Sincerity

Maybe you guys are conforming by suddenly every one of you vigorously posting about conformity.

You can start doing something and see where it leads. Decide on a preferred channel for the expression of this energy/purpose. For example, volunteering somewhere or creating quality content raising awareness of animal suffering. Then, in your spare time, start actually acting on your idea. Just try. Take some action. You might find it's not that appealing after all, which is alright. And if it is, then go further with that.

The pot calling the kettle black. Hahahaha.

Hahahahaha. Masterful post. You clearly have the longest spiritual dick, given that you made this epic "I see through you all" thread. I'm hoping for 2nd place though!

So me and my girlfriend moved to a new place in May. And our area is SO BEAUTIFUL. I literally can't contain my happiness at times. One thing that I LOVE about our immediate surroundings is that we have a small (but still fairly big) wood park about 3-5 minutes from our place. I cannot express to you how much I'm fucking in love with it. When I need to unwind and regenerate myself energetically, that is my place to go. I am so grateful for it. It also reminds me of the small wood from a Vipassana retreat center I've been to (3 times). Now I have my own Vipassana wood nearby, but 3x better. If that isn't neat, I don't know what is! Today while walking in the park I understood just how important it is to me to have a wood park like this in my immediate vicinity. "Small" things like that which bring you joy. Critically important. (Image is just a representation, not my actual park)

A journal for sharing things I'm passionate about. Stuff I like and dislike. These are shorter, playful, more unfiltered thoughts.

Hollow Knight: Silksong was great. I almost 100%'ed it. I got all the endings, but skipped some bonus things I was no longer interested in grinding for. I REALLY appreciated the world-building. This game is so beautiful. The art is amazing. The boss fights at times were so FUCKING annoying, but I got over them with my supreme gamer skills. ( just kidding, I don't really play much games anymore) The bosses were still very cool, though. It was mostly the 100 kilometer walkbacks that were infuriating. Or the million-phase arenas. I like a good boss fight. I like exploring the world and discovering the story. And I love parkour. (I also played Celeste and loved it) Overall, metroidvanias / 2D platformers are my type of games. Or, at least one of my types - Team Fortress 2 is still my favourite game of all time. But that's a topic for another post.

Damn, a fellow beans lover. 🤣 It's a great journal you have here.

Another recording of Bashar which I listened to this week, twice. "When you are acting on your passion, you must also be passionate about being passionate!" --> Great pointer. To me, this is about embracing the ENERGY of acting on a particular thing. Being passionate about coming back to that ENERGY, and not just about actualizing the OUTCOME of that energy. When you're embracing an energy itself (instead of its outcomes), you are hitting the nail on the head. That's a recipe to let energy flow freely. And thus energetic development ensues. This is somewhat related to my post here.

Videos, graphics, books, quotes and other stuff. Things that resonated with me and inspired greater wisdom and understanding.

This thread will be a table of contents for my energy-related threads and posts. Besides this, I will sometimes make posts here directly, talking about my understanding of energy, in case I feel something is not worth a thread on its own. Understanding the energetic reality of me is what I'm most interested in, and passionate about. I'm hoping this topic will reflect this, and be of use. I will be updating this thread, including previous posts I make in it. Let's goooooo!! ⚡

First post is here.

Bashar on permission slips and other things. Some deep stuff here. I'm processing all this through my lens of energetic understanding (for reference, see my thread about that). I appreciate Bashar's perspective a lot. What he says resonates greatly, and inspires in me a deeper understanding of this energetic dimension. 13:47 "The higher self is like a guiding principle, a governing principle" --> Interesting. A while ago I introduced a concept in my understanding called meta-energies. A "guiding principle" is an excellent description of that concept. Other words I used were philosophy or tactic, but guiding principle hits the bullseye. That term really resonated. Though I'm still not sure if we're talking about the same thing, perhaps he means something else. Also, the concept of permissions slips is just so fucking good. So true. I must listen to this again and try to square it with my understanding, and translate this stuff into "my language".

Do you deem weed is better than other psychedelics for consciousness work though? I found that it made me more delusional than clear-minded. My weed trips before doing LSD multiple times vs after were completely different things. Still, the weed trips after LSD were inferior in terms of clarity/insight to just LSD. In terms of "craziness" weed was superior.

Things became bleaker when I got a full-time job in Oct 2023 haha 😝. Also, I met my girlfriend for the first time in Sept 2023. We started dating in Jan 2024 and got together that same month. Then, I moved out of my parents' place in Aug 2024 and started living with the girl. These two things: the job and the girlfriend turned my life around. Which isn't bad of course. It's been a new chapter in my life, and I'm embracing it. I surely wanted that - honestly, I love it! It's just not as magical as the time before. But then, the time before was when I was still living with my parents and (basically) had no responsibilities... I was a naive fool. OF COURSE I remember fondly the time when I could do anything I wanted. Who wouldn't?! I've changed so much in the last 2 years. It's nice to reflect on that.

Hey y'all This is going to be my new journal on my new account. I left the old acc because I didn't like my username. Let me introduce myself first. My name is Sincerity and I'm from Poland. [image removed] ^ This is me! I'm currently ??? years old. I'm admittedly young but I hope you can see me beyond my age, for what I am I've been on this forum for more than 3 years and until now I've (kinda) held my identity a secret. But lately I've had some realizations in regard to expressing myself more honestly and yeah. Here I am, being more open with you. Now you have a slightly better idea of who's behind the account. (Edit: Ironic haha. But it has to be this way. Everything ends.) I've been on the spiritual path for roughly 4-5 years now and I feel like I've had much progress. I definitely have many insights to share. But I'm still pretty much a beginner and I'm on the journey along with you. Try to keep up, because I feel like I'm growing pretty fast (this year has been insane for me so far, seriously!) I've been mulling over my important values for years and this is where I stand right now: I am primarily about goodness. I am about love. I am about bliss, wisdom, appreciation, responsibility, sincerity, curiosity, discipline and humility. I also really value humor and laughter. You might notice I'm often tongue-in-cheek in my posts I don't like posting very frequently and I'm still not sure what I will even be posting here but tell you what, it's going to come from a place of sincerity Love and have a great day ❤️

Damn. 🙄 3 years ago, huh. Was I actually more awake then? Did I fall off? Will I ever measure up to myself? Compared to that love, everything in my life right now feels like bullshit. Kinda sad to think about. I guess my awakenings in 2022 and 2023 were beginner's luck. I've had many after that, but none as "exceptional". Year 2022 was the time of my first LSD trips and God-realizations, which is nostalgic for me. But I think 2023 was even more amazing with the evermore profound awakenings and meaningful (for me) archetypal journeys. Well, it's what it is. At least I'm a tad more mature now. The insights and awakenings are usually quieter and more grounded now. Chasing "exceptionality" might be the error I can't yet get over... which is alright I suppose. Why should we care for what they're selling us, anyway? We're so younger than you know...

Thanks Leo!

Ask yourself: What is unconditional love?

Breathe. Relax. Ground yourself. Take care of your life. With unresolved mental issues, this constant digging might not be too good for you. Don’t worry about others being dream characters. This changes nothing. You still shouldn’t be a shitty person. And in a sense, you are a dream character yourself as well. The negativity you experience is a dream, the persona, all your thoughts, biases, etc… It’s not you creating reality - it’s YOU. For your purposes, this is like someone else creating it, because it’s so Other to you. Don’t disregard the „human” just yet. Rule of the thumb is: start from where you’re REALLY at. You’re not „done with the bullshit dream”. Forget about the bullshit solipsism for a second, drink some water, exercise, watch birds, apologize to your loved ones… clear your mind from all the „spiritual” shit and become more grounded. Constantly „researching rabbit holes of consciousness” is not necessarily the highest or most „spiritual” thing you can do, you know. It sounds like your intention is impure, desperate, debased. That’s not a good place to dive into deep waters from.

Today, as a gift for our month-versary, my girlfriend gave me that sweet octopus from IKEA!!! 🐙 I love octopuses, and I like having reminders of animals I resonate with close to me. I have a long ass gorgeous plush snake, a cool elephant, a ceramic parrot, and more... and now that silly orange octupus. I'm grateful. My girl loves me. And I love her. I gifted her an appointment with a massage therapist and a nice bouquet of flowers.

I adore herons. Such beautiful birds.

RISK: Global Domination is such a good fucking game. You need to have 1000 IQ to win games fairly consistently. I just got back to Risk ~4 days ago. Won around half of the longer games I played. I'm proud of these games that I did win, because I had to make some smart decisions which later paid off and made me come on top. I was satisfied thinking about these calls, and with outsmarting my opponents. Just finished a 2+ hour long game. I was tired as fuck after work and didn't have it in me to act on anything higher. I like to sometimes engage in a "mindless" activity (even though I still had to think here) while also listening to something else, like longer YT videos. I listened to some Bashar talks and this video by Eddy Burback. In regard to that 2+ hour game - ultimately I overcame all my 5 human opponents, who either plainly lost or gave up. But throughout the game there was a bot that grew all the more powerful, because all the players were fighting among themselves. In the end it came down to a 1v1 me vs the bot and I lost by a very small margin - the final dice rolls turned unlucky for me and that was it lol. Still, a good satisfying game. What matters is that I beat the humans.

Real dangerous stuff, especially when trusting ChatGPT as your therapist.