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@Princess Arabia now I'm lol ing. Anyway, I would never enjoy reading back what I've wrote. Except the $23k ones and my lists . I am not proud of what I've wrote. @Schizophonia Shut up you little kiddo. If you've got nothing good to say just shut up! I'll wish you one day you'll be in the position I'm in. . I didn't know anyone in my state (around me). I couldnt look for work.

Right now I have two of my nephew/niece watching a skits at 10:36PM in my room. We're already about to sleep. And I feel so bored with my room. Actually this house is already destroyed after the renovation (to add a few more rooms ) I think I will only like it if I put a Tutankhamen sculpture in my room to make it more vibrant. Or else I'm bored with my room. With no activities..

I've never had a boyfriend or be in a relationship. I never work since Ive finished high school till twenty seven. I never completed a bachelor degree. My sister got married when she's 22. And now my younger bro is getting married.. Am I missing out on life? I don't know. While my age is increasing, I never felt ready to have a child. But the more I age, will it be harder to have children? Though I never felt ready. I'm struggling with basic survival right now. Like my life isn't right. I am still dependent on my parents. While I want to be independent. And they aren't taking good care of me. So I want to be free and independent . But I didn't know how. Like I want to travel..and I want to go out. And I want to live life normally ?❣️ I couldn't drive. When will I be ever matured up be an adult? I don't wanna be 28. That's old. There's no reason I still had all these problems stuck in these at 28. So I wanna settle all these when I'm 27. ?

At least they are good in one. I have neither.

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What's normal, following the path. After high school, graduate university, get a job, get married, get a better job, get a home, get a child etc. Could drive by 18 etc. Which I hadn't had.

The last time I read a book was a long time ago. From what I can remember : RISALA ANNUR by Said Nursi THE JOY IN LOVING by Mother Teresa THE LOST SYMBOL by Dan Brown I have other books too but I don't really like it.

I want my portfolio to look good so I had to be careful in choosing my path. Of what I want. It better be good. Should be what I want..

I see that people in the middle east are richer than the average people in my country. There is something about my country that make it seems like it's very traditional. I see those in the middle east are very modern. And like cultured. I wish. At least rn I have put on information on my linked in. I wish to get better at all the skills that I had

I only feel productive in 2011 and 2014. The rest are just me forcing myself into a box and preserverance. Which clearly didn't work. I also like 2017 for some reason. But that's only it. Right now my problem is, I just stay at home and has no opportunity to go outside. My parents aren't bringing me anywhere. And I am just trapped. I don't have freedom. So how could I even start? Idk. I am trapped. Asking my parents to sent me to a university? (I had much more freedom when I was studying in a university). Get someone to hire me? Moving to a different country ? Working ? I don't have access to all these currently at the moment.

@Raze my past had been stagnant a lot. My brightest years are when I was 15 (2011). It has only going downward the more I age. Eighteen was a slightly better years. But it's going downward. 2016 was also good. (For being young). But I was struggling with my university. And since 2020 I just had been doing nothing. I don't work. Or do anything.

No Jesus is white. Moses is black.

Then did you created the earth and all human beings?

There are like an expired artist going to Sarawak. I want Gd instead of Taeyang. Taeyeon instead of Hyoyeon.

Adam & Eve?

4/5 So 8/10

2012 2021

Deep diving waters Ralph Smart.

@BlueOak

I'm so bored not having a work right now.

Before this, I only plan to work in an architectural firm after I graduated university. That's the only option that I had that I know of. (I don't know any other type of work or ways of work). But I didn't graduated do I never work. How can I do something about it? I never had any experience in other types of work. How can I start working? Where should I go?

I want to think more about my career path. I don't currently have a career. I need to think hard on this.

My gold coin went missing. When I was in the mental hospital. Together with other things. Now only this was left and I keep it in my handbag

Something that is feasible to me..I don't have a mass of land. (But my father is planting *not trees* but plants) *It's not actually profitable to plant trees in my home area there are four fruitful trees but that's only it. We eat the fruits, sells some (which is not much) and gave to others. Now the trees are old. And has been cut down some. The question is how can I make $23k or even $100k? No I just want to make 23k. @BlueOakI really don't know what would be valuable to people's lives...

Oh you're the same person I thought you're a different person.