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@Nadosa You want something. You messed up and convinced yourself you need it to be happy. What is it that you’d be happy if you had it? Write about that on some paper.

@cetus56 ooohhh. I see what I did there.

This is from a habit of negative self talk. And there is nothing you need to understand. Stop insisting there is, or pull it together and do some research, or write down how you’re feeling, so you can see it and make sense of it. That’s the easy & efficient way. Don’t be stubborn. Unstick and go write down how you’re feeling. Thoughts have no power at all. It only seems like the thoughts are the trouble. The actual trouble is misunderstanding the sensation you call “anxiety”. What’s actually going on is the nothingness you keep blaming is loving the shit out of you. Your thought about nothingness is not actual nothingness. Actual nothingness is Love. It is You. But you insist on ignoring the sensation, and thinking. Making the sensation out to be the bad guy, the cause of your troubles. It just isn’t. This is what Freud called “Smarty Pants Insistence”. He discovered the cure for this is to repeat “I don’t know” a few times, or until you feel the relief. That heart you mentioned, which is beating inexplicably, “freaking you out” - that’s big love beating that heart. The higher self. You’re up in your head, thinking. You’re supposed to meet big love in the middle, at the heart. You do this by taking that unconscious breathing (big love is doing right now too)...and meeting there - conscious breathing, from your stomach, deep and slow. Let the focus, the attention, of awareness sink down, from the thinking, to the heart...by breathing slowly and deeply from your stomach. I can guarantee you big love is already there waiting for you. Just relax and meet at the heart. Let it be that simple. Whatever you mean or are worried about with regards to “real”, no matter which thoughts arise - it will be the same. Look around you and notice the thoughts aren’t actually doing anything. You’re fine. Everything in the room is fine. Regardless of what you think. If you let it be humbling enough, that might even strike you as funny soon.

Lol lol sorry sorry

The trick is it’s everything. Everything is conscious being (you). Dude contemplates, realizes all is God....”friend of a friend” stops by, “happens” to be enlightened. Take a poll. How many people have someone enlightened ‘stopping by’? Anyone...?

“Duality”

Are you aware of the room you’re in? The air you’re breathing (with your stomach)? Of the sounds you’re hearing amoungst the room? Aware of some stuff you are seeing in the room? Are you aware of all this?

@Nadosa Slow down man. Stomach breathe. Relax. Everything is fine, you are fine. You won’t know like you know math, or facts, or knowledge - so stop thinking about it / trying to figure something out. You know because it is self evident. You are aware of thoughts. This is obvious, as you are sharing them on a forum. You might not feel you have a handle on them at the moment, but surely you can see the obvious fact that you are aware of thoughts, yes?

But you are aware. And you’re fine.

@Nadosa You are aware of the thoughts?

@Nadosa Simply speaking, are you aware of the body or not? If you are not aware of a body, maybe you are the body. If you are aware of the body, then you must be the awareness, so relax.

@Highest LOA not so hard to see.

@Wyverz Also, you scared the shit out of yourself, with thinking. Been there, it absolutely blows, no doubt. But that wasn’t God. When you let it all go, alllll of it, and find yourself cryin like a dang baby, and you feel that deep deep love, that strong loving healing - that’s God. And you don’t need to do a thing for access to that. You just let go of What you are doing, let go of that resistance, let all that fight go. You just give up. That’s it. Surrender. Trust me on this - you can’t win. Think all you want man, you can’t win. So just surrender, let go. Love and beloved.

@Wyverz I love you. You’re fine, I promise. You totally deserve to take some deep breaths and relax. There is plenty of today left, and you can enjoy it. Keep letting go in your body, over and over, more and more deeply. Just let all that shit go man.

Anxiety is overthinking. You’ve got work to do on that. The overthinking is fueled by avoiding your sensations, feeling, emotions. They are messages of the truth, you’ve categorized them as something to be avoided. The richness of life, in truth, is in full emotion. A lot of letting go to do, and you’re going to love how it feels, the more thinking you let go of. You did not experience God, nor “God’s loneliness”. You experienced the intensity of overthinking, on a psychedelic. You weren’t ready. You knew you weren’t ready. You’re confused. You’re saying on one hand you experienced ego death, and the other hand “if I would have surrendered to the ego death”. Then you’re saying you had a “glimpse of the true nature”, then “it’s hard to return to individuality although other people truly experience it”. When there is a glimpse of the true nature, there certainly is no problem with individuality. Then you’re thanking God, that you’re returning. Sounds like you thought psychedelics would cure overthinking, and then took too much to enjoy, and too little to have an ego death. So now you’ve heightened your overthinking, and you’re using God to justify it. “The feeling of loneliness is still lingering in my body”. It’s the sensation of “What you’re thinking is not true”. But you’re persisting with overthinking anyways, while you’re wondering why you feel terrible. LET GO! Look around you right now. Tune in to what you are seeing & hearing right now. You are fine. You are completely fine. You don’t need to think about anything. Relax. Do something you enjoy. Give the path, and the thinking a day off man. Everything is ok. Start setting some time aside each day for relaxing, and for loving yourself. ♥️ Thinking is saying “everything is terrible”. But look around you right now, actuality is saying “Dude, you’re fine”.

@Highest Actuality♥️

I am is not a thought, you’re the source of thoughts. This is why false thinking never feels good - or, not feeling good let’s you know the present thought is false. “Pointless” is a thought, and it’s on the inherent foundation of “point”. Let point & pointless go (duality - thinking). Create instead of ‘figuring out’. You can think your life is pointless and false - but that’s just a thought, all thought of I am is false. You’re not lost, it’s not possible. I understand what you mean though. If you want the alignment of well being, eat to the tune - and when your beingness says the current thinking is false, llisten immediately. Linger & dwell, and you pay the price, every time. The thinking you are ‘Post 1k” is thinking. Let it go. It creates a dualistic mental frame, so you (perspective wise) are certain to lose in either case. IT’s rooted in comparison, which inherently false thinking.

If you are the creator of reality are you a person - therefore are there other people? Is there a source of negative, are you able to attract for ‘other people’? How does that play out relatively with other people in your experience?

@LastThursday nice.

@Jed Vassallo 0.

@Leo Gura Welcome back ♥️

What is the understanding of all this? Does one arising thought have anything to do with a previous arising thought? If so, what connects them together?

@FoxFoxFox Absolutely.

It was right there all along.