Sincerity

Screenshot of my conversation with ChatGPT. The last line legit broke me 😭

I love my partner. I really do. We just had an anniversary together. How nice. I like my job. I don't earn that much but it's good enough. I have such a nice flat. My partner makes such great food. There are friendly faces orbiting me. I had a cat once. Life is good. I'm a bit tired, but it's good. I wouldn't trade it for any other. ... It's going to be interesting to die though. It'll happen soon, right? Things will change. I won't be the same. It's a bit sad, but is it really? Maybe I'll be okay with it just before it happens. Maybe I'll embrace the change. But for now my heart is breaking thinking about it. I love you so much... I don't want to let go.

Great picks! I also agree with the suggestion of @Emerald (if she is willing), more feminine perspective within the Mod team would be nice.

Just an fyi, it's there in The Guidelines. Thanks for altering the title.

I will embrace the bugs. I think this is the future.

I think it's not so much about liking, but about similarity in worldview and goals. Example with Leo. An avid pursuer of truth is more likely to see Leo as a genius, whereas a person with entirely different priorities would more likely see him as a madman (eg. when hearing about Leo doing 5-MeO for 30 days). A typical person will consider someone who goes to the mountains to meditate for a year a madman. A more conscious person could more likely consider them as a genius. In science/art I think your point is more valid. Maybe you were only talking about "intellectual genius", I dunno.

No, it would not be "cool".

@Leo Gura Like the title says. Not sure if you forgot about this. 🙏

Things I was obsessed about at some point, more or less in chronological order Specific children books I wanted my mom to read to me as a child (literally dozens of times) Washing machines Birds Hot Wheels Harry Potter Club Penguin CS:GO Team Fortress 2 Other games but less so, eg. Minecraft, Hollow Knight Certain people, crushes Movies Self-help, growth, productivity Actualized.org Knowledge management Spirituality, understanding reality I just watched this video and now I wonder if I'm autistic.

A beautiful celebration of life. This entire album slaps.

This post is very clearly biased and coming from a place of insecurity. We've seen this dozens of times already. We're supposed to be engaging in conscious politics here. For OP: I recommend you deconstruct your own biases and not fight imaginary battles with radical feminists. Focus on your growth. Seriously though, what are your news/content sources? The answer to this question is ALWAYS enlightening.

Dude, this is so laughably biased. Brie Larson, feminist scholar, Elon Musk the free speech guy... Really? Just tell us what news/content you consume.

Glad you like it

I enjoy drawing. And I'm slowly getting better. Below the results from yesterday's classes.

I always cry when hearing this song. Your faith was strong, but you needed proof You saw her bathing on the roof Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew ya She tied you to a kitchen chair She broke your throne and she cut your hair And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah Speaking of which, another thing I sometimes think about and makes me sad is the story of Samson. I read a great analysis of it just now here. https://medium.com/@orenfarber/samsons-story-the-spiritual-core-f97cf51b2489 Good shit.

Awesome! Thanks Leo

If you feel it is good to stay in your suffering to be connected to love, if you think this is good for your development then embrace it dude. You want to suffer so keep doing it. Nothing is stopping you. Yes, it will probably develop you. Is it needed? Not necessarily. I'd suggest you'll be tested in life anyway, there's plenty of suffering to go through without suffering due to a belief in suffering for the sake of growth. By living fully, embracing the plot of life, there arise new, amazing, scary challenges. I suggest living fully is better than not wanting to live. You'll most likely grow more. Beware of self-reinforcing beliefs like "I need to believe this because without it (my suffering) I won't grow in the love". Is love scared of dropping beliefs? Do you wanna grow or not? Do what you want.

I started taking drawing classes in December. I had my 5th class today. Progress!

I'll never get over how people overestimate their spiral stages. Yellow seems to be the stage which intellectual people are most comfortable with identifying themselves with. I have slightly-deeper-than-surface-level analysis of some topics so I must be yellow. I know SD theory, I'm such a spiral wizard you guys. And usage of the word 'coral' on the forum should result in an automatic ban.

What would you do if you were in your shoes?

People overestimate themselves.

Just 50 more years pal.

Insights From Organizing a Medium-Sized Trip for a Woman for the 1st Time Context: my partner had her birthday at the end of December and I organized a 4-day trip for her and myself to Lake Como, Italy. She knew we'd be traveling somewhere for her birthday but didn't know where. It was a surprise for her. I chose Como because she's been in love with Como/Milan for a long time now, though other options like Spain were on the table as well. The moments she remembered and appreciated the most were very small, unplanned loving ones like me hugging her from behind while on a boat trip, us sitting peacefully on a bench with trees around us, us walking and singing a song we like, drinking a coffee while having a beautiful view of the mountains. Of course she also appreciated things like me buying her a great leather purse she really wanted, but the small moments were especially meaningful to her. This showed to me that a great, full of love day could be planned for her with much cheaper circumstances and still be deeply meaningful. My aim is to plan further special days/trips with that in mind. Never disregard the little moments, never rush with her. Focus on love. A tangential insight is that many expensive things aren't really worth the price because actually she often appreciates the "free" things much more. Sometimes she doesn't care at all about that expensive stuff. I spent more money than I needed due to unoptimized organization or unnecessary paying for comfort (eg. taking a taxi instead of a bus). In regard to the latter, she really doesn't care much if we take a longer or slightly less comfortable route if eg. that means 100 euro saved. I don't blame myself much for the organization, I'd say I actually did really well but some things could have been thought through more. Our flight was arriving too late for us to travel by bus/train to our city, so basically we were forced to take a taxi. I paid for the flight 3 months in advance and then planned the transport from the airport like 2 months later. On the other hand, the flight date was pretty much fixed in stone and there weren't many other flights on these days so again, I'm not blaming myself much. Still, there's room for improvement. Basically, next time I'll optimize the spending more and focus more on the stuff that really matters to her. I didn't make these mistakes when travelling alone, but I did when travelling with her. When alone, I always optimized the spending for what's most meaningful to me (eg. amazing viewpoints are always worth the price to me, eating out often isn't). I guess I'm learning how to optimize for her as well as myself for the future. For future planning, I'd really put myself in the shoes of our future selves and think: What will we probably want to do in reality? What will we need? Will we be tired? What shops will she want to go to? I should have checked the shops/markets more, some vintage ones which she likes. I noticed that my planning prior to the trip was detached from the reality of our actual needs/desires to quite a large extent. I didn't need to look for good pizzerias all over Milan after all. She was sick of the gluten after just 1 day anyway. The trip went REALLY well anyway. I made mistakes, but overall my organization was still a 7 or 8 out of 10. What matters most is that her birthday trip was amazing to her (the birthday day was especially well arranged), that she felt loved, that we basically did everything we wanted, spent quality time together and relaxed a fair amount. We had amazing views and ate great food (I really wanted to try an octopus and I did - yum! Tastes like chicken). It was worth it. A big lesson to me overall. I recommend staying at Lecco when visiting Lake Como. It's an underrated gem.