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@Dodo Santa does exist though.

@Monkey-man that’s so terrible to hear. Did she say anything to you about maybe undoing the curse, given the dramatic quality of life lost, and the medical expenses, etc? Also wondering, does she have grandkids from that daughter in law? She ever expressed any regret about what she did to that family? You probably wouldn’t know, but I’m curious if the daughter in law told the dr’s the cause of her ailments and what they said.

@Monkey-man Holy shit. That’s taking the mother in law thing to a new level. What kind of treatments is she receiving? What was her diagnosis? Was she like, otherwise fine, living a happy fulfilled life, etc?

@Afonso lol! ?

@Monkey-man love to hear about what you saw, if you’re able to share. Thanks

@shahryar Other countries have recently accomplished what you’re describing. I would google and research it. (I am assuming internet access is not too limited, since you’re here) On the individual level, you’re only dealing with yourself. I understand at least enough nuances to be aware of the politics, false flags, and misrepresentations of the peoples of nations. Love is the lowest and most powerful common denominator, and people who put material things first strive to maintain status quo. For what it’s worth, here, in the US, the vast majority of the population (ime) is not racist, see’s the facade, and did not even vote for our current “leader”. The fuckery is global, with respect to the situation in your country being more dire. This is changing, just too slowly.

Freedom.

@tatsumaru Buddhism & Hinduism are the same as Christianity, Mormonism and Scientology, and other dogmas. Only experience matters. Buddhism, Hinduism, Christianity, Mormonism and Scientology are all very different. Your experience doesn’t matter. Who is the architect?

@Dodo Have you experienced not being God?

Always go with inspiration, especially creativity. Try to make the distinction between being in the now and planning for the future, vs thoughts wandering away from now into speculation and concern for the future. The universe so got you man. It’s got your back. You don’t need to worry.

@see_on_see how can typing be done?

@Dodo I think you answered your question. For myself, I make distinctions between my experience and my thoughts about what infinity is, and I find clarity in it. I’m not suggesting it’s a one size fits all, ‘right’ thing to do.

@WaterfallMachine gotcha. Overall progressing, just a temporary regress, or maybe impatience. - I’d look for what I know I want to stop doing or start doing, or both. The source is always offering that to us, the ‘work’ for us is listening. Good luck. Seems like you’re on top of it to me. Writing wanted things, perspectives, etc, up on the wall is a focus game changer for me. Just a thought. ❤️

That stuff is not ‘the self’, ime. That stuff is the ego. As in “weakness, mediocrities, lack” are thoughts we repeat that become beliefs. In actuality your ‘self’ is infinite and feels amazing to uncover. Creative activities help connection with ‘the creator’. Statements like “I’ll always” or I will never change my mind...stuff like that puts the ‘development’ on pause. Growth comes from radical open mindedness. “Be like water” Bruce Lee - comes to mind. Forgiveness is for you, not the person you forgive. It’s letting go.

@WaterfallMachine I can’t wrap my head around how less ego brings any depression. I don’t think that’s where it’s ‘coming from’. @Dodo “The illusionist is not an entity, as my investigation is leading me to believe.”. Please, don’t take this argumentatively, but I have had the completely opposite experience. As in, it’s conscious, self aware. Just sharing.

@snowleopard That ‘death’ part is accurate in my experience. I was at my own funeral, meeting people as me. It was really beautiful. There is an overall perspective I had that I could never get back. I agree it’s all beliefs, and very much chopping wood & carrying water.

@Dodo Not personality alone, as in human emotion, or lonesome. I believe @WaterfallMachine Is talking about ultimately alone, being the ‘illusionist’, if you will.

@Dantas That’s a respectable discipline. How are you now, compared to before you started doing any of those? It seems to me that with the practices we keep becoming more self aware and can more easily deduce what we’re doing or thinking that is at the root of the ‘dark side’. Self awareness is corrective, and infallible (imo). Takes time. When you say ‘ego backlashes’ do you mean anger, getting triggered?

@WaterfallMachine Man. Yeah. I know what you mean. I’m talking to myself, about how there is no other, and replying to myself about it, and we both know we’re talking to ourselves, while we continue to talk to each other as if we didn’t know what’s going on here. wtf really. But this whole thing, the whole universe, you did that. I did that. Dude who will find actualized.org tomorrow and read the words “self inquiry” for the first time, he did that too. You actually get to glimpse that you did that. Now we’re in it, just to be in it. We got to experience it in a ‘separated’ rollercoaster of highs & lows of ‘realness’, now we get to experience it like this with that. After this, just anything. Forever. Maybe we’ll know what we’re doing next and what we are, maybe we won’t. How fucking awesome is that? There’s no actual birth, no actual death. No actual thing to worry about. Worry arises only relative to self identity as person, worry is self-ish, so it serves to remind you that you have momentarily forgotten what you are stating here today in this post. It’s getting caught up in the illusion, in our thinking, and not ‘reconnecting’ to that, which troubles arise from. Not the actual state of Alone. The insight from the video is like seeing a naked woman in a playboy your first time. That is not the same as being Hugh Hefner. You can most definitly not worry one bit about that. ❤️

Only one way to know. I’m tripping balls in a sober illusion at the moment and loving the posts lately. Has a lot to do with what I’ve experienced on high doses of shrooms. Most of it stayed with me, as far as what reality is. The ‘Holy Fucking ISNESS’ wore off though, which is totally fine by me. thought I knew what ‘humbled’ meant. Holy fuck. I did not. Those trips pushed me right through some paradigms like aliens, reiki / energy healing, and of course what the self is / isn’t. Stuff I previously thought was a matter of beliefs. Not that I’ve seen it all, it was just very very accelerating. For what it’s worth, I thought I had folks like Bashar & Abe Hicks, etc figured out. After the trips I realized so much more depth of what they were communicating. We are creating our own reality. I can’t articulate how, but I don’t know how a car engine works either. They get me places I otherwise was not going or getting to. Awareness of what I am, night & day difference. I don’t miss the focus I paid to what I didn’t want, or the doubt, or the fear. That’s for sure. I don’t miss my past one bit either. I’m looking into 5meo. If anyone want to comment on their experience between a high / hero dose of shrooms (just roughly 5g and up I guess), and 5meo, that’d be much appreciated. Thanks! As a reference point; I experienced the wholeness / oneness of everything through meditation, then samadhi... then with shrooms - the outside of the illusion visually and audibly / as what is real / Godhead / cosmic joke (I have no idea if there is an accurate term sorry) Thanks guys.

Happy New Year peeps! ❤️

@tatsumaru imo, it applies to anything & everything really. I mean real as in the world appears to be real. Pretty much what the definition you posted says. Nothing exists. It’s not inherently problematic, we make it problematic (imo). I like the dependent origination reference. Nice. It’s like you, made of atoms, eating atoms which become your atoms. And then what atoms are made of is really a doozy. Have fun man. Great post!

@F A B that’s a lovely life you have going. From some movies I’ve seen, I’m curious if her name is actually Sandra Bullock. I’ve also learned, when I ‘miss a bus’, to say, oh boy - this is gonna be awesome!

@TJ Reeves congrats on all your growth! Great read.