Nahm

Maybe intrinsic is a better word than obvious. Suffering can be hidden I suppose, under layers, but hurt can not. Hurt, pain, will interrupt a meditation, a contemplation, an inquiry. Hurt prioritizes intrinsically, takes precedence unequivocally. Doesn’t matter what is being thought about. I mean obvious like you could be unraveling the mysteries of the universe in your mind so to speak, and if someone punches you in the face now your attention is there.

(Sorry for butting in) That is precisely what it ‘means’. Goodness, good feeling if you will, is the Mother F’ing Truth! This is why some thoughts, about ourselves, about hate, about manipulation, about death - feel like one big hell no. Don’t look to ‘know it’ in thought, to “get it” conceptually, to “cognize it” - feel the goodness that IS. Prior to thoughts, unthinkably simple, Self Evident! Go ahead and try to ‘take feeling off’, like you would a jacket. Really try… and then check to see if sensation, if feeling, is ‘gone’. Check and check again and again until you are more sure (yet cognitively not knowing or grasping anything) of this presence of God than you have been or could ever be of anything.

I wouldn’t even contemplate it. How could you really? That implies there are layers to uncover, but with hurt there aren’t. A loose language pointer, but, it’s ‘supposed to be’ the most obvious thing in the world. Isn’t it so? But man has priorities, cause man believes man thinks past & future, and is finite. Man is thus ambitious. A slippery slope, inherited again & again. Look at leaders. They don’t talk about hurt. They don’t give a fuck. They want to be known & seen as leaders. Finite. The illusion of leadership. Get what I’m sayin? Wise fools ‘going deep’ with what is painstakingly () obvious. As obvious as infinity. As obvious as love. Even to ‘put yourself in the shoes of others’ is bypassing. It’s dumb in comparison to how obvious hurt is. But we all buyin the talk, the products, the plans, the solutions, the ways, the “help”, yada yada. We all thinkin & talkin about it, just like this right now.

God is not a separate entity, and you are not a separate entity or being, and yet you are not God, you are you. ANY time you ever check within, like “are you listening God, are you here for me”, you will feel & know (exactly as you are sharing you knew as a kid) God is ALWAYS there for you, rootin for you, loving the absolute bejesus outta you, infinitely showering you with love. Always & without any possibility of exception. God never questions your worthiness, deservedness, value, plans, purpose, actions, behaviors, etc. Pure unconditional. Your greatest fan. In this sense, prayer, meditation, yoga - it doesn’t matter what or how, or what we call it, when you ‘go to’ God, when you set time aside, God will melt all conditions away.

@Thought Art You’re welcome, hope it was helpful and much love ?. I’m apparently a metaphysically picky son of a bitch so I’ll add… even to embrace is too much. It imposes a question, like to embrace or not to. Even that is a duality. It implies you aren’t this beauty, that you could embrace it. You = what “beauty” is. That’s just a word, a concept, a pointer. When we’re saying beauty we’re talking about you my love.

It doesn’t mean anything.

@Vision It’s paradoxical. You have to probe a bit and see what it is, and yet at the same time you already know what it is. If you can embrace both those views it’ll inevitably clear up. Also, tension is body mind stuff, so you could do any or all basic body mind relaxation stuff, and check in on clean diet, exercise, etc. You mentioned you want to feel more loose and playful, the opposite of that is knowing as in being the knower. So also look for what you know, and bring the other end of the paradox, or the polar opposite forward. Be absolutely literal. Not trying to ‘pick on you’… but an example would be “it always feels like I have pent up tension”. There was a point so to speak when you didn’t, and that changed, and now there is the experience and the thought that you always do. That became a story… so literally just start telling the opposite story. Tell yourself, so to speak, I never feel tension, I’m always having fun. In a matter of days you’ll forget you ever told the old story. If the thought arises, like, ‘that won’t work’… I need something, some practice, treatment, substance, etc… then you have some info to probe with… if a remedy seems called for, it points to something which is held or believed which needs to be remedied, or just let go.

Also… it’s literally not possible to not be in first person perspective, if I understand what is meant by that term to you. Even if you are aware of thoughts, about what other people might be thinking, that is still from the first person perspective. With the entirely new experience you have going on, and all these suggestions… if I could draw out what is singularly most fundamentally helpful, imo it’s feeling breathing from the stomach. Consciously stomach breathing. Every system of the body responds favorably with relaxation and calm… peacefulness. Then the mind unwinds, slows down, relaxes. Then more perception and feeling are taken in, so to speak. The ‘trick’ is noticing it works. Notice you mentioned it worked. Be aware of that. Make a note of that feeling. Soon you’ll simply bring it to mind and the body will fill with it. This might not cognitively click, you might be thinking this is way to easy and simple to fix all these problems. But it’s like chopping a tree down at ground level, vs starting at the top and chopping a foot at a time. You’re going straight to the root and everything else, literally everything responds.

@AminB501 This might put you at ease… there are no new thoughts. There are no new ideas. There are no new teachings. There are no new, no original, no unique teachers. Every word, idea, teaching… is a regurgitation. One might realize / be aware of this, one might not.

@fopylo Yes. Just witnessing, observing, being. That could also be said as being without judgement, without conditions & expectations, without analyzing, etc … or simply just being presence, or shifting awareness from thought, to perception & feeling. Thought activity then settles, which feels relaxed and even connective. Imo it’s part of a slightly bigger picture. Often people try to go from a discordant emotion straight to a very aligned emotion, neglecting to let go of the thought or perspective which is creating the discordant emotion first. It can be tricky because there is often a reluctance for one to come to terms that one is creating the discord. Often the settling of thoughts into bodily relaxation is the key or game changer, then it can be seen when we are projecting, or, saying I feel this way because of him, her, them, the world, etc.

@Vynce You seem to be thinking pleasure is not you.

That would be not thinking about yourself. Be loving. Don’t care what anyone thinks. Don’t even take what you think seriously. Just relax and love whatever is experienced. Stop comparing yourself, trying to one up, be better, etc. Enjoy yourself. Allow other people to think and feel what they want. Ask people simple questions about them and their interests and just relax and listen. Relationships ensue.

Was that ‘skin in the game’ enough for ya?

@gettoefl I don’t know really. What would constitute ‘skin in the game’ to you? How would you like me to go about ‘putting skin in the game’?

(More of the same)

@gettoefl Likewise, with respect, you assume much about me.

@gettoefl You are the creator of your reality. But - only now.

“Be as little children…” What is tension? Tense in. As in, you bring in a past and or a future, you bring tenses in. Where as before you listened to the mind, to the thoughts, now you listen to the upper abdomen, the chest, and the lower neck. This place is for you. It is the present. There is no tense in this present, it is not other than you. The body is only present, and never believes. Many kids don’t have this problem, this tens-ing. They write what they want, they believe it will come, and by God, it does. Still - what can I do to solve it? There has to be something I can do… in the future… to solve this.

That thought is that there is a past. One is identifying by that thought. It is not then which one can not make up one’s own mind so to speak, it is now when one is making up one’s own mind. That is a self fulfilling prophecy. The opposite outcome is equally true. Be at peace in allowing others to feel their own judgements and conjectures. You will be most pleased, elated, which what you experience in relation to those around you. Not doing, not going, not believing, is effortless.

That I, the one which is too afraid, is actually a thought, a belief. You are not in the the thought narrative of fear, courage & self esteem. Awareness is aware of those thoughts. Church is a building. An idea of an organization. It has not the property of assertion, nor leading. There is nothing to fight. Leaving behind what doesn’t resonate is the easiest thing to do possible, because one feels better, which is why one went there in the first place.

@Goldzilla ??? Exactly.

The obvious thing to do is not agree, not go along with it. People feel their thoughts, you feel yours. You abide in that guidance, and you will see with your own eyes everyone around you will too. It is inevitable and can be no other way. Love is infallible.

Ask it why some humans nonetheless are unable to see this mind, this power of intelligence, can not see this is the great awakening.

Thought art. Not life, not future. Thought art. Be the artist you are.

You can judge, you can label, determine, and believe those thoughts that there are failures & success… but you don’t have to, you can listen to how it feels to judge as well. When we miss that we are the one judging… we falsely ‘make sense’ of this by creating beliefs about ourself. Discordant, diminishing, limiting beliefs of shortage or lack. This is a compounding of discord, of what didn’t feel good in the first place. Go back and recognize the judgement, and those beliefs vanish. Honor your want. You want to make music? Make music. If you want to judge yourself; success, failure, stupid, impulsive, lack - then judge yourself. But see the facade of it. You can not actually judge yourself, and that is why certain thoughts feel so off. You are yourself. Just pop a different name in there, and this becomes crystal clear. “I like my long term vision for Tom Hanks.” The vision is the vision. You are aware of the vision. What is aware? Of course, only awareness is aware. As you are awareness, aware of the thoughts - you can not possibly be the one it is believed you are thinking about. That is the discord, the suffering. That one in the thoughts can never measure up to the truth that is, awareness… because it’s thoughts. It isn’t fair to expect this. When one lets go of judging, the great life, the beauty, the love, is now. Don’t accept discordant beliefs - let them go simply because they are discordant, because they don’t feel good. It is not your life which feels discordant, it is you perspective(s). While to you, it seems you’d have to change your life to be happy, the truth is you are happiness by default, and this happiness is being obscured, covered up, by discordant perspectives. You would never hold your hand on a hot stove and complain that it is happening to you. But you are doing this with the perspectives you’re focusing on. The body is intelligence, and will remove the hand from the stove - without any need for thinking whatsoever - and having absolutely nothing to do with any beliefs, concepts or strategies whatsoever. The mind is exactly the same - if you allow it. The only way to not allow this - is to judge, and bear the discord & suffering of doing so. This is not forced upon you, this is not happening to you. You are a creator. You are the creator. You are God, momentarily, playing small. Obviously it doesn’t resonate, because the truth is you are fucking awesome. You can’t “grasp” or “realize” that in thinking, which is where you’ve been looking. But when you love. My good, good man… when you love. When you choose to love and not to judge. I tell you in truth, your dreams indeed begin to manifest. Connect the dots. Love. I know it’s hard sometimes - love. I know life throws us curve balls that we don’t initially understand. That’s ok - love. I don’t you don’t have everything you want already, but when you love, this is not a problem. You can always vision, imagine, see that it is coming, and you can love the feeling of doing so - and it will be, because God says it will be. Step into the shoes that do fit. As Rupert says, take your stand as awareness. I would add, unconditional love. Take your stand rightfully. You are not a kite in the wind being blown this way and that - you are love, you are the creator. Putting the worth of life in question is judgement. The things of this place have no worth, because they are not separate. This experience, the sheer profundity of it, is fulfilling. Judgement veils this, covers this, obscures this. Judgement can not be solved or figured - only let go. That’s judgement. You are learning that. It’s the lesson which frees you. Let the fighting perspective go. The truth is you are attracting. Be a vibrational match to what you want, and there is only the one possibility, that it indeed shall be so. Let judgement go. Those are all judgment. There’s nothing need be realized there. Those thought don’t feel good. That is enough. Listen to the guidance of feeling. When we pretend we aren’t the one judging… we pretend there is fear. There isn’t. It’s simply how judgement feels. Listen to the feeling, don’t believe the thoughts. Oh hell no. You are The Perfection. Let judgement go. When perfection believes there is imperfection, this feels very off to perfection. Think about your experience and what you want. Stop thinking about yourself. That isn’t yourself. Those are thoughts. Don’t ‘fight’ and attempt to transcend. Let the habit of judgement go. There was a monk who heard a knocking on the monetary door. He says “yes..?”… and the man knocking said “let me in, I want to know this peace!”. And the monk said, “but if I let you in, there won’t be this peace!”. Awesome. But then the judgement…. ? Awesome! But then the judgement… ? You are love. Letting go is not aversion. Working, solving, thinking, is aversion. Awesome!! But… here comes that judgement…. ? Awesome. In focusing upon that, it will be so. But… here comes that self judgement again….. ? You are integrity, honesty, maturity…. believing that you lack. You don’t. You’re infinite.