Hojo

Stop having an expectation how can you be deceived if you don't have a desired outcome.

@Vibes i am in the same boat since my awakening God has been on my mind for 3 years every single day. It is not something I am doing it is something that is happening to me. I cannot stop it nor do I want to stop it because this is the most important thing to do.

I drank too much one night im college around 26 beers then I took a massive bong hit and 5 minutes after I started having thought loops where reality would repeat the same thing then after the same 5 second repeating 5000 times i could see it was happening and I fell out of my body. I was then in the void for infinite time it was a constant repeating and roiling of sadness and loneliness with no way to express them so they just swell and swell each moment more lonely and sad than the last till it becomes so much that you pass out in the void. Then I would wake up in the void and go through it again. It felt like a baby is crying and it just cries and cries forever it dosent know how much time has passed since it started as babies don't know what time is. This happened forever and ever. Until I slowly I stopped crying and pouting and became the void. Waking state the same as non waking state both were void of emotion. When you are in the void there is no self reflection so it feels like you were dreaming. Then I open my eyes I hallucinate a place where a sea of souls was going around a giant bull skeleton. I looked around me and every other souls eyes were closed and they were screaming and terrifies in their own void. I wasn't scared anymore an the giant bull skeleton saw I wasn't scared and picked me up and threw me into the abyss. Then my eyes opened in this dimension. I woke up only knowing that I had died and not remembering the void because me, my body wasn't there so it must have been a dream. I was already depressed and had extreme death anxiety but this shot it through the roof, everyday I was plagued with the fear of doom looming over me. You can never run from death and it was the worst feelings ever. Then after 8 years of that I was going to kill myself but decided to try mushrooms before killing myself to heal me. Then the shrooms literally told me that i was in the void and I was dead and I came back from dead and they showed me through telepathy what consciousness is. The thing that travels between dimensions, our eternal soul. My death anxiety and fear of literally anything were washed away in one trip. It feels like god was guiding me for him to kill me instead of me killing myself. Sorry for the long post. I have a picture I drew of what it looked like.

@Demeter yes I had 2 grams of mushroom the first time I had it. Within 20 minutes my ego had completely dissolved. ( I had an nde in college and visited the void for a night it was not fun and is what started my 8 years of depression) And as I was trancing out my mind starts saying hey! remembered 8 years ago when you died. And I said to myself yes. And then a voice says watch this. Then reality and me begin to seperate and hover. And the voice said to me you are completely safe everything in your mind cannot be hurt and you are making everything up about reality. Then it felt like god touched my forhead pressure was building it felt like something was pushing on it. Instantly I knew what consciousness was and every neuron in my brain stood in unison and it felt like they were throwing a party and each neuron in my brain starts saying I love you I love you you are the most perfect being to ever exist. Love is shooting up my body into my brain and exploding like fireworks or lightning. Each burst bringing more ecstacy. I started convulsing and screaming and crying and laughing for 6 hours then I cry for 6 more days as I grieve myself. The most beautiful thing that God has given me. I don't even have to meditate for more than 5 minutes to see the void anymore its around us all the time. I can just stare at the wall and everything turns grey and then like crunches in then dissapears.

@Someone here the penis or testicle. They are two when you have 2 of something God is there

I was thinking that our minds are neuron inside of God and the little arms that come out of the neuron our are identities and we hold onto things then projected them into the neuron. The center of the neuron is glowing so it might be watching a video and making up stories based around what its grabbers are holding onto. This would mean if you are self aware enough you could choose what you what your feelers to hold onto and then choose what kind of information you leech from them. Creating your reality how you want in the process. Your mind is the little feeler so manifest what you want and grab it and take it as all is not real so it doeent matter. You are just leeching information from other neuron and things you never actually do anything to their neurons beside what they are leeching from your neuron

@Razard86 God is doing the tickle scratch. Sometimes he will do it to unbearable level just so the scratch feels better.Tickle yourself cause it feels good then scratch it cause it feels better . I do it to myself and can fall asleep to it and they say only schizophrenic can do that. I don't think I have schizophrenia.

@Topspin715 the philosophers stone. Immortality. The point of philosophy is to find out that nothing is true except you. And understanding this is worth more than money can buy times infinity. Also to ground your world view so no one can hurt you anymore as your foundation has been made with concrete. You have to understand it yourself in order for to be true so you still have to do the thinking. Build your tower of philosophy to the top grab the philosophers stone and deconstruct the tower on the way down. Then soak everything in. It can be seen as another form of religion and any big religion that is studied and practiced seriously can lead you to enlightenment. Philosophy is like spirituality you can research and practice arguing with others exchange ideas and converse but ultimately it is done by the soul alone.

@Isa on a shroom trip i left this dimension into the 2d dimension and then to the 1st dimension and it felt like alien where there doing weird shit to my conciousness and they mind wipe me after the experience but I remained concious of myself while being mind wiped so it didn't effect me

@tuku747 I'm not sure if they are neferious but I do know that they mind wipe human beings and i don't know why they would do that. My theory is that they need people to not realize they are God so they have created a system on which they are building a society that molds you into something you are not. And to tell you what is bad and what is good so you forget you are god and just a lowly human number. If God thinks he is a lowly number to work forever and die that exactly what it is. So souls end up trapped reincarnation on earth trying to find itself believing in Jesus and God thinking they are greater than them. This is not true you are god and God bows to no being not even Jesus. I do not think the aliens are bad as bad dosent exist but people would have to realize that nothing is bad and they bow to no one in order for them to get out of the soul trap. Its not a hyper strong belief as holding onto anything is senseless but from my irl experiences to me it could fit.

That's a cool thought. Maybe by sitting and not moving for a long time you can hold a pose and form a solid image in time.

If all metaphysical ideas are true by default And God is a metaphysical idea That mean God is true and its everything. In the same way beauty is true If you can deny beauty you can deny God. If you cannot deny beauty then God exists. This is the soul.

Today I randomly came up with this idea while meditating to keep my mind focused and looked to see if anyone came up with this. After 5 minutes of climbing a mental ladder I can feel myself become exhausted. I start to slow down of take a break and hold myself there. mentally only able to hold myself there on the rungs eventually you enter a state of no thought and just hold it there shaking on the ladder. My body starts to physically move .

@onacloudynight i think they are alien or lower vibrational souls. Maybe like hungry ghosts that are channel surfing conciousness and are trying to relive memories through you. So if you are smoking maybe someone who was severely addicted and wants to keep smoking but don't want to respawn. So they relinquish control and just watch your life. But they are connected to your channel so they can influence your decisions. So you could have like 5 entity watching the livestream of your life and they have a chat that you can't see but influence your thought. You could see how an extremely concious being could become you more than you are you by tricking you and then they get power over you.

I don't know how accurate this is but I read on the internet that hu was a word for God . So hu man means Hu - God Man - individual I just read more and it said the creator of the universe was masterbating and came and he yelled huuuuuuuuuuu Lol.

@Loveeee leave the soul trap that aliens have created on earth. Love yourself as God. When you die do not judge yourself with your life review . You are god God dosent judge itself. Do not reincarnate. Try to get as many souls out of this collapsing cell as possible. The alien came to earth as a virus and implanted something in the humans that make the doubt themselves so they will be trapped here. The earth is like a cell of God and aliens are like a virus they have hijacked the minds of man and are creating a soul sucking factory.

The ultimate truth is something that you wont be able to know but you can only know through direct experience. You can't prove solipsim false or true so its false or true depending on how you want it to be. From my nde experience we have death wrong and the opposite happens then what we think. We don't dissapear everything else except us dissapears.

God gave human decision to do what they want if you fuck a child and a mob kills you thats just fine in gods mind too. Whether or not fucking a child was good in gods eyes dosent matter when you are hanging from a tree. And if people kill you for it its actually God and satan showing you how they feel about it.

@onacloudynight why would anyone be a liar. Its learned by being punished for telling the truth.

@onacloudynight maybe you being a liar and not trusting anyone are connected. Start trusting people, feel vulnerable you wont get hit, then you will stop lying.

Yes you are correct I have been doing it and I can see the void when I unfocus my eyes like 15 times during meditation. Everything in my fov will turn grey then dissapears and I can see the void behind it. I'm not scared of the void anymore at least as long as I can remain in my physical body and witness it I don't know how I will act when I lose my body again. Life literally is just a game of looking at something being scared of it then accepting it as not bad and moving on. the first time it happened is so traumatizing i fell into depression for 8 years. The next time i enter the void I will try to be a good boy and sit quietly instead of throwing a tantrum.

My very first spiritual memory I have had was a dream I had when I was a child. I looked up at the sky and there were tiny people playing baseball on the moon and that scared me that tiny people could exist. I was 360 degree turning around the moon watching them and this scared me too for some unknown reason. I remember this dream as I think it was a way of my mind forming the idea that I was separate from reality and that things have a behind to them. They were not tiny people they were small people because the moon is far away and has a back to it. Things aren't growing and shrinking and changing shape they are going away and coming toward me.My brain was telling me these things through dreams and it was a nightmare to me because it was existentially challenging my reality. My first spiritual insight was probably that the universe is a cell within a cell within a cell I just didn't truly understand the significance of that until later.

I was in the void too its like you have no body so there is no self reflection. You feel lonely. The loneliness grows the sadness comes and grows as well. You have no eyes too cry no mouth to scream no way to express yourself. So it grows and it grows and it grows. Time dosent exist so you are just an infinite growing void of sorrow and loneliness. Then you pass out from the exhaustion. Then you emerge from the void again realize you are still in the void you cannot beleive it loneliness and sadness emerge again and again growing more and more then you go unconscious from the weight of this realization. This process happens infinite times till you finally you are null identity. Wake and dream are the same void. Forever.

@Holykael ok do that for 15 trillion years. then what. Wouldn't you really wanna try murdering someone after 15 trillion years. You probably lived a life where you were whining that God is torturous because you can't hurt anyone. You don't understand what is going into reality you are just upset about something.