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Someone who is superior to me and more worthy than I am. Someone who I have to please and pretend to be like. It sits deep down in my subconscious mind. I’m approaching women to: get rid of the fear, put them down of the pedestal, improve my social skills.

I reached the point where I don't understand what God is. I used to think I understand but now I'm very very puzzled with it. I did 50+ trips on mushrooms for the last 4 years, around 20+ DMT and 15+ 5MeODMT trips. I used to have only good trips before I started doing 5MeODMT. Sometimes I'm tripping and I feel great that I'm God but recently I've been having a plenty of bad trips where I have a lot of fear and negativity. My question is, should I trust bad trips or good trips? Also, I never tried 5MeOMalt so I might be missing out on some important aspect. On the other hand, even if I tried 5MeOMalt how can I trust the experience? I'm sure that in 50 years I will imagine new psychedelics that will be as powerfull as 5MeO or even more powerful. I have a theory that I can't be understood completely as God

No only that! They also don't know how to have a wild and hot sex. Neither do they know how to stay sexy during the sex. I remember I had sex with a girl and the way she stand in the back position turned me off. She was like old lady picking up some veggies at the store.

I can't agree on that! With my ex I had sex as good as in my fantasies. I really miss sex with her. But you are also right, the rest of the time when I had sex it was just mediocre or okay.

It's been two years since I broke up with my ex. Ever since, I've been going to night clubs, trying to approach women. I've been doing some day game. But all in vain. I've got a friend who has multiple girlfriends at the same time. The more I talk to him the more I realize what I'm doing wrong. I'm way too needy, direct and too pussy with women. What my friend does is he tells women lies constantly. He tells them what they want to hear, not what he really thinks. I realised that most of the women don't actually appreciate honesty. It's what they say they need, but in reality they are not attracted to it. All my life I've been trying to be gentle with women, trying to respect them, treat them fairly. Now I see that I was wrong. I'm going to become an actor when dealing with women. My goal is to have 3 girlfriends at the same time. I'll be using lies and manipulation. Before you try to comment something, let me do it first. I'm conscious that I want to do it because I feel bitter and I'm also conscious this won't make me happy. On the other hand, I know that I won't feel worse than I feel now, because now I feel lonely and tired, I don't want to feel victim anymore. Survival is unfair but it is what it is.

In November 2022 I bought my first 5MeO-DMT pen. I vaped 40mg of it and reached a very radical state of consciousness when I woke up for the first time. Don't get me wrong, I had had profound god realizations on shrooms, but they were not so clear and profound. I realized that I'm singular and eternal being. I exist beyond time and space and there is nothing but me. I'm nothing, pure love and magic. Unfortunately, there is no one to explain this to and it's not possible to convey what God is by using words. God can be properly understood only through experience. Anyways, I realized what I really really want as God. I want to be an actor in this movie called life because once you're awake there is nothing else to do. Everything is pointless. Meditation, spiritual teachings and all survival looses its meaning. Which is why I had created myself in the first place. I did it because I wanted to. I love my shitty life and I enjoy creating problems and solving them. I love suffering and pain. That night I realized all of it and re-created myself. The next day when the ego was back I couldn't understand how it's possible that I decided to go back. Ego will never understand why God gives up eternal happiness and bliss for devilry pain and drama. I decided to verify my decision. By October 2023 I've verified that decision at least 10 times. I even filmed God talking to itself. The result is always the same - God wants to play the game. It couldn't care less about ego's suffering and pain or problems. Ego wants salvation and peace, but God simply do not care. You must be wondering why? Well, because life is the illusion. God is just imagining things, nothing really happens to God. I'm going to immerse myself in the illusion really fucking deep, but I will never forget that I'm God nor will there ever be a person who will disprove it. I will come back to psychedelics after 10 years to see if my decion has changed, but I don't think it will be different.

Yeah I'm human just full of shit haha But honestly I like and appreciate women, I'm bitter about them because I don't know how to relate to them due to lack of experience. Often I miss the time when I would go to sleep with my ex. I used to watch her falling asleep, she was so adorable. You know you right, I need intimacy it's not only about sex. It's everything. Conversations, watching movies together, holding hands, kissing. I've been lying to myself saying that I don't need this things. Psychedelics revealed that it's pure lies. Women are such precious creatures of mine, pure beauty.

Nice investigation! Yeah I said a lot of words, but I was so bitter that day hahah. All those statements were emotional rather then rational

Now I only have sex with prostitutes once a month whilst learning the game. So yes, of course, I'm using sex workers for sex. Once I find a girlfriend I'll stop doing what I'm doing. I don't want to play a victim and crying now when I can't find a girlfriend due to lack of dating skills. I would rather have one cute and interesting girlfriend then fucking sex workers. It's obvious. The problem is my standards very high and my game is not up to them yet.

Stop making stupid assumptions and saying things that I didn't say! It pisses me off. I had one Brazilian girlfriend and I didn't use her for her body neither did I fuck other girls.

Well, I'm not a stupid gringo I was born un Ukraine so I know how the game is played and how women fuck foreigners over to take the advantage. A lot of gringos think that latinas are waiting for them which is so stupid. They go there without knowing basics of their language assuming they will have luck there. These guys end up being scammed, poisoned, kidnapped etc. I used to work in Brazil and I experience their culture and I love it sooo much! Now the more I talk to people from Colombia the more I realize how different they are to people here in Canada or to people from Europe. I'm not saying they are better or worse they are just different.

i want to move to Latin America because I'm attracted to Latin girls. My ex was Brazilian so this desire comes from my direct experience. I will learn the game there.

You make me feel stupid no self self ;D I can't get your point!

I love sluts and whore and I love women who love sex and who can talk about their desire explicitly. Unfortunately, you are right. In most of our cultures women have been shamed for their sexuality which is so stupid! Like in my country (I'm Ukrainian) women feel a lot of shame for talking about sex or wanting sex. But men also suffer. Which is why I fuck my culture in the ass. So fucking stupid and conservative it is ridiculous! I'm gonna move to Latin America where people talk about sex easily and have a lot of it.

Don't ruin my game with spirituality. I'm God and I want to have experience of the other. I'm having a lot of fun here!

Sorry but for me it seems like you are from a different planet. The more rejections you get the easier it gets. Dissatisfaction, disassociation, desensitization are very fancy words. I would also add delirium to explain how you connect all of them in one sentence.

I have never said that. You're making things up my friend. For sure some of there do! women have different agenda. For them getting laid is not as important as for guys (mostly).

What do you mean? This is false. You have no idea how difficult approaching is for shy and not confident men. Where did you get this idea? What burn out are you talking about? I How can you possible come up with this assumption? I'm just so puzzled right now. If you throw a guy who has never approached women to have a conversation do you think he'll have a wonderful experience?

Yeah all of us playing this game here

of course because a women wants to feel special It's actually a good strategy. I have a friend of mine who has never had problems with women. You know how? well, he is a master at manipulating them. At first he makes them feel special and they think that he falls in love with them. But in reality he fucks like 2-3 girls meanwhile and none of them are aware of each other and all of them feel special

Approaching women doesn't mean fucking them. What dissociation and desensitization you are talking about?

The more you approach the better you'll be at the game. There is no dogma.

You know I'm only doing it on 5MeO hahhah I'm sending you lots of hugs and love !

I've been watching porn since I was 12. Now I'm 27. From 12 till 24 I would watch it 1-3 times a day everyday (sometimes even 5 times if I didn't have to go to school). I used to think that there was nothing wrong with porn until I tried quitting it 4 years ago. I realized the real reasons of my porn use. I became conscious I use porn because my skills with women are really bad. It's been my copping strategy for a very very long time. Now I'm 27 and I'm trying to stop watching it. Porn is a good tool in a short run, but in a long run it may fuck you up. I'm not saying that porn is bad for everyone, it would be stupid to say that. But, I'm so sad to realize that the time I spent jerking off on porn I could've been developing my social skills. I'm glad that I at least realized it right now and I have time to work on my skills. I think a lot of people denying or not aware of negative side-effects it can cause. The other half demonizes it which is wrong as well. The only person who can tell if porn is good for you or not is you. Don't ask other people about it, just experiment and see what happens. After watching porn I feel very lonely and even depressed. I don't think our minds were developed for porn. It is artificial. You watch some guy fucking a girl you wish you could fuck but you can't. How do you think it effects you psyche or self-esteem? But again, I'm just sharing my experience with porn. I'm not here to argue with people on this topic.

You can't grasp the mechanism. I'm using my magic to create things because I'm God. There is no way you can understand it, no matter how many books you read or how many gurus you talk to. It's just a waste of time. The only way for you to understand is to experience conscious creation. Psychedelics are the best way as for me. God itself can't grasp itself completely.