Shin

Yes but we are talking non duality which is seen as nihilism or sectarian from most people.

Put a password on your mobile/laptop and don't autoconnect to this forum, do it manually each time. Just in case. Might be a good idea to download Leos videos about enlightenment in case you don't have internet anymore.

If your visa can allow you to study somewhere else that would be good. I would advise you somewhere where the study year is not pricy, like really cheap. In France it's cheap as of now, but I heard it will cost way more for outsiders unfortunately.

No I can't, and I'm sorry I can't help you more. With that much desire to be free, with proper contemplation, you could awaken pretty fast though, And those problems wouldn't be seen as much of as a problems.

Ok then maybe changing your degree might be a good idea. It's not about religion or a more conscious lifestyle per say (at least not directly). You could make your parents understand what other degree you really want to do.

Also you need to understand Sidra, Freedom is totally internal and not external, you can be free even in your situation. Of course you would prefer to be free physically too, and that will most likely happen if you're patient, But in the meantime you could use this difficult situation of yours to free yourself for real, by seeing what you are existentially speaking. In a sense, you have an environment and a desire that could make that possible for you extremely fast. It's the tough situations in life that forces us to awaken, this or an intense desire to know the Truth. Everything else is a luxury and paradoxically can work against it.

Don't do anything rash. Get your degree and job as a doctor. There may be solutions that could work that I don't know of, but If I'm not mistaken, the Syria passport doesn't allow to live in another country ? Maybe working at the Red Cross or other international organization like this could get around the visa issue. Definitely don't get into ideological fight, about the religion or your lifestyle, I may be seeing this in a worse light than the reality of it, but that could be very dangerous for you. I'm sure there is a solution, just don't do anything rash that could put you in danger, and study the problem deeply. Don't hesitate to come here ask again once in a while, it's not that we don't care, we just don't know how to help you, but I'm sure there is a solution.

I don't know how you could do it, but I still wanted to cheer you up ?

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It's totally normal, All the suppressed stuff inside you is coming to your awareness, You need to process them by just being passively aware of them.

That's your assumption.

You have a porno mustache and a 80's haircut ? ?

If you're from India, it doesn't count, The new shows you watch now are from the 80s

Definitely ?

It's so bad, That I don't even know if the singers are actors or genuine artists ???

We are old

Isn't it so ?

What is love ? ? Does it exist ? Or is it just a concept women use to hold us back when we leave them the first morning ? ?

When someone makes you realize the exam you didn't study shit for Is Monday instead of Tuesday

I feel you (well not really read below ) I never really loved ... anyone or anything. I don't even know the feeling, or if it's a real thing No joke.

He's married to a plastic girl though.

I had the opposite.

Will a catdog lick your balls while you play Morrowind ? I bet it won't ?