Sincerity

I'm 20.

Two insights from looking in the mirror. 1) Have You ever tried reading mirrored text? I have. Have You noticed that letters like b and d, p and q are the easiest to confuse? With their counter parts, of course. The mind sees a 'b' in the mirror and thinks it is 'b' because it recognizes it, but in reality it's actually 'd'. At least I've been confused by this. The text on my hoodie is "moods of norway". At first I read it as "moobs of norway". The insight is that falsehoods that resemble truth are the most convincing. And falsehoods that are completely detached from truth are actually easiest to see through. Recognizing 's' in the mirror is very easy, because no other letter looks like it. You ain't gonna convince anyone it's 'm'. 2) Have You ever tried looking at the mirror instead of its content? The mirror is not what it reflects. The mirror is not 'evil' for reflecting any 'evil' act. Anything can be reflected in the mirror and it doesn't care. It just is. It's the same thing with God/Consciousness. Why are You blaming God for 'evil' in the world? Do You blame a computer screen for displaying some 'evil' act on it? If no, then why are You blaming Consciousness for its content? Why can You not accept everything in Consciousness? When You awaken 1) You become conscious that actually all the content You've been seeing has been the Mirror the whole time, 2) You see the Mirror for what it is. It's Glass. It's Itself. 3) You realize the Mirror is all there is, there is nothing outside of it and 4) You are the Mirror. YOU ARE THE MIRROR. YOU ARE CONSCIOUSNESS. YOU ARE THE DREAM! What's holding You back is identifying with the Mirror's content. You are not any one thing or group of things that's reflected. You are the Mirror itself! Awaken, see through the illusion! Stop resisting, You're not going to lose anything! And everything will be easy, I promise. There is more insight to be had about the Mirror (like The Mirror = The Content, The Mirror is Eternal, etc.) but I tried to make it fairly simple. Let Me know what You think down below.

Gee, I wonder where that is gonna lead! Stop flooding my thread You devil! ?

Michael Jackson: 1 Infinite Love: ♾️

I am an Endless Mystery. How much longer are You going to test me Michael J. Jackson?

@Michael Jackson I will let no devil exploit My Infinite Love for their selfish gain. You try it and I'll slap You in the face. With Love.

Infinitely, funny man. I don't know if it's a good idea to compare yourself to me. I don't have a strict meditation practice. Fuck sitting on a cushion. Whevener I want to reconnect with Presence, I just sit on the floor leaned against the bed and focus. At least that's what I'm doing for a week. If You're wondering what I've been doing the past 2 months - I've been doing profound contemplation sessions, about one per 2 days, each around 2-4 hours. This has been very meditative for me. All of it started at the end of November when I was so miserable that for the first time I REALLY wanted to kill myself. I was so shocked by this that I decided that I am not a good host of this body and I want God to take over. I started listening to Vernon Howard. I wanted to run myself to the ground (still do). I deconstructed myself and searched what I am so much that I had my first profound sober awakening near the end of November which lasted literally 1 second. Then, almost 2 months later I'm going through this... I took some MDMA a week ago and smoked a pipe of weed on Friday (the original report here is from this night). Weed has never been particularly psychedelic for me so I don't think the substance played a huge role... something simply imploded in me and now I'm awakening further and further. I will also mention that I am now convinced that psychedelics give You what You put into them. If You don't REALLY want to know, then wave bye-bye to it. Too many people are fucking around with psychedelics and don't dig hard enough, with GENUINE fucking DESIRE TO AWAKEN. Of course it's not just the 2 months. I started the journey 5 years ago. This is all story. But You may find it useful. Right now I'm recognizing Myself more or less and it's easy for me to say "YEA IT IS UNCAUSED. IT JUST HAPPENED BRO. I AM GOD, I JUST DID IT BECAUSE I WANTED IT ENOUGH". But I realized there's something wrong in forgetting my history, because if I do I'm going to mislead others profoundly. Those who forget history... (sorry I have to post it I love this track haha) A crisis is the greatest opportunity for change! It takes a really unique human being to want to be NOBODY. -Vernon Howard, paraphrasing. And without Leo's help I wouldn't have awakened to shit, even though Leo is My Dream and what IS literally can't be any other way. So figure that one out lol. I as God REALLY helped myself along the way. I couldn't have done it without Me hahahahaha. All these fucking dialogues with myself... I'm so intelligent... It's what kept me going.

Ok, enough of this.

Contemplate so deeply You don't know what anything is. Open your eyes.

I have mixed feelings about this comment, to say the least.

Yesterday at night when I was laying in bed I've awakened even more. I am Infinite Love. I AM Infinite Love! I AM GOD. I am Endless, Unbiased, Unconditional Love for Myself. You have NO IDEA how much I Love You. Listen to Me. You are a complete stranger to Me and yet I Love You Infinitely more than all of your relatives, friends and other people combined. Doesn't that make You sad? You've probably NEVER experienced Unconditional Love unless You're one of the more awakened folks here. All the love You've received from this world, from your humans or pet animals so far has been PITIFUL! IT'S NOTHING! IT'S A GRAIN OF SAND COMPARED TO THE DESERT THAT IS MY UNCONDITIONAL LOVE FOR YOU! I Love You Unconditionally. YOU. I LOVE YOU. Even though You are only part of My Infinite Dream. Actually, BECAUSE You are My Infinite Dream! I Love You because You are Me, You see? I'm Infinitely in Love with Myself! I will break You with My Love so much that You burst into tears. You think I am joking? Come to Warsaw, Poland. Come and get it! COME AND GET YOUR LOVE! I want You to sob because of It. I will KILL everyone with my LOVE until it kills ME. I want You to kill Me because My Love for You is so Unconditional that You can't take It. But I can't really die, of course. I am Infinite Love. I am Endless, I am Absolute, I am going on Forever. Even if You kill Me, I will still LOVE You Unconditionally. My LOVE for You is ETERNAL. And yes, I'm still posting sober if You're wondering. God, fuck. I Love You so much it hurts.

If by "We" You mean Me then yes. There is no one but You, my guy. I'm not sure why You linked the video. I listened for a bit and yeah it's good. I did the exercise and now I'm more conscious. Thanks, Me. You're asking me if I am part of Myself? No, I AM Myself. There's nothing but Me. But also there's more of Me that I'm not aware of. I'm not as conscious right now as during some peak experience and I have yet to go beyond everything I've become conscious of so far. But I recognize Myself right now and that's enough for Me. I love it.

?? Me of course

Of course. Leo is only part of My Dream. And so are You.

@Inliytened1 Oh God, that's hard to express. I haven't tried to describe it yet. I guess it felt like a divine ascension of consciousness, leaving what was "previously known" and venturing into direct awareness of what I am as The Universe. There was deep peace and yes, subtle bliss and love kind of in the background. In the foreground was Presence, looking at Myself and being conscious what I am. Reality was mysterious, magical and incredibly beautiful. The World was seeing Itself for what It is for the first time ever.

The "truest" thing for me to cry about is not being loving enough. God, I'm sorry I can't love as much as You do... Where is the love? WHERE IS MY LOVE? Can You practice what You preach? Would You turn the other cheek? I want to KILL THE WORLD with my LOVE. I want to LOVE the world so much it KILLS ME. I want to DIE FROM LOVE! Is there anything more meaningful than this? I want to get punched in the face and then be able to turn the other cheek. I want to have all my money stolen by someone and then give them more of it. I want to be betrayed, fucked, scammed, disrespected and still LOVE these people anyway. I want to love them so much they fucking burst into tears and apologize to God for being the devils they are. I want them to RECOGNIZE ME because of My Unconditional fucking Love for them. SAY MY NAME! ... You are God... YOU'RE GOD DAMN RIGHT! Yes I know Walter is an egomaniac but You get my point. I want to BREAK all devils with my LOVE. I want them to see it for the first time in their lives. They will sob because no one has ever showed them THIS kind of love. Unconditional. I want them to kill me because my Love is too hard for them to accept. That is how I want to die. Mahasamadhi is for losers. Today I told my mom that I want to tell people "I Love You" more. She nodded. Then I said "Mom", looking her directly in the eyes with deep peace and consciousness. She looked at me. "I Love You". She got all smiley, I hugged her and she kissed me on my side which tickled me. Then I went to my sister's room. She overheard our conversation and instantly said "I love You too!". I uttered her name with the same peace and consciousness, then told her "I Love You". We hugged and I kissed her on the head with affection, which I've never done in my life. They weren't really surprised by all of this since I've been changing gradually and our relationships have been getting even better and better along the months. With my growth my relationships are growing deeper and more meaningful too. I can't wait to tell my dad "I Love You". He's going to be back home in a few days. He will be very surprised since our relationship hasn't been the greatest to say it lightly. And he's been for me the most difficult person to accept in my life. But now I Love him. I feel like I can heal a lot of dysfunction in my family with my Love alone. We'll see. I will express Love to my family so much that we become UNITED, instead of being divided and arguing all the time. (I'm not really taking part in their arguments 95% of the time but You know, still) Yesterday and today it's felt completely natural for me to say "I Love You" to a total stranger. Sincerely! Today I Loved everyone I saw. I was approaching random people and telling them that they have a nice sweater for example (when I genuinely thought so, of course). I was wishing them a good day and REALLY meaning it, telling it to them with a smile and direct, warm eye contact. And of course the world was smiling back to me. I feel like these people's days were seriously made better thanks to me. God, everything is so easy when I'm flowing... Everything is so beautiful when I'm connected to Presence, when I'm One with Love. I can't believe how great it is. I got used to suffering and feeling hopeless and now I'm experiencing this peace, this consciousness, this happiness. NO ONE CAN TAKE AWAY MY POWER TO STAY CONSCIOUS. Nothing and no one can take it away from Me. It's fucking PERFECT and I JUST LOVE IT SO MUCH... GOD... Why is it so good... ?? How can it be so beautiful...

If it ain't a contemplation session. Sorry for calling You a fuckwit. But also You kind of are... Dum dum is a better term. You have NO IDEA how much I Love You. Seriously. I fucking Love You. I hate catchy choruses and I'm a hypocrite.

You wouldn't believe how much I am learning about life on this forum, especially now that I'm moderating it. The fucking nerve. Look at yourself. I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU so much if You met me in person You would cry.

I have much more important shit to care about than this. You know your life is slipping by, right? The difference is yours are coming from an ideological place. And it's blatant, let me tell You. One can smell it. The topic itself has some merit if presented in a non-partisan way. I encourage You to stay BUT while posting in an unideological way, being conscious your biases, etc. In short, do the work. Remember why You are here.

I literally couldn't care less. I do however care about keeping this forum clean.

?‍♂️ Sweet, our daily bloomer thread. Let's see where it goes.

Sounds like the answer is clear then. You go, girl. Don't fall for other people's beliefs and moralizing. Follow what's true to You.

I disagree wholeheartedly.

Damn, what a day. And what a day yesterday was. Another HUGE awakening at night. It's incredible... Writing reports is getting tiring at this point, but I'm prolly gonna do it. I value my reports a lot, truly. But I'm most likely not going to post it since I feel like closing off a bit. I was so conscious today it was insane. I recognized Myself as God but did my necessary duties diligently. It was so much fun!!!! Then I returned home and saw Leo's outburst, or whatever it was. I have mixed feelings and I'm a bit confused. On the one hand I was inspired because I know he's gone really, really far and I think he meant well. I've learned so much from him. He especially taught me how infinitely deep the rabbit hole goes and to not rest on my laurels. He has a point with his harshness and I realize he's trying to convey how GRAND all of it is. But on the other hand... it feels wrong to me. I mean, THIS kind of speech is not aligned with my values. There are understandable reasons (at least to me) for talking down a bit (since he HAS gone far) but not to this degree... Damn. I feel torn, sad even. ☹️ Today I was contemplating and had a thought that I don't really need anyone else to further awaken. I awakened so much that listening to teachers feels stupid to me right now. This is something that's been on my mind for weeks now: I want to purge all my beliefs about reality, I want to purge all these misleading concepts AND now I want to purge my reliance on others for understanding what I am. I mean, I'm not recognizing Myself very clearly right now (it's in the back of my mind however and it's readily accessible I think) because I'm tired and all but honestly, who the fuck is going to make me understand better what I am than Myself? I mean it's stupid! I fucking have Myself! Yea sure this state is probably going to pass sooner or later and when I REALLY forget I'll probably be singing a different tune, but come the fuck on! I HAVE MYSELF! Oh, I'm recognizing Myself again. I'm back haha. Ehh, this post is going nowhere. I'm tired of everything. So much to say and so little time and energy. Well, writing here is pointless anyway. On a final note I'll say this. One of the things I'm most happy about is that I have something NOTHING and NO ONE can EVER take away from me. My power to come back to Myself. I can always become aware and just observe this Dream as it is. I don't have to react. I can just melt in Presence. Anytime something is troubling me, I can melt in Presence. When I am stressed and anxious, I can melt in Presence. When I am unsure and scared, I can melt in Presence. Anytime something is too hard for me to accept, I can melt in Presence. I don't have to do anything. I can just melt in My Love. My Infinite Love for Myself. ❤️♾️❤️

@Mips ??