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Nah im heterosexual so its not necessarily issues with my sexuality in that im actually gay and hate myself, its more that i have intrusive thoughts about it very similar to what @Recursoinominado mentioned. Essentially its a form of OCD that takes the theme of worrying about sexual orientation but it could just as easily be worrying youre a pedophile or youre a muderer or could be anything really. Your brain is looking for certainty and just constantly questioning everything, like 'oh that time you thought that guy was handsome' etc. Obviously i have nothing against gay people but its just not who i am which leads to the frustration of why are these intrusive thoughts there. I think it has something to do with how everyone around me when i was young hated gay people so to me it was the worst thing possible, so any thought i resisted when in reality i could have just let the thoughts flow through. I also believe if you have ocd, youre born with an ocd brain which is something you have to come to understand. Whether sexual orientation is learnt or genetic i would say its the same thing as the nature/nuture debate you have an innate leaning, but things can happen in your life where you may change or feel free to experiment. I think its a lot to do with the society you grew up in. For example in the days of the greek spartans it was normal for the soldiers to have sex with the young recruits, no one questioned this. Whereas when and where i was growing up you would have been seen as weird or ostracised, or religious communities that literally try and change your sexuality. So definitely culture and nuture have a part to play, but we all have a gender that we can see ourselves being with sexually. For me although my mind is in the habit of worrying about it, realistically i couldnt see myself being comfortable or enjoying a relationship with the same sex

Yeah i still have that theme of ocd but i understand it 100x better than before, obviously before i didnt even know what it was, so that led to all the habits and reassurance which im still dealing with today. It can also play out in perfectionism, as in i should have the 'perfect' thoughts, but again with understanding it takes a lot of the sting out but its still very frustrating. I think it plays into worrying about what people think as i used to have social anxiety but thats gone for the most part. Yeah i love atching body language and stuff, always very interesting, its like a whole conversation going on as well as the verbal, its easy to fake verbals but not body language.

It's interesting what we deem as 'secret worthy', as in where does the shame around that come from? My kind of secrets are, I have had hocd, where you worry about your sexual orientation for no good reason, for many years, that and other themes of ocd. I always wonder if people like me or not. Probably other things but it would be around how I feel day to day, I think everyone has to put on this mask of everything's great so there's always the secret of how so eone really feels

That doesn't prove much, my mum grew up in Nigeria but lived in London from 18 to 30 something and can put on the most proper English accent you've ever heard, but her normal speaking voice around friends and family is the most Nigerian accent you've ever heard. If she was on TV she'd definitely talk like mooji in the above video. Most people who have experiences growing up in different places can at least put on the accents when needed

Question is do you enjoy it? It's easy of falling into the trap of everything you do in the present is for some mythical future where you're completely self developed. Just do things you enjoy in the present and can get you into a flow state. If you don't enjoy wrestling don't do it

The sentiments cool and I get what your saying, but it's like saying a 15 year old is better than a 3 year old. Yes you could make that argument that a 3 year old is completely dependent on their parents whereas a 15 year old can contribute with house work, can get a job is more emotionally stable than a 3 year old. But that doesn't mean that you can push a 3 year old to mature and become 'better'. All you can do is provide an environment for the 3 year old to mature healthily and hope that they do, but you can't force them to fix all their issues that will be done in their own time. What I would suggest to you is before you start worrying about upgrading masses of people, focus on the 5 closest people to you and get them to move up and better their circumstances and mindsets. Once you do that scale it up. My hypothesis is that maybe one or them will really listen to you maybe not even one, the rest will either not take it in or reject it

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A lot of celebrities most likely wanted to become celebrities because they felt lower, a lot of them are very insecure and hold on to that fame tightly. But they can hide it and appear alpha, so as far as their fans know they are. Ones that truly are alpha or a better way to say it, one's that are truly comfortable within themselves, most likely became famous because they were just good at their art and the fame was a by product of that. Those that just wanted to be famous are most likely uncomfortable with themselves or beta if you like

As far as I can see you're either an incel or very sympathetic to their ideologies to the point where you believe what they're saying to be truth. The thing with statistics is that you can justify whatever perspective you have with them. The problem is that if youre research is not experiential then the stats can trap you. Think about it like this, you've read online something somebody has written in a forum or on reddit where they've quoted some study about how it's hard for most men to attract women, (you probably haven't read the full study yourself). This person that has written it has most likely not spent time trying to become better at meeting and communicating with the opposite sex, so they have no direct experience of what they're talking about. Getting rejected once or twice doesn't count, that's like me picking up a guitar twice, not being able to play santanas chords in 'maria' and then claiming that black men can't play the guitar because stats. So you've now read this online you yourself most likely have little experience in this field, but because it justifies how you feel you take it as truth. The only way you can know something is first hand, so go out there try and meet women, you may fail, look at why you failed, look at what people who are successful in this field are doing, improve, start seeing some success etc. The fact is whatever field you want to talk about most people don't succeed not because of stats but because they're not willing to go through the necessary process to succeed, it's never easy. What is easy is protecting your ego by citing some reason outside of yourself for not doing what you want.

Careful with the use of the word 'better', you're making yourself superior to others and thus concluding that they should listen to you because you're 'right' which actually shows that you still have to progress in spiral dynamics. You can't just get someone to adopt this model like that, the same way we can't convince you not keep pushing it on other people.

Ego cares about whatever you believe to be real, so for example if you believed you were a loyal citizen of Germany in the 1940s you might kill and die to preserve that persona and ideology . It doesn't make it real but the key is that you believe its real. So yes physical survival is important but can be trumped if you believe something else is more important

Yeah I think that's ultimately the best combo erp and act, it's the only thing that tackles it directly, glad you've got better though

My opinion on the best treatment for ocd

Hey man, thanks for watching and thanks for the reply. I agree with you, AA is very powerful, so powerful that i think its methodology should be stretched to help all of those with any addiction and many others with mental health issues. Essentially alcoholism is a mental disease but we as a society tend to just focus on the alcohol part of it, as if the person is just choosing to drink alcohol. With regard to the message in the video theres definitely a link and the idea behind this video and other videos im going to post, is to take the methodology from AA and also elements of non-duality and use it as a way to switch perspective on OCD and anxiety as i know many people are suffering out there and this may help them. But youve encouraged me to look into AA even deeper and see what else could applicable, but yeah i love the message and the idea of giving up on the perceived self to sort everything out. Einstein said 'you cant solve problems on the same level they were created' ie you cant solve the problem of self with self lol

Shot a video to help with anxiety and ocd which I think ties a lot into non duality, check it out if you're looking for advice on these topics

OK so reading your post I think there are some misunderstandings you have about non-duality, which is to be expected as you're new to the idea of it. First I think you're equating it to other ideologies, as in will this way of thinking help me the person. So you're looking for something to add to the you that you think you are, actually non-duality is a dropping or at least a questioning of the who you are. You are non-dual already, if you think about it you can't be you and also observe 'you', that creates a duality which is not real. So the journey is more about the realisation of what you're not rather than what you are. So you don't 'get' anything from this but there is freedom from self but no freedom for the self. You think the problem is that your self is not good enough but the real problem is you're attached to your self. If you think of the film the matrix, Neo is trapped because he believes himself to be the avatar in the matrix, once he gets out, its not necessarily better but it gives him freedom from what he thought himself to be. He's still him but he just knows he's not the avatar. The question is it worth believing in is probably not the right question, but a better question might be is it worth believing you are who you think you are?

Amsterdam is going toward green and yellow but i think generally the world is orange and below with green poking through, so we're a bit off of yellow society. All you can do is embrace the work that has to be done helping the progression, so wherever you go just make sure its conducive to whatever youre trying to bring into the world, music in this case

You have some really good savings there, just an idea but property is pretty cheap in scotland so might be an idea to buy to let you can usually get pretty good yields, realistically youve got a deposit for at least 2 places. If not you could look a something abroad, i know the stamp duty is a bit of a hurdle at the moment so maybe something in spain or further and air bnb it. Other than that you could look into stocks although that could be fairly long term. I sell on amazon myself so seeing as you work for them you could do really well with a 10k investment for example. Or if you want more traditional route, have a think of what your dream job would be and allow yourself to believe you could do it and then look into how much the training would be for it. You have a good start off point and anything is probably possible for you to do you just have to really strategise and work out what you want to do

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What sets coral apart from turquoise ie mooji sadhguru etc?

There's quite a few options depending on where you're based and what platform you're selling on. Also if you really need PayPal you can open another PayPal account with different details, I've got 3 PayPal accounts I think

'school is not a place for smart people' -Rick Sanchez

But who sets what's normal? So for example, say you were unaware you were in a mental institution where everyone was for lack of a better word crazy. The normal and functional way of being in that environment is to be what we would consider crazy, would you strive to be normal and functional within that environment even though deep down something felt not quite right? Or would you try and look beyond that to see what is true?

You can look at it like the devil is your ego/false self and God is that which witnesses your ego/false self. The illusion is that you believe you are the false self, but yes technically you are both although you would cease to be both if you realise you are not ego