TheGod

Thank you! In my 5MeO trips it was crystal clear that I'm the only aware thing in the universe. It actually freaked me out so fucking much I though I lost my mind. It happend during my first trip where I vaped 40mg of 5MeO-DMT. At first it was scary but then the fear was gone so I went further. When I eventually woke up I was terrified, because I had never woken up so deeply. I even called my best friend and freaked him out, I told him "Listen, please tell me some stupid shit, I want to fall asleep again." As we were talking I was so fucking conscious I couldn't actually fool myself anymore. Yes, at first, I couldn't stand solipsism because of my ego, but the deeper I go the easier it gets. I'm also relatively young so I didn't form that many attachments. I don't have kids, I don't have a wife, I don't have a lot of money, I don't have a house, I don't have a car. But I am God and I'm fine with it. It would've been a lot harder for me to let go if I had all of those things. I would've probably killed myself.

Exactly, its depth is infinite. I finally grasped what is my purpose as God: to explore and to understand myself. I'm gonna be doing it for eternity. Forever. I'm so thrilled

I ate 50 grams of fresh truffles in Amsterdam. Truffles are for kids.

5MeoDMT

I'm not telling God what it can not do. I am God and I know what I'm doing to myself This is just an idea that you hold in your mind. You've got no clue what you're talking about. Once you're in the God mode there is no human beings. There is only You. Everything you see is yourself which has no begining and no end. "Spreading love to human beings" where did you get the idea that God is interested in doing so? Spreading Love to human beings is a survival activity.

Indeed. God can't live human life because God transcends survival. All human activity (all of it) is pure survival. God can only Be. Actually, God is always being, it just seems like it's doing. All doing is a delusion. I'm doing it to myself. I've put on myself all the restrictions consciously when I was creating my ego. It is apparent for me that you have never accessed God states, or even if you did, they were not deep enough to comprehend what Leo was talking about. Go deeper and leave your ideas behind.

It's almost been a year since I had my profound awakening to the nature of what I actually am. I woke up from the dream of human life and I realized that I'm the only conscious being in the universe. Still, I'm afraid if I vanish forever. This fear prevents me from going deeper; on the other hand something within me wants to go deeper. Do you think it's possible to stop existing? I mean is it possible for this mysterious bubble cease to exist? If that so, what would it be like to non-exist? I know that I'm talking to myself, I need myself to give me a hint God