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Nobody (else) is keepin track of this stuff. Make threads about what’s actually important to you. Something you wanna know or think through. Something you want to achieve, experience, create, understand, etc. Or maybe something which isn’t serving you, which you want to let go of.

That’s really more of an either or scenario.

Yep ?

@Zeroguy Nah. She still does though. Insatiable, as we know.

If the activity of thought & attachment therein is such that there is “wisdom”, such that you have it or don’t, or others have it or don’t, you ain’t wise.

@eliasvelez Have as many as you want. In the near future this will be very common.

Well if ya ever see either of those definitely take a picture.

@Zeroguy How so bro?

@Strangeloop Maybe the anger is from a lens of getting things done correctly & in a timely fashion. If so, the relief is that there is no actuality of “done”. If something is worth deviating from this peace & love now, there will always be something else, another reason, another justification & rationalization of the anger. Next time it arises, just breathe deep in the stomach, let gravity relax every muscle, and notice the complete anarchy and hilarity of reality by and large. Don’t identify as the anger (“I have anger issues” ). Recognize anger as the emotion experienced. This is the opening to see you are creating it, and how, and the reaction factor can morph into a conscious response (to the thought, not the other or external).

The lion is roaring. ✊?

@Endangered-EGO Like ‘yourself’, the “scientific proving” is already and also the manifestation.

@James12345

Psychedelics can be very helpful for the thought attachment or belief that there are psychedelics.

It’s not that there is a we and an experience and feelings in question of trustworthiness or realness. It’s that there isn’t. Not two. Right, then don’t. It is you which is powerful & amazing, and profoundly loving & positive. Not some drug, experience or reality.

Self Inquiry.

Child’s play. I’ve discovered a fruit so potent in obliterating the ego and bringing joy & peace to humanity that I can’t even share it with you.

@Windappreciator ? @Waken You go shove a few bananas up your ass and then we’ll talk about which one of us is more enlightened.

Apples are the real deal, they revealed my true nature of lovingkindness, and anyone who disagree’s or says otherwise is a delusional asshole.

Maybe move something that isn’t shaped like a sail designed to catch wind…? Right?

That’s alright though. Let the past be passed. Trade that ‘understanding’ for the sweet relief of regular ol’ not knowing. I have a hunch you’ll inevitably ‘directly experience’ the actuality of not knowing appearing as all ‘knowing’, as in a knower knowing x, y or z. And just a suggestion, but don’t wait’ll it gets so damn dark next time. If somethin feels off, it is off. And there’s no getting closer to the I am. This is the misnomer of the progresser, achiever, obtainer mindset. Each ‘step toward’ is thinking, and is unequivocally always a step away from feeling, from source, from the I am. I get it though, nobody wants to just meditate every morning and enjoy life. Gots ta get that enlightenment. The tortoise & the hare though. Also, to flip the mental paradigm… ‘the dark’ is always getting a bad wrap, but it’s the real deal. It’s the light which is only apparent. Going by the picture, you might be trying to apply efforting, doing, etc, that has worked well in matters of life, to your path. When it is said consciousness, as in ‘your consciousness’ is expanding, this is what it points to. You know the ‘getting it done’ facet of living obviously. The motivation, the dedication. Now expand by deeply letting go, deep relaxation, allowing thought to appear and disappear, etc. I don’t mean in a summarizing way, I mean, for example, in one day you might let go in a morning meditation profoundly peacefully deep, and kick as lifting, or vice versa. Inspiration… with that motivation & dedication… psh… forgettaboutit. Unstoppable.

Don’t hold the belief you are in a state and then try to practice as compensation, just notice you are not in a state. When you think or say that, attempt to point to it for clarity. Like if you were “in a house”, you could point to the house you are in. Do that with “a state”, to liberate yourself of this suffering. Believing you are is not without emotional consequence, because then you attempt to change “your state”, which “you are in”, without addressing the thought or perspective by which you’re creating the discordant emotions. Essentially, this is monkey mind (a self referential thought narrative) and a spiritual bypassing of that you are doing so. In not addressing this, that whisper of discord gets louder. In letting this lens or framing go, the pain, headaches, stress & fatigue will fade away naturally such that you won’t even remember them really. Every time you focus upon the arising thought “I’m in a state”, source is ‘saying’ no I am not. This emotional & physiological tug of war ends in listening to source. Analogously, imagine someone walking around telling everyone “I’m in a box”… and everyone telling them, no you are not. Imagine them refuting this, and insisting they are in a box. What could you possibly do to help them with this suffering which they insist upon? They’d have to acknowledge they are not actually in a box.

@Martynas777 It’s not what you’re doing per se, which is causing this, it’s the way you’ve framed up the path, the practice, and spirituality as a whole. It’s a letting go, not a progressing, an advancing, or as you say, quotes or not… gains. A dark night is not happening to you, it’s how you’re lookin at it / thinkin about it. Proper meditation is the utter opposite of focusing on the thought narrative of a you getting your ‘hits of higher consciousness’, or ‘how far you can go’. Listen to that source energy when it is subtle, well before it is yelling (panic attacks), and definitely long before chronic dis ease. You is not a thing in a state, so that self referential thought indeed feels very off. ‘Waiting out’ these ways of thinking about a yourself is the stark opposite of a surrendering of these discordant thoughts & perspectives which do not serve you in any way which is why you felt better before. 5-6 months of this? I feel for you man, really. It’s tragic.

Without focus upon thoughts about a yourself which is or isn’t satisfied, is or isn’t doing, is or isn’t not doing, etc, etc… there is the experience of the emotion of contentment, the natural outcome of letting self referential, conditional thoughts, go. ‘You’ don’t ‘reach’ contentment. The goodness you truly are always arises effortlessly of it’s own accord, just like a cork which was held under water (all emotions lower than contentment) and is let go (all emotions higher than contentment…hopefulness, optimism, enthusiasm, passion, joy, etc). ‘Getting out of your own way’, so to speak. We have no call to bring ourselves up, only to let go of what’s bringing us down.

@Waken How dare you. ?