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@Sheeba Sounds like a taste of ego death. And the first taste is always the most bitter. After this initial blow it gets easier. Maybe now you understand why it's said this work isn't so much about gaining something as it is about getting rid of something-(ego). That depressed feeling your getting is the ego's doing. See how much ego is exposed now? Surprising, isn't it? And uncomfortable too. We've all been there before so it's completely understood what your going through. If you would have done more work on the ego by now, Leo's new video would have sounded like a piece of Heaven to your ears. I'm not kidding you! It would be a complete 180 from what you experienced. Or rather I should say 'your ego experienced'. The good news is that since you are a 'newbie' you won't be getting into this work with huge misconceptions about enlightenment. That in itself puts you ahead of the game from the start. The most important thing you can do now is drop all resistance and just allow everything to be as it has always truly been. Rest in what is- like your floating down a stream. Letting go is a huge aspect of this work. Practice letting go and you will see that nothing changes in reality but only the way it's viewed.

This is what I have up now. The other 2 I've used also

@How to be wise How can people who know what enlightenment is become enlightened?

That's not a good idea.

Waking- sleeping - and the sense of presence are all temporary states that have come upon me. I am not these states. Nisargadatta If you take it all the way, you see there is really no one to "truly believe it's not me". That would be just another state, albeit an expanded one. There will ALWAYS be more work. That's just the way it is. And it will continue until nothing remains.

The silliest part is, it's all an illusion. Like Pavlov's dog salivating over non existent food at the sound of a bell.

@harisankartj No you won't die. Your glimpsing through the illusion of the ego and the ego is fighting back by defending it's territory by causing resistance. You'll laugh when you see through it all, guaranteed! But life still goes on. And it's not like ego completely disappears overnight anyway. Even after an awakening you have lots of "shadow work' to do. And something always remains of the self too but it's seen just a tool to use when needed but not the master of it's domain. Humble is good. This does take surrender. Surrender and having trust in something much bigger than you will pull you through.

@harisankartj Ego death is the humbling of the self. If anything you would become more of a servant to the world in one form or another. And for the proper cause. For some that maybe for the first time in their life because they now see things from an awakened perspective. Before ego death they may have only viewed the world through the eyes of their ego and that was their only real motivation. You know what I mean?- that "what's in it for me" perspective of the world.

There is no real solution for the ego/self as it exists within time. What you are suggesting is hiding an imaginary head in the sand by keeping it preoccupied.

@Afonso Maybe your due for a massive energy fart. You know what they say-better out than In.

@MattP Eventually it all collapses into a singularity beyond time.

I think that's called the Bunga Soto or something similar sounding to that. I've heard the expression " dipping below the Bunga Soto while remaining aware". Sounds like the delta b-w you speak of. Get a decent b-w monitor and find out. It's expensive stuff though. Sleep study clinics have all the good equipment. Imagine working there and having full access when the place is closed.

@Little Plant I see things too when I close my eyes. But the things I see when I have them open is what scares me.

@Amit Conscionsceness does not need to 'travel' anywhere. It is inter woven throughout the universe.

This episode of Seinfeld reminds me of trying to see enlightenment but can't. Go to 3:30

We get so accustomed to thinking that the here and now only goes from here to there that we miss the fact that it is infinite. -RBDC

@Leo Gura Life started as a potential out of nothingness along with an infinite number of other possibilities.

@Leo Gura That sounds like it will be a good one for sure. Here's a thought too. Space itself could provide a sort of hibernation or suspended animation for genetic material to be spread throughout the universe. Sometimes planets collide. Or take a massive direct hit from an asteroid that could eject genetic material high in the atmosphere into space. It is possible that we hitched a ride on the back of a comet or asteroid, or meteor from another location to be here. Who knows, maybe we have distant relatives living in another part of the universe- no pun intended.

@Natasha I had a brother and he always had a fear or paranoia about him since day one. Like he came into the world with it. He was also a twin-btw. I always wondered if he remembered his birth experience.

@egoless If you awaken while your digging ditches, you will see that is exactly where the universe wanted you to be at that moment.

@Leo Gura Microtubul's are an interesting subject. Some theorize that they may be responsible for biological consciousness. 95 % of our genetic code is not yet understood. You gotta wonder what may be hidden there and has yet to be discovered about our past and future.

@egoless If you awoken to realize that you are absolutely everything that is happening, what difference would it make what career you have? All careers would be included in that 'everythingness' wouldn't they? The answer to your question is -it's a personal preference and nothing more.

I'm feeling like part of the scenery. I've walked right out of the machinery. Peter Gabriel

You are not that which appears within a space. You are the space in which that appears..

A babies consciousness is crystal clear in the absence of all filters.