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"If you really want to be free of your problems, tell them to an owl"

@Venus Sounds like there is a lot of stand still from seeing both sides of things. Do you really meditate every morning? If so, what kind of meditation? With regards to the beliefs, do you see any corilations between how your parents were / are, what beliefs you created with regard to them? Is this processes helping at all to see that much of your suffering is just from these beliefs? Is letting go of them because they're just beliefs within sight yet? The relief that will come?

I feel bad now, I thought Vincent Price died already.

That's so great to hear! Thank you.

@SLICKHAWK ?? Just throwing some thoughts down, hope one helps- I have kids that age. I have to remind myself all the time just how simple I have to communicate to reach them. It is a gift because I have to really let go and surrender to the moment to get to simple. Also, kids actually believe it when grownups say "you are _______" And..I think the language of kids is, Fun. Here's a game we made. simple fun. When we play it, their state of mind is such that they openly talk about whatever and they associate the fun state of mind with the thing that was a problem to them before. Like how we're all trying to maintain an increase in state of mind / being, the game does it for them. It's ridiculous. That kind of fun.

@Akeberg Your body and emotions are trying to tell you something that you aren't understanding. You have inaccurately made a correlation between people pleasing and your mood dropping. You're just sinking to their lower mood. That's all. Make your mood / how you feel, the most important thing, period. Some examples from my life / psyche: When I put how I feel first, above all else, I start feeling great. When I feel great I am a much better; dad, husband, boss, friend, peer, forum bullshitter, etc. ?

You are the chooser. That special week, something triggered you to choose your own path towards happiness. You didn't keep on that path, so the momentum of your old path / ways came back. Appreciate that power of your own mind. See that you felt terrible from the momentum or days or what you put in front of yourself. See that you can eventually be very happy, all you have to do it point yourself in that direction. The easiest way would be to listen to positive stuff while you're playing your video games. Be easy on yourself. If it takes a month until you start feeling better, let that be ok. At the worst, it's a month of chilling and playing video games. I promise you though, if you have such videos on, even while playing games, you are soaking it up. When you get feeling good again (another special week so to speak) be sure to keep it going. I recommend Abraham Hicks on YouTube. It may seem silly or 'full of shit' but you have to realize what you're putting in front of you is what you're thinking about, and your emotions and perspective are coming from what you're thinking about.

@blacksapp What is your underlying negative future view?

@carlos flores I have been around many panic attacks, and people who beat them. For good. My 2 cents- panic attacks come from an underlying very pessimistic future outlook, combined with a daily grind of work or school. When we ignore our deeper shitty outlook, (ego), we have that underlying shitty feeling that gets triggered by things that sometimes, we are not even aware of. It takes time, but IMO, to be rid of panic attacks, one has to put some time in focusing on positive outlooks / future. Abraham Hicks and Tony RObins come to mind. Seen "I am not your Guru" yet? Try it. If it's good and on point, recommend it to your friend.

@100rockets Ya. What did you do? Great to hear you're finding hope. I assume you're young, like 16-23. Don't write your life off. When I was 20, I was where you are. Total fucking hopelessness and suicidal tendencies. (I never thought about doing it, but I did feel that it would have been better) The thing is, you DON"T KNOW what your life is going to pan out to be. I found this tiny little crack of hope way back then, and it led to a wonderful life. Actual fulfillment and satisfaction. Hang in there. It WILL get better. There are equal opposites at play. To the extent you have dove down deep into the abyss, if you just hang on for a while, you will equally rise to the bliss. All is relative to your experiencing, it can be no other way.

Just curious, if we're all the offspring of Cain, who is the female involved in that?

@Extreme Z7 "Try"? Who says that? Do. Now. This is anonymous right? You have NOTHING to lose and EVERYTHING to gain right? So type a few things right now that feel good to think about. NOTICE how you feel good thinking about them. Build that habit. Let it be simple. I'll go first.... sex playing guitar protein shakes beauty laughing epiphanies

@0ne You can want to exist. Quantum Erasure has proven you could have "died" a million times already and not even know it. Pick good. Start small.

Check out Bruce Lipton too. Epigenetics is powerful. A paradigm for sure, but a much better one than "I was born this way". (Mentally speaking)

@Mondsee Thinking a physical location will calm your mind is procrastining. Build the habit of being aware of the background that is the superposition pure intelligence oneness. It is calm, silent, still and unseeable, but it is not unobservable. Feel it's presence when your parents start their bullshit. Connect to it. Be in it's peaceful embrace. It is everything and it is everywhere. Take comfort in knowing that everything is made of it, so no matter where you go, you are always surrounded by God. God is literally all things. Build the habit of connection, and you will be powerful. You will influence people and situations, eventually, without saying a word.

Affirmations are like gravity. It is working wether you think it is or not. You are getting / feeling right now, what you have been thinking (affirming). "Affirmations" is a fancy word for - start paying attention and think on purpose for your own benefit. Can you realize that your good emotions are not magically flying through the air into you from other people? The good emotions are being created by you with your thinking. Set some time aside, first thing every morning, to think about good things for you. Make lists of what you want in life, and completely disregard 'reality' when making these lists. Make them from a 'fantasy' or ' perfect scenario' perspective. The ego will tell you that you are being unrealistic. The oneness will tell you anything is actually possible. Which one are you?

@Shir It sure seems like the great feeling comes out of that guys body or mind, floats through the air, magically finds it's way into your body and thus you feel great. Sure seems like that's how it works, doesn't it?

@spicy_pickles pretty vague. What did you do to who? Talking about it takes all of it's energy away. It's hard though.

I'm just gonna chime in completely unsolicited and take a stab. Choice. OMG what you are missing is that you are the CHOOSER.

@Extreme Z7 My apologies. But this is progress - ruling things out. Maybe this is your problem.... "Things have to get worse before they get better" Who says that? Perhaps you're underestimating the power of your mind? If you think things will get worse, you will perceive things getting worse. Maybe a change in philosophy is in order? Rather than try to 'not be agitated', shift to focusing on the power of your mind. Choose to see EVERYTHING as positive. Initially, admittedly, it sounds like some bullshit. However, hasn't your thinking and therefore choices you made led you to where you are now? This will continue. Use it. It's the most powerful force. Make it a game. Slow down the process of - percieving, thinking, then feeling. If you perceive anything at all and notice a less that great emotion, consider stopping and sort of saying "I know the universe / one is good. I know I am the universe / one. I must be looking at this in a way that I a missing the bigger picture of goodness in it". Allow the universe within to show you the goodness. Helpful?

I've golfed for decades, done 300 mile cyclist events, etc, also. I feel I relate and may have some insight that could be helpful, as I've also been drawing and painting since I was 4. By the time I graduated high school I had a painting literally hanging in the White House. Yes, that's boastful, but credibility is what I'm hoping to communicate. I want you to have the quan, and you are very close. Remember back when you first started those fitness things. It took a LONG time to get to the level you are at now. Along the way, you learned dedication, focus, persistence, etc. You learned to overcome you're own bullshiting. That's huge. (Yuge?) These are spiritual in nature because you shed fat, did all kinds of amazing things for your body and brain, and ultimately you kicked your whole biological self into high gear. That is blissful because you physically and mentally have less resistance, and therefore more connection to the oneness. But, these are not creative. This is where you are confused. Creativity is not different then athletics. How many sketches have you sketched? How many paintings have you painted? How many sculptures have you sculpted? Have you even shroomed at an art museum yet? What depth of conversation have you had with established artists? How many books have you read on creativity? I hope you see what I am trying to convey. Athletics and creativity function then same. Neuroplasticity: The brain gets better at doing whatever we do. A guy I know started a company making a mouth guard for football players that has a 'tape' inside it that changes color if you bite too hard. Repeated head injuries are signaled with a high force bite. It's not the perfect fix for this issue, but coaches can check the tape and at least it's a start. You can of course use your passion for athletics with creativeity, but it sounds like you are expecting to be creative without much practice. People being born 'talented' accounts for 50% (genetics). Seems to me it is this way so we inherently have choice. If it was 51%, this would not be so. But it is so. Godspeed! Best of luck!

Pragmatism is mental accuracy. It does not help to think of it as ruthless. It's the opposite. It will align you with your desires using the energy within. You have to be pragmatic and passionate. You have to figure out what you want to do AND put the time in to make money from it. Assuming you want passion and money in your days. When you limit your compassion to others based on judging them, you are literally limiting your own compassion. You are limiting your own energy. Try looking at it this way- if you saw someone lying in a pool of blood in the road, you would probably help them or call 911. So why then, when you observe some dickhead or bitch, do you not see their suffering? They need compassion. Sometimes I'm the dickhead, and sometimes you're the bitch. (No offense, you're sweet as pie Loreena) Is it not compassion that is the answer, both inward and outward. BE THE CHANGE YOU WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD. THAT IS THE ONLY WAY THE WORLD CHANGES. Stop judging, it hurts you the most. If you want to be full of love, be full of love. Above alll else, stop judging yourself. You're exactly perfect. There will never be another you. Ever. You can keep looking at what is, or you can start looking at what will be, either way, you are getting more of what you're focusing on. This is the law of attraction. This is how the uncertainty principle works. We tend to fool ourselves thinking the reality in front of our eyes is more real than the reality we can choose in our minds, but it is not. The one in your mind will become the one in front of your eyes, in exact perfect measure to your focus,dedication, and repetition of it. In the most literal possible sense, right now, in this moment, you are getting more of whatever you are focusing on. Ok surmon over. Sorry for preachiness. I feel like you are such a sweet person and you're right on the edge of a breakthrough, that's where I'm coming from.

@Extreme Z7 Forgive me if I am completely off, but it seems to me your trying to align your mind when you need to align your health (diet & excercise). The mind will follow. Resistant weight & resistant thought are the same, just physical and nonphysical representations of the same disharmony. This sounds like the voice of sugar to me. Again, my apologies if I am totally off. We're all projecting from our connotations. Otherwise, cut the shit about ambiance and start meditating every single morning. This will get you to a place where you can sit with no stimulation at all and be perfectly aligned and at peace. Then, the problem you address here, won't even exist.

@Loreena Have you ever noticed how when you wake up, you have a perfectly clean slate mind wise? Notice how you resume the thoughts you don't want. But the key is noticing you wake up without them and 'search' and resume. The key is not resuming. Have headphones and something positive ready like an Abraham Hicks rampage, or whatever works for you. Listen the moment you wake up. Don't even get out of bed yet. Set the trajectory of your day this way. Then, throughout the day, notice when you have a resistant thought - a doesn't feel good thought. Don't feed it. Don't go with it. Play the game of how far can I go in my day without allowing a bad feeling thought. You'll start making it whole days. Days turn into weeks. etc Equally important- not eating poorly, excercising (if you can), and meditation.

The process is simple. Not easy, but simple. Just talk about the things you don't want to talk about. The ego protects it's specialness by silencing the mouth of the very things that support it. I know it feels like all hell will break loose, but it won't. It's only talking. A great thing will happen. Have you ever had the experience of worrying about something, and then you talked about it, and laughed afterwards about how silly it seems now? It's like that.