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Understand it. Let the past go rather than using it to judge yourself. That is the key. Recognize rumination and understand it. You were born ignorant and innocent, just like everyone else. Don’t add judgement, seek to understand what is misunderstood. Rather than believing something separate comes to visit you, take responsibility for focus now. The body will release emotional misunderstanding. Rather than believing something else is causing you to feel a certain way, take responsibility for the perspectives you’re focused on. What you’re feeling is the relativity of perspectives. Labelling this ‘social anxiety’ is labelling yourself and affirming this is true about you. The feeling tells you this is how you’re thinking. It does not feel good precisely because it is not true about you. What is true of you, feels delightful. What you are feeling is your self judgement. Again, in taking responsibility the body releases emotional misunderstanding. Saying the feeling is caused by this or that keeps the emotional misunderstanding suppressed. Self judgement, or negative self talk if you will, does not resonate because it is not true. Take responsibility for saying something critical. Take responsibility for judging yourself (“asshole”). Notice that is what doesn’t feel good. What someone says doesn’t actually “cut you really deep”. It reveals to you that you have some self judgement and negative beliefs. If someone called you a pigeon you’d laugh and think it was light & ridiculous. This is because you don’t have beliefs that you are a pigeon, so there is no vibrational resonating with a belief / judgement held about yourself. In missing that what’s really going on is self judgement and not acknowledging your own role in it & taking responsibility, and consciously choosing perspectives which do resonate with you...you’re entertaining further thoughts of denying responsibility. The relief & liberation is found in taking responsibility for how you feel, no longing labeling and or blaming others. You were handed a golden opportunity to recognize and see through your beliefs about yourself. Yes. Stop running so to speak and be responsible for how you feel. Notice reaction, breathe consciously and deeply from your stomach, shift focus from thinking to seeing, hearing, breathing & feeling and relax. Understanding and release ensues. Be particularly aware that when the body does release there will be a stronger tendency (initially) to ‘go into thinking’ and self judging again. Instead, return focus to breathing deeply from the stomach, and ‘be where you are’ via focusing on seeing, hearing, breathing & feeling. You did not let the emotions release. You clung to interpretations, labelling, and self judgment. But you learned something which is priceless.

@trenton If reality is as it is wether accepted or not, then it is unconditional regardless of conditions apparently held or believed. If reality is unconditional... selfishness, hate, cause, limit, suffering, choice, death, identity, the mind, clinging, spirituality, itself, attachment, stubborn, and movements are conditions, which must therefore not actually be real, or, reality.

Nothing has form. What is it? Why I do it? Is it the ego...or is the ego the thought? What is the ego? Those imply there is an ego, by implying there are two parts or components. Great work btw.

@Espaim Welcome home. ??

@Arcanus There is no past. There is no self. There is no shame. You insist there is a past. You insist there is a self. You insist there is shame. Love can not join you in a past, love is the present. Love can not join you in shame, love is unconditional & innocent. Love can not join you in suffering, suffering is the denial of love. Love can not join you in resistance, resistance is the denial of truth. There is no past, only the truth. There is no self, only the truth. There is no shame, only the truth. Love is every story, every character, every role, every script. Stake your insistence of conditions vehemently & relentlessly, be determined & unwavering in your resistance. This love is only felt more profoundly, this truth more deeply.

@Nemo28 Experience appears to be yours, while you’re appearing to be experience.

@Nemo28 No thing to include, no actuality of “inclusion”, Tao-less-ness.

Not even, as in there is no “this”.

Awesome. Now compare that to your original post / thread starter. Notice this post (above) doesn’t have all the added baggage of a past, of a story about life & a you...none of which is actually present. Look around, notice that / this, is actual. You are actually telling a story about this...but the story you are telling is not actually transpiring. This post (above) is connected in feeling, as an expression of desire and creating. It is coming from who you really are, rather than being a story about you. This is a delight to you, to creation. Let all else which is not, go, by noticing when you start telling the story which does not feel good to you - and not doing so. Notice number #1... is the expression that this is what you want. In the same respect, in a ‘put this into action now’ manor...do not reply to this post. Whatever thoughts arise, let go. Feel the being carefreeness of it. Let go of any impulses or reactions, and don’t reply. Notice as you let them go, all that remains is plenty of focus for what you actually want.

@Shmurda The liberation is understanding / recognizing how you’re creating the suffering as you create it, and no longer doing so.

@zeroISinfinity “Scientist”...? ?

@Nemo28 Not even. ?

@Harmony342 “Neil’s” on point. “There really is no such thing as consciousness”.

@Harmony342 Really scrutinize who & what you’re talking about. That is the way. Deconstruct concepts rather than adding them. Concepts like some people, experience, permanent states, etc.

In a way they are opposites. Derealization is experiencing the external world as unreal, depersonalization is experiencing a body mind as unreal, awakening is realization of reality, rather than unreality.

@Koeke Are you making money, affording your own place, supporting yourself, paying bills etc?

@Bill Hunter Much love man ??. I’d ‘be where you are’ so to speak, here & now, where relaxation, letting go, forgiving yourself, understanding and healing are available... vs thinking ahead to future & relationship. Perspectives change a ton and things can all seem very different from compared to where you’re at now. The more you understand from researching / reading, feeling and releasing, the more you’ll see things differently in great ways when the relationship does come around. Focus on doing all that you can to get yourself ready for a relationship. Let go of what doesn’t feel good and you’ll inherently raise your vibration, and experience will be liquid & flow than solid & difficult, if you will. If only we had dubbed the term being human, rather than human beings you know? Imo it points a little more to the truth that we’re all innocent and nobody really knows what the hell they’re / we’re doing. It’s really guesswork for everyone, so don’t beat up on yourself. Value letting go & forgiving yourself and others, and you will live a superior life in many if not all ways. We learn by experience. Focus on what you’ve learned from your experiences. Take a minute to notice, to realize, that you’re more conscious now than you were before, and that has something to do with why the past is coming up and bothering you. Gotta notice it’s precisely because you’re not in the same place so to speak that you were back then. Back then, you did whatever because of where you were at. Everybody would have done exactly what you did if they were you. It’s ok, you’re ok, and you can let it go. Takes time. Relax & breath deeply and be patient and loving with yourself as much as you can. And I wouldn’t give much attention to the soul ties stuff. Instead, try to understand judgement is the biggest and most inherent & fundamental problem for us all. Everybody wrestles with it like you are now. Everybody goes through it. With respect to your friend, recognize how you feel when you judge yourself like you are lately, and that he feels that way too when does it, even though he might not be recognizing that yet. I believe you can. No one who is judging would continue to do so when they become aware they’re doing it, because of how it feels. Feel your compassion for this human condition. Also, begin to inspect & notice, to make the shift ...that guilt is not a feeling, it’s a perspective. It’s found in thinking. It requires you to focus on a situation that isn’t happening but is a memory of the past, then to derive a perspective & interpretation of what transpired...which is not jiving with truth / the higher self / your inner being / the unconditional love that Is and is for you and is available to you always. Muster willingness to relax, and say, maybe it’s my perspective about this that isn’t jiving here’. I can’t possibly suggest strongly enough that it is only the perspective which does not resonate or feel good, and that you are perfec exactly as you are right now. You might consider, that there must be an unconditional love, because we can feel our perspectives, our conditions. Bill’s likely short for William. With a different interpretation & perspective, your name is Will Hunter. Which path wise is pretty damn cool, and insightful. I think you’ll find the will, I think it’s in you.

@OBEler It sounds like you’re in between paradigms / perspectives / interpretations that how you feel is caused by outside sources or an external world...and that how you feel is only directly relative to the perspectives, thoughts, views & interpretations you’re holding. That transition in life is perfectly natural, innocent... and unavoidable, unless one distracts from feeling by missing that thinking about feeling is not feeling, in the same and likely highly relevant sense that thinking about relaxation is not the feeling of relaxation, and letting perspectives of discord go by figuring them out or trying to resolve them, is not actually letting them go. Distracting from feeling by thinking about feeling....rather than letting thinking go & feeling, slows down understanding, personal growth, and the natural changing of perspectives allowing realizations, insights & epiphanies to arise. It’d work itself out from meditation, inspection & the living of life. Psychedelics accelerate the seeing of this transition, leaving you to do the feeling & letting go ‘work’, which could be considered the most fundamental transition / growth / expansion a human experiences (letting go of thoughts / perspectives / interpretations that don’t resonate / taking ownership of how you feel & what experience you create). This would be especially difficult if you took a psychedelic, but were not seeing this, and therefore applying the old paradigm to an experience / substance which is showing you the new one. A ‘frame’ if you will for the sake of communicating....we’re born, we create much misunderstanding, we suffer (feeling the thoughts which are of misunderstanding), we recognize the suffering is caused by misunderstanding, we emotionally release misunderstanding, and understanding, peace, and love ‘fills in’ / is revealed. Also, same thing but different verbiage....that old paradigm is basically what keeps the identifying at play, the new one is the result of letting the old one go, which is very emotional, so again, noticing the tendency for distraction, and choosing not to, to do breathing / feeling into the body exercises instead, seeing emotion comes and goes, is key. In avoidance of feeling and letting go, the mind weaves a narrative about everything else to essentially justify the feeling which doesn’t feel good with interpretations like...unpleasant, nothing special happens, more realistic perspective on this substance, something is wrong / i did something wrong, pure mental stress, fear, ego, ego death, ego dying, negative feelings, bad mood, depressed, etc. These are all thoughts about feeling. Every single one of them is only a thought about feeling, not feeling. None of the thoughts are actually about you, they’re only being believed to be about you. You are the awareness, which is aware of, and not attached to, the thoughts.

@OBEler Again, just a perspective, and admittedly, respectfully, it might seem like a bold one for you.......what if you take a minute to reconsider your entire interpretation of the experience from the standpoint that you are, in a very literal sense, making up that there is an “ego”, and “fear”? How would you describe the experience if you took away those terms?

Distraction is avoidance of feeling, 5meo is the complete opposite. One perspective is that you were using it to feel better, and it was doing it’s thing, and it shed light on resistance & avoidance of feeling / brought that you’ve been going that route to the surface, as well as brought feeling to the surface. That’s just one interpretation. Sorry to hear of the break up.

@Bill Hunter Give this a read, and maybe share your thoughts on it. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/evolution-the-self/201506/9-ways-talk-yourself-out-unnecessary-guilt

Awareness isn’t a perspective.

You need more experience of reality. Practices, expression, loving, retreats, trips...anything that is less thinking and more feeling & experiencing. Reality is limited by your perspective. Direct experience expands it. No one else can expand your perspective. Given where you’re at, I wouldn’t entertain any more perspectives from anyone. Go see, so to speak. Let go of everything you’ve heard everything you think & think you may know. Empty your cup. Start scrutinizing the actuality, the direct experience of right now. I don’t know if you’ll be able to notice the actuality of this, but when you say it’s so absurd, the ‘it’ you’re referring to is your own perspective. Let go of thoughts & perspectives that don’t resonate, that don’t feel good to you. Holding them when feeling ‘isn’t going there with you’ is the suffering. You can not think suffering, you can only self realize transcending it. All experience is relative to you. Expanding your mind & perspective abiding in feeling is critical, in comparison to believing perspectives which don’t feel good. Let every single one of those go. Yes, it’s because it’s your belief. The way of ‘eliminating’ it, is recognizing it doesn’t resonate, and you are suffering by continuing to put your attention on it (your belief / perspective). You can choose how you feel over what you believe, you can put how you feel first - and choose to focus on something which does resonate. There are ‘full circles’, where you come back to something later on the path, and it does resonate & make sense. If you’re around 20...compare how you see the world now, perspectives, to when you were 10. It’s very different, yet reality was in a sense always the same. Perspective. If you utilize the effortless power of focus, attention, and expand your mind, you have from where you’re at now in perspectives, to realizing the actuality of infinite unconditional love. And those words don’t do any justice at all to what they point to. You can do this. Only you can do this. It is already afoot. I’d start with a new user name and pic. It’s funny but still.

@Leilani ??