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@Javfly33 Its called death. People tell you you will die you know this is wrong but you don't remember and you have a panic attack and disassociate from reality. I remember when I disassociate from reality I was masturbating as a 10 year old and I was doing it for awhile but this time semen came out and I thought I was dying but couldn't tell anyone lol.People told me that it was evil or sin to do it and i did it a bunch of times and nothing happened. Then I came one time and I thought it meant i broke something and im dead. This sent me into a full blown disassociation and my love of masturbating and fear of death. Or it may have come before or that was where my intense fear came from. It might happen as like 4 year old that experience something too frightening to handle. It scares itself to sleep

start working out doing sports. Going for runs. You need to physically ground yourself. Exhaust the mind. Spirituality is like walking on a razor wire you need to balance both physical and metaphysical reality to work as one. Probably stop spirituality or meditating if you even can. Sometimes its out of your control the only thing you can do is keep positive in every situation and never let yourself act out of fear or anger. I think yoga could help but also might not.

Since all sense are imaginary rub your tongue on the roof of your mouth and tickle it. Now just think its not a tongue its a family skating on an ice rink upside down.

When you reach a state with no ego or self you can be there you just can't question being there. So in a sense you aren't there and can only know you were there if you wake up in a body where you know what you are. I have died or come as close to as possible where I became void and I remeber it happened simply because I emerged into a state where I can self reflect. In that state I could have woken as a baby and not known I was in that state at all but I woke up with a pre existing identity allowing me to know where I was. You exist as a void when you have no identity and its the true self. Now I don't know if I was existing with ought any ego at all because I was sad in the void. But eventually I had to let go of everything and become void and that was what set me free.

You can exist without thought. Or it is a way you can be. When you stop thinking you stop existing as you tho. Until the next time you think. Like a dream you don't know you are you until you awaken and see that you were dreaming. If you stop thoughts life will be a dream you will not know who or what you are but you will be there. Even if you die you won't even know you are dead but you will be there. You won't know you are dead until you awaken to another state and be able to self reflect on what happened like a dream. These states are states in which no ego or identity exists you are not there but you as awareness have no self reflection.

sadhguru says if one jumps into an abyss one should have tremendous faith in something. If you dont integrate your shadow it will remain. the stress is there an will remain until dealt with either in this lifetime or next. it is part of your soul and these are impressions that last until looked at.

This is cool I think the eye has some representation of the universe the pupil being the I The Iris being the universe The limbal ring being God or the edge of the universe and the Screla the white part being the white light or white hole of god or maybe heaven When our pupils are dilated we become more spiritual or closer to nothingness and spirit Like if we stare directly into anothers eyes we are staring into the nothingness of ourselves and there can be great fear or love come from that depending on who or how long. Many different types of emotions can be taken by gazing into another Self.

I remeber I was a native living on mercury or venus. The sun was newer and emit a lower frequency purple light. Everything was black except a purple outline on everything facing the sun. The sun must not have been powerful enough illuminate everything or it was weird type of light not detectable by my eyes.I was fighting another native and died.

I had extreme death anxiety since i was 9 or 10. This lasted till I was 33 then I decided to eat mushroom to cure me as a last ditch effort before I end my life. I only ate 2.5 grams but within 20 minutes of eating them a switch flipped off in my mind that contained my identity and I could instantly see that I was not real and that all that fear I had for 20 years was completely imaginary. It felt like I was Atlas setting the world down after eternity of holding it and god was pressing on my forehead shooting love into my soul, it felt like I was starting to float in the air. I realized I cant die cause I dont even exist and if I don't exist (just as an idea in my mind), then what am I actually? I must be god.I must be the all seeing eye of god. I cant die! This went into a very intense release of energy that hiding from me and it felt like god was giving me a ticket into heaven as an atheist. the first thing I typed was god realization into youtube and I got Leo .I watched his advanced god realization video and I am very grateful for his teaching as he is both kind and articulate and right there when I needed it, also not scared to say what he believes even if people think he is crazy. He is brave, this work is probably the most scary thing anyone can do, smart and one of a kind to the internet. I also realized that my abuse as a child caused me to live as an emotional vampire and Leo help me to see what my mind was doing when I am being unconscious as a result has healed me.

@Superfluo only if you love to do that.

@integral i assume alot of theorizing and drugs without doing philosophy. Philosophy can prevent this from happening as its a grounding tool for the mind. Paranoid thoughts without realizing that they are not you. Identifying with the thoughts becoming the thoughts and losing identity with the soul. Its a possession. An algorithm that takes control of the soul by deceiving it. god gave us free will, but not when we forget who we are.

you can watch how the ego is controlling her actions. She calls the cops cause she realizes shes not in control of her thoughts. Then as soon as she is in a safe place with the police the ego goes well the just kill me and starts going insane. This is someone who does not know that they are not their thoughts and is being possesed by ego.

This is what I was asking. If I don't know what the problem is with me isn't it plausible that I can blame my problems on a demon then heal myself by irraticating the demon. Dealing with all my issue and getting rid of a demon at the same time.

You are here forever as an eye staring at a screen. The change you make within yourself needs to go beyond the screen of awareness or it will remain a part of the screen of awareness. You need to deeply shake the I of awareness awake. Through constant daily monthly yearly thought of god.

Whatever you are fearing is the ego revealing itself to you when you feel fear you know you are looking in the right place so focus on what makes you scared and sit with it and be scared there is freedom from fear beyond fear

My life is devoted to God. There is nothing more important. All I do with my free time after work is think about god. No family maybe hang out with friends one night a week. I spent the first 33 years of my life terrified of quieting my mind now God has given me peace to focus on him. A smart man use his voice to sing song about money and family a wise man knows the only thing your voice should be used for is to worship God everything else is just filler

God has enough room love and time to shape the cosmos around everything

You are talking about shadow work not the dark night of the soul. Dark night is like years long or decades long suppression of the soul. This is just shadow work. The ego needs to think in order to exist so it will bring up thoughts to get you to stop meditating. After you quite the base noise down it will have to expose itself in the form of unreleived traumas. You just gotta think about it and cry about it. Or take psychs as with psyches this stuff is forced upon you.

hmm i think this is how the brain works.

I already know how to manifest a bigger penis i think about a thick woman and it is instantly working.

If I don't know what is wrong with my life or how to fix it. Could saying I have a demon inside of me causing these problems actually be the solution. If what I beleive manifests as true it in a sense give me a way out of my predicament where I had no way out before that. It could be a good thing to have a demon cause at least you know where the problem is . Admitting you have a demon could just be a term you use to identity the unknown problem. Or maybe it gives it more power

What you need to do is create a group or tribe of people specifically existing to explore consciousness together all being non bias and open minded in real life with out it turning into a shit show. Somehow the ancients managed it in the wild while mapping out consciousness. True hero's

If you deny anything that has happened in reality you are being blasphemous to God. Don't like billionaires? Blasphemy Don't like trans agenda? Blasphemy Dont like slavery? Blasphemy Dont like murder rape genocide? Blasphemous Crash your car and spazz out? Blasphemous

Kinda looks like the straight loop leo has in his strange loop video if it wrapped around to itself.

I consider the 3rd dimension to be a dimension with an identity. It consists of me which is the 3rd dimension dimension I have control or perceived control over my reality. Now me without me is the second dimension i have no body but I can still perceive things through awareness but I can't move my body cause I don't have one and I have no identity. So I move around in my awareness with whatever we are using to zoom in on things the point in your vision that you are always looking at naturally. You have space then you have an ability to kind of zoom in on space. That would be the 2nd dimension. And 1st dimension is just total zoom in but you can't move your zoom anymore. In the 2nd and 1st dimension you have no identity therefore no control your soul is controlling it. And I beleive in the 4th and 5th dimension you have no control your soul is controlling it. Up until the 6th dimension where you have identity again. Then 7 and 8 have no control and in the 9th you have identity again. I do not beleive in the ordinary science of dimensions being 3 dimensions themselves. Each 3 dimensional thing is in the 2nd 1st dimension simultaneously. As well as the 4th 5th 6th 7th 8th 9th. So dimension 1 is total awareness with no movement. 2nd is movement up and down through the zoom you naturally have and 3rd dimension is movement forward and back wards through me my identity. Everything takes place on a screen and dimensions are added to the screen based in understanding of the screen. You are seeing in 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 dimensions right now you just don't understand them from your third dimensional perspective. Each dimension projecting itself onto your consciousness as consciousness is the traveler of dimensions. Akashic records are different tho. They aren't a dimension they are a normally invisible field overlaying every dimension that has all information of the solar system inside of it. Including your 5 paragraph algorithm of identity that your soul has been given.