Dragallur

All right, what the actuall fuck. Why do people demonize any type of music? Metal to person who listens to metal is what pop is to person who listens to pop, it is simply different type of music.. as somebody already stated, freakin' water crystals are bullshit, it does not work so easily so do not share those "studies", you might just as well find studies that suggest the exact opposite about the music. Writing that heavy metal is not good art sounds quite close-minded and there is not much to say to it unless @Leo Gura wants to expand on that part (or maybe it was just a joke). Just because you get disgusted by something, does not mean that is like that for everyone else Dragallur .. wow we ARE actually having this conversation, well its fine and interesting

@Loreena definitely, go on!

Hi, I decided to create FAQ for newbies in self-actualization and in this community. As the title says it is a work in progress, I am just starting and I would like to say: Feel free to post suggestions and tips You can submit any of your own entries into PM or in the comment section Oh and.. please do not use this idea now since it would be wasted time for one of us I know that Leo plans to make a video to cover where to start, that is not the only point of this FAQ. I want to make a list of some terms so that anybody can find in moments what are the steps for Mindfullness practice or does not need to ask what SDS means. I think it will be useful for everybody to have a link that they can send to anyone interested as I would like to start the FAQ with some introduction. I have no idea if this could actually be very useful but this forum seems to lack something like that. (I can not actually say how many people come here and go away very fast confused..) Thanks for any comments, Dragallur

198th day: Work I have written like 5 or 6 pages for my work, that is good, I will continue to push so that I am finished as soon as possible and can start to review it! I start the day always with meditation and yoga, that is awesome since immediately with meditation would be sleepy. Ok, self-inquiry.. what the fuck. It changed a lot in the last two or three weeks. I have kind of confused moments about my existence full of actuall questioning. No depression or something, it is very easy for me to just slide back to normal living. I did extra 20 minutes today but would like to do a bit more when I have the holidays. After lunch I am going for walks when I inquire a lot. Also when I need a rest I will train a bit with diabolo or normal juggling. I went running for 12 minutes today. There is something special about the time or what because we ran it in the school and now I want to train it a bit. There I got 2520 meters which was far from what I would need to get 15 points (max), today I just measured that I ran 2770 which means the tempo of 4:20 for kilometer, good, that is way better. During the run I became extremely mindful spontaneously for short time and that was cool. Dragallur

I was laughing my ass of during the video, and Leo's style was total killer!

196th day: Holidays Today is the first day of two week holidays. Amazing. I have started to work hard on my 15 page project on Oscar Wilde. I can train researching a lot which is great. I have written something already and read a lot about him and his time, it feels great. I have done extra 20 minutes of self-inquir today so thats 80. Also I do everyday before do-nothing 5 minutes of concentration and I did that 5 min. twice today. Self-Inquiry has some new dimension these days. I am really looking forward to the next days! Dragallur

Ahh.. I do not think so, still.. if you hear really bad version of your name I do not think that it needs to be ghosts. http://www.skepticblog.org/2012/05/14/ghost-box/

@iTommy I am still skeptic and would encourage you to read this: http://rationalwiki.org/wiki/Pareidolia Can you send here some of the stuff that you recorded? Not only the stuff that you understood, simply bigger chunk ..

194th day: Did Dynamic Meditation instead of SDS today. It was pretty interesting though I was censoring myself during some of the random moves where I was acting like I have some shock . I just returned from yoga and it was totally amazing. I feel so good right now, the right amount of tired that when I go to bed it will feel amazing. Two times the day before yesterday I think I totally automaticly did something cool. First there was this small boy in school (black skin color) and he kind of stretched his leg so I could have tripped over it. I was sure I would frown or him or something but I totally smiled and was very happy. Also I was walking from train-station and I saw that some girl from Asia is running towards train. I thought that maybe it could happen that the doors wont be openable anymore so I just ran back and opened them for her, it was not really necessary but I was proud of myself because I did it so automatically. Today during math teacher brought some "special" equation for the start of the lesson. He did some mistake or what and I was basically only one who solved it.. then he started to give me compliments and I just wanted to tell him to shut up.. in the end I did not of course but I tried to get detached from the whole thing. I do not like when somebody thinks that I am good when he/she is comparing me to people who are basically not interested in math and had this stupid teacher for the whole year at least... I know that what I did was simply not special at all but still I have to get extra credit for it. In a way I mostly screwed it up myself when I told him the solution to the original problem (he firstly wrote minus instead of plus) after I just finished the one on the board. On Wednesdays in town refugees meet to learn German so I was for the second time with them. They are not very good.. but who would expect it.. refugees are completely normal people! (Funnily I still have prejudices as I am trying to hold the good opinion about them and then I pick every single shit that happens and argue about it.. like when we played game and one of them was cheating ). I got 60% in Geography for a test which was quite good though I wished for more. It leveled up my ego when I was that somebody had less than me. Tommorow I will probably find out about my biology test.. Dragallur

Oh no! Concentration! How many sessions and how long do you make your concetration on normal days?

192th day: Journal Yesterday I read a first page of my journal and now I just finished second one. Wow.. its extremely interesting to see how I thought half a year back. I think I was a bit ignorant of some stuff and thought I understood some things. Also its funny to read about something that I newly discovered and now it is basically normal thing for me.. for example knowing that pain is not actually painful, when I first wrote about it I was completely surprised but now it is completely clear to me how it works on this level. Socializing During weekend I met with some refugees and exchange students. It was interesting to just talk about some completely normal things with people that live with low amount of hate in their life and are kind of peaceful compared to average teenager. I did pretty well talking in German. I understand basically everything especially when the conversation starts running smoothly though my talking is probably troll level Holidays I will have 2 weeks of holidays. I have to write 15 page work during them for my school. I would like to try dynamic meditation too. Otherwise I am really looking forward to the relaxation. School I am writing tests these days but I do not really care about the results so I just calmly do my best which is great. I am usually proud of my one page German essays though there is tremendous amount of mistakes. In school I read book in German and at home listen to audiobooks. Perception Its cool how nothing around me changes but the perception changes everything so much... I could never appreciate this before so much. Self Inquiry I self-inquire in school often just spontaneously without timer, my existence seems so absurd sometimes, wow I could not believe that simple contemplation could produce such wonder. No hope beacons here No rays of light lingers Underneath the black earth Where the forgotten wait No love resides here No solace can be found Underneath the cold soil Where the sleeping gods lie -Insomnium (Lay of The Autumn) There is more, That I can’t see That I can’t touch But I can feel, deep I will break free For this false reality I will! Leave the anger Open your heart Bloom outside this prison skin -Persefone (Prison skin) When it rains, it pours like hell -Insomnium (The Gale) Dragallur

@jjer94 In this way you are lucky you do not go to school anymore

we were grilling too yesterday! I ate quite lot of bread there so I am bit ashamed of myself...

186th day: Thoughts Days are fast. Yoga is better these days. I have found extremely spiritual music. The funny thing is that it is melodic death metal at the same time: Persefone - Spiritual Migration It is basically about Self-Inquiry, Meditation and even enlightenment, I wonder who are those musicians (they are from Andorra!). Their second album Aathman is similar and totally about seeking, ego and similar stuff. I am often these days doing some uncomfortable things as soon as possible. For example I was supposed to say "hi" from one person to some of my classmates though I never talk with them and today I finally did it. I think about enlightenment extremely often. I make these jokes to myself like today during yoga when I went towards opened window and just told myself: "Hey this could get me enlightened." I feel kind of blocked in self-inquiry but otherwise I am very happy. After next week we have 2 weeks of holidays. I am looking forward to it but at the same time I know that if I were in school I could practice more German.. when I return to Czech I wont have the option anymore and now I am in the point when it is not so hard to say something so I really be learning quickly. I listen to Eugene Onegin for Czech class. It is quite interesting and first time I have something to do with prose. Also in library so that I read something in German I loaned Heroes of Olymp: The Blood of Olymp. I have read all the other books many years ago and I decided that I will finally finish it. In the holidays I will have to work on a 15 page work for my school, hopefully I will make it only in those 2 weeks. My topic is Oscar Wilde, he has really nice classics, like The Picture of Dorian Gray. I really like to be ecological, it is really important for me. I have not broken my strike in Cold Showers or in no computer games.. both is very natural and there is no time for computer games. Something else? No but... but only one thing... just... the fucking enlightenment. (No? Oh ok.) Dragallur

182nd day: Self-Inquiry Yesterday morning I went to bathroom. It was completely normal day so far. I entered and saw my reflection in the mirror... In the next moment I got somehow disconnected from the voice in my head. I was thinking who the fuck is talking in my head this nonsense, and who the fuck is just asking this. My mind basically blew up and I just started to say "WTF" outloud. It lasted like 10 seconds and then I was laughing. Wow, that was cool. Yoga I need to do more yoga because of my back and such. Right now I am doing like 30 min a day. Party I went with my host brother on a party of exchange students. There were like 50 of them! I even met one person from Czech. Basically everybody was drunk, the only think that mattered was how much. I did not smoke or drink of course but it was fun to watch the other people. I met there lot of people that I saw before on some of the seminars. I also met other host sister who was not drinking anything and I talked with her for some time which was nice. Exchange students play a game: "Flag game". Everybody has the flag of the country that they come from. If you want a new country you have to kiss other person. So if I from Czech will kiss somebody from Mexico I will get have Czech and Mexico flag and she too... well some people that I spoke with have like 16 flags or so . So most of the time there is somebody on this kind of party kissing to get a new flag... Meditation Yesterday I was so dead because I spent like 7 hours getting wood that my meditation was complete trash I was asleep during "parts" of it. Dynamic meditation sounds quite nice but I do not really have the time in the morning since I am not waking up at 5 anymore. Dragallur

@I_Like_Thing Though she said that it has been 15 months since she had orgasm so I do not think she is addicted to it.

175th day: Mood Everything is passing away so quickly I am not really angry at school or anything though often in my thoughts I like to say huge amount of bad words about everything. Friend I was skyping with a friend of mine the other day. Very interesting I am looking forward to meet him again when I get back to Czech. He really is growing in interesting ways and there is so much that I can learn from him. Good privilige to have him as a friend (inside joke ). Walking When summer holidays start I want to walk a long distance again as I walked the last summer, it is great. I have been running today too. Concentration I would like to concentrate right before my meditation, I did that today for 2 minutes. Stuff I found another great piece of music today: Dark Oath - When Fire Engulfs The Earth I loaned 3 juggling balls and can juggle quite well now. Today I did some physics and math and I will make new paper lessons from problems in International Astronomical Olympiad that I also learn from. Tommorow I will finish derivatives on Khan Academy I am quite sure about that. I finished german book and can now read stuff from my school again. Dragallur

Yes it is called like that .. you are getting grades for oral participation so oral grades I guess. Also congratulation to your good grades! I think she is more attracted to somebody who will listen then any way around.

1) 2) Where is the freedom Solemnly fought for Throughout the vast it will last It doesn't depend on any thing It surrounds every thing Every one A foundation of none Some day Like to day No more searching Anymore See (the thing is) it is bound For the time it is a round The lessons the swing Forth and back The responsibility is there And here Not a game for the weak A sanity to seek 3) Enlightenment

168th day: Year Wow I am not writing much here... well it has been a whole year since I started to self-actualize! My first meditation session since I decided not to break the streak and since I made my first routine (which I am not doing for a long time now) 1st of March.. I have not quit in the entire time and I am very glad for it now. Alright since I have made again my statistics for meditation I can even share that here: Together all meditation sessions and things towards enlightenment (like self-inquiry or neti-neti) took me: 563.7 hours From that 319.5 hours was do-nothing and SDS and most of the rest was self-inquiry. I started self-inquiry after like 4 months though. Thats about it, 1/20 of 10000 hours so not really much. Of course the next year should be better since I am already on track, but hey the quality is anyway better than quantity. Mindfulness I thought I would start today mindfulness challenge. I was doing well until I started to work on something intelectual like writing post. I actually do not understand how mindfulness should work at that point. It seems quite natural to just let the flow guide me and let me really soak in the thing I am doing.. is that being mindful? If I am not being lost in the stories my mind makes up? I will try to continue tommorow. Cold showers And only cold showers. Its quite easy I have to say. I just go into this state of self-inquiry, tell myself that it is not actually cold and than it is kind of easy. The only problem that I have is not the coldness immediately but when my hands start to hurt physically because they are cold. It takes few minutes though. Music I have backslided here a bit but also found a great piece: Melodeath is gold. The Grand Project I have not forgotten! Not at all! I was learning some math though I have to read a lot for school and am working basically from morning since I get into train where I read, through entire school and into the evening when I go to sleep.. this whole process feels very satisfying though today I am going to watch episode of Vikings. I have realised that I can help the Project in the future if I work on my blog which can serve as a part of the Project. Right now somehow I am starting to get likes on my facebook page from some random people which is cool.. I do not have much time to really upgrade it, hopefully in the future. Feel free to leave like on Science and Rationality facebook page Random Cutting wood is so much fun. Venus looks great. (I love her ) Moon is amazing, rises after Sun sets and sets a bit before Sun rises, thats not going to happen in few days I guess. Somehow I find more and more girls simply beautiful, before I go back to Czech I want to tell one of them that she is really nice. All food tastes amazing. [insert something smart] Dragallur ... wow this was long

Alright I finished my first version of vision board:

My first version:

160th day: Return So. Yesterday I returned from my seminar with YFU. It was cool. I did some socializing but was not really so succesful. When I was sitting in a corner and kind of "meditating" I got what I now call "charity" by one girl who thought I am lonely or something. It was nice from her and she started some normal conversation and then I started to talk about Spiral Dynamics. I do not know how much she really was interested but I think that it was a good that I gave it a shot. I learned lot and lot of other stuff but I can not really write about it since some I consider too personal for the people there and think it should stay between us. Also I am becoming more and more humble about what I know.. sometimes I just get so freakin crushed, especially when I realise how much I do not know about normal teenager behavior. I think that often people think that teenagers are kind of stupid, especially people here (I mean normal teenagers).. I do not think that is true, sometimes it surprises me how much better they are in something than me. Meditation etc. I did all self inquiry and meditaiton on the seminar but it was really worst quality. I want to do again some mindfulness meditation in the close future. Music I became there more tolerant of other music again. The people of course listened to lot of pop rap and such. It does not really stress me anymore though I find it funny that nobody listening to that kind of music asks others if it is ok to play it (I would say of course yes partially because of not wanting to cause problems) but if I would try to play metal music they would stone me to death... which also means that people listening to not mainstream music need to be more tolerant in average. Books I slipped back a lot. I hope I will be able to catch up. Also now I have to read a whole book in German which will be very hard. Dragallur

@JKG Good text, I can somehow understand your written German better than the one in school, cool!

153rd day: I wanted to say this for long time Venus is fucking amazing these weeks. It is really "far" away from Sun so you can see it very easily. I am not surprised that they named the planet after goddess of love and beauty. Check out night sky anyway.. you might die soon. Seminar I wont write probably anything for the next week since I am on the seminar. I am really looking forward to it. I wont be able to jog I guess and my dental hygiene will not hopefully suffer from lack of time. Today Today I was cutting wood for like 3.5 hours. It was fun, I did self-inquiry partially during it too. Friday Killer day. I did the diabolo show without a single mistake two times out of two times! It was cool and I am really happy that I did not step back from it. I also had some interesting situations like when my shorts got ripped during sports class Vision board It is not finished.. almost, when I return I will do it, it looks cool. I found a great song, the lyrics are amazing (they are in the description of the video): Dragallur