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No...not related to you...without the story about you, at all.

@Someone here Thanks. ??

@Gabith Yep. ? I was just guessing At numbers and figures Pulling the puzzles apart Questions of science Science and progress Do not speak as loud as my heart Tell me you love me Come back and haunt me Oh, and I rush to the start Running in circles Chasing our tails Coming back as we are

@zeroISinfinity ? omg yeah. The cosmic punchline of no mind.

@Someone here Seems like plenty of space to me.

@meow_meow How is feeling / sensation, without this story about the you?

Listen to how you feel, not thoughts.

If there were a hundred thousand paintings on earth, would you find it odd that there are a hundred thousand paintings on earth, and none in direct experience anywhere else? Direct experience seems kinda, obvious and normal in this way, no?

@Brahman By appearing as the spheres of the word & lens, awareness refers to the experience of it’s creation which is itself, as ‘focus’. You might say, the relevance of focus, in creating the life you want to create, is that there are no objects. Similarly, turning the channel from 2 to 4 on a tv (analogy for thoughts & the breath) doesn’t require disidentifying with channel 2. With focus upon channel 4, there is no channel 2.

I know right?!

Ya. Sometimes it like looking at the gd sun.

@blackchair Not recognizing there is a dream within you to manifest and experience in the flesh, is insanity my man.

Expressing emotion is understanding emotion. Use the emotional scale, let me know how it goes, if you get ‘stuck’. Pm if you like too. Yes, there is not two. Consciousness is unconditional, raising it is conditional. It’s essentially believing you’re not enough as you are. It also reinforcing the illusion of the separate self, which is not consciousness, but has consciousness, and “needs to”, or “could”, raise it. What is “needed”, relative to finding relief from the thoughts already going on, is emotional understanding, and letting conditions upon the love & happiness you truly are...go. This is just how I’ve come to understand myself ‘ reality btw. It’s a ‘rip’ or ‘cut’ on anyone else.

Also, it might be helpful to be more specific with what you want. Feeling better. Accomplishing more. Letting go of self doubt or a fear, etc. Often the way to, is in inspecting what led you to look. There’s likely something you want to do or create, and a single emotion yet to be understood and expressed.

@blackchair Do you even have a dreamboard?

If you’re arguing about nonduality, you aren’t actually talking about nonduality.

Welcome to the forum! Eddie Van Halen, arguably one of the greatest & most original guitar players of all time, originally played the drums. His brother was a little better, so he played guitar so they could start a band. He learned the chords and scales, but he never tried to play much by anyone, or like anyone. If you google him and watch his more recent interviews and guest appearances I think you’ll find it enlightening. People are, of course asking him about playing guitar and being in VH, and Roth vs Hagar, etc... and all his answers are general, about living with purpose, loving life, and being yourself. To me, it seems like your mood and emotion is roller coastering a bit. I would pay close attention to how you’re thinking, and notice that is the influence of how you’re feeling, much more than the circumstance. If it takes you a year, two years, five years, ten years, to play with the ability you desire to, so be it. Understand thought & emotion, and enjoy everyday, regardless of your circumstance. As someone over twice your age, I can tell you with certainty that day where you got everything lined up and you’re happy...never comes. Happiness & inspiration are either now, or not at all. Never in a future. Notice, you define “problem”. There isn’t any problem, you only experience that way if you decide there is a problem. I played guitar for a decade or so before I started playing the drums. I found that the muscle memory, mental acuity, etc, carries over. I was recording drums tracks a few months in. I never thought there was a “problem”, I just enjoyed it. Between your time behind the kit and you years of poetry, you’re all set. Just gotta let go of any thoughts that don’t resonate with you. If you scrutinize, you’ll notice it is not actually the thoughts about the years, or being behind, etc, which don’t resonate...it’s the subtle thoughts & implications about yourself which don’t feel good. You’re in for a real treat imo, with just venturing in to learning how to sing. Take the time with some YouTube videos or lessons. Learn how to stretch the stomach, sing from the diaphragm, and feel the registers. This is imo, the greatest spiritual practice there as. Pure love & vibration. I think what you’ll find as you go, is that no ‘gets in’ the flow state. It’ the default, the inherent momentum of life...when we are mindful to set our feeling bar high, letting any thought which doesn’t resonate go, swiftly. Make the form conscious choice, decide, not to settle for low vibration, for self judging. Do this by choosing to put how you feel about of all else. Way above all else. And you will find things do start magically working out for you. When you notice you’re being serious...choose between serious and sincere. No one can pull both off at the same time. I’d give a little consideration to motivation vs inspiration. Motive is avoidance. It’s striving to accomplish to avoid a situation. It’ll work, but kinda like a guitar with one strong technically works. Inspiration is putting feeling first, and bringing that inner goodness to all that you experience. In spirit, inspiration, you are freed from the roller coaster. What you experience isn’t given as much seriousness or importance, instead, you choose to enjoy yourself, to just enjoy being, regardless of situation and circumstance. Life is very counterintuitive, in that letting go attracts all that you desire to experience. I’ve played in bands my whole life, since about 13, and while I’m not saying don’t learn the deep technical aspects of guitar...I can tell you what every singer song writer ends up recognizing, is three chords and the truth are always enough. It will be the poetry of your song that moves you and others, not whatever takes ten years to pull off on the instrument. Just one perspective here, there’s infinitely more of course. Godbless and best of luck with all your endeavors.

@Kalki Avatar Just had this thought and had to share it. Look at Leo’s catalog on Youtube. It’ll take twenty minutes just to scroll through it. Lol. I was thinking, there’s a good chance he is literally the least confused person on earth, so to speak.

There is nothing you need to do. Everything you are doing, you chose to be doing. The overwhelment is not the product of what you have to do, it is the natural discord of the perspective that there is anything you need to or have to do. Everything you are doing, you get to do. Appreciation without condition, of all you have experienced, and of all that you are experiencing realigns you with this deep truth of unconditional feeling being ever present now. Good feeling is not in a future, nor in any accomplishment. Good feeling is unconditionally present now, and arising of you. When you recognize the truth, that all of your choices, and all of your focus thus far have led to where you are and what you’re experiencing, you simultaneously realize this will continue to be the case, and it begins to feel downright amazing in the recognition you are creating your reality via focusing from this place of pure magic, of feeling, now. The easiest, most effortless way to realize this by getting ‘out of your head’, and literally seeing the true power of your creatorship of reality unfolding in your life and right in front of you, and to begin to consciously focus and create the life experiences you desire, is to make a dreamboard, and to allow your mind to clear of the old perspectives, first thing every morning. This is self love, and it is the only power that is, and it is the electricity of creators. The miracle that is experienced and seen, is that you have always been, are right now, and will always be, perfectly on course with what you desire. You are not a physical object moving through time. You are attracting what you are experiencing. Relax in your being. It is all coming to you. To hurry through now, is to miss this actuality.

The experience of life is for you. See this, and you are perfect at it. You simply & profoundly can not get it wrong. Judge yourself, wether by your estimate, or by your thoughts about what others think of you, and still, you are perfect at it, because your sensational guidance let’s you know you’ve went astray from it, in giving mind to what others think, when you are knowing of your passion. Others have passion too, and others have feet and hands, and thoughts & dreams, and a body and mind, thus they need not concern themselves with what you focus on and enjoy, with your passion, nor you of them and theirs.

You are currently wanting these things because you are believing the goodness of feeling comes from things in and of your experience. Notice you are the source of feeling. Feeling has never ‘come to you’ from anyone, anything, or anywhere. Desire is this goodness of feeling. Desire is the gasoline of the creator. What good is a car which is attempting to exhaust it’s gas? This is very conflicting with it’s dream & vision of where it desires to go. What good is a car which renounces the very gas which serves it in creating the life it wants to create? What good is driving a car when you are not looking through windshield, but to the floor boards trying to figure our which gas to use? The car is already cruising. Look where it is going, and indeed it goes there.

Beautiful and very inspiring indeed. Thank you for sharing. When a thought arises about yourself, and it does not feel good, it is not true. If we allow it to be, it is this simple. Inadequacy is not actually possible. You are you, however you are, you are. That is actual. “How you could be, or should be”, is a thought about what is actual, but is not actual. You might think of this as “comparative thinking”, believing thoughts which are of the theme of comparing how you actually are, to “this other you”, which is only a thought, and not an actual “other you”. The perfect one is the only real actual one, and you are that One. You are beautiful, whole, and loving, and not a single thought to the contrary will ever do.

@Tim R You are a strikingly beautiful being.

Emotional suppression is caused & perpetuated by believing thoughts about yourself which are not true, and as such do not feel good, to you. When emotional suffering is prolonged by not releasing it, the mind weaves very convincing narratives to “make sense” of the suffering, in extreme cases, even confusing it with & attaching it to pain. There is a deep peace & clarity just from the inner kriya, the willingness and choice to address the suffering. To begin to address, inspect & understand, is to sleep well at night. When the suppressed emotion and misunderstanding are inspected and begin to arise to empty from the body mind, the mind has a tendency to double down on the narrative, with more self referential thinking, like “fear”, and or fear of more pain (from the mind attaching the emotional suffering to the physical sensation of pain) and unfortunately a new misunderstanding is adopted and the release & understanding is prolonged. When the suppressed misunderstanding & emotion begin to be inspected, they are brought to the surface. This is a very intimate & sensitive experience. When one desiring & experiencing this process of releasing conditioning is around other who is holding the same conditioning, one resonates vibrationally with the suppression of the other, and believes the emotions one is experiencing, are somehow ‘coming from’ the other. The body mind will naturally ‘call’ for time alone, and in this time alone will naturally release. The orientation of ‘fully charging your batteries’, counterintuitively, is backwards. In releasing that which does not resonate with you, that which resonates with all unconditionally fills the body mind naturally, like a cork held under water which is no longer held, naturally floats. The thought narrative that this desired release pertains to others, exacerbates the thoughts about oneself which don’t resonate, and narratives, cover stories of thought, like guilt, are believed. When we release conditioning, the direct experience of the one releasing is of peace of mind, joy, rejuvenation, clarity, focus and concentration. But to another who is watching, it is not experienced this way, and counterintuitively, it looks quite worrisome. This is why Catholics believe in exorcisms. Because they don’t understand emotions from not releasing their own misunderstanding & misidentifications felt as “shame” and “guilt” by their own dogma, so they believe in demons & possessions, from only watching and holding a false authoritative status of self image. When the body mind empties, when we release emotion, understanding arises. In this process it is common to feel and experience sadness, followed by deep yet peacefully comforting sorrow, followed by love & truth. It is not uncommon for a death to bring the sadness of collective suffering into experience. This can intensify the experience of suppressing vs releasing misunderstanding. What keeps one from fully releasing, is identification, or, thoughts about oneself that feel terrible, but are still believed to be true, rather than let go simple because of how they feel. When we are going through purification, releasing conditioning, we intuitively recognize the truth of “death”, and feel the deeply moving peace, though the mind might not yet be on the same page as the body mind which is made of the infinite intelligence and love that the common muggle believes to be “death”. The present moment is all that is. “It” is infinite being, and ‘you’ are not separate. The experience of this present moment is the entire point of the apparent universe. All that is, is, for the singular point, of your experience right now. This right now moment becomes what you focus on. Focus is not culminated, but is the natural experience of the continued releasing of the conditioning. Making a dreamboard is more than just fun, it get’s the swirls of thoughts wrapped up in emotional misunderstanding and suppression out of the body mind and in front of you, you might say ‘in reality’. From this new vantage point many, many insights arise and wonderful feeling realizations fill in. I can totally relate, and I would not be attempting to communicate this to your partner. I would get away and be alone for a few days or more, preferably in nature, with the single pointed intention of letting it all out, and spending your time doing anything you like, love, and enjoy. When we are focused on what feels good to us, source is there, loving us and clearing away what does not resonate, bringing the true goodness that you are to surface, deeply.

It’s thoughts. You let go of them via meditation. Clarity & focus ensues, naturally. Then you are again positioned to focus on what resonates with you.