Raphael

27/03/2021 (Week 9) I any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... accept that I am highly intelligent nurture my intelligence take responsibility for my intelligence use my intelligence to create good stuff use my intelligence to its fullest do things that excite me accept to experience my emotions let myself being excited let myself being infinite joy

27 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:54 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 11:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today I almost didn't sleep of the entire night today too. I just didn't wanted to work and couldn't work, Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Chiropractic Adjustment This is incredible.

I noticed that I try to deal with this problem with two things: Internet, in particular the use of this forum Masturbation I recently tryed to completly cut off unecessary internet usage inclucing the use of this forum during the day and I also tryed to change my fapping habit. It resulted in a lot of pain and fear and an entire week of sleepless nights. I'm not sure if I should go through it, or do more trauma releasing work, maybe both.

I continue to feel a lot of pain and a lot of fear every day inside me.

@Etherial Cat Do you think that the extensive use of sarcasm and humour in French culture when speaking of people of other background is a form of masquerated racism? I was surprised the first time that I heard French people speaking like that about others and about me. After a point I got accustomed to it and considered that normal and started to make jokes with those people. I didn't saw these people as racists, but as friends who don't take things too seriously. However I had a boss in the past who made so much of these jokes that I saw that it made people uncomfortable, but I had difficulties to discern if it was racist or not.

The Power of Infinite Love Some years ago when I was a student living in Europe I experienced a pretty remarkable moment. I don't remember how nor why, but I was feeling immense deep existential joy that day. The kind of joy that we only feel a few times in an entire life, I was so happy that it was overwhelming. I decided to go outside and sat on a bench, I was contemplating and experiencing existential happiness, I was smiling in the void. At a moment a woman in her 30s or 40s came to me and asked me if she could sit on the bench too, I responded yes. I was surprised because they were other benches. It was the first time that a stranger would sit with me even if they were other benches available. The woman didn't look as happy as I was and I understood she didn't choose the bench randomly, but rather because she wanted love. I didn't know what to do, nor what to say at that time, I felt like she wanted to have a conversation, that she wanted to be understood, that she wanted to get some comfort, that she wanted some love, but I didn't know what to do and I stayed there experiencing existential joy. We sat like this for maybe 20 - 30 minutes, then she chooses to go and told me "Goodbye". I stayed on the bench, then after some minutes an old couple appeared and sat aside me. Again they were other benches and sitting on another one would have been better because we were now three and they started to have a private conversation. We sat like this for maybe 20 - 30 minutes, I was experiencing infinite joy and they were having their normal conversation. At the moment, I choose to move because I was sitting there since at least an hour. The man looked at me and asked with a big smile: "You are going? I hope that it's not because of us?". I responded no and told them that I was sitting there since an hour. I went back to my apartment and continued my day normally. People want happiness in their life. They want joy, they want deep genuine authentic existential acceptance. That's what life is about. Infinite happiness is like a magnet, it attracts everyone without discrimination. More people would probably have come to me if I sat that way for the entire day. I think that it's possible to meet a lot of people that way, to learn a lot about people, and to have many interesting conversations. I also think that it's possible to make a lot of friends like this and even get a girlfriend.

26/03/2021 (Week 9) If I am more accepting of my excitement... I'll be more excited I'll share my excitement I'll experience my emotions healthily I'll get joy from life I'll be more enthusiastic I'll be more motivated I'll work better I'll have better relationships I'll be more genuine If I deny and disown my excitement... I remove a part of myself I feel restricted it doesn't feel natural I don't feel authentic my brain doesn't work properly I lose hope in life If I am more accepting of my intelligence... I'll not be ashamed of being highly intelligent I'll use my intelligence effectively I'll use my intelligence to create success I'll help people with my intelligence I'll nurture my intelligence I'll go through life with ease I'll be happy to use my intelligence If I deny and disown my intelligence... I remove my best asset from my life I have trouble going through life I don't feel happy I fail in doing great things I don't live to my full potential I don't help myself I don't help people

26 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:34 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:48 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:41 AM - 12:30 AM I worked on CLS optimization Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 49 minutes 02:03 PM - 03:35 PM I worked on CLS optimization Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 32 minutes 03:41 PM - 04:24 PM I worked on the CLS optimization, but my concentration wasn't that great. I'm exhausted as I didn't sleep of the entire night Focus: 3/5 Duration: 43 minutes I have been dealing with sleepless nights for 3 days now. I pushed it previously, but couldn't do it this time because I was just way too tired. Average Focus: 3.33 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 4 hours 4 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

I live in an African country and I consider it to be more developed than most countries on the planet. Of course, it's not as developed as Europe or North America and people are mostly at stage blue, but it's overall better than Asia, South America and the rest of Africa. I consider it to be safer than the US. We don't get shot in the street and we have free health care for everyone. I don't think that European exploitation of Africa is the only reason for the general lack of development. Europe was already more advanced than most of Africa before the first encounters, Europe was already at stage blue where Africa was mostly at stage purple. Leo mentioned in the past that the geography and difficult natural conditions of the continent is behind the low development, I agree with him and I think that it's the best explanation so far. Many things influences human development: geography, meteorological conditions, the plants and animals around, even the food that people eat.

I'm integrating green better and better every day, especially when it comes to understanding emotions.

25/03/2021 (Week 9) If I am more accepting of my excitement... I'll be excited I'll do things that excites me I'll be more motivated I'll bring more joy to my life I'll connect to my joyful inner child I'll share my excitement I'll let myself be authentic I'll deeply appreciate life If I deny and disown my excitement... I close myself from happiness I don't experience my emotions properly I hurt myself I feel restricted I don't live life fully I hurt my business I hurt my work If I am more accepting of my intelligence... I'll use fully my intelligence I'll nurture my intelligence I'll take better decisions I'll work better I'll use my intelligence to help people I'll use my intelligence to help myself I'll use my intelligence to experience life to its fullest I'll be super effective If I deny and disown my intelligence... I remove a part of myself I have more difficulties to deal with life I create my own pain I stay stuck in life I have difficulties making decisions I waste my life

25 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:06 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:02 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 11:44 AM - 11:57 AM I did a few checks on a website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 13 minutes 12:57 AM - 02:42 PM I worked on CLS optimization, but distracted myself too much Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 45 minutes 02:50 PM - 04:01 PM I continued the CLS optimization Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 04:07 PM - 04:40 PM Did a few other checks related to CLS optimization Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 33 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 08:49 AM - 09:53 AM I did a bit of accountability and worked on my app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 10:10 AM - 11:43 AM I worked on the layout of my app, I also created a pull request and merged it Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 33 minutes Average Focus: 3.33 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 19 minutes, including hours minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Experiencing Cravings When we try to drop a bad habit or an addiction we always feel some cravings, and we usually try to deal with them by resisting them... but it doesn't work. I recently noticed that it's better to embrace cravings rather than resisting them. Cravings aren't good or bad, but a natural emotional response from the body. Someone needs to go through emotions to grow. What I also noticed is that experiencing cravings feels better than resisting cravings and makes things much easier and faster. So... when dealing with cravings, sit and experience all the difficult emotions. Feel them, embrace them, go through them until you burn them.

I find feminity sometimes more attractive than a good look. There's a pornstar that I watch sometimes, I don't know what happened to her but she is now so hypermasculine that even if she is a 10 in terms of look I don't find her attractive.

My biggest joke is that I don't know how to make jokes.

24/03/2021 (Week 9) If I am more accepting of my excitement... I'll smile more I'll bring more joy to my life I'll bring more joy to people I'm more able to deal with my stuff I'll be more positive in my life I'll work better I'll be happy to work I'll work like god because I am god If I deny and disown my excitement... I deny my true nature I don't feel motivated I doesn't handle emotions properly I am angry I don't feel authentic I am not myself If I am more accepting of my intelligence... I'll understand that I'm highly intelligent I'll understand that my intelligence can make people fearful I'll nurture my intelligence I'll use my intelligence to help others my intelligence would skyrocket I'll easily deal with life I'll combine thoughts, emotions, intuition, and awareness together I'll be ruthless effective in life I'll create infinite joy If I deny and disown my intelligence... I feel sad I have trouble getting shit done I have difficulties navigating through life I feel inauthentic I cannot help others properly I feel selfish

24 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:34 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: ~ PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

No One I currently wonder why Leo's recent videos on Holism and Meta Thinking are supposed to be advanced stuff, I consider them to be the basics of life. As a kid, I already knew that things were deeply interconnected and needed to be balanced properly. I always sensed that they were something wrong in cultures and identities. I intuitively knew that being attached to any cultural identity is inauthentic. When I was a teenager I took the decision to be no one in life, to stay highly observant of people, to carefully analyze their biases, and to never have an identity. Of course, even if I say that it doesn't mean that I did things properly, but I always had a pretty high ability to sense truth from bullshit.

It happened to me to have a few thoughts of doing a mass shooting in the past or of killing some people. Nothing serious, but a few thoughts anyway. People like this aren't healthy, they need to stop being demonized and get serious psychological help and care.

I didn't watch the video, but I already thought about this in the past. Sometimes I wonder if getting rid of the ego is possible. Everyone have to deal with survival, even woke people. Ego is a survival mechanism, so by this logic removing it isn't possible. However, we can nurture it, purify it, so that it becomes more and more authentic. This would high-conscious ego rather than low-conscious ego, being whole rather than being separated into a small identity.

Because Blue is so dumb that it makes it interesting to study. Personally, dumb things bother me a lot and I want to do everything to understand them so that I don't make the same mistakes.

23/03/2021 (Week 9) If I am more accepting of my excitement... I'll share my excitement I'll bring more joy to my life I'll dance I'll connect to my inner child I'll be more enthusiastic I'll be open about my excitement I'll attract people I'll make people happy I'll make myself happy If I deny and disown my excitement... I remove joy of my life I feel less motivated I feel cold and distant to other people I remove pleasure of my life I work less efficiently I restraint my emotions I feel sad I don't feel authentic If I am more accepting of my intelligence... I'll use my intelligence effectively I'll use my intelligence to create massive success I'll help others by using my intelligence I'll become more and more intelligent I'll attract what I want in life I'll recognize that I'm a gifted, highly intelligent person I'll get joy from using my mind I'll get joy from using my intuition If I deny and disown my intelligence... I limit my capacity to deal with life I have much more chances to stay stuck in life I feel restricted I feel sad I don't feel authentic I cannot help others properly I cannot help myself properly I let go of one of my best assets in life

23 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:16 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: ~ PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:09 AM - 10:06 AM I did some tests and some research on Cumulative Layout Shift and Largest Contentful Paint Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 57 minutes 10:22 AM - 12:05 AM I worked on the layout optimization of a website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 43 minutes 01:01 PM - 02:41 PM I continued the work on the website, but it caused some bugs. Someone informed me that we need to find another solution because the site have a lot of traffic Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 40 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 02:48 PM - 04:38 PM I did some design improvement on my app, but I also distracted myself too much Focus: 2.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 50 minutes @Raphael Great work, but remember to stay focused. And if you have to suffer through it, suffer through it. Average Focus: 3.25 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 10 minutes, including hours minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

@Preety_India Press tab when you are at least at the second bullet. Example: Bullet 1 Bullet 2 (tab) Bullet 3 (tab)