Nahm

@FoxFoxFox This is not a mountain, we can do it now. You’d need to give an example of what you’re afraid of. A hypothetical example won’t work though, because the information / context (words) won’t “do it”...the understanding is “it“.

You’ll have to see if unconditional love is possible. You might find it is all that is possible, how any thing is possible at all. I suggest it is there, always, just behind the meaning you apply to “their child”....my child, his child, her child....all children of God. (You thought you were here about her, didn’t you?) I challenge you to find neurosis in unconditional love.

OMG nice! That was “me”! The only way to “win”, is surrender, cause there’s just no winning.

@KP_Spirituality27 Your being is just beautiful, it transcends our screens and words. I’m really happy for you. Seeing your blooming, the “process of self realization”, gets me in the feels every time. Honestly, you had me at “my first trip”...?

Always wondered (sorry if too ‘adult’ language) if people are subconsciously aware that their sensation of orgasm is bliss ‘ Godlike...and so they just dub it “coming” (as in going toward God). That word applied to that sensation otherwise just makes no sense. Nobody’s about to pop and yells to someone in the next room, like, hang on “I’m coming”. Gettin up and going somewhere is pretty much the last thing they’re about to do, you know? (Hence all the “oh my God” verbiage preceding)

Can you notice you established first that there is an ego, (which can’t be captured in language)? Without awareness this experience is actually thought, sensations, and perception, you (via the ego you hold on to as a “thing” mentally) deflect by stating that “I’m exaggerating”, while employing the defensive mechanism (the claim) that you’re not deflecting. Again, nothing “wrong” with it, just notice it, and use it. ♥️

Likewise. ??

You asked, “in language”. “Throwing a football”, is language. Yes, there’s no meaning in the language. Notice though Joseph, you deflect every question. You don’t actually answer. That’s fine, but you cold take it and use it.

#metoo.

@Joseph Maynor “throwing a football”.

So is it really a trick question? This is you asking you this, can it be a trick, really?

Why can’t that be possible?

@StillSearching Ya might even realize the clarity in ......”Who had the neurosis...really?” It was yours. The content of your neurosis, was thinking on behalf of someone else. Maybe.

@Joseph Maynor What is the ego?

That literally brought tears. Good for you brother.

Yes...and, there are NOT TWO. Enjoy her to your fullest, by loving her unconditionally. When that arises....it’s a condition. Love her unconditionally. Parley that to your world. I love Still Searching. You are my adventure. How much can I love you? Without condition.

@Nahm “I need to try, I need to fall. I need your love.... I’m burning away! All of these lines - never again! Come on and say it now, say it’s a game! I know some will say, it matters but little - but come on and mean it to me, I need it so bad... I need never get old”. -Nathaniel Ratecliffe

@FoxFoxFox Beautiful.

@Mikael89 You’ll see what you say about your personality, not getting a girlfriend, etc, - is the limitation of your beliefs, not actual. If you do the consciousness work, you could see it before the end of this life. By consciousness work, I mean pen & paper, and having a look at that big ol ego, by questioning the beliefs.

THAT ???

Right, that’s what needs to be let go of (it’s your belief). The actuality is you and her don’t have a “relationship”. You experience “the relationship”, and she experiences her “the relationship”. It is precisely how you’re experiencing it. You are not experiencing it precisely as it is. So if you’re worried about complications of neurosis to “our relationship”, you are experiencing the relationship from the deluded perspective of materialism.

@Schahin Science has ‘proven’ “reality” (your dream) is constructed with 11 dimensions. So the 12th is a reference to nonduality, or seeing the 11, from the perspective of 12th. The 12th is a mystery pointed at by most who are working the 11 dimensions “model”, as the 11 dimensions is used to explain how consciousness (thought & perception) is accomplished by the human brain. I like to see it as the 12th is the scientist creating the 11, unbeknownst to him / her. So it seems like there are 11 dimensions, in dimensionlessness actuality. This will likely lead to the revaluation (apocalypse) human did not evolve as currently assumed. (Aka it’s a dream, now) Collectively, it’s gonna take a while for the paradigm shift of consciousness being infinite (not a product), but really, that’s your own perspective / reality, which is “taking a while”, because that is the dream, ....“a while”. At some point, relatively, a lot of resources will go to discovering that 4 dimensions of “reality” can not be resolved with 11 dimensions “in the brain”. Then science and spirituality must be reconciled for both or either to continue. Paradoxically, that will be the “end” of both, which are not currently anything (just belief). This should at least initially bring to light that the finite perspective sees in in 11 dimensions, or dimensionlessness....but not both. It will be “resolved”, (or “12th dimension seen”) with the understanding and acceptance there are not separate finite perspectives, as science turns the corner into what from the current paradigm might be referrenced as “dream science” (which actually turns out to be non-dream science finally, but only in hindsight). Or more simply, that there never was 3 or 4 dimensions, only the dimensionlessness experience (“dream”). Having watched the most recent video + 30 silent days, Leo will probably be “the one” who brings this breakthrough together / to light (more literally, bringing the light to experience). Soon the term “outer space” will feel like “the earth is the center of the universe”...as it’s realized you are the “center” of the “universe”.

Mindful of your reactions and the apparent causation...mindful there isn’t a causation....Mindful there is only Mind.

1 gram for first time. Just get your feet wet, see what it is, no expectations. If you have a chill friend, and you’re both only doing 1g, having a friend there is great. Have fun with it. Not stupid fun. Down the road, when you have more experience, go solo. It really sounds like you need to drop your current projections of seriousness and fear, etc - and adopt the perspective of fun, carefree, let loose, unwind, breathe and relax. Say some self love affirmations before taking it, about how natural and easy it is to forgive yourself and love yourself. In 20 -30 trips, I never once brought ego (my personal wants & expectations) into a trip. The trip is to be without ego, so you can have a peak at what it is. “fears that limit me....fears in my head....I feel it's all in my DNA....fears, patterns, limitations....all the situations that causes me fear....I feel fear.................I do not even understand why.” What stands to be understood, is “The only thing we have to fear, is fear itself”. You can not realize an answer with the same mind that is creating the problem. If you want to be without all of those, be without them. If the point of the trip is to be without them (fear), then definitly do not bring them (beliefs) with you. Don’t you want to trip, to see the trip? Don’t bring your problems. Write down any and all concerns in your life on a piece of paper, bless it, and put it in a dresser drawer or somewhere safe. Tell yourself, I am without them now. I put them away. And above all else, no matter what - don’t resist. Surrender. Might want to write “you’re totally fine, relax, and Surrender” on a piece of paper, and position it in front of you. Also, do not just eat them. Make tea. The flesh of the shroom has a low toxicity and the last thing you need tripping is neurotoxicity coloring your perspective & thoughts.