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hahaha I don't even know what would've happened. I didn't see a human though when I was looking at myself God's love is so shocking and accepting, this form of love is not possible for normies. I've been always rather an insecure guy maybe because I was bullied in school. But it turns out God loves all my imperfections I'm perfectly imperfect

So far I haven't answered these questions about my Self: 1. Why am I constructing this specific dream? I woke up to realization that everyrthing is my Will. Still I don't know how's it possible that I'm creating the dream without being conscious of it. Is it even possible to become aware of this process? If that so, is it possible to consciously choose a dream? If yes then how ? How would I as God choose what to dream? 2.What is my the most awake state? Is it possible for me to reach the complete level? If it's impossible than I'm not all powerful. On the other hand I am Infinity and infinity has no end, therefore, the existence of " the ultimate level" is a joke. Please answer only if you verified it in your direct experience at least 10 times. I don't care about your gurus or spiritual teachers (including Leo) say. Only your experience and how you got it.

How much weed should I smoke and how often? Do you think it's okay to have a joint once a day or it's a sign of addiction? How much / how often do you smoke weed?

You don't have a body You exists only as words on this forum You're not a human sitting somewhere haha

You'd need to have a body to study I haven't created any for you yet

None of you are awake my children

You're right. There is no point in trying to get answers to my questions because my ego-mind won't be able to get them. The only way is direct experience in different states of consciousness. I need to let go of Actualized.org because it's keeping me away from the truth. I need to relay on my own self.

My questions are way too deep for most of you guys. Half of you don't understand what I'm asking and the other half is brainwashed with spiritual dogmas

I'm gonna share with you a story that deepened my idea that making expectations with women is very unproductive. I work as a front desk agent in a hotel. It was a Saturday night and I was registering a lot of guest. There were a few girls that I was checking in into our hotel. They looked very attractive. One of them very flirty with me and she asked me where would I go on a Friday night and I told her the place saying "I go there every Saturday". She smiled at me saying "you'd better be there tonight, because I'm gonna go there". I told her that she should expect to see me there because I'm gonna be there. My college ( a girl) re-confirmed my idea that she was flirting by saying, "man, she clearly wants to see what you have down there". When my shift was over I went home, changed my clothes, took a shower and headed to the place. I didn't go there to see her (because I go there every weekend as I said). I didn't look for her either. I was dancing when she saw me. She was terrified guys. She said she didn't expect me to be in the club, she thought I was joking. At the same time I saw fear in hear eyes. I thought she assumed that I came there in order to hunt her hahaha. After having a quick chat with me she started leaving the dance floor, again, she was really scared. Of course I didn't follow her or something, but I was really surprised by her reaction. Women are from a different planet

I'm not sure what are you doing here if you're asking such a question.

You're not grasping my question

I'm more concerned about "how" Anyways, I know for sure that I'm tricking myself in one way or another. I might be playing a game with myself where I don't "know" a lot of things about myself and how I'm doing what I'm doing.

Yeah, there is no other way

Maybe I haven't created a chemical that would allow me to know this yet

From all your answers guys, I realized that nobody knows what's going on

Actually I thought that I was perceived as an unwanted stalker

You're definitely right. I misinterpreted her actions. I thought she didn't like me and was afraid of me. I lack experience with women, but I'll get there with time.

Well, you definitely should otherwise you'll go nuts

Hi there "myselves", For the last month I've been going to night clubs on my own every Saturdays & Sundays (sometimes Fridays). I want to share with you how I feel when I go there. The first few times I felt really fucking awkward. I though that people would stare at me and would give me weird looks. In reality it never happened because nobody actually cares who you are, who did you come with and other details. People there just come to have fun while being wasted (mostly). I like dancing and I go to the dance floor right of the bet. I don't drink alcohol or water, I just go and hit the floor. This was difficult at first as well, since a lot of people there are with their friends, but I noticed that there are lots of guys on their own as well. Unfortunately, a lot of them are very drunk and look really needy (I want to cry when I see them). I watched others approaching women and men, their game is so bad (mine bad as well!). It looks either very creepy, weird, needy or all together. I think the worst part for me is seeing how guys are being rejected in a very cruel way. A lot of girls just look at the guys who approach them as I would look at something really disgusting. It's really said that women are unaware of how much suffering guys feel and how painful it is for men (beginners) to approach (but neither are guys about girls suffering). Anyways, it turns out if you go to a night club to enjoy and you don't look needy girls are actually feel attracted to you. I get approached at least by one girl a night. Unfortunately, I don't feel attracted to those women (they are either very drunk or not attractive for me or both). I've been talking to people on the dance floor here and there and what I've noticed is that my social anxiety has been decreasing dramatically, but I'm still not at the place where I want to be in terms of confidence. I have very high standards for women so I don't do that many approaches (maybe 1 or 2 or maybe 0 if there is no attractive girl around). I used to try to approach women that I wasn't attracted to but it would always blow up because it was'n authentic. My game is very straight forward, I don't use any techniques or ways of saying things. I just go and say "Hi, I think you're cute" or "I just saw you and wanted to talk to you". I'm gonna continue going to night clubs on my own and I recommend you give it a shot as well.

I can't help myself

You must've been a cow in your previous incarnation

Yeah man, that's the plan! Slowly but steady!

I will ultimately move to Spain or Latin America at some point of my life. Latin women are so calientes

I like milk chocolate chips, I'm crazy about them. Have you tried any? By the way, spinach or broccoli flavour sounds like torture