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Killing the ego and connecting to the source are one and the same. If you can't "connect to the source," it's the ego that's preventing you. Even better, you'll be free of the need for happiness. That's why it's called liberation. That seems rather unlikely. Meditation isn't some weird practice you do. Meditation is simply being. If that's unhealthy, than life itself is unhealthy.

So... wouldnt that mean that our dreams at night actually do arise from a brain? But that itself is just another ruleset within the waking dream. And so the waking dream never ends. When you sleep at night, you are still within the same dream called life. But sleep/dreaming is a part of that dream. So theres just one dream...

I know this one girl, very conscious, but most of all very open and loving. She can tell you all about the ego and its many deceptions, yet when she's around people, its like she doesnt even see it. In fact, the reason I am on this path of actualization is because many years ago in my most unconscious moments she was the only one that completely accepted me exactly the way I was. Even being around such a person can transform you because suddenly it becomes so clear to you how unnacepting you actually are. That's what I love about her, she teaches just by being. Even when no words are spoken I end up learning things about myself, just by seeing total acceptance in action. I can imagine that's what being around an enlightened person would be like. The reason I'm saying this, is that what Ive learned from her is that the most unconscious thing you can do is to create this distinction between conscious and unconscious people. If she wouldnt have accepted me and my unconscious ways, I wouldnt have been able to see it in myself. And that's how love works. Its all encompassing. If you arent able to accept the "low-conscious" behaviour of your friends, see that it's you that is unable to accept in that moment. In fact your low conscious friends are your best teachers. Sure, theres a time for seclusion, but ultimately if you cant deal with the world, living in a cave (so to speak) is just another way of running away from your own fears.

@Leo Gura Didn't you say Obama was a stage yellow president? He seemed pretty respected worldwide. More so than Trump at least. A huge part of being a president at a higher stage would have to be the ability to communicate at all the different levels. But that's what seeing the big picture (yellow) is all about. So I think it could be possible.

One of my favorite books. Finished it in one sitting.

Thanks. That was a great watch

Amazing. I've always been fascinated with those bird shows. Sometimes it happens right outside my window and I just fall in love. Without using any words, it feels like the point of my entire existence is being showed to me, haha.

Dreams are a mirror of the mind's illusions. Quite powerful when you actively start to notice this. It can pinpoint blind spots within your consciousness that you would have otherwise overlooked. Just don't make it too big. Don't get lost in detailed analysis. It's not about the content of the dream, but your reaction to it. Simply when you wake up and remember the dream, start noticing the feelings/emotions that come up with it and completely allow these to be. In this way dreams can help you accept these areas of your life. You say that in your dreams you feel like you might have failed your mother. That's fine. Allow that too. It doesn't matter if you actually did or didn't. What matters is that you're fighting it. See, it's just putting a spotlight on those particular attachments of the ego. In the end, this will only help you grow.

How can I experience that my mind is not the only mind in this universe? The only thing I can know for sure is that I Am. How can I experience the truth of your (our) I Am-ness in a way that its not just another belief? This has always bothered me. I dont 'believe' in solipsism, I just cant seem to find a way to deny it, without it being just another belief.

Tell me more about your vision. And why does it scare you? Dont forget, all "real world problems" start from within. As long as there's still depression within, don't go out and change the world just yet.

After meditation, when im really silent I usually go for a walk. And when I look at a person, I can often feel these intense vibrations coming up. I dont 'see' anything, its just a real clear view of their 'vibe' in a felt sense. At least that's how I interpret it. Is this the same as seeing aura? And if so, is it worth developing something like this into a skill? As of now, it doesnt really mean much to me. No idea how I would use something like that. In an attempt to 'bring more awareness into everyday life', it's things like this I would love to explore more.

Ray 4 - The ray of harmony, beauty and art Ray four is often called the “ray of struggle” for this ray, the quality of rajas (activity) and tamas (inertia) are strangely equal in proportion that the nature of the 4th Ray man is conflicted from within, but overcomes it to become a strong, empathetic and compassionate person. Tamas induces in you a love of ease and pleasure, a hatred of causing pain amounting to moral cowardice, indolence, procrastination, a desire to let things be, to rest and take no thought of the marrows. Whereas the Rajas in you is fiery, impatient, ever urging to action. These contrasting forces in your nature make life very interesting for you - full of movement, yet fond of staying put; the friction and the experience gained thereby may produce very rapid evolution, but you may simply want to have a cup of coffee (or tea) and sleep all day. You have the ability to be the dashing cavalry leader, reckless of risks to himself or his followers. You have the strength to lead those who are without hope, into an exciting victory. Sometimes you are easily overwhelmed by sorrow or failure, but you can just as quickly recover from all reverses and misfortunes. Interesting. The extended description seems quite accurate.

Im not a fan of the term 'higher self' as it implies a self other than you. But ultimately, yes, I would say that whenever a feeling of love and excitement arises when focussing on a particular area of life, you follow that. The problem is, most of the time we follow these feelings and then at the halfway point, mind comes in and we turn around. That's why trust is such an important thing. Trust in what feels right for you. In other words. Trust your own authenticity.

Ive had something like this before. When I started meditating, the mind would try to come up with all these horrible things to think about. Maybe instead of focussing on the content of the thought, try to notice the feelings that arise with it. And with that, try to separate the thought from it and fully experience the feeling in the body. This way you can use these thoughts as a way to become more conscious. The exact opposite of what the thought is trying to accomplish. And therefor, it might stop.

Yup, that's not love. That's fear, disguised as love. It's good that you recognise this. It's one of the many tricks of the ego. And our whole society is built on it. Now see if you can love without needing any love in return. That's actual love. And see if there's things you love doing without needing something back from the activity. Get in touch with your authenticity. That's how you can break free from it. But becoming aware is always the first step. So this is good.

INFP Quite accurate I guess. I've been embracing intuitiveness and being over of logic and thinking. That used to be a huge problem. I'm changing from an endless planner into an intuitive doer.

@Leo Gura Is it me, or did you accidentalty disable notifcations altogether? Didnt get a notification when I got quoted. Im on iPad though.

@Mighty Mouse Meh, I dunno... Every time I have some kind of glimpse or awakening, I get absolutely destroyed by love for weeks to come. Its that love which pulls you to it in the first place. And that definetely perculates through to the person in a way. Not as ego. But as an open loving space. And yes, unconditional. But that's just another term for embodying realisation. And yeah, I guess the ego tries to take hold of that. Like it does with everything else. Its all good though.

The chakras are like the easiest thing to research yourself. One week of reading a couple of books and doing the excersices and you'll know enough to decide if its true or not. And I highly suggest it too.

I dont know. I like the reputation system. Let people sort out their own ego's.

If you want to get out of this prison you've created, first define what this prison is exactly. What created it, and what keeps it alive right now? I don't know you, but looking at your post I can already see that you're filled with an endless supply of ideas and beliefs. That's your prison. You masturbating at an early age has nothing to do with you not getting a girl right now. That's just you believing in a particular form of karma. Question these beliefs. Where does it come from? Like, what part of meditation don't you agree with? It's just sitting in silence. That's all. Nothing to even consider agreeing or disagreeing with. See, another idea is keeping you from experiencing new things. Things that might help you out a lot. You're 22. Become your own man. Being born and raised in Orthodox Christianity has nothing to do with who you are right now. But it has left you with this web of beliefs that has slowly formed your "prison". The first step is to become aware of it. You're in the right place though. Keep it up, and don't be too hard on yourself.

@Joseph Maynor What part of music is not real exactly?

Yes, that always works for me too. You litteraly experience the limits of the mind in front of your eyes. And then naturally, you let go of it.

Youre right. But If you believe you are your thoughts, the moment before liberation will feel exactly like facing your own death. But its just the death of a belief.

Lets just say, some music on shrooms, will change your life. Do what feels right for you. Understanding creativity is a huge part of the reason I do shrooms. So music is a perfect tool for that. But really, the trip is like 6 hours. Theres enough time to do both.