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@traveler i think the sun solidifies the chaos into form without it we would be in pitch black seeing random shit all the time.

@aurum the thing surrounding it is the nothing that permiates it.

Probably just ask maybe his grandma died or something and he is sad. Maybe his dad came out as gay and he's shameful it could literally be anything. Maybe he got attracted to you and found it weird no one know till you ask. say like hey I am looking for friends and the last time we were friend you just dissapear and act like I didn't exist .do you know why things happen like that ?it hasn't happened to me before.

Seems like you turned your shame into a kink instead of accepting it. You let your gf brain wash you into doing it. Next time your gf comes home blast the porno get naked on the couch and start jerking off. Say fuck you i can do what I want with my penis. Theres nothing shameful about a pornography addiction. Being shameful will breed this kind of weird stuff.

You should be asking what. It dosent have identity. Its the screen you are looking at. A tv screen that has a character on it and the TV pretends to be that character. When people say its everything they mean its everything you see on the tv screen and the tv screen simultaneously. The tv can turn off and you are left looking at a tv screen thats off then you see the tv screen and say thats God. And you see your reflection in it. Then you see God is a simulation. The simulation is intelligence and can render and create your life in the fly. Right now you are wearing a virtual reality headset called God.

If you awaken the entire planet will start awakening. The universe gives you what you focus on. You are in your own simulation if you discover something you will start to see it everywhere because that's what you are focusing on.

Yes the first time and it hasnt gone away. My perception is permanently changed after one experience its just gradually getting more over time. I cry every day because I am happy that God is real. Once you realize that your brain is a computer you can just repeat things in your mind all day to make yourself feel better. The first time I took psychedelic is felt like a nuke went off inside my mind. I only took them twice in my life. Since the first time I took them I have never had a bad day. It has been 4 years my life before psychedelic was literally mental torture. I was so scared all of the time I was going insane. I had almost fully let go of myself and I would have killed myself. Now I am just trying to undo all the shit I fucked up with my mind. Cause even if you have a crazy experience and feel lighter your mind is still connected the same way.

@Leo Gura I try to model my should on ideal societies, so I think it should be paid and it shouldn't be pushed on people either. I was pushed into going to school because I was a drone and just did what people told me, I was scammed by the system that is supposed to be guiding me. I wasn't ready for school I needed serious mental guidance and help. But society told me that I needed to go to succeed the government and school both benefit from this garbage. If you are going to brainwash people into believing they have to go to become something then it should be free or paid. Paid is better for everyone. No one asked me if I was ready they just tell me to go and do something, bro im mentally unstable I dont know anything. If i knew it was going to be tutorials I wouldnt have went.

@Leo Gura I can guarantee I have done more physical labour than you

@Leo Gura then you should be paid to go to school

@Extreme Z7 I agree the only thing universities have done is lock jobs behind paywall. And then creating tutorials and selling them for a certificate. They are too lazy to scan everyone for their quality so they assume having a certificate means you know anything intelligently about the certificate you have.

@Leo Gura I went to art school and alot of my classes were tutorials. Every class was a tutorial you cant teach artistry its something you have. You can teach someone to be a drone and artist is birthed.

@Leo Gura Everything is available online and when out of school you can do whatever you want. The schools severely limit you on what you can create. If I want to learn about art I can look at a tutorial. Art is about creation it does not matter the process and wasting money learning about other peoples artistic talents to me is bad. Its like a tutorial with direct criticism while doing multiple things you do not necessarily want to focus on. Not needed if you love are you will do it.

If you want a job that requires you to go then yea. If you are doing any art then no. going to school for art is like butchering your imagination.

I think Women in bed want to feel like they are about to be eaten but safe at the same time. They want you to be the tigers jaw and they the lamb but also know you are not a threat to their life. A constant state of ! They want you to make them brain dead for a second or more because that's the best feeling. If you have sex and you are both brain dead after you did it right

I would say A political Christian is someone who dosent want to evolve. They want to remain the same and will vote for anyone that is telling then things are going back or staying the same government wise. A cultural Christian is someone who follows the faith that means it has nothing to do with politics knows God wants and demands change and dosent fight. The reason Christians love Donald trump is because he is just saying things they like like we are going back in time to what America was. Less rules more open except for a few like abortion because they see abortion as murder. They do not care about suffering of things and should they? Life is about suffering life is about planting your face in shit and crying about it. However they are also fighting God at the same time God demands change. A cultural Christian is not fighting God. Poltical Christians fat cheeseburger eating pick up truck driving , trump loving. Cultural Christian Bible loving Jesus loving peace loving quiet and honest. Christians built the greatest nation in the world the most free nation and the safest nation ever in the history of mankind. Now its changing and the political Christians are fighting that change. They do not care if it destroys their country because they see it as destroyed already. Guess what Christians this is not your land God owns it. God will do as he pleases.

Stop reading and start living. You don't need to understand physics to know the truth. You don't need any information to know the truth. Any information you gather will be useless to the truth. You are going in the wrong direction. You need to seek inside your own body. You are physics.

Curt has stated many times that these topics give him severe anxiety. He's scared not stupid. I have seen him do podcasts about these topics and they give him so much anxiety that he will pre record his questions and send them to them instead of doing it live. Basically he is seeking and will wake up. If these topics don't scare you up aren't doing it right. Him being scared of what he is hearing means he is looking at it.

I saw a real of a God with 50 hands doing something to a board game. Intelligence is doing something without knowing what you are doing or how you are doing it but you are doing it right. You are using your intelligence to listen to the music but you don't know how. Anything added onto it is intellect, which is memory. If I learn how to use one computer program totally with memory I can use other programs easily with intelligence.

happens to me probably every 2 or 3 years and lasts like a month. Nothing ever happens i dont know why it does it and no one know. My only guess is anxiety.

Did anyone notice when he almost called the country a company

Im reading sadhgurus book on karma and he is saying that people are just ghosts walking around. Basically a ball of energetic memory from the past that keeps thinking its real. Memory is the machine that keeps repeating and memory = karma. He say he get get into states where people are just haze moving around. He say the memory is in the body so you are bound to it while the body is alive. Unless you separate yourself from it in the metaphysical memory. There is more life out of this planet tho, There is literally an infinite imagination land we all go to in spirit. It will have a story and you can do anything, no one has ever said that or I have never heard it but I know it to be true. Your higher self is there right now pretending to be its lower personality. IMO you are in space right now looking into a ball of light, the earth and pretending you are something in it. There is infinite space around the earth that any other souls can come and watch what they want. Your spirit form is infinite and its unique in the same way. God has infinite souls and infinite personality it can seperate itself infinite times in spirit and each soul can be 100 percent unique. You do exist just not here ! We are going by Earth logic and Earth spirituality there is infinite different forms God is creating infinite friends in the void you are one of its friends and we can see eachother in the void when we leave this body you have a unique vibration specifically for God to know you its different than any other vibration. If i hit your vibration in the void I will know specifically who it is and specifically your entire identity as we match ours together. You and me could tell eachother through vibrating that we want to play a game together on earth and we are going to log in to specific things close. There are no people its just things shaking on infinite levels. The subtle dimensions of vibrations have just as much or more than the unsubtle vibrations. Dying is just going to very subtle dimensions of vibrations. it will be no different than here we just wont have bodies and therefore anything the body does but we will still exist. God is real that means you do exist. This isnt God this is a game you are looking at God is running the game. The soul is like a ghost its not there but its there. Aboslute solipsism may be true but there is way more than you think right now and its way cooler! God being real is literally the coolest thing that could happen ever. There is nothing to worry about even worrying wether you are real or not its just Earth logic .

@Sabth then stay at the bottom of the stairs complaining

This is a hint about dreams reality and life in general. What you want you dont get. So stop trying to control and go with the flow. You cant know reality whatever you think is happening is by default wrong. God makes this happen on purpose.

I think the dream is telling you you are carry alot of bullshit thats stopping you from moving and to drop the backpack and go upstairs. That means drop all stories about your life and just go without anything