Nahm

@trenton Good to hear. I’d get in as much of that as you can.

Kenshō

Yes, homeostasis is a thought. You’re simply choosing to focus on what you want to. If & when you want to focus on something else, you will, just as you are now. It’s worth noticing how all evidence reflects there is only now, this moment...but in believing the story you’re telling, there is “everyday”...and in believing story, there is a “you” experiencing an “everyday”. It’s unseen. It’s felt. Everything, without exception, that you are seeing is the appearance of the creator. Imagine trying to find hay, in a haystack. At some point you would realize it is all hay. Again, not seen, felt, realized. You can also inspect for any separation between the “objects” you are seeing, the seeing, and the knowing of the seeing. There are often assumed separations, but when inspected it is realized there are not. Nobody is assessing who you are, and nobody is doing this by looking at your past. That someone is, and that they would come to any conclusions, is the story you’re telling, even though it does not feel good. It does not feel good, because it isn’t true. The misunderstanding is that there is a past, and that past happened to me. Yet neither a past nor a me can be found in direct experience now. “You in the past” is a thought, an idea, arising now. You are awareness, aware of, this story. Mindfully make the distinction between continuing to suppress emotion, and letting it out. Also notice, shame requires two entities. One scenario is you did something to someone else, and feel ashamed for having done it. The other scenario is a more subtle & sneaky smoke & mirrors...that story plays out that there are two of you. The one which is present & aware, and the idea of you. That “you” is an idea. An idea is present, and awareness is aware of it. That “you” is not actually present, or aware, because it’s an idea. You are actually what is aware of it.

“True” is a thought no mind is aware of. “No mind” is a thought awareness is aware of. Awareness is a thought you are aware of. No-mind is aware of the thought “I have”. The simplest answer is that you don’t, as “I” is a thought no-mind is aware of. “All is thought” is a thought no mind is aware of. Thought is so tricky, it can seem as if this is the “not good” / “not good feeling” part of the ride...and there is an “is good” / “good feeling” part of the ride which “comes” “later”. Meanwhile, what is being attracted, is the not good feeling part of the ride experience. The nature of it not feeling good is that you are creating it as you go, and there is something else in your heart you want to create more, and feel your being through your wanting. Start creating that. That one problem must be resolved to move forward so to speak, is just another tricky thought. Think about what you want more. It is coming from the same source as the thoughts. Thought is sooo sneaky, you can even create the appearance that you are not creating, and are not the creator. I am beginning to suspect that you are missing how truly amazing you are, as you are, whatever you are doing.

You aren’t feeling what anyone thinks. Never have. You’re feeling what you think. The majority of these thoughts feel off because they are about you. But you are the awareness, aware of the thoughts. This is self evident. When you notice you’re doing this, and so is everyone else (apparently)...bricks will be shat, paradigm will shatter.

@Psychonaut Try to notice the distinction between grandiose thinking / sizing up your whole life, all of reality, etc....and the profound simplicity of what’s present now. When you notice the spiraling out into thought occurring, bring attention back to seeing, hearing, breathing and feeling.

@Zec That’s beautiful. Very happy for ya.

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@Someone here Not entirely accurate dad. What is looked for is what is appearing as the thoughts about itself. Ultimately there is no difference, but ‘along the way’, studying quantum mechanics or the immutable laws for example, experientially exercises / expands the intellectual mind if you will, which is not quite the same as intellectualizing. It is much more already the surrender, or repurposing of “the intellectual mind”. There might be a misunderstanding that understanding or knowing could be found in the appearance of “arising thoughts”. Also, I like you so much too...but I don’t have any wisdom, and I don’t know what I’m talking about. Just having infinite fun. Not knowing is a bit like a pin that pops the balloon of the apparent finite mind. ? ? ?

No. It would be delusional.

@Endangered-EGO With respect to what you’re asking, all words are relative and can only point. You have to visit The Wizard yourself so to speak. When there is no more absolute truth, that / this is ‘it’, that / this is what seemed to be pointed to.

@trenton I think you’ll be glad. Zooming in and being productive is great and it’s equally important imo to zoom out and see the bigger & bigger picture. You might say it is creating, and remembering who’s creating. Let go, relax & enjoy.

Kind of saying the same thing. A word is conceptual. @Into The Void Yes, and also some paths go the opposite, and some are both at once.

When you’re bored you can imagine things to do, and you feel the alignment & discord of the feeling & imagining... a spectrum from enthusiastic to disinterested. So text in a manor that is the spark which ignites the coming together of his imagination & feeling, on your behalf, with you in mind. Something along the lines of...”I want a guy who is comfortable expressing himself & his sexuality...someone who could imagine, say, six things he’d like to do with me, to me, or like me to do with him...experiences together he deeply desires, and may not have shared with other girls...what’s the first one that comes to mind?” Have lighthearted fun with it, careful not to over think guys. The picture Leo posted is so funny because it’s so true. Most guys, especially young, would be thinking about that text (and you) all day for a month.

Infinite can not know finite. Infinite can not love an apple, because infinite does not know an apple. There are no actions, as Well, only being, only the infinitude of you.

@trenton Schedule three days, asap, void of all doing & productivity. In nature is best. We can only put so much pressure on ourselves for so long. Feel rejuvenation in the waking state, rather than attributing it so heavily to sleep.

@4201 No self, no mind. Psych’s are ideal for this work, obviously, but thought can attempt to hijack them, seemingly preventing the collapse of the inner and outer worlds.

@Tim R Indeed. Consistency is only apparent of course, like everything else. I saw this as well, and went and tried out some of this seemingly consistent reality at an unsuspecting reiki class in a yoga center. Then siddhi’s were as realized as this air, and “where two or more are gathered in my name, there I am” never sounded the same again. You know how it is...sometimes an old simple saying explodes within in a new and delightful profundity. The intellect too is mere apparent consistence, and in a sense is swapped for siddhis, by the prior, or more inner krya intention & sentiment of selfless love & healing. You are already ‘there’ my friend. Simply put yourself in the location, the proximity, the together. Love will do the rest and blow your mind. Godspeed.

@SonataAllegro So sorry to hear. Indeed you are tapping into that this place is eternal bliss, though the eyes & ears can tell a different story, and a bit of a tug of war between the mind and heart can be experienced. This can throw thought, perception & sensation for a loop, feeling that push & pull within, trying to make sense. But the real of us all is love, transcendent of the relative appearances. In thinking of the very best of any of us who have played our part and returned home, thought is aligned with the heart, the heart is easing & embracing of thought, truth & love are one, and loss can not be. The mind may listen to the eyes & ears, but the heart says here I am, with you now, eternally. We never leave, we never really come & go, we’re never truly apart in love.

@Endangered-EGO Truth can’t be conceptualized, just like you can not be aware of yourself.

Start with maybe ten minutes, two or three times a day. The point of it is to recognize & be familiar with sitting peacefully and relaxing. Then when the impulse & emotion arises, you can relax and see that it comes and goes. To think to much about it, or make a practice etc. Just relax.

Reincarnation

Indeed. Only love will do.

Truth = Happiness.

Let that belief go. You’ll feel the resistance to argue this point at first. Don’t react to it, don’t argue for it, just be aware of the resistance and let reacting go. This is where your developed ability to sit non-reactionaly comes to bat for you. Rather than reacting, just sit and be aware of the reaction. Some feelings will arise, but don’t react, just sit breathe, relax, and keep focusing on what you’re seeing & hearing. Allow the feeling of the feeling, don’t resist or judge it. The mind tends to ‘go into a thought story’ - and you’ll witness this - but remain present in breathing, feeling, seeing and hearing. After ‘sitting’, the feelings will come up & out and have passed. Then you will have more clarity regarding the feelings that you’ve been avoiding & masking with the activity / distraction of porn...because you just experienced the feelings. It ultimately not the porn or the wasted time or the missed opportunities which actually feels bad. Only the judgment of yourself. Again, to make a case that it is the porn which is the problem, is giving your power away. By sitting and essentially doing nothing, you are empowering yourself. Next time you experience that...choose to experience non-porn, non-reaction. Be curious what that experience is like. Be brave and willing to feel the reaction internally, without reacting externally, in behavior. .