Salvijus

You don't need a vision. Just improve yourself and then life will come at you. Whatever you're capable of that you will achieve. Don't go creating goals and visions for yourself. Focus on improving yourself, how much you improve yourself that much you will achieve in life. If you you create goals right now it's gonna be a meager, constipated goal. Your eyes should not be on a finish line but on your steps you take right now. How far you go depends on how capable, balanced you're are. If you want flowers to grow you don't need to do flower maditation. Just take care of the soil, water, sunlight and tempreture. You don't need to pay any attention to the goal. Just pay attention on the soil, water, sunlight and tempreture.

When you trying to leave the existing support system, in this case leave your parents support, it's very important that you have the balance to do it. Simply dropping all the support without bringing a certain balance within yourself, you'll simply go crazy. And that's what is happening to you right now i believe. Look. You already know what is your problem. The way you're right now is not fit to do anything. All you have to do is to bring balance and a clear mind. After that, living without any support will not mean anything, you'll be at comple balance whatever life throws at you. but you need to invest some time and effort to it. This balance won't come from nowhere. I'm not talking about 12year enlightenment practice. I'm talking about a very simple thing witch you neglected all your life - balance.

One thing that she's lacking is a meditation practice.

@noselfnofun Yes. When you're happy then simply living is a worthwhile experience. When you're sad, living is just meaningless torture

The purpose of a flower is to grow into a fully blossomed flower. The purpose of a seed is to grow into a fully blossomed tree. The purpose of a human being is to become a full-fledged human being All life on this planet is trying to reach it's full potential. Paraphrasing sadhguru here

Maybe. But why would you call helping others as love. Love is just a consiquence of offering yourself, a consiquence of taking responsiblity for others, a consiquence of including someone as a part of yourself. Love is not something that you generate it's something that you receive when you drop yourself. And volunteering/selfless activity is extremely effective and simple way to do that. First you offer yourself then love comes. It doesn't work the other way around. You can't be loving and be selfish. That's impossible. If you're loving you have to be selfless.. so being selfless is the mayjor thing, love is just a consiquence of that.

That's nice but I would label this as volunteering or selfless activity rather then love Anyways. Beautiful

Problem is you're too mindful, too full of yourself. Answer is self-abandonment. You're too mindful means when you face situations your mind is full of opinions, estimations, projections, worries, anxieties, etc... It's just full. What you need is empty. That comes through self abandonment only. Someone who doesnt think of himself can go into any situation make a fool of himself and come out untouched. People say "don't you care how you look in this situation?" No i don't. See, no conflict comes when you don't think anything about yourself.

@iTommy i have the same thing. I can only see blue color also. I don't think this is aura btw. It's something else.

Everything is touching and amazing when you're joyful. Everything is not worthwhile and boring when you're in depressed mood. The same things that are worthwhile like food, sex, etc. When you're depressed nothing taste good, nothing has no meaning when you're happy even doing simple things like watching at a sky become beautiful and worthwhile

Haha yes, yes, this is common now. I see people can't even sit in cross-legged posture comfortably and they talk about how they want to do most potent kundalini kriya or open their third eye or have mystical experience or smth

Wow. That's amazing. Happy for you. Honestly when I saw that intro video about that Yoga school you mentioned. My first impression was. "What kind of wacky teacher is this" But this one you're talking about sounds really nice. Sounds like you found something authentic Liaten forum: True Yoga is always life changing. And you can't learn it books or from stupid people. @Mirror of Confusion is your evidence

There're many ways to stop the your harmone imbalance. Simple ways like lots of physical activity can do the trick and there're many other ways of doing this. One way is to do shambhavi kriya. When I did it I stopped masturbating for 4months without even trying. Without even counting days or smth. Simply somehow that kriya is designed to stop the hormonal imbalances or smth to stop this hornyess. Honestly I don't know how it works but I know it does. At that time I thought I will stop masturbating for my entire life because there was no need, no hornyness in me at all. But When I stopped doing shambhavi within 3-4days I masturbated again. I could clearly feel this freedom for no fap was 100% because of shambhavi kriya that I was doing. So this would be my solution to you if you already tried everything and nothing worked. This will definitely work. And this procractistination and frequent masturbating is very directly connected. One tao master said if you masturbate 5times in a row. Like one after the other. You could die. Or at the very least go to the hospital like an empty vegetable that has no energy to move. So it's really important energy source for men. If you have a way to keep it inside and transform this semen. It could unleash tremendous spiritual possibilities. Shambhavi can give this to you.

@Mirror of Confusion btw how's your Yoga teacher training program is going on? Did you do it? Or did you find someone else?

Volunteering

If you don't want to consume chemicals you can do a dark room retreat. that's one way. It takes from 3-10days being in complete darkness and then your brains start producing natural DMT and you get non dual experiences. Another way is go to Sadhguru's Bhava Spandana program. He will Blow your head with his Shakti transmission. He said what people experience in Bhava Spandana program took 12.5years for a very well known sage and seer Ramakrishna Paramahamsa to achieve. He gives that experience to you in 3days. So these are your 2options.

Another sadhguru's book "More Then a Life" I found this by accident on Facebook today

Then eat after meditation. Be on empty stomach when you meditate or at least 3-4h without food.

I bet you're eating meat every day

Usually listening to some master like Mooji, echart tolle, spira, and others are very helpful. Listening to them can easily put you Into the meditation mood. And it supportive to hear them talking as you meditate. At least for me.

@zambize @cetus56 I once talked with a guy who has schizophrenia and he told me that when he eats meat he gets hallucinations and nightmares of slauhthered cows and some other creepy stuff like eyeballs smth. He said it stopped when he stopped eating meat.

Both but I stopped doing shambhavi for now because I damaged my heart somehow. Trying to recover

Kriya would be the fastest and most effective. Yoga aswell if it is done in its full dimension and depth not just muscle streaching.

What Sadhguru said about gathering memory is logcal, simple to understand, and I see how it works in real life with everything everyday. Also Sadhguru also said that you can make your energies so established that nothing sticks to you. And you can go into most intimate relationships and come out clean if you establish your energies. This also applies in everyday situations like some people get into a fight and can't forget that for months. Can't sleep even. Other people get into the most heated debates ever and then sleep the same day like a baby This used to happen to me when I was doing shambhavi. Nothing would stick. Because energies were properly established. 6.50 He says something about establishing your energies and relationships and divorce.

Yeahh.. Being a scource of misery is not fun I think you already know what you should do. To become a source of joy and blissfulness ?