Shin

Please gentlemans, we need to know.

@Azote How is your mental state on a typical day, on the Week-end (or other days without responsabilities) and on a stressful day (exams/interviews/social gathering where you don't know anyone). By mental state, I mean your emotions, and what your internal voices says.

Can you give more examples of things that have changed for you, How you backslided compare to those changes, and on which scales and how often.

Some quotes to ponder:

You care too much about people opinions, you need to stop giving a fuck about what they think. Learn how to be internally grounded, and none of those issues will stay for long.

Reality checks works because you remember how your body,time/perceptions works differently in the so called "reality". You can't have reality checks in a dream that you think is reality, there is nothing to compare it to, and that's the core problem

Yesterday was a really chill day. Just took the car and drive for about 30 minutes, stopped in a pet store. I used to do that a lot when I lived at my parents, now there isn't that kind of store where I live, no animals are being sold there. Just observing how animals of the same species interact with each other is refreshing, you can literally sense they unconditionally love each other. Even if there is a fight, it is settled directly and the energy is released instantly, there is no place for any kind of negative emotions there. Before I got out of the store, I had something I didn't had in a while to such a degree. I was looking at an alley, the one where there are toys for dogs. Every objects in that alley, and everything else that I could perceive of was alive. Not alive as a sentient or moving object, but they all had the quality of consciousness in them. It happened again most of the evening, there was a subtle sense of intimacy there on top of it. This really can't be explained, because nothing changes in the domain of perceptions, and even your emotions doesn't change either. You just become conscious of something that is already here, has always been here, but that you weren't aware of. So it doesn't matter how the explanation you read is precise, it will never be the same as direct experience. This wasn't random, I intentionally set up the day to not have any distractions, even eating while being fully conscious (which I never do). I will continue to limit internet usage and answering through my phone, checking it once per hour is enough for now. What I did: 2 hours of meditation 1 hour of reading 5 minutes affirmations of being honest What I didn't do: Working out (resting day) No self-inquiry

Wake up earlier and do everything before going to work if that becomes a recurrent problem.

You see this as becoming mad, I see this as becoming sane.

Yes, because he's obviously lying. Everyone is lying if it doesn't confirm what you think of you right ?

What ? ?

Please make an another thread, we need more egotic snowflake telling everyone how they can help you, but only if you post on their thread !!!

You will feel lonely as long as you expect to find happiness in people. You will feel bored as long as you expect to find happiness in things. What do you do ? Nothing. You just sit and suffer until you can be happy doing nothing. Then every activity or person becomes a joy to experience.

I wish there was reality checks in this one ?

Ok then your problem is right there. How you think about yourself is how you will be treated by other people. You attract what you feel and think.

Because we did and you still say the same exact sentence. You don't want help You want us to confirm you what you already think.

You never say anything else than those 2 lines, we don't even know if you're a bot or a real person. Why would someone answer to a robot ?

Highly effective ! (Ads end at 3:28)

There may be better video explaining how to do it, I post this one because his video on astral projection worked for me:

The only lucid dreams I have are about finding a toilet because I want to pee in "real life".

That makes too much sense to be posted on a forum.

The written expression exam was funny. The subject was to describe the Following of a description, which was about the old planet of the apes. The guy was basically shocked to see an ape wearing clothes after arriving on the planet. I made the protagonist really fearful to the point of madness, then made a joke about how he trained so hard for years to finally get killed by an ape wearing an Indiana Jones costume I feel already better, after having let go so much in 2 days, like literally let it all go and surrendering to what is. It's funny because the mind wants to think it will never go, that it will ever be in pain, and the natural instinct that it tries to pull off is to forget about the pain to store if for future use. As if the pain was there only to strenghten the illusion, and it needs to have a fresh stock of it, otherwise there is nothing to complain about, nothing to distract yourself with. After entering the train station to get to my parents for the weekend, I felt something I usually come across nowadays. It's a joy that is very subtle and hard to describe, which could be loosely translated as: "Everything is alright, trust me". Not trust me as in a person is speaking though, it's more a "feeling", and even speaking about feeling isn't quite right too (yeah I know ). The self-inquiry was interesting. When I concentrated really hard, I had a sense of being contained in a holographic (figure of speech) humanoid body. It is as if all the perceptions were merging to make me think I actually inhabit those perceptions into one unified logical perception. All the perceptions actually exist, but the feeling of an entity Inside of it is only an another perception, an invisible perception created by the misconception of the feeling of ownership of the other perceptions. You can look at it like this, it is pretty much like that: All the perceptions come and goes, and you actually create an illusive center out of them. If we carefully examine each perception, they don't ave any meaning in themselves. Meanings are created when the illusive triangle thinks it owns the black markings. An another thing that I noticed more clearly tonight, is that I don't actually have substance. There are perceptions, but they are couched in an empty field, which paradoxically is alive. It is exactly like in a dream, the body exist, but it isn't physical at all. The body is merged with the rest of your perceptions, except there is a strong pull to make you think it isn't, because you only feel the body. If you really think this through though, everything is just a perception, and feeling the body is not so much different than seeing the door of your room. It only feels more intimate because you have an underlying assumption that you can't be something you don't experience directly. What I did today: 1h45 of meditation Affirmations about being honest 40 minutes of self-inquiry 30 minutes of workout 45 minutes of reading