nightrider1435

By far the best trip report I've ever read!

You know the saying "good things happen if you relax"? Well, good things will happen to you if you can do this. Even when life is the most challenging just remain calm and carry on. Let life flow and things tend to start working out effortlessly. Allow your heart and intuition to lead the way, let it be the creator of your own reality.

Your doing good. Yeah it can be painful, but it is a sign that your growing.

Thanks for sharing Shin! Much appreciated.

Yeah I feel you on that one. The only thing you can do is carry on with your practices.

The mind thinks it has to go on a mission to find it but like you said it's so simple that one can tend to overlook it. You realize it has been in front of you the entire time. I've been living in a state of heightened awareness for almost two months now. The problem I seem to have now is my ego wants to latch on to this perspective, it doesn't want to lose touch with it. I wouldn't just assume that it will never go away, it definitely could. Mindfulness is pretty important at this point, try to remain fully aware from the moment you wake up and until you go to bed. Leo brings up a good point, don't get cocky, I've noticed I tend to do that. Really this is just the beginning though, this is a life journey after all.

@randomancer I think your having to many expectations on how your trip should be. Next time I would recommend taking a two gram dose on a completely empty stomach. Don't sit there in mental masturbation just take it and see what happens.

Good. I really don't have anything else to add to that but again just relax... @Joseph Maynor That's all you have to do man. ^^^

Man... Just relax.. lol.

@Random User I recommend doing this as well! I've been doing that for weeks now and it works great.

I mean... You could just be honest. You could had said I'm going to go mediate for four hours when I get home. You never know what she'll have to say to that unless you just do it. But man I understand where your coming from on this. Being 21 here, no one else in my life is on this path like I am, so it is hard to relate this with others. I've tried before to, most of the time they just look at me like I'm insane. You can't let this put you down though , just keep doing you. That's all you can do.

No your doing good, keep going!

So I want to clean up my diet but I'm not really sure where to start. Most of the time I just eat out, but that hasn't been to good for me financially so I would like to cut back. It's just to easy to go out and buy food somewhere whenever I get off work, half of the time I'm just lazy and I want something good to eat right then and there without having to cook. Whenever I walk into Walmart it's tempting to just buy a bunch of frozen processed foods that I can just throw in the microwave. Been there and done that now, I want to move on to healthier things. Lately I've been eating more fruit, and occasionally I'll make some pasta just because its easy to make and its always been one of my favorites. It's a start I guess, but I want to keep the momentum moving. Any recipe suggestions?

Addicted to weed as well, can't go a day without it. Just ran out last night... Must ... Resist ... The temptation... To go buy more.

Deal with all this before you use cannabis again. Are these emotions from your subconscious? Sounds like it. Cannabis can allow one to go deep IMO, just don't abuse it, or else the power will be lost.

@Morrtiz @sweater I appreciate the feedback guys, will have to give these a try.

Whenever these emotions start coming about, just sit back and take a nice deep breathe in and out. Focus all your attention on the breathe as you do this. Do this whenever you feel it is necessary, it will help you relax more. Overall don't beat yourself up, everything is going to be ok.

Are you mediating? Your going to stay miserable if you keep all this bundled up.

Your first time smoking cannabis is always special. I suggest that you smoke once every month or two and just sit down and mediate, you'll go deep.

Anyone in Dallas?

Maybe just go along with the do nothing technique instead of labeling. My first mushroom trip was a rollercoaster as well, really the only thing I could do is just observe. I was seeing some crazy patterns with my eyes closed too. Eating was so strange on shrooms, it felt like the food was just going to fall right out of my stomach haha.

@Toby So you took those doses all within about a week period? No shit! It wasn't interesting because your not receiving the full experience. Your obviously going to build a tolerance if you take it back to back like that. If you really want to see what this is about then your going to have to step it up man. Next time start out with a 100ug dose right away. @Dizzy Yep, really brings out the "isness" to a new level.

I had a window to take a trip by myself last Saturday so I decided to dive in. Took two acid tabs around 11 AM on a empty stomach. After I placed the tabs on my tongue I went in my room, sat down on my bed to mediate and waited for the trip to take me away. So once the trip started settling in I just spread out on my bed with my head propped up on some pillows and went along with the do nothing technique. I laid there with my eyes open just observing my mind. This is really all I did for most of the trip, occasionally walking around my apartment or just sitting out on my porch. At one point I grabbed a pen and paper and wrote down "what do you want?" Proceeded to let the authentic self write down a list of goals I want to accomplish, what's holding me back, what can we do to move forward, things like that. My mind was giving me some great advice, had to start writing it down for future references. I could sense a euphoric fuzzy feeling in my head, it would continue to travel down to the rest of my body from there. Life really felt completely groundless, these sensations are just floating out there in straight nothing! As I walked around my apartment just observing, it seemed like my view of reality became wider. It was like I was seeing reality in a full complete circle. I could sense that it almost felt like I was traveling down a tunnel when I walked, a tunnel of illusions. It seemed odd that I could pick an object up in my hand because everything looked flat instead of three dimensional. I remember standing in my kitchen holding a orange that I got out of my fridge just staring at it thinking how..... the ..... fuck.... is this... real..... what the fuck? The world may seem real and physical... but that's just the illusion at work. Acid really brings out the beauty of everything to a whole another level. Life literally looked like a cartoon you would see on T.V. I guess you could say we are just the observer watching a cartoon play out. There is nothing real about it. So what is our true nature? Our true nature is just straight being, and that's it. There is no self behind your view of reality. Nothing is nothing, but also self aware of nothing. Everything in front of nothing is not it, not you. Reality is just a reflection from the inner world. You are one with the universe, you are the universe, you are not separated from anything, you are everything! All of this is you, you created it all. Whether it be bad or good, it doesn't matter... it is all your fault. Reality seems to be layers of illusions, or a hallway of mirrors. Everything that "is" already exist's in the now, always. You get trapped tumbling through these mirrors of illusions like a ball rolling across the ground until the dream dies, which what we label as death. You are trapped here and it can be heaven or hell, but really it is all up you. All you have to do is let your heart seek, give up control of the mind. We are not in control anyways, even though we like to think we are. Easier said than done though. The more I trip, the more I see how hyper active my mind is. You realize how exhausting it really is on one self. The more you can just be, the more peace of mind you will see. You are one with your experience, but the illusion can fool one into thinking that they are just a human body separated from the world. You tumble through the mirrors so quick that it is difficult to see it is not you, simply because you identify as a body/mind. The paradigm is flipped. Reality can do whatever the hell it wants and god loves it all. God loves you, and everything about you! The inside will reflect to the outside. Allow the heart to reflect back. Wasn't sure if I wanted to put a report of this trip up but I figured why not? Slowly but surely pulling myself out of a dark knight right now, the trip was mainly focused towards that.

@Toby This is a question you will have to figure out for yourself. Have you taken psychedelics before? How is your state of mind currently? Will you believe your mind if you start spiraling into a bad trip? These are questions you need to take in consideration. All I can say is, don't underestimate these substances.If your just getting started, start small and work your way up to bigger doses.

@Leo Gura That is exactly how it felt. Using the labeling technique seemed to take it deeper, I altered between do nothing and labeling technique as I was experiencing this. I'm speechless and amazed after seeing that.