Dragallur

@Rider No but they are going to die soon.

I totally fell in love with this sentence as there were some older people in the house for a meal..

Alright the group on Insight Timer exists and you can simply join. It is called the same as this discussion.

Great, thanks for meditating with me I did iong self-inquiry and felt even more confused!

@Sevi Alright I will create it but we should not be making much of a discussions there so that everybody can participate HERE. It will be is called Actualized Group Meditation EDIT: it is waiting for approval so I do not know how long before people can join

I am joining probably with self-inquiry. Do you guys know the app Insight Timer? We can make a group there, I think that would be useful!

@EmilyCook26 It does not matter so much how it is called! Keep on going, I wish you luck

@EmilyCook26 Congratulations but that does not sound like a spiritual type of awakening. Seems you mostly let go a lot and that calmed you down, I am not trying to disregard your experience but what people usually mean by awakening (here) is the realisation of Self which would probably exhibit differently.

@JKG Do not worry, you are doing amazing job with your habits!

Sedona Method: http://www.sedona.com/Home.asp

All right, what the actuall fuck. Why do people demonize any type of music? Metal to person who listens to metal is what pop is to person who listens to pop, it is simply different type of music.. as somebody already stated, freakin' water crystals are bullshit, it does not work so easily so do not share those "studies", you might just as well find studies that suggest the exact opposite about the music. Writing that heavy metal is not good art sounds quite close-minded and there is not much to say to it unless @Leo Gura wants to expand on that part (or maybe it was just a joke). Just because you get disgusted by something, does not mean that is like that for everyone else Dragallur .. wow we ARE actually having this conversation, well its fine and interesting

@Loreena definitely, go on!

Hi, I decided to create FAQ for newbies in self-actualization and in this community. As the title says it is a work in progress, I am just starting and I would like to say: Feel free to post suggestions and tips You can submit any of your own entries into PM or in the comment section Oh and.. please do not use this idea now since it would be wasted time for one of us I know that Leo plans to make a video to cover where to start, that is not the only point of this FAQ. I want to make a list of some terms so that anybody can find in moments what are the steps for Mindfullness practice or does not need to ask what SDS means. I think it will be useful for everybody to have a link that they can send to anyone interested as I would like to start the FAQ with some introduction. I have no idea if this could actually be very useful but this forum seems to lack something like that. (I can not actually say how many people come here and go away very fast confused..) Thanks for any comments, Dragallur

198th day: Work I have written like 5 or 6 pages for my work, that is good, I will continue to push so that I am finished as soon as possible and can start to review it! I start the day always with meditation and yoga, that is awesome since immediately with meditation would be sleepy. Ok, self-inquiry.. what the fuck. It changed a lot in the last two or three weeks. I have kind of confused moments about my existence full of actuall questioning. No depression or something, it is very easy for me to just slide back to normal living. I did extra 20 minutes today but would like to do a bit more when I have the holidays. After lunch I am going for walks when I inquire a lot. Also when I need a rest I will train a bit with diabolo or normal juggling. I went running for 12 minutes today. There is something special about the time or what because we ran it in the school and now I want to train it a bit. There I got 2520 meters which was far from what I would need to get 15 points (max), today I just measured that I ran 2770 which means the tempo of 4:20 for kilometer, good, that is way better. During the run I became extremely mindful spontaneously for short time and that was cool. Dragallur

I was laughing my ass of during the video, and Leo's style was total killer!

196th day: Holidays Today is the first day of two week holidays. Amazing. I have started to work hard on my 15 page project on Oscar Wilde. I can train researching a lot which is great. I have written something already and read a lot about him and his time, it feels great. I have done extra 20 minutes of self-inquir today so thats 80. Also I do everyday before do-nothing 5 minutes of concentration and I did that 5 min. twice today. Self-Inquiry has some new dimension these days. I am really looking forward to the next days! Dragallur

Ahh.. I do not think so, still.. if you hear really bad version of your name I do not think that it needs to be ghosts. http://www.skepticblog.org/2012/05/14/ghost-box/

@iTommy I am still skeptic and would encourage you to read this: http://rationalwiki.org/wiki/Pareidolia Can you send here some of the stuff that you recorded? Not only the stuff that you understood, simply bigger chunk ..

194th day: Did Dynamic Meditation instead of SDS today. It was pretty interesting though I was censoring myself during some of the random moves where I was acting like I have some shock . I just returned from yoga and it was totally amazing. I feel so good right now, the right amount of tired that when I go to bed it will feel amazing. Two times the day before yesterday I think I totally automaticly did something cool. First there was this small boy in school (black skin color) and he kind of stretched his leg so I could have tripped over it. I was sure I would frown or him or something but I totally smiled and was very happy. Also I was walking from train-station and I saw that some girl from Asia is running towards train. I thought that maybe it could happen that the doors wont be openable anymore so I just ran back and opened them for her, it was not really necessary but I was proud of myself because I did it so automatically. Today during math teacher brought some "special" equation for the start of the lesson. He did some mistake or what and I was basically only one who solved it.. then he started to give me compliments and I just wanted to tell him to shut up.. in the end I did not of course but I tried to get detached from the whole thing. I do not like when somebody thinks that I am good when he/she is comparing me to people who are basically not interested in math and had this stupid teacher for the whole year at least... I know that what I did was simply not special at all but still I have to get extra credit for it. In a way I mostly screwed it up myself when I told him the solution to the original problem (he firstly wrote minus instead of plus) after I just finished the one on the board. On Wednesdays in town refugees meet to learn German so I was for the second time with them. They are not very good.. but who would expect it.. refugees are completely normal people! (Funnily I still have prejudices as I am trying to hold the good opinion about them and then I pick every single shit that happens and argue about it.. like when we played game and one of them was cheating ). I got 60% in Geography for a test which was quite good though I wished for more. It leveled up my ego when I was that somebody had less than me. Tommorow I will probably find out about my biology test.. Dragallur

Oh no! Concentration! How many sessions and how long do you make your concetration on normal days?

192th day: Journal Yesterday I read a first page of my journal and now I just finished second one. Wow.. its extremely interesting to see how I thought half a year back. I think I was a bit ignorant of some stuff and thought I understood some things. Also its funny to read about something that I newly discovered and now it is basically normal thing for me.. for example knowing that pain is not actually painful, when I first wrote about it I was completely surprised but now it is completely clear to me how it works on this level. Socializing During weekend I met with some refugees and exchange students. It was interesting to just talk about some completely normal things with people that live with low amount of hate in their life and are kind of peaceful compared to average teenager. I did pretty well talking in German. I understand basically everything especially when the conversation starts running smoothly though my talking is probably troll level Holidays I will have 2 weeks of holidays. I have to write 15 page work during them for my school. I would like to try dynamic meditation too. Otherwise I am really looking forward to the relaxation. School I am writing tests these days but I do not really care about the results so I just calmly do my best which is great. I am usually proud of my one page German essays though there is tremendous amount of mistakes. In school I read book in German and at home listen to audiobooks. Perception Its cool how nothing around me changes but the perception changes everything so much... I could never appreciate this before so much. Self Inquiry I self-inquire in school often just spontaneously without timer, my existence seems so absurd sometimes, wow I could not believe that simple contemplation could produce such wonder. No hope beacons here No rays of light lingers Underneath the black earth Where the forgotten wait No love resides here No solace can be found Underneath the cold soil Where the sleeping gods lie -Insomnium (Lay of The Autumn) There is more, That I can’t see That I can’t touch But I can feel, deep I will break free For this false reality I will! Leave the anger Open your heart Bloom outside this prison skin -Persefone (Prison skin) When it rains, it pours like hell -Insomnium (The Gale) Dragallur

@jjer94 In this way you are lucky you do not go to school anymore

we were grilling too yesterday! I ate quite lot of bread there so I am bit ashamed of myself...

186th day: Thoughts Days are fast. Yoga is better these days. I have found extremely spiritual music. The funny thing is that it is melodic death metal at the same time: Persefone - Spiritual Migration It is basically about Self-Inquiry, Meditation and even enlightenment, I wonder who are those musicians (they are from Andorra!). Their second album Aathman is similar and totally about seeking, ego and similar stuff. I am often these days doing some uncomfortable things as soon as possible. For example I was supposed to say "hi" from one person to some of my classmates though I never talk with them and today I finally did it. I think about enlightenment extremely often. I make these jokes to myself like today during yoga when I went towards opened window and just told myself: "Hey this could get me enlightened." I feel kind of blocked in self-inquiry but otherwise I am very happy. After next week we have 2 weeks of holidays. I am looking forward to it but at the same time I know that if I were in school I could practice more German.. when I return to Czech I wont have the option anymore and now I am in the point when it is not so hard to say something so I really be learning quickly. I listen to Eugene Onegin for Czech class. It is quite interesting and first time I have something to do with prose. Also in library so that I read something in German I loaned Heroes of Olymp: The Blood of Olymp. I have read all the other books many years ago and I decided that I will finally finish it. In the holidays I will have to work on a 15 page work for my school, hopefully I will make it only in those 2 weeks. My topic is Oscar Wilde, he has really nice classics, like The Picture of Dorian Gray. I really like to be ecological, it is really important for me. I have not broken my strike in Cold Showers or in no computer games.. both is very natural and there is no time for computer games. Something else? No but... but only one thing... just... the fucking enlightenment. (No? Oh ok.) Dragallur

182nd day: Self-Inquiry Yesterday morning I went to bathroom. It was completely normal day so far. I entered and saw my reflection in the mirror... In the next moment I got somehow disconnected from the voice in my head. I was thinking who the fuck is talking in my head this nonsense, and who the fuck is just asking this. My mind basically blew up and I just started to say "WTF" outloud. It lasted like 10 seconds and then I was laughing. Wow, that was cool. Yoga I need to do more yoga because of my back and such. Right now I am doing like 30 min a day. Party I went with my host brother on a party of exchange students. There were like 50 of them! I even met one person from Czech. Basically everybody was drunk, the only think that mattered was how much. I did not smoke or drink of course but it was fun to watch the other people. I met there lot of people that I saw before on some of the seminars. I also met other host sister who was not drinking anything and I talked with her for some time which was nice. Exchange students play a game: "Flag game". Everybody has the flag of the country that they come from. If you want a new country you have to kiss other person. So if I from Czech will kiss somebody from Mexico I will get have Czech and Mexico flag and she too... well some people that I spoke with have like 16 flags or so . So most of the time there is somebody on this kind of party kissing to get a new flag... Meditation Yesterday I was so dead because I spent like 7 hours getting wood that my meditation was complete trash I was asleep during "parts" of it. Dynamic meditation sounds quite nice but I do not really have the time in the morning since I am not waking up at 5 anymore. Dragallur