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When I woke up I completely forgot what happened. I just knew deep down that I had died and I was so happy to be alive. But I had extreme underlying ptsd on my soul from visiting hell that I fell into deep depression for 8 years. Then I was going to kill myself but I decided to give mushroom a shot even tho I was scared of them. I ate the mushroom within 30 mins my ego dissolved and was trancing out. As I'm trancing out the mushroom was like hey remeber 8 years ago when you died. And I'm like no. Then instantly I was shot back into that moment the mushroom was showing me that I had died but I was still there when I died. It was showing me what conciousness is me without me. I am immortal. I instantly understand what I am. My reality starts shifting I see a very distinct separation between reality and me. Like im in a glass case totally protected from everything. My neurons start firing off. There is a massive thunderstorm happening inside of ny mind. Im laughing and crying so hard im screaming for 6 straight hours. I close my eyes and I see the entire universe inside of a globe. When you die you have to understand that you wont be there. You will be there but you will not have a body to filter your thoughts. God dosent second guess itself. I needed to die to understand consciousness so it had a profoundly good impact but not seen at the time. If I go back to the void I will not pout. The faster you lose your identity the faster you get out of the void.

It was not alcohol induced psychosis. Reality started looping like a shroom trip thought loop. Then my soul fell out of my body and I was in the void. I felt the loneliness and sadness of God. When you are in the void there is no self reflection you just feel what you are feeling and the emotion will spiral out of control and there is no body to stop it. So you will be like im sad and lonely then you get really sad and really lonely and then you get really really sad and really really lonely then you are spiraling fast and you are just a roiling emotion of sadness and loneliness with no stopping it. Because time dosent exist in the void you always are and always have been what you are. So you were never just really lonely and sad you have always been the saddest and loneliest thing possible instantly.

@Tyler Durden the void is a transition process. Its like the soul healing center where you can pout and cry as much as you need too. Then once your identity has reached null you transition from the void. I entered the void one night after heavy drinking. It felt like you went to sleep and woke up in nothing and was crying and screaming for 24 hours straight with no eyes to cry and no mouth to scream so the pressure of the emotion builds up and builds up then you pass out and wake up again in a void and cry and scream for 24 hours it feels like. Then you pass out and wake up again going through this process 5000 times. Once I was done pouting my identity was null and I was resurrected. Sleep state and waking state become the same and when you are concious its null and when you are sleeping its null and then there is no difference between sleep and awake.

Lemme know when your mom is free.

How responsible have you been during your lifetime maybe being a little irresponsible will be good for you

You do not forget the things you hate. You understand why you hate them and then expose yourself to that reason you found and accept it.

@michaelcycle00 i was replying to op it was directly in his statement

God dosent judge you you judge yourself. If you kill yourself cause you are bored how bored do you think you will be in the void. It can get alot more boring and lonely. We need to transcend our emotions on this life and keep only love in our hearts.

You can do it just nuke your identity that simple

@Maru one time on shrooms my conciousness was being pulled out of the back of my head. I was told that i was wearing too many shirts(layers) of memories on and I had to forget everything (take off the shirts mentally) in order to leave. It felt like my awareness was a rock wrapped in a plastic bag and someone was pulling the handles. Instantly I focused out of my body into trance and 3d reality dematerialized and it felt like I wasn't my body but I was in 2d and I moved around by moving my eyes around and my body was where my focus was. It felt like alien were hacking my brain. Shit is weird man. We just gotta go with the flow lol whatever that means. When it seems like we've lost our bodies and holds on reality the identity seems to dissipate rather quickly.

No we are not star dust we are an actual star. Thats sending its light to earth to dream a life of a human. The earth is star dust and our bodies are of the earth. We are not our bodies we are the light playing in the dust. God is guiding its stars to become one with it.

I think so your body reality and your soul create reality

We are the stars dreaming. We send our light to earth and enter body.

I would say for the belief in god to exist the non belief in god has to exist. Even if you don't beleive in it it will still exist just as nothing.

If you remove your identity life will flow like a dream. You will have you but you will be your true you. The dream you that doesn't second guess its action. There will be no self reflection. You will be forever present like a dream you are not thinking about the future or past you are always directly involved with the story.

This is nonsense. He's just saying random things its like a 21 minute run on sentence. I think its a parody. It never focuses or tells you anything its just like 1000 linked things.

You ever think the entire male species made a konga line of anal sex one time and God is traumatized by it.

Throw up the fruit! You ate poison and it poisoned your mind and created you!

Science tells us how God tells us why

Children don't have to do school work anymore if they know how to use this. I ask it who the I is its referring to when talking to itself if it isn't conscious then it breaks and you get an error

@kylan11 yes you are right. The self identity is created around then usually over the thought of death or other traumatic thoughts. People become self aware because its the first existential lie they are told about reality and its the first what this isnt real moment. It creates a disassociation within God and you are born. And we become self conscious. For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil." 6 So when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, and that it was a delight to the eyes, and that the tree was to be desired to make one wise, she took of its fruit and ate, and she also gave some to her husband who was with her, and he ate Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they knew that they were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together and made themselves coverings

@DrugsBunny the Bible tells you at the beginning that eve or woman made Adam eat the fruit of knowledge between good and bad by telling man that the snake is evil and he believed it and they were thrown from the garden of eden together.

Awakening is about conquering all your fears. This woman is trying to do what eve did to Adam and scare leo out of the garden of eden. Leo is wiser than Adam. Fear nothing and love everything even demons. You can cure demons and awaken them by awakening. Women always remind men they are going to die they are the birther and destructor of man . Women are the fear of man.

@Vercingetorix the persona 3 and 4 are good. Its a spiritual series you go into dmt real and do shadow work

@AndylizedAAY as its happening to you you are noticing that time doesn't exist and you aren't real so it can have causes that lead to it but the awakening is a notice that life exists only on one frame always. So how can the frame of realization have a cause if its the first and only frame of reality to ever exist. Its a grand epiphany that will melt your brain and kill you. Like all your neurons link together in a specific order and a ding ding ding ding goes off alarm bells. These linking of neurons is like the secret code to immortality. The feeling it will bring you is if say they had only 144 000 tickets into heaven for all of man today and God personally give one to you while you are alive. How would you feel. You would think, what? Why me why am I so special? But to God you are the most beautiful thing in he ever created literally.Feel that feeling and God will come to you.