Salvijus

I'm bowing down to you. Don't lose it. Not many people can say what you did. This is freedom. These desperate people who can't exist without relationships makes me roll my eyeballs everytime Being desperate is never good. In any situation of life. These are wise words to live by

Why do you like running?

This energy pulling down is real thing definitely. I experienced this myself. Once I enter a certain room or space. All of the sudden all kinds of cravings and petversions and depression everything just hits you from nowhere. I recommend you stay away from negative low conscious people. Even being around them has a big effect. That's way serious yogis deside to go away from people somewhere. Another thing you can do is play this chant in your room or wherever you live in. It will set up a necessary ambience for your growth. It will remove all the negative energy also. Sadhguru often talks about how important it is to live in a energized place because it doesn't matter how much you tell someone to do spiritual practice if he lives in an unsupportive space he will not do anything. But if the energies are high then whoever is there will be uplifted. Energies will push him up. It will create a desire to go forward. The same way you feel like something is pulling you down, the same way something can just pull you up, without much effort from your side. Also avoid wearing dark clothes. Only wear something light like white or yellow. If you look closely you should notice that whenever you're feeling low and depressed there's a tendency to wear dark clothes. So just be mindful of that from now on and aim for light color clothing.

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I know I said it before but I want to tell it again. What you're experiencing is just energy/prana/Qi/Chi/Life force. It's not kundalini. Just ignore it. It happens to everybody who does self enquiry for 1year. It's just a sign that you're going in the right direction but it's not a goal by itself. It's of no significance at all. Just you amusing yourself, that's all. Enlightenment is not a fancy experience.

Mooji lives in portugal. And you said you do his self-enquiry. Try maybe visit him for a week you'll have a chance to ask your questions about kundalini. Tho, I already know what he'd say. "It's child's play", "it's nothing" God I love Mooji Watch till 2.30 from the start. it's an answer to your kundalini questions

Interesting. I don't know why but I think I would be the one who gets irritated also it's very subtle resistence. Some kind of energy dark or dishonesty maybe, idk.

@winterknight what would you recommend for someone who can't fall asleep in the night?

@Anirban657 why not sadhguru? He's very accessible in India.

No it's a 15min long Try it And tell me aren't you feeling even a little better then before.

What you did was probably not designed for producing happyness. Maybe it was opening chakras or third eye or enlightenment or psychic abilities or who knows what you were doing. It's extremely subtle process. Each kriya does different things I guarentee you. If you do shambhavi you get there in 2-3months and then you go take a blood sample and your blood chemestry will be changed. Chemistry of joy and happyness. This is guarenteed to you like science. If I said it takes 20min to boil the rice. It's like that. It takes 2-3months to boil you from inside into a bliss manifacturing being.

It takes 2-3months to achieve that not years. Chocolate helps. Tho it's not a perfect solution. But it helps. You just dissmissed it without any reason or experience in this. Anyway it's not like you have a better choise right now, isn't. You can try finding some happyness producing kriyas in books or internet. Maybe there's something. Or at least try Isha kriya witch is free. Resistence is caused by your fear of failure. You know you've been unsuccessful before and now you're afraid of it. Only when what's happening within you is in your hands, only then you will dare to walk life full stride. You will have the strenght to fail a 1000times or maybe even die as complete failure and still be happy because that failure makes no difference in your life anymore. What your self esteem will do? You will build this confidence up up up and it's true that then you will feel like "yes I can do it" and the resistence will be gone. But you will crash the moment you fail on the floor witch is called reality. And you will fail there's no question about it. Because if you're not good at mathematics,. believing that you're a math genius is not gonna change the fact that you're not

What good is your self esteem? You will feel confident that you're a success. You will feel "yes I can do this, I believe in myself". And you still will fail. Success doesn't come to you because you believe in yourself. It comes because you're capable. Anyways...... Your problem is much more complicated then that. You're struggling to do something that you don't like. Right now you don't want to touch anything that causes you some misrery or frustration or failure. Because you yourself are struggling to be happy and on top of it you try to do things that make you even more unhappy. The only solution is you need to become happy from inside. Then doing something that you don't like will be no problem because anyways your happyness is no longer determined by what's happening outside. When how you are becomes your making. Then you'll see. Whatever needs to be done you will do it joyfully without any self-esteem meditation. And you will produce much better results because brains work at their best when you're happy. Buy some organic dark chocolate or use some nootropics or do some happyness kriya. it will create a pleseantness inside you. It will a be great boom to you when it comes to do things that you don't like.

Reminds me of a quote "Reality is an illusion but the illusion is real"

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This could help.

Oh. I thought this is your first time. Do as you want then. But I don't think your self enquiry is gonna be of high quality there. The energy and atmosphere in there is made specifically for vippassana.

First could be dissolusion of karma. But this doesn't sound like something Leo would say

Sorry, I realize that this was not the kind of advise that you were looking for you just wanted some quick advise on how to initiate interactions or smth and we give you this spiritual stuff :D:D But do you really want an advise like that? I can give you some if you want. Be confident, speak laudly, smile, know what you want to talk about, keep eye contact. But is this really the kind of advise you're looking for? it's not gonna solve much I think To be honest I'd recommend you to try something from sadhguru. Either yoga or kriya or something. There're many things that he offers. Especially because his beginning programs are highly focused for things that you're talking about. Good life. Happyness. Easy living. Joy. Love. Friends. Health. Energy. Adventurous life. It's made like this on purpose. That you satisfy your basic needs and then the other programs are then about nothingness and shiva and enlightenment and stuff. You said you're looking for those things. Sadhguru would be helpful to you. Other meditations like self-enquiry or vippassana doesn't care about your happyness. It's goes straight to the enlightenment. But you say you don't care about it. So I think sadhguru would be what you're looking for.

There's some truth to that. But you can cultivate your desire. Educate your desire. For example whatching Leo's videos can greatly inspire you to do self actualzation. I for example every time listen to sadhguru speak about spirituality I get so hiped to do something, some meditation retreat or smth. You can cultivate your desires like this.

That's my same question here. This no-thingness has an intelligence of it's own. And this no-thingness can perceive apparently

@Leo Gura wouldn't it be more accurate to say that. Yes there is a perceiver but perceiver is not a thing. It's not physical. Nonetheless, it exists. What do you think?

Could it be that the reason you have trouble with friends is your inseciurities and psychological issues and all those anxiety stuff? In that case. If you want to have good relationships you need to fix yourself. And to fix yourself you need to meditate see, anyways you need to meditate you can't escape it

I love your honesty