-inquiry you can recognize the witnessing awareness. Them you focus on it (or just be it) during a meditation session. What is the difference between this simple recognition and the so-called "AHA MOMENT" when people break free from ego identification? This practice leads you to a gradual awareness of yourself as awareness or there is some flip point in this process? Thank you!

You'll find it in Kriya Yoga Exposed

If you are reading the books Leo suggested in his video, you can search for Santata Gamana books in Amazon. He has a simpler approach and is also a Leo's recommendation. And this channel has videos about KYSR book: https://www.youtube.com/user/ManojTheYogi

I really appreciate all these high-quality answers. I think that what you guys said is being perceived in my experience. My conception of surrendering was generating hard internal struggles. Thank you also for the resources, I will check it carefully. Please, everyone feel free to keep discussing it.

I'm curious about how do you relate to "surrendering" as a spiritual posture. Can you really let go? (desires, plans, expectations, fears...) Is this a decision that can be made? Why you don't let go? If you have done it, how is your progress happening? How to let go? Something made you understand and embody it in an easier way? Thank you!

When your desire for life and your passions are fucking intense, them, neurosis, anxiety, doubt, and guilt seems to be part of it. Enlightenment is the only way out? Can a person grow emotionally and have peace while facing uncertainty and avoid frustration? Is it possible to be emotionally above human emptiness and neediness? If so, what would be the solution? Good mindsets? Hight vibration? Personality change? Thank you!

Many authors that I see in the industry are telling just "push yourself!" "go out!", "stop excuses!" "fix your inner game!". But is it a good way? I can approach, I can have sex. Not veeeery easily, but I think I can. I did it! But didn't see the growth. Today I see my thoughts and energy being spent with all this PUA idea. And I can do all the game. But when TRUE internal change will happen in this context? I can't see it. I'm asking myself if the PUA is making me better with woman as its purposes. Because I feel the opposite. I feel trapped in this hunting energy. I feel my awareness narrowing. Maybe my focus should be more on other self-development areas at this moment.

Perfectly! Thanks for your sincere and coherent points! I'm seeing some movements in which the guys simply abstain from chasing woman and focus on "conquering the world", sometimes under the delusional idea that when they get one million dollars, women will be attracted to them and things will be solved this way. I don't agree with that mindset. I do think you have to talk to people and connect, sometimes randomly, also develop the ability to do it better. Along you porsuit other things in life. But the "chasing" behavior is really what was fucking the whole thing for me.

I think that I feel pretty much a similar situation. I'm doing meditation and yoga for some time and I had already this experience of non-judmental almost pure observation of experience. The point is that I couldn't apply true surrendering in my life yet, I feel myself a bit fucked up so I feel very attached to self-improvement and my self agenda in a very neurotic way. Today I realized how much both paths are conflicting and limiting my progress. Because the gain of consciousness may be showing to myself how pointless are the ego's desperate actions to get fulfillment.

What I would like to discuss here is the possibility of the existence of a subtle social game based on selfish interests. By "interests" I don't mean the obvious, for example, political alliances in the pursuit of power. But I'm wondering about the bases of most basic human connections. What are the factors that allow true friendship or companionship to happen? How much is it common for people to "select" other people to connect with based on their prejudice or occult interests. Again, I'm trying to look more into subtle aspects here not just the obvious kinds prejudice we are used to talk about. It would be good to have some books or references about it too. Thank you!

Would love to hear some trip report based on this manual!

Have you listened about SINCLAIR method?

I know that this is probably an exhausted conversation, but how do you guys deal with your desires/self genda? Is your life conducted by them? Are you trying to abdicate? Are you establishing a balance between desires and surrender? Are you overcoming your desires progressively? Thanks for your attention!

Thank you guys for all the answers. @hamedsf Could you explain your position better?

Sorry for this up. UP!

I know I'm being a bit egoistic for put this topic on top again. Would really like to know your thoughts about it. Now I'll be very egoistic and tag @Leo Gura. Hope it doesn't border you too much. Thanks a lot.

Some years ago I had a really bad psychedelic experience. It was full of paranoid confusion while I felt all the doors of my unconscious opened. Sometimes I feel like some bad thing from the experience had penetrated me. Since then I've been struggling with hard emotional and psychological pain and a strong feeling of misunderstanding reality. After it, I felt in many other experiences with psychedelics an intense magnetic force pulling me into a terrible state of mind with looks to have the power to destroy my sanity and my life. Now I wonder if the only way to get there and heal this trauma is via shamanism. Or should I run away from it and make my path using different and safer spiritual practices. This doubt is consuming myself for some time. Please, let me know your thoughts. Thank you.

Thank you for all advice. My worry is the possible necessity to "go there" to fix the trauma. And the only way I know for fast deep consciousness exploring is via psychedelics. Once it can make me bad I feel really divided. Totally agreed with you all about the necessity of building a foundation. Very grateful.

@ajasatya Could you be more specific about this recognition of the illusory nature of your self-image? Would it be like "perceive myself as consciousness"? Or "Realize the true nature of being"?

Yes, for sure. There were many videos talking about meditation as well, I think he stopped the work with PUA to dedicate himself more into spirituality.