Schizophonia

You confused your estradiol pen with 5 MeO DMT.

I sometime used it to learn psychoanalysis.

Day 16 I've been very interested in nutrition since my sophomore year of high school; At the time I was quite orthorexic and afraid of gaining weight, so I wanted a diet, or a way of eating that would guarantee that this wouldn't happen. I was actually a little overweight in middle school, it wasn't too bad and it quickly went away with growth, but because of some bad experiences and my tendency to obsess (which has dulled a lot in recent years for some reason, to the point where I now consider myself more detached than the normal person on any subject), it was enough to twist my relationship with food and the body for a while. So I peeled what was available on the internet, to the point where today I must know basically all the diets and their gurus lol: -NPC balanced plant based diet (dr greger) -The more orthorexic version of the precious one (Fuhrman) -Plant based HCLF starchivore diet (McDougall) -Plant based HCLF both high sugar high starch diet (Durian Rider/Freelee banana girl) -Plant based HCLF fruiratian (Doug Graham, Robert Morse, John Rose...) -Plant based HFLC (Markus Rothkranz, Lou Corona) -HCLF omnivore/Vertical diet (Stan Efferding) -Keto (Eric berg, Sten ekberg) -Meat based Keto (Shawn Baker, Chaffee, Bart Kay, Robert Klitz...) -Meat based with carbs, primal style (Aaujus Vonderplanitz, Sv3rige, Tufano...) -Meat based with carbs including starch (Paul Saladino). -Paleo Diet (Julien Venesson). -FODMAPs free diet. -Ray Peat Diet -Doing anything (Vegetable police 😅) Obviously I haven't tried them all, I'm not that mentally ill 👺, but I've experimented with some of them over time. The worst experience was a diet high in starch and low in animal products, especially with lots of beans and grains (or pseudo grains) competes; Made me basically stupid, lots of brain fog to the point where I couldn't pass my driving test as was planned at the time, and turned me into a human jet pack so much that I could get gas, you wouldn't have wanted to be my girlfriend at that time👺 ; It's not very sexy but it's the truth. In fact it was so bad, that I sometimes had attacks of colitis here and there in the evening, I sometimes finished my philosophy class in the last year of high school (it was the class of the week I finished the latest) by bending over because of abdominal pain. All these different problems resolved themselves when I completely stopped these foods, no matter how I tried to prepare them. The second serious experiment was a "meat based with starch" diet, a bit like Paul Saladino does today; It was already much easier, no abdominal problems and a great calm, whereas during my vegan experience I was regularly angry and disdainful. I finally stopped because of the cost and the food diversity, I like cooking, and I don't want to stress too much about food anymore, and in fact even if I let people do what they want, even if I leave them royal peace, well in fact I find it ridiculous to lower oneself to that; I don't want my life, my nervous system, my limits to revolve around something as anecdotal as food, especially when like me you come from a country where food is greatly associated with a moment of pleasure, sharing, even art and a country where more or less everyone knows how to cook. All I have been able to observe concretely is that consuming too many legumes or dairy products (especially from cows) caused significant intestinal and cognitive problems, as well as eating a diet that is not "nutritious" enough in general. Eating too much saturated fat seems to cause headaches, but this is a correlation that I observed without paying too much attention to it at a time when I was interested in Ray Peat, so it may just be bullshit. But it's not only with food that I played, but also with medications: Obviously psychedelics, eheh, but especially sedatives in the context of my severe insomnia. Benzodiazepines, "light" gabaergics (Aswhagandha...), trycyclics (Mirtazapines), atypical antidepressants (Trazodone), antihistamines (Cyproheptadine, Doxylamine...), taking gelatin to "suppress serotonin" (which makes no sense, a ray peat bullshit), magnesium, zinc, taurine, or even high doses of metalonin.... These are all traps, immediately; From the first dose they will screw up your ability to fall asleep the following night by rebound effect, regardless of tolerance, and will re-enrich sleep anxiety ("what will happen if I don't take the medication tonight?"). So I no longer take any supplements or even less medication, for all the reasons I have given or tacitly suggested previously. The only two supplements I take today (I lied🫨) are a multivitamin and mineral ("All-in-one" from PureEncapsulation) and omega 3 EPA/DHA/DPA supplements based on algae. The only health-oriented angle of view that interests me at the moment, by extension of my interest in Neville Goddard and the law of attraction, in solipsism, is the work of Joe Dispenza. I love Joe, uncle Joe is basically an athlete who during a cycling event (probably triathlon, from memory) fractured his vertebrae and became basically disabled. He was supposed to have an operation that was essentially just to reduce his pain, but motivated by his readings on esotericism, in particular the famous book "Autobiography of a Yogi" of Paramahansa Yogananda he decided not to do this medical intervention and to try to repair his spinal column himself via visualization and meditation exercises, by "calling on the source at the origin of everything" to paraphrase him. It was successful, now it's not so much that it works but he is at the head of a company that allows thousands of people around the world each year to reverse extremely serious and often supposedly irreversible pathologies through the same teachings, such as autoimmune diseases, terminal cancer, disabilities, invertility, a stroke that has exploded part of the brain, etc. etc. Joe Dispenza has the most rational approach possible to try, by his own admissions, to seduce the most skeptical people; so he will generally rationalize his results via work on brain waves and epigenetics, but he is actually fundamentally a non-dual thinker perfectly in agreement with the statements of monist people like Leo Gura. Joe has tons of testimonies on his youtube channel, it's incredible, probably in the top 3 of my influences in recent years.

There is above all an epidemic of laziness and brainroting by youtube, tiktok...

No problem, you're sweet. It should be possible at the end of the week, I'll see.

Ai isn't smart enough for now.

For classy otters. Yes. I was given a taste of something sweet with saffron, I found it vile. 👺 A kind of toast with a mixture on top from what i remember.

It looks good but I don't like saffron, if it's like what I ate at the Christmas market. 👺

I see. Good appetite

I’ve never seen anybody who has prolonged karmic evolution just with psychedelic including 5 MeO.

They look great 👉 It is also with almonds or it is for decoration ?

Wait until OP find out Shilajit 😏

You're right, many people don't socialize enough and we're not the same irl as we are online; I myself am systematically calmer and simpler in real life. But I don't want to be too dramatic, I see that most peopl are starting to become aware of this problem. What I wanted to say is that despite the problem of loneliness, I also see a "drying up" of certain karma which is in fact much more serious over the generations. I don't know if it was the world war or something like that that caused an "energy whiplash", but here in the boomer generation and generation x there are a lot of extremely mentally ill people; A lot of rape, humiliation, or physical violence in any context. Everyone in France knows someone who was raised with joyful like "you're good for nothing, you'll end up under the bridges". Modern generations often seem more mature and stable, and there are also fewer problems with alcoholism, smoking and drug addiction in general.

courtship display* Jk

If we refuse to collaborate with everyone who has a shadow or simply who does not agree with us, we will quickly end up sucking stones in a cave.

Don't hesitate to show us the result 👍

Yes. Not a big deal.

Absolute terror.

You have a normal willingness to talk about what I can see from my side.

bruh

You said you could be satisfied with barely speaking to your family.

I don't know, I see a lot of old people who are super socially handicapped. The Internet also allows for socializing. It's mostly the touch that we miss, the carnal proximity. Not only in the sexual sense lol but also on a friendly level.

Yeah but you're not laughing, or you're just putting yourself in a particularly interesting frequency, while surfing on actualize. Well probably not.

Day 15 There are people who are manic enough to impulsively, quickly generate, visualize a new vision of themselves with enough attachment to it to hold on to it with a curious force. This is the case of my mother who after having smoked for several decades suddenly stopped; She had become hysterical for a week or two lol, but she had held on to this new vision of herself as a "non-smoker" and the prospect of smoking again triggered a feeling of shame. I am not like that, I am more like my father (in between the two basically) who lives much more in the present moment. It is a very good psychological disposition to have responsibilities, to manage things that are usually particularly stressful for most people, moreover my father has always been a hard worker and an entrepreneur, and has generally earned a very good living; But here it is, he doesn't want to stop smoking or drinking, even with health problems, because he has little emotional energy that pushes him to move ; It's a bit like "a bull's psyche" As for me, if I just "no fap to see what happens" like during nofap november, I know for sure that I will relapse and wallow in decadence after 24 hours 👺, because my phlegmatism/cynicism will take over again and I will say to myself "oh what's the point, it's useless". I need to visualize, see and feel this future, to put a real effort into it, to tangibly register myself in something tangibly promising; It's really essential , Then when the habit is formed, it will be formed firmly. Seminal retention kills two birds with one stone, if you have the motivation to hold on you will get even more motivation in the medium/long term thanks to the absence of a prolactin peak and the exhaustion of certain neurotransmitters, exhaustion of vital energy in general.

Eheh. I'm waiting for my hidden asian brother's one Dw It's just daydreaming, basically. For the moment my concrete goals are obviously much more humble things and I am satisfied with that.