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Subconsciously, you still do, otherwise you wouldn't feel empty, you would just stop playing and do something else.

You expect them to fulfill you, which they can't. Spend more time on your life purpose, then video games/movies will be fun again, as a hobby.

You will never be satisfied if your goal is ego driven.

The first few months are the hardest, because you're basically purging all your subconscious. After that, even though it can still be pretty crazy, it doesn't really matter, cause you don't identify that much to your thoughts and emotions anymore.

Bashar must be really retarded ... I mean, he still didn't learn how to open his eyes ...

You make it way too complicated, stop bullshitting yourself and do the following: Meditation: You sit straight You close your eyes and focus on your breath DONE ! Self-Inquiry: You do it just after the meditation You focus on your most intimate sense of self/identity (thoughts, emotions, body and mind can't be it) DONE ! THAT'S IT !

This is stand up comedy level of crazyness. Can't stop laughing ! Thank you !

Unless you've done some serious shadow work, psychedelics will most likely always fuck you. The "normal" human psychee is so fucked up that of course they have bad trips, it couldn't be any other way. Not saying this for you specifically, but it has to be said once in a while.

No Pluto, you don't understand. My wife IS the problem, IF ONLY she spent less time playing FUCKING SIMS !

Because of this:

The trickiest thing is when you think you're not seeking with your mind, but you still do, even though it seems there is nothing. It's wonderful how deep the deception goes, it's a masterpiece, only god could do such a thing !!! Pretty sure there is still at least one layer of deception after that ...

All of them, your mind should be totally empty when you seek.

It is important in the sense that it can motivate you. If you really understand what it implies, you'll want it really really bad.

Just watch all enlightenment videos from Leo. If you still don't understand you could come back and ask, but I doubt anyone could explain it better with a few words, because fundamentally it's something you either grasp or you don't. If you don't grasp it, you may need more time to wake up a bit more to have some mystical experiences here and there. @haai14 The good news is that you don't need to grasp it intellectually, it is virtually useless cause you'll still need to forget about it, one way or another (otherwise your mind seek a concept, not what is true). Just meditate everyday, self-inquiry and be conscious of all your thoughts/emotions all the time.

Talk non-dual to me

https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/1tejif/the_big_list_of_tips_tricks/

Imo, karma as described from the old hindu texts has been misunderstood (just like Jesus has been misunderstood GREATLY). There is no you, as a little ego that is been reborn, it's the entire cosmos that is constently changing every split second. There is only one being which means everything that happens is a chain reaction of It (acting randomly or not, that is not the point). The way people on the west sees karma is a bit fanciful too, Leo's has a very good video explaining how it works, it's nothing mystical really. Everything that happens in your life can be foreseen to a great extent, it all depends on how you act and how you think (and how much you can go meta about your thoughts process).

@Max_V It's way more incomfortable than do nothing if you were a shy/virgin guy like me, but it gets better very quickly as long as you accept the awkwardness I would even suggest to take dance class when you're a bit more comfortable around women, it will force you to be even closer to them. It's fun and it's a big plus, just defy your crush to dance with you, then lead her. @Max_V 18 is fine, lots of women are still virgin at this age anyway

Perception of reality still changes though right ? It's just not a flashy thing because nothing fundamentally changes, reality becomes just more and more ethereal (and beautiful). Or even that is my mind tricking myself into thinking there is "progress" ?

Because you think you're just one quark fighting for itself, when in fact you're the entire body. Can you see the problem in that ?

lol no, check what it is when the shrooms effects are gone, depending on what it is you could be dead in a week. I'm overacting on purpose here, but the fact is that you don't know, and people here aren't doctors, and even if they were, a mistake is always possible.

Do something now, you don't know for sure what it is. Go see a doctor, and even if he tells you it's nothing, still make some test (see another doctor for the permission if he doesn't want to). It's never a good solution to let a thing like that without checking what it is, can be nothing, can be something really nasty.