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Okay, yeah it was useful, I see, it was useful for me at the time too. But to ironically get to the point of seeing it's not really useful ^ ^ oh paradox

How so? It's just a bunch of thinking. Why not either have direct experiences of altered states or experience other dimensions/realms directly.

Yeah.. I see it also this way: philosophy is just a rather unfulfilling trap to spend a lot of time on. Let interesting deep thoughts come as will if they come, and then just let them go, there is nothing to figure out, and you can't figure out emptiness, you can only be it and let it flow. So yeah my would be advice leave it all behind, and focus on things the stuff that has soul, like music, and spirituality, and just have a little bit of faith in the universe that it will support your brave soulful decision.

Today I had my second guru experience (with Eric Hoogland, in the Netherlands). Pretty amazing, it really supercharges your meditation process, being in such a presence, and the eye contact is just such a unique intense experience, and was a really grounded experience too. I released some emotions afterwards, I feel more confident and my view is truly fresher/intenser, really nice, I also have more confidence in the fact that this absolute is very within reach. It really has a lot of potential to transform you quickly, now I get why it's often recommended by many of teachers I found good. I think it's comparable to meeting your future self, whom has gone through all your insecurities and completely knows and sees you. Yeah, really helpful, make use of this tool (often), do some guru searching, it shouldn't be so hard to sense if they are genuine I think, you should see an extraordinary amount of love, calmness, compassion and innocence (in their eyes). Also, one thing that reassured this Guru thing for me: It's not about giving up yourself to someone else, it's about meeting yourownSelf with them. - If you feel like sharing your experiences, feel free

All of them are pretty redundant, I am extremely happy I am on this path, it's already bringing out so many truly wonderful fruits, but my top frustrations are: - Knowing I am choosing to hold back from surrendering into freedom. I have had I think 5 moments or so when I felt truly close to true surrender but every time my ego went: 'WOW YE OK, OH.. FEELS GOOD B-... But ehh what if I just hold on for now.' .. 'SHIT FUCK, WHY DIDN"T I LET GO' STUPID ME' And learning to forgive myself for saying no to it, and that, despite it being a weird choice really, it's actually common. - Intellectually knowing quite well I am a perfectly good person, deserving of all love and praise, but still seeing constant old subconscious patterns of devaluing myself towards other people. You see clearly how retarded the devaluing patterns are now, you know it doesn't help you or the other person, but still going along with that habit. - But all in all it's all pretty cool to witness regardless, and it's always improving so I'm happy.

I think it's often adults are having a hard time respecting and cherishing their already inherent self-love, imagination and openness. Today there was like a 3 year old in the grocery store I shop, she was enjoying an apple, as I walked past her and made eye contact I greeted her by raising both my eye brows, and wow, I seriously got such a heartwarming awake smile/facial expression back it really shocked me, such a clear expression of the intelligence of love, very simple but so deep, animals have it too. Kind of off topic now, but later I thought, man, it makes sense we tend to have a hard time remember childhood because we were walking buddhas, and it can be such an extreme contrast.

Islam teaches a vengeful separate God generally, that's creates and effect much like anti-spirituality and into complete mind insanity. Sufism seems good though, but that's a small part of Islam

Schizophrenia is described in the blog post, depersonalization from my understanding is suppressing reality/trying to deny the personal self. Both are fixed though meditation and (gradual) self realization.

That sounds like depersonalization (through suppression/trauma) or awakening, or perhaps even both.

And what do you think creates the chemicals? The unawakened conditioned mind (formed by genetics/circumstances) + the consciousness (whether high or low) together creates the physical reflection. As some one who has experienced this disease (with a diagnoses though everyone could have told me I was nuts, I deep down knew it myself as well) has cured it fully for years after discovering advaita, I can tell you, it is 100% an extreme state of ego (that of course also has no clue about it's true nature). - What may separate the genetically prone people and those supposedly not prone (though as a matter of fact, the evidence for genetics playing really a significant role at all is somewhat disputable) is in my view: The fact that some may be wired to be more imaginative and abstract in thinking, which may HELP facilitate the monkey mind into delusion, but certainly does not cause it. I wrote a long piece about it here http://davidkloos.weebly.com/main/what-is-mental-illness-anxiety-depression-psychosis

The paradox, yes and no. No self - full self.

Yeah just suppressed energy coming to the surface, it will pass. Do you do sports by the way? I think that would be especially relevant to do sometimes, maybe some dancing in your room.

Twitch is a streaming website, it started with people streaming video games, it got really popular, many people make a living of it now because people actually like to donate to these streamers. So after Pokemon Go launched, people started streaming that, one funny charismatic ballsy did it and blew up within a few hours of streaming because he just was himself, he literally went from a few 100 viewers to 20k or something. This is one of his first streams https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mdbT4KCQL3Y That birthed the 'In real life' section on twitch. The guy above just got perma banned (long story) (not all his fault but if you are not retarded you won't get banned). He easily made 1k a day by the way from donations and stuff with a few hours of streaming a day/some days of the week. So right now, there is literally this huge booming platform and pretty much no good streamers providing IRL content at all https://www.twitch.tv/directory/game/IRL If you are (all or some): Charismatic, funny, ballsy, social, adventurous, you can easily become a top (IRL) streamer and make absolutely bank. If you are mediocre but try hard, you can still claim a spot. It's really hot, it's already growing like crazy but so far just lame people or half naked chicks are just sitting there, right now the window of opportunity is so so big. I am certain that any sort of PUA content will do amazing, along with charismatic persona/adventures, preferably both. That's how Ice_Poseidon blew up and there is literally almost no one doing it (well). - I am not doing it because I dedicate my time to enlightenment first and am not a social type. I am saying it here because I know some of you have potential and you might benefit your audience because you are (hopefully) into serious self/world-development/enlightenment and you can spread a good message as well.

Buddhist monasteries tend to be a good choice, but also ultimately not necessary per se, God's got you.

Yeah, relax. This is cause for celebration! Why not do that which all traditions and masters pretty much all have recommended some time: breathe. Also, visiting someone advanced might be reassuring.

Why do you think you are? It's nothing more than a temporary sensation, which disappears when you let go into consciousness (and when you sleep and leave the body). And then there's the science, see my signature.

What Shin said and I think people still don't belief it can work for them. That might sound strange but how often have you heard some say: 'Uh oh no, I can't meditate, my mind's craazy' after it was brought up lol, used by the scared ego to hold them hostage, and they belief it probably also because it is not yet that common to practice and people love to give the benefit of the doubt to the what the mass thinks.

Keep this in mind: - You don't know what you can handle until you've experienced it. Have you not already experienced gruesome things that you now look back on as doable, whereas you would not think you could handle them before hand? - Physical pain is not inherently painful, the attachment of the mind with it's suppressed emotions and despair creates the suffering around it (because it stops it's ability for pleasure seeking). -Moments of grace happen to people in deep pain (showing nature likes to limit the suffering when it goes (too) far) - All masters whom have suffered some of the greatest agony don't look back at that and think: 'that shouldn't have happened, too much!', no they all say, it was perfect, I learned from it, it wasn't real, in fact they are grateful to have been able to know the human experience at that level. - At the moment of realization we will remember the same, that it's all perfect blissful love, don't worry! Focus on the good, practice, else you are just recreating what you say you don't want.

The only 2 options you have are joining the army or going into marketing

Which one are you attending? So far this one seems to be my favorite 400 euros for 8 days

The culture is nice, too bad I dislike 95% of all psytrance except for infected mushrooms that's just brilliant.