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It’s like ‘your’ hand. ’my’ words. ?

@noip Start listening to Abraham Hicks. Maybe it resonates, maybe not. I’d give it a listen though.

@Major Tom It’ll pass buddy. Hang in there. Sometimes I think that forgiving ourselves of our egoish ways is like the finite faucet, like a silly little valve holding back infinite peace. Purification is always turned on, we are the valves. It’s your right to know that peace.

@Aakash ♥️? .....uh......on a funny scale of 1 - 10, it’s infinite, no?

@theking00 The devil (and suffering) is experiencing through identification with the body mind (general selfishness). God is without identity, without self, utter selflessness. ♥️

I don’t know about “harm”, (with the meat comment) but you’ll be sacrificing the majority of your ability to focus. The body’s energy that could have been used for mental clarity goes to the digestive system to power through the heavier foods. Karma has absolutely nothing to do with death / reincarnation, etc. Only this life. The entirety of how you’ve perceived all of your own actions with the world. Egoic thought is what makes ‘karma’. Ultimately, there is no such thing as karma, but you may need to undo some none-the-less, to aid in quitting the mind, for the sake of the path. This overthinking you’re doing right now, about dying and being reborn - that is the cycle of birth & death. It’s happening within you, via overthinking. Enlightened, there is no overthinking, no karma, no birth & death cycles. All that was your own thought stories. Had someone never mentioned it, had you not read it and believed it, you wouldn’t even be thinking about it at all. On the other, it can be a useful map. Don’t over emphasize it though. Move on. Find a guru. You’d be very surprised what you might experience (guru wise) from taking yoga and reiki classes somewhere. Pathwise, there is a limit to what can be realized with other people still in the picture. Then of course, there is an apparent limit to what can be lived in terms of the mystical abilities etc, without other people. God is so perfect and sneaky. Imagine being the most enlightened person on earth, and then keeping your mouth shut and listening to a yoga or reiki instructor. There are new experiences there. Unbelievable expereinces.

@Pouya RIght on. Do you see that if you were just the body (bones, etc) then there would have been no possibility of the reaction you described, or of any reaction at all. But there was. Just as you are aware of the body, you can not therefore only be the body. Simply put, are you aware of the chair you’re sitting in? If you’re aware of it, you can’t possibly be it. You must be the awareness.

@NoSelfSelf You will. It will be from first quieting the mind. Say, 95% emptiness, the 5% of “remaining thought” would not be the same ‘thoughts’ you’ve been experiencing. The feel, the view, perspectives, openness, vulnerability...will be different. (Just pointing, words can’t really explain it). Once the mind has quieted, there is no narrative, no thought stories anymore. Then self inquire. When the emotions start spewing (and it can be very overwhelming) the most important thing is to know what to do: Write it out on paper. Write emotionally and honestly, be as vulnerable as you can. Understand, that from the entirely false view of reality, physical / separations / identities, etc...everything you have ever experienced included the body’s emotional reactions. Pretty much all of the emotional reactions were suppressed. They didn’t make perfect sense because of the ‘physical / separate perspective’, but the brain covered it. It’s like it protected the body, innocently. Not with an intention of harm, or falsity, but protection. When our understanding is false, thought protects the mind from the suffering of emotion, but making up thought stories to make the experiences make sense. When you write out the emotions on paper, you can see it. The mind can see what’s written. Consider, the mind has been ‘cut off’ from the emotions (90%) your entire life, and now you are looking at them, tapping into their power - now you desire to understand the sensations. So, it’ll take a while. Might have to self inquire and write it out 10 to 100 times. Each time it get less severe, and the occurrences get fewer and farther between. The main point of this, is “clearing”, so when you then return to self inquiry, you naturally, effortlessly go deeper and deeper over time. Through this process there is a highly counter intuitive thing to be aware of. It may seem like you’ve opened Pandora’s box, and basically screwed yourself (suffering). Don’t be foolish though, be vulnerable. Cry it out. Let Big Love wash you out. The mantra is TRUST. Trust yourself, trust God, trust the universe, trust your pet hamster, doesn’t matter, just make TRUST a mantra in those difficult days. Don’t try to ‘hold ground’ emotionally speaking. Don’t think “I’ll be fine”, don’t believe “I’ll be fine” - understand the overall process, and know “I will be fine”. You can let go, you’ll be totally fine. There is a study you could find online, revealing how decision transpires in the brain 6 seconds before the person experiences “making the decision”. If that doesn’t scream “It’s safe to trust & surrender!”, then what does? @Serotoninluv ?? What you’ll find, is the more you barf the emotions up onto the paper and see it / understand it...... At first, thought / thinking will go NUTS. Just keep returning to writing about it, and breathing from your stomach, and trusting. Over time, the thinking will begin to dramatically reduce. Eventually (depending on how much you personally need to barf out) you will reach this 95% emptied, and the mind is barely even there anymore. It is delightful - but make sure to be patient with your tasks, and with your relationships, and with yourself. It might seem like you’re screwed, because like, “how will I get on in life without my thinking?!” If / when that stage occurs - do the same thing - write emotionally about it. See it, read it, TRUST. This is a very key breakthrough at this particular point. If you surrender & trust, eventually your entire “mental experience” will shift / change entirely. Instead of linear monkey mind thinking, there is delicious, spacious, no mind. You will certainly then readily see how thinking used to be driven from suppressed emotions rooted in false perspectives of experiences. Thoughts, the experience of “thoughts” flips, and whereas before you experienced linear one at a time thoughts, now you don’t experience thoughts - only spacious quiet no mind ness, and insights. One after another. It is quite glorious. It comes and goes at first. Don’t desire it when it goes. Return to the practices, trust them. No more desiring “growth” at this point. Only surrendering to the moment, as it is. You can certainly still pursue whatever you want in your life, but surrender to the moment, the now - actually notice and enjoy it. It is highly likely that most your chakras will have unified by this point, and that your crown chakra / third eye has opened. (Enlightenment) Psychedelics can be very helpful at this stage. Theeeeennnnnnn......you will be in close proximation of Siddhi’s. You will likely have some minor Siddhi-like experiences, like knowing what someone is going to say before they say it knowing the next song on the radio before it plays, etc. Likely to be facinating, but also fleeting. As great as that will be, you will begin to sense you are not “fully enlightened”. It is not “em-body-ed”. The odds of you going deeper at this point are slim to none, as it is so wonderful and satisfying. Here, “going deeper”, is a “level” of Trust & Surrender that is unimaginable until you “get there”. If you do keep going with that ‘practices proccess’, you’re going to stir up that old thinking, the kind you just got rid of. Everyone and everything you love will surface in thought and appear to be a loss if you were to keep going. I would bet you anything you’ll stop there. Nothing wrong with that at all. But if you do keep going, you’re basically handing your heart over to God. And he’ll take it too. You might thinking I’m joking or putting it lightly. I’m not at all. Your finite perspectives will basically disappear as if you never even had them. The memories sort of go along with the perspective, in a way. Keep going at this point, and your heart chakra, third eye, and crown chakra blast open in a unification of Self. Then it becomes readily clear to you, that the power of Siddhi’s, is God’s Infinite Love. But you’ll actually experience it, unexplainable, miraculously - as your own. I know that makes some sense to you now, nonduality and all, but just wait. It will make ZERO sense later, at this point. No sense at all. Completely impossible. Yet, happening. -After having rambled on all that....meditation (attention held on relaxed stomach breathing initially on the cushion, eventually 24/7) is to clear the mind of “today’s” concerns, so you can do that overall self inquiry / write it out proccess. If you are hitting walls (have a lot tucked away emotionally) then yoga is very good to open the body / emotions, and learn to maintain focus and concentration while the emotion is released. Ultimately though, the keeper of the gateless gate - is the finite mind. -And get your diet as clean as possible along the way. Healthy eating is HUGE.

Can you remember, or guess, when you learned that? When you learned the words “human being”? Maybe you can’t remember, but you’ve seen kids maybe 2,3,4 years old. You can see they learn words. Someone said “you are a human being / we are human beings”, and they identify themselves. What is aware of words? The truth is always in plain sight -( “Nothing is hidden from you” ).... you’ve got a ‘glass half empty’ situation there. Why didn’t it suffice, for people to simply use the word, “human”? Why “human being”?

@Moonturnsthetides Everything is happening for you. Just to experience it.

What?! What is it you are referring to?

@EternalForest The Self creates the ‘self’, the ‘self’ creates illusion. Such is the backtracking, to “death”. ?

@AlwaysBeNice Excellent site. Great work. “We must find the absolute – nothing less.” ??

Tune in, all day, everyday. Even while you sleep.

@Pouya Mindlessness is so sweet though. (Sweet as in knowing of not knowing anything. Innocent, humble, vulnerable, wondering. All an impossibility. But, there it all is)

@How to be wise Awesome man! ♥️ Thanks for sharing your breakthroughs. It’s a real joy to read. Really happy for ya.

@kindayellow There’s no need to label it. It’s not helpful, as it ‘keeps you in the thinking’ so to speak. It’s like labeling you. You can not be labelled. Aw hell no. Without the labels, what happening, what’s literally going on? Someone asks you about your future, about what you want to do with your life...and that triggers some self doubt thinking patterns you have’t been very mindful of. No biggie. Just need to understand your sensations. ... sensations that do not feel good arise. It seems like the sensations are a “bad thing”, because they don’t feel good, I know. Definitely been there. ? But, the sensations are not a bad thing. The sensations are a response of Truth from the deepest, deepest source of you. Self depreciating thoughts are merely that - thoughts. Your emotions on the other hand, that’s an entirely deeper connection to all that is. Truth. So when you think in a manor against your self, when you doubt yourself - your source....the actual ineffable Truth simply can not condone those thoughts, can’t ‘go there with you’ - because those thoughts about you are not true. So dream big. Then dream bigger. Dream so big you’d need several lifetimes and iron balls. When you feel that doubt, recognize it for what it is - old news. It’ll repeat for a little while, but stay present, don’t internally run from those sensations. Stay present, learn about them, take notes on what happened, what triggered, what thought story arose. Also, notice the twoness of such thought stories. Notice the tendency to, instead of listening acutely to the emotions, the message the sensations are, notice the tendency to avoid it, to do anything to stop it, to distract - and don’t. Thinking is never at a loss to create a story in which there are two of you “I (whatever words) myself”, or in which another person is involved and blamed / resented. Don’t believe the thought stories of twoness. That’s what the world by and large is doing. Believing the defensive mechanisms, the “protect me at all costs” thought stories of twoness, aka “othering”. You can be brave af though. You be the One. And it’s so not your fault at all. A lot of people were taught God is separate and to be feared, and a lot of people believed that message. Life is experienced very diferently from such a place of fear. From a perspective of fear, lack, shortage, etc - we get hyper-survival me-mode, greed, sneakery, deception, etc. World went off the rails a bit. Help it back. Start with you. Be the change. You need love, you need some understanding...you ask for help - and you get offered a monthly subscription to pills as effective as placebos, from someone running from their own emotions. You need a culture of support and authenticity, and you get fraudulent snapshots of cover story happiness; facebook, twiiter, instagram. The world is hiding, from itself. Hiding behind this twoness. What a joke. Though, you’d have to admit....it’s one a hell of a plot for one hell of an amazing life. A little bravery with our sensations can bring about miracles.

@Nathan leigh It is all very confusing. What are your most immediate wants / needs?

You’re actually doing great. Just feel it, embrace it all. I know that sounds backwards, but can you see that the labels of notoriety you mentioned are all ultimately hollow? I think you can see that. You want an extraordinary life? - do what no one does - embrace the entirety of your experience, all of you. Don’t shun or avoid any thoughts or sensations. Experience all of it. Observe those ‘old ways coming back’. What’s happening there, what starts it, what are the triggers, is there a sense of urgency to avoid it, to change it, etc. Write down what you’re finding, how you’re feeling, etc. Cry, cry, cry. Love can wash it all out. You just have to let go and allow it. Life is giving you enlightenment on a silver platter here. I know, like, how dare I say that. But I can absolutely guarantee you that if you just experience what is, whatever that is, you will enlighten, and you will shed tears everyday for the rest of your life as you wonder how you ever missed such beauty, uniqueness, goodness, and love. (I’m talking about you). I see it. Plain as day, from a pic and a few words. You will see it too. Life is giving you the perfect opportunity. It can not be any other way, the human condition is the most reliable situation possible. This is a great opportunity to truly discover and know yourself. Be brave, be patient. The wrapping may appear unfamiliar, but the present you have always known. Hang in there. Truly, we are all there with you. “Only in solitude do we find ourselves; and in finding ourselves, we find in ourselves all our brothers in solitude.” – Miguel de Unamuno “We must become so alone, so utterly alone, that we withdraw into our innermost self. It is a way of bitter suffering. But then our solitude is overcome, we are no longer alone, for we find that our innermost self is the spirit, that it is God, the indivisible. And suddenly we find ourselves in the midst of the world, yet undisturbed by its multiplicity, for our innermost soul we know ourselves to be one with all being.” – Hermann Hesse “If you learn to really sit with loneliness and embrace it for the gift that it is…an opportunity to get to know YOU, to learn how strong you really are, to depend on no one but YOU for your happiness…you will realize that a little loneliness goes a LONG way in creating a richer, deeper, more vibrant and colorful YOU.” – Mandy Hale “At the innermost core of all loneliness is a deep and powerful yearning for union with one’s lost self.” – Brendan Behan “Loneliness adds beauty to life. It puts a special burn on sunsets and makes night air smell better.” – Henry Rollins “Be a loner. That gives you time to wonder, to search for the truth. Have holy curiosity. Make your life worth living.” – Albert Einstein “It is better to be lonely than allow people who are not going anywhere keep you from your destiny.” – Joel Osteen “If you are alone, you belong entirely to yourself. If you are accompanied by even one companion, you belong only half to yourself or even less in proportion to the thoughtlessness of his conduct, and if you have more than one companion, you will fall more deeply into the same plight.” – Leonardo da Vinci ... ALL of us are there with you. We’re all in this together.

@peanutspathtotruth Thanks. No, I haven’t heard of it. Just sat and barfed for a few days, then it was pretty clear. ??? Aside front the pen & paper, It was pretty much a few days of Do Nothing practice. Really something what the mind throws out to get us to do just about anything for really any reason. It try’s every angle. Get’s all personal about it. Lol. So sneaky.

@Mu_ Thank you ??♥️

@David Hammond Thanks for the response. It’s always interesting to hear the many ways one can ‘get there’. ??

Ha! Cowbell jinx!