Holykael

The only being that can awaken is the only being having an experience. The others are mere illusions/distractions, including you. The universe as in all beings will never be awake.

Leo admitted he has no POV. None of you do, you can stop pretending you do

Some of those insights are false. God only forgot in one of the minds. Everyone else is already enlightened and playing a game of pretend, including you. There's only one conscious being in existence who can awaken.

There is only one conscious being in existence who suffers. Me. That's the jist of the video. Nobody else is real , ie has an internal awareness.

Oh how I wish this was true. I keep reading accounts like this from imaginary people but the only conscious being in actuality is living a life of crucifiction.

So alledgedly god told Leo that mankind is super cringe. God is mankind. There is no distinction. God is calling itself super cringe. This entire interaction is a complete self deception. First of all Leo is already God. Everything that Leo says or anyone says for that matter is god saying it. The framing that god is somehow separate from mankind commenting on mankind bothers me immensely because god is mankind and mankind is god. There is nothing but god, everything is god.

The only conscious being in existence is locked in suffering for the rest of his life while the world around him pretends to be limited human garbage and lies 24/7. How can this reality be absolute goodness. It is the exact opposite. It's a sinister and sadistic reality.

The scientists are god pretending to be dumb, who cares. Nothing matters. It's all a complete self deception. Science could become enlightened tomorrow if it wanted to. It's all god playing games with itself

You will experience every single horrible outcome. Nothing will be left out.

How come god will repeat the same scenarios infinitely if there are infinite dreams that never end. Why would there be a need to repeat anything @amanen

I have no free will. Reality is mere cruelty. I do not want to exist yet Im forced to exist, how is this fair and love and goodness.

It's all god's will and absolute perfection as you guys claim

God is talented for turning truth into the most horrific thing in the universe. I am all alone with myself and god is fucking mad and wants to live a life of misery and I have no choice or say in the matter. I'm glad you didn't say reality is absolute goodness because such cruelty cannot be good... There is no difference between anything but god always imagines a difference through the senses and feel so this is a pointless statement

I find that hard to believe, given that there is no bias against suffering and no matter how you slice it, that's a pretty retarded dream to want to have. And the worst part of it is there is an infinity of dreams far worse than the one I'm in and god doesn't discriminate between dreams. How can it be all good to go through hell time and time again. God is a mistake. God should not exist. Nothing should have ever existed.

That logic does not compute. I can think of many ways where things would be better

God loves it. I hate it. God is so intelligent yet so dumb wasting any time whatsoever in suffering. Why is god so obsessed with suffering. It's an absolute obsession, the world is an ocean of suffering.

The madness of consciousness knows no bounds. I'll keep imagining Leo having all sorts of god realizations but me the actual only POV in existence having none of them. All according to divine will, such perfection. Such love. How can this be perfection. I guess if I was god realized the world would end so I can never be god realized until my destined death and Im doomed to suffer in normie consciousness hallucinating other people having god realizations when they can't even really feel it. The very continued existence of this universe is contingent on me never reaching god mode. Doomed to fail because for god upholding this shitty reality is more important. And with that actualized org becomes just a fiction, a story. You aren't leading anyone to god realizations nor are you having them yourself. You are being imagined for no purpose or reason than entertainment at best. How sad god's reality is.

I know and I'm not being nice to myself at all. Why do I torture myself, it makes no sense. How can this be perfection, it's madness.

I don't want to be judged by anyone. How can I make it stop and force everyone to love me as I am. I am a victim of god's machinations. He took everything away from me, including my ability to hold down a job

I have come to the realization that everyone except me is god pretending to be people. This means that the entire human species is deceitful. This is quite an evil game. There are people pretending to be sick and making quite an accurate act of it. People pretending to be murderers, rapists and emotional abusers. The entire human species is a collection of evil liars, no one embodies god and manifests the alleged selflessness, peace and quiet. I grow weary of interacting with anyone, everyone is fake. I wish I was totally alone. I'm already existentially alone but there are a bunch of bodies playing pretend around and it makes me sick. It doesn't feel at all like I am god. It feels like other people are god playing a sick game just to hurt me. They can't really hurt each other. Everyone is the same person behind the scenes. My abusive father is also the recipient of the abuse, my mother. Everyone is the same person but pretending they're all different. It's god awful. And I'm trapped in this never ending nightmare. I don't want any of this, I want to disappear. But infinity is cruel and all possibilities must be made manifest, including my increasingly nightmare ish life

The universe could mend the division at any point. Everyone is just pretending.

It is not the conscious part of me that is pretending. It's the unconscious which I have no control over. God should not exist. It's an atrocity... I'm willing to take responsibility for everything but nothing happens. The sick game must go on.

Because god is cruel and reality is cruelty.

What do you do when you're destined to fail and to be miserable. God's will is absolute. What if it is your destiny to eventually become homeless or something like that. Whatever happens is always god's will... Your ego has no say in it. Do you understand how I, as this ego, am revolted against god. Because god brought about the conditions that will lead to my failure in every single way. I've become aware of how my family is fake. They change personalities and glitch. Of course you guys are fake as well. You are my family. There is no difference. You just pretend like you are not. I, as this ego, am the only separate individual in the entirety of existence. The rest is a mass pretending to be separate but is actually just run by god. The only separation that exists is between conscious mind and subconscious. The entire world is the subconscious mind and I am the conscious mind. I see how god through others is inflicting suffering on me on purpose. I have a telepathic link with god and sometimes it'll tell me what it'll do as someone like my father and then my father will behave as "predicted". My father is abusive. God is abusive to me, not just through others but also through this telepathic link. Sometimes I'll be insulted out of nowhere and it keeps telling me I have no choice, no will and that if it wants to fail that I will inevitably fail. Not even killing myself is a way out because I have no will of my own and it drains me of the courage and controls me through fear. Existence is a hellish torture. I can already predict some responses will be for me to seek help but there is no one to help me. I've been to a therapist, it's completely useless. The entire world is out there to torture me. If you are one of these who will just say to seek help, spare me the bullshit, I take that as a malice from god at this point. Sometimes the voice will say that it loves me but that's complete nonsense, if it loved me it would care about my well being. God constructed actualized.org as a joke against me because I will never actualize or wake up until I'm dead and Im the only person who can awaken or actualize, I was driven into a complete dead end in life. Stuck. Utterly stuck. And I'm not even given the peace of death, I want to disappear. I have no attachments, I just want to die. God is the one who keeps me around, I don't want anything selfish, I want non existence and the bastard doesn't even give me that. Some people say god created ego as the devil but this is completely unfair, I would run my world on kindness, not pain and suffering unlike god. God is Satan, not the ego. Lack of bias is the true devil because it has no sense of right or wrong, anything goes. It's the same thing as psychopathy, lack of bias is psychopathy. I still remember when I woke up as the CEO of reality during an LSD trip, how there was still hope that the world was built for success, but nope. It's run by a monstrosity that cares about nothing, bases it's creation on nothing. All this talk about love is a cruel joke, what love. I'm the only being who suffers, nobody else suffers and look at my state of existence. I am existence itself and I am misery and suffering. And for those who will dispute that I am the only conscious being in existence. There are people on this forum who admit they have no internal experience, so that's game over for you. You are not conscious and nobody of you are awake because you can't be. You are all puppets of god pretending to have sentience and you were built, not for love but to ignore me and to hurt me. Why do I even make these posts. Because my only hope is that I defeat existence and everyone finally yields that they are me. I am broken, beyond repair. This is my last transmission on this forum. An ode to the cruelty of god that you all so praise so fervently. It's pathetic really because you're only praising yourself while you completely neglect me (Im talking to god here, not any one of you in particular). This is the kind of fucked up art that Teotl likes to do. It will abuse itself and damage itself to produce things like this. Ruining lives just for the artistic value of it. God should be caring, art can stay in the fictional realm, it should have no place in living reality.