Pox

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  1. yeah the channel also has a video on xinjiang, definitely propaganda vibes
  2. Fuck no, I'm mainland chinese and i fully support taiwan, may they never get invaded by china
  3. How should I use Ai correctly? I find it useful as a tool to organize and structure my thoughts, but at the same time I think I've abused it too much to the point where my writing skills have dipped significantly, as well as other academic skills.
  4. my whole life i've been taught that i'm good at the stem side of things. So when the process from high school to college happened i thought about what i was taught about what i was good at and what i loved deeply at the time, still love, was video games. Now that i've been focused on fitness for so long and put less of my mind into coding, i felt pressure. I felt like i'm way too far behind. someone the same age as me who was way further in his learning is this field told me he's depressed and stressed from the job market. Right now my dream is to live a spontaneous, nomadic, adventurer who figured out some way of way to make money to fund his traveling at first, some way to make time to foster his creativity, and finally travel and make travel vlogs. I want them to be focused on the traveling, the culture, the people, the environment, the history, the politics, and at the same time have real talks and use cinematography. Either that or van life, train hopping, urbex, etc.
  5. I feel scared of feeling too safe, I'm scared that safety will make me lose this fire in me.
  6. I've been talking to my family a lot(like mom and dad) and it feels like we're all healing and talking to them makes me happy. But i should really learn to stay alone and lonely (mentally, not physically) again to get that focus on myself right?
  7. How do I balance different aspects of myself to generate the success I so crave? I'm trying to rewire my brain and right now it's overthinking mode. How do I balance the man in me that knows that no one will save me except me, the woman in me that tries so love everybody, the child in me that wants to find the joys everyone else had that I missed out on, the god that appreciates reality and present moment, the parent in me that wants so badly to satisfy my inner child, the over thinker that ruminates on anything philosophically interesting or practically aplicable but struggles to start, the analytical person in me that could learn stem, the planner in me that uses ai to create plans, the social me that's socially attuned, the survival mode me where i just keep one mode of being and too stressed to change anything, the reading writing brain(i neglected deeply because of ai)?
  8. thank you, i know that's my problem and i need to start enjoying myself to get better, but it's hard to, it's like a heartbreak with life itself, not with any people, knowing that it's the world that hurt me and now i have to relearn everything myself, growing up as a stubborn kid that never trusted any adult's advise because i was always nihilistic