Spiritual Warrior

Okay, so I have come from the exact same place that you are at right now. I was sexually attracted to women but also hated them at the same time. It was such a mind fuck. What I learned is that I didn't hate the essence of women, I just hated the fact that I was unable to attract them and get laid. This made me very frustrated (it still does) and I took it out on them. What do I do with this information? I can wallow and continue to hate women or... I can do something about it.. I decided to do something about it. I deliberately took jobs in which I was in contact with women constantly (host at a restaurant & dance instructor) over the next few months, I absolutely fell in love with the feminine essence. I love how they can be so fiery and emotional, love how they are able to be empathetic and genuinely care about me in a way unlike men, I love how they are able to surrender to a masculine man's presence and allow him to lead ( this was learned through dance), I love how vibrant and lively they are in meetings (laughing and smiling very easily), they are able to pick up on emotional signals unlike that of a man (if I am sad about something, a girl will pick up on it immediately), I love how they try to seduce me by using these subtle signals that are so hard to pick up on but are meant to penetrate my mind, I love when a girl cracks a cute little smile despite trying to hide it, I love how women are sexy without even trying, I am in love with their presence, I just want to make them smile. I urge you to expose yourself more to these wonderful creatures, you will find out a lot about them and about yourself... And you may even fall in love. God has not created men and women to merely get together and reproduce, he has created us to fall in love with each other. Open yourself up to them.

It's so easy to say this when you're on the outside looking in

Thank you @Lila9 I couldn't help but smile while reading this and I think you're right on all accounts. I appreciate you

This post was a wake up call for me as I am broke af and have a spending problem. Going to start tackling it today. Thank you for sharing @Thought Art

This game is hard brother, try to stay hopeful. Each rejection is a learning experience.

I want to fall in love. What is love? Where does it come from? Is it an emotion? What is an emotion? Are they colorful? Am I too dejected to feel anything that surpasses a light brush on the arm? Can i continue to behave like this and reach my goals? I cant help but feel insane I am shameful I am hated I am loved I am confident I am all that there is I can see the white snow crawling into my window What is snow but an icicle with arms An icicle with arms? Yes. What can it all mean? Where can I stand up on my own two feet Is it all going to change? Probably not. Probably Yes. My thoughts are increasing I can handle the tempo Its heating up now My thoughts increase with each stroke of luck My vision is blurry, no where to go My whole life is at stake Why cant I go over this some more? I am seen I am heard Why can't I get laid? Because Im weak and pathetic Nope Change the subject Let the subject be thrown in the trash I love my cat These are thoughts Thoughts have a voice A voice inherent to judgement? No. There will be no judgement today You are free to go But why master? Have I betrayed yee? What do you mean slave? You are free. Go ahead and live freely. But I don't want to be free Freedom is taxing And I want to suck the juicy nectars Maybe they did help her survive I want to thrive and succeed Empowering / Joy / Love / Knowledge / Freedom These are the emotions and thoughts that you want. Right here. I want to add to their experience really badly I am irresponsible I am responsible I can handle anything life throws at me Positive affrimatinos What are they though? Are they really that important? Im sick of thinking. Can I do something else? No. I will whip you with my thoguht stick until you bleed I want to focus on something extraterrestrial I want to quit every job and live in a cave I want to escape because I am afraid that I will be castrated for being a pervert I am a pervert I am not a pervert This is an ugly word Why cant I say pervert? Its just a word Just like any other word Why does it hurt me soul soooooo.... Im really the sadboy type Not for every body What are the other archetypes? What are the archetypes of women? Women: Im obssessed with you. Truly. You are so sexy to me. The way you can manipulate my mind. Seduce me with your eyes. Why cant you look me in the eyes? Why are you scared? Scared of falling in love? I'll dive in head first. I've gone way deeper than you've gone. This is green. This is blue. This is everything. I go deeper. Deeper inside your pussy.. and deeper inside your mind. My taste is contagious. I'm sexy as fuck. And I'm fun. You can't get enough. I am your slave. Thats what I want in the bedroom. I want her to tell me that there isnt anyhing left to say. My name is gold. I don't want him to die. I have to call my mans. I'm going to call him tomorrow. I don't want to be alone with anybody. Its weird. And I don't feel normal. This post will get deleted. My mind never stops. IT wont stop . Never. Stop with the distractions. Thank you itsadistraction.

Healthy stage red is equivalent to the bad boy archetype that women crave in a man.

Another banger! Thank you! Going on a run right now wearing pink and no phone, no music (red & purple) Just do it. You're a man, you're a warrior, you can handle anything. PASSION. DESIRE.

I love this! Thank you for sharing! I've neglected to put attention on purple and beige in my work, those posts were especially helpful to me. I completely agree with you, its more important to integrate all of the lower stages of the spiral than to climb as high as you can. In this way, you're able to sip on all of the different flavors of life and become a more integrated being.

Dear all women that hate pickup, I know pickup may seem slimy and gross to all of you, but we are actually doing this so that we can become a strong and compassionate partner for you one day. We are doing this in order to better understand how to lead, to understand what it is that women want, to understand what turns you on, to understand how to communicate with you. Pickup is a necessary part of a man's evolution if he is to truly understand the feminine. The only way that we know how to do this is to hit on lots of girls... And to try to have sex with them. Attempting to have sex with a girl puts your attention solely on the girl and what she wants, what does she need in order for her to feel comfortable enough with me. We both want to experience something next level, something deep and emotional or fun and playful... we both want sex... All I truly want is to love someone fully and for her to love me fully, that is literally it. But in order to get there, I have to go through the painful fun of hitting on random girls and consensually get them into bed with me... And theres nothing wrong with that. This is the deeper dynamic going on in pickup... We are trying to be better men for you ladies... And let me tell you pickup is far from easy. We go through the pain of this work because we love you.

Lmao I don't know what to make of this... Really though, if you want a boyfriend, get together with your girl friends, dress up real nice, and go to a bar(s). You will get hit on, take your pick.

I'm sure you have more skills than you think. However, almost all of my jobs were offered to me through friend or family or just walking into a business and getting lucky, (they were short-staffed and desperate for help.) Don't stress too much about the resume, you can fill most of the resume with a "career objective" if you want, in which you write in your vision for your career trajectory, I can tell you like to write. Then at the bottom, put your education history, some skills that you have, and any work experience that you've had. If you don't have work experience, its fine. You are selling yourself as is. If an employer sees potential in you, they will hire you, don't sell yourself short, you are valuable.

How would you know beforehand though? What types of feelings do you have for the woman before sex if you truly like her for her and not just because your horny?

Ayyyyy good shit dude! You killed it. Very confident, smooth approach. Inspiring!

Life purpose should be priority number one in my opinion. I don't understand why you can't fit both into your life though... there are 24 hours in the day and you aren't going to be working all day every day. Is she asking for more attention than you feel comfortable giving to her based on your current life purpose goals?

@Sabth Stop blaming others and take 100% responsibility for your life, thats the only way to get out of your situation. The future is bright, but you need to grab the bull by the horns and stop using your parents as a scapegoat.

Stage green:

This is your life purpose statement 👏

I'm scared of love

Stage Red: Your not the real hero, I'm the real hero.

Lol okay, I'll try the meme, I'll have fun with that.

A girl wouldn't be hanging out with you for 2 hours if she wasn't interested. It is our job within those two hours to get her to invest, display high value, plan a future with her, etc.

Yeah thats spot on, hes got a point, but the main point is that its not a big deal that 2 girls didn't text me back. I gather lessons learned and continue grinding, thats all I can do.

Yeah thats good advice, layers. And each experience that I have will add another layer, then another layer, then another... until I'm the king.

Transcending the Spiral - Journal Entry #15 - Thur Nov 2nd '23 : How would a stage yellow character act in Pickup? How would a stage yellow person act when hitting on women? He would put his own insecurities to the side and focus on the task at hand, he would act with integrity and nobility (blue) he wouldn't let a girl be rude to him or ridicule him (red), he feels icy and confident and dresses nicely (orange) he is filled with love in his heart, ready to surrender if he can (green) He understands the male-female dynamic and how it works on a systemic level. He understand that there are reasons that attractive people are difficult to find. There are reasons that attractive women don't like to walk down the street alone. There are reasons that guys are frustrated and struggle with attracting women. There are reasons that women will not fall for the nice guy. There are reasons why women find bad boys so alluring. This is stage yellow, understanding the dynamics on a far reaching level, not just for your own agenda. (Yellow)