JuliusCaesar

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  1. I am everything, so I don't exist as being separate from anything else. But I do exist as a perfect formless Omnipresent being. If you want to know about my experiences that cause me to say that, then you should go and read my first two posts at a minimum. Leo reached the same conclusion pretty much exclusively through doing high doses of 5 MEO DMT.
  2. Death, as you describe it, isn't possible, but you shouldn't believe me nor disbelieve me. Instead, you should endeavor to verify/falsify what I've said.
  3. Well, the simplest explanation would be that you are everything. And as such, everything is infinitely powerful just as you are(in actuality, not necessarily in your subjective experience of reality). So, there exist many beings within consciousness that have minds which bear fewer limitations than the human mind. Some of them are capable of doing our bidding and willing to do so as well. Some disciplines within witchcraft, perhaps the most outspoken ones use this very conjurational method. As to you saying is it a placebo or is it real, in human experience, a real spell is a real spell. If you double-blind test against a fake spell, you'll see the real spell has a much stronger effect than the fake one(which in many instances might have no measurable impact at all). Of course, the problem with all of this is that you're likely to struggle to find scientists who are open-minded enough to choose to study these things. So, if you want hard science in this realm you'll probably have to settle for a combination of direct experience and third-person reports. But to explain what's going on here, it's very simple. You're invoking a being you perceive to be other than you which also is more powerful(can more easily manipulate reality using their mind) than you currently can. So the reason real conjuration magick works is that you're dreaming that you managed to successfully obtain help from something more powerful than you currently imagine yourself as a human to be. It's painstakingly simple really.
  4. You don't care about your parents, that's okay. But are you actually certain that you want to leave this world? That there's nothing more you want to do or experience? This dream affords many possibilities. Think of all the sexual escapades you could go on. The challenges you could overcome, the enemies you could conquer, the things you could achieve. You're telling me you honestly want to leave all that behind? Losers do it all the time because they're too weak to deal with their existence so they think they can put an end to it and that'll fix the problem. Little do they know that they're immortal, have always existed, and will always exist. I'm certain that you're strong enough not to require our validation in order to continue your existence. What's the most positive thing you've experienced, and the best relationship you've had with another human? Whoever they are is likely to be better suited to helping you than some strangers on the internet. If anything this is proof you don't really want to commit suicide. All you really want is love from others, but have you considered that maybe others would be more loving of you if you become more loving of them?
  5. I can relate to that because when I first experienced non-ordinary things that materialism deemed impossible I was skeptical as well. It made me realize I could develop psychic abilities and basically supernatural powers. So then I went on to do just that.
  6. Love equals power, plus one of Leo's greatest flaws is his over-reliance on logical thinking and avoidance of embracing his feelings. Consequently, he has low personal standards and often fails to focus on himself enough. Because he's too busy thinking about what everyone else values to be aware of his own values in any serious capacity. So you hit the nail on the head with that one.
  7. @Ruth They don't care because it doesn't seem beneficial for them to do such a thing. You care however because for you it is beneficial.
  8. Putting aside the scientific perspective of harmala alkaloids contraindicating with tyramine-bearing food. It'd recommend that in the future you brew Aya in the traditional fashion. Mother Ayahuasca may not be a petty spirit, but she can be offended if you do things to disrespect her. Another thing I'd advise you to do is to fast at least 3 days prior to ingestion and for at least a day afterward. Fasting cleanses the colon of all the garbage that would ordinarily be present there, purifying the body and mind. It's unwise to use mind-altering substances with an impure vessel. Another thing, I recommend that in the future you only do Banisteriopsis Caapi. It contains alkaloids that put the mind in a state where certain things like telepathy and precognition are possible. Once you form a healthy relationship with the vine(Caapi) and it advises you to start doing Chacruna(Psychotria Viridis), then you move on to doing full-fledged Ayahuasca again. Now keep in mind, even if you do everything right it's possible to have bad experiences like the one you mentioned here. Aya breaks down the barrier between the conscious mind and the unconscious. So any demons you have lurking below the surface of your subjective awareness can rise to the surface. This is a good thing because it allows for the possibility to resolve whatever conflict is in you(like scraping waste off the top of a butter spread with a knife). But obviously, it may also traumatize you with no benefit(assuming you aren't prepared for the experience).
  9. Leo isn't close-minded per se. It's just that he lacks the faith and discipline to persevere in the face of failure. If he wants it any other way, then he'll need to consider options he never has before. Options that are so simple, but in his twisted worldview seem so dangerous that he'd never consider them. Which, in my judgment isn't going to occur. Therefore, if he wants to fix himself then most likely pure perseverance will be the only way forward. Aerosmith said it best(or sang it best) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=89dGC8de0CA
  10. It astounds me the extent to which the dream characters are ineffective with their words. See, when death occurs the mind expands everywhere(meaning you become God as God is everywhere. So there's nothing wrong with killing yourself, but keep in mind that you don't need to physically die to experience that. If you physically kill yourself permanently, as I'm sure you know all you'll accomplish is inflicting suffering upon the loved ones you leave behind as they'll experience your loss as real. So kill yourself with psychedelics instead(not physical death), and if that's not an option, just meditate(that'll kill you as well if you do it enough).
  11. I would say my personal experience with servitors is highly limited as I've never seriously attempted to create one(nor did I acquire one by accident like you). Except for once, I tried to summon Jeannie from I Dream of Jeannie to give me supernatural powers a few years back. I only thought about her being real and interacting with me for like 30 minutes, but she did manage to appear to me in a dream. However, I've had much higher level manifestation experiences from other occult practices I've done through the past three years. And the intellectual way of understanding what I've experienced allows for servitor creation to be possible. As I've had direct experience with successfully manipulating ordinary reality using only my mind. And I've gathered many third-person accounts of other people doing the same thing, some instances of which the "other people" did things more impressive than what I did. So I have intellectual understanding of what's occurring in Tulpa/thought-form creation. I'd recommend anyone interested in this topic read all of those books. They all present more or less the same worldview and similar practices to invent these thought-forms. But their content is still different enough that it's worth it to read all of them as each have a slightly unique perspective.
  12. "Just sit here and you'll be a thousand times Ayahuasca" -Sadhguru Traditional Vipassana is a potent practice, but only if it's done to the exclusion of everything else(you meditate 24/7 or as close to it as possible). If you have insufficient discipline and/or free time, then mind-altering substances are far superior as they tend to work about 100,000 times faster. However, it's relative to your desires as those determine what your objectives are. If all you want to do is be free from anxiety, then 30 minutes a day of Vipassana will likely be sufficient. If you want to know God or even develop the powers of your mind, then you'll need to do it nearly nonstop for a prolonged period. Also, keep in mind that there are an infinite amount of different kinds of meditation. And these variants(Shamhavi Mudra for instance is different from Vipassana) all have different impact and different levels of potency. And also, the same practice doesn't impact everyone the same just as it is with drugs. So meditation is more potent in some than it is in others. As for the tangible results I've obtained with meditation. I've never done Vipassana enough to acquire any substantial affectation to myself. However, back in 2019, I trained with the entire course from Arvari(Academy for remote viewing and remote influencing). And afterward, I used the extent remote viewing meditation to foreknow the result of a Megamillions drawing(which I didn't consider playing because I wanted to know I was really was in an omniscient state). And in hindsight, I know that I predicted it perfectly. But at the time I thought I had failed and stopped training because I got all the numbers right, but the mega ball and 4th ball were the only ones in the "correct place". Well, recently I discovered that in the Megamillions and Powerball, the order of the numbers doesn't matter(except the Powerball/mega ball, whose placement I got correct). So if I just had the faith based on the fact that I got all the numbers right and kept going, I could have been hitting major lotteries on the regular the past three years. How silly I must be from the perspective of the Godhead. Here I was this highfalutin omniscient being taken down by a simple little detail any idiot mortal who's played these games in a gambling capacity would know. Relative to the possibilities of basic breath focusing meditation. I've thought about experimenting with it to see if it enables remote viewing, or even remote influencing when practiced long enough. But I've never done it because at the moment I'm using my own system of constant dream control. Whilst also still researching substances and their effects from a third-person perspective. So have any of you experienced psychic abilities or heightened psychic abilities from Vipassana?
  13. Probably by doing LSD, Paul McCartney appears to be aware of high-level truths about reality. And while yes you could hypothesize that Paul isn't consciously aware of the veracity of some of the lyrics in his songs to any real extent. The fact that he wrote the songs he did the way he did is proof that he was at least aware of these things at one point in his life. As otherwise, it would be very unlikely that he would drop such gold nuggets of wisdom in his songs. So I'm creating a top three list of the Beatles' most enlightened songs. Number Three: Let It Be This pick may surprise you, I feel that it encapsulates the essence of a simple truth that I've found makes all spiritual practice dramatically easier. And that is the less you try, the easier it is. I find it unlikely that any normal person would realize such a thing due to it's paradoxical nature. So Let it be fits comfortably into the number three slot. Number Two: All You Need Is Love Increases in love result in increases in consciousness and even in mental/spiritual power. Not to mention the fact that existence only is due to love in the first place. Number One: Nowhere Man This one blows me away, it includes concepts that should seem absolutely nonsensical and impossible to any regular human. And these notions represent high levels truths about how reality works. I'll in fact respond to specific parts of the song because I find it so profound that some British Hippy produced such a thing. What I admire most about this is that a regular person hearing it has absolutely no understanding of what is truly meant. So in much the same way that if I tell someone they're "Everything and Nothing" and they misinterpret my words to mean something abstract like they're an individual between extremes as opposed to me meaning that they're Omnipresent, so it is that people listening to this misconstrue it have something to do with some delusional loser or something. "He's a real nowhere man Sitting in his nowhere land Making all his nowhere plans for nobody Doesn't have a point of view Knows not where he's going to Isn't he a bit like you and me?" A human is neither their body nor their mind as these are things you accumulate from the Earth and past experiences/thoughts and feelings. Your true form is no form at all, so these words literally describe us as we are perfectly. "Nowhere man, the world is at your command" Because we have no form or substance of which we're made. We effectively have absolute freedom because we can become anything as we're an infinite self and the self is whatever it permits itself to become. If I didn't know that Paul is me, it would astonish me that Paul's mind could conjure up such a revelation. "He's as blind as he can be Just sees what he wants to see" This is the very definition of reality as it actually is. To see the world as it truly is you must have no perspective at all, because that it turns out is equivalent to all possible perspectives. And only being viewed from all possible perspectives can reality be objectively known and comprehended. "Nowhere man don't worry Take your time, don't hurry Leave it all 'til somebody else Lends you a hand" Time is eternal, and unless our creation realizes that we are it. Our works will always be unconscious in the lives of whatever sentient beings are in question. So in this way, we can't act in someone's life unless they realize we are them, and they vehemently desire us to intervene in their dream. The only alternative is that they die, but this is a slow gradual process that results in expanded dreaming altering the nature of the deceased divinizing them.
  14. If you do it with closed eyes it's more effective than doing it with eyes open and a wandering gaze because the lack of sensory input slows down your mind making the practice more robust. However, focusing on a point results in hallucinations approaching a collapse of the visual field and a similar effect on one's state of consciousness. So basically, anything is better than open wandering eyes when doing Vipassana.
  15. Of course, ignoring the fact that John may fear the interviewer would think him crazy if he were to say otherwise. This strongly demonstrates that the revelations present could be originated purely in the subconscious of the band. However, to rebut this and potentially the validity of the possibility that this was conscious. Consider the fact about Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds, that Lennon claims that the song was inspired by a painting that his three-year-old son had made of Lucy O'Donnell, his classmate at Heath House nursery school. When the lyrics are blatantly describing the LSD experience. I mean, where else do you encounter girls with kaleidoscope eyes? Now mind you, I'm not accusing the band of outright lying. I'm only suggesting that they may have used some minor prevarication to protect their image. Lennon could easily be telling the truth about the song for instance, but maybe he was under Lucy's(LSD's) influence when conceiving of the lyrics. Likewise, if he knew himself to be God, do you think he would tell people that? No, in our society if you say that you're assumed to be mentally unstable, and risk institutionalization. Assuredly the Beatles have the wisdom and foresight to avoid such an unfortunate occurrence. As a generality this is true, but LSD does cause ego death(especially in high doses). Therefore this allows for the possibility that the Beatles had some enlightenment experiences.
  16. I'll provide some literary recommendations relative to this subject. Magickal Servitors: Create Your Own Spirits to Attract Pleasure, Power and Prosperity by Damon Brand Tulpa: Thought-Forms by C. W. Leadbeater Create a Servitor: Harness the Power of Thought Forms by John Kreiter
  17. You're Omnipotent, so all you need to do is think that you're in the desired state, and in it you will find yourself.
  18. Salvia is more useful for practical spiritual work as it allows you to become anything. Whereas 5 MEO DMT is better suited to the intent of actualized.org's agenda which is to discover the true nature of the universe and the self. This is because 5 MEO obliterates the ego whereas Salvia replaces the ego with that of another(though they both induce ego death in some capacity, 5 MEO's is purer so to speak). If you're considering doing Salvia, I advise you to chew the quid and not smoke it. Almost no one that smokes it has a good experience, and the Shamans who use it successfully for practical reasons also never smoke it and would think you're insane to try(as you'd offend the plant's spirit inducing an unproductive hellish experience).
  19. Of course, you should go deeper, but I'd recommend that you don't just up and triple the dose immediately. 3g would produce an experience about 20 times stronger than 1. So I'd say maybe go to 1.5g and see how that affects you, and then from there, you could just keep increasing the dose by a factor of .5g. And if you're focused on dating and getting good grades, doing psilocybin occasionally like on the weekend shouldn't have too much of an impact on your normal life. Plus you can use the experience to resolve issues in your dating life/school that you'd otherwise be incapable of solving from an ordinary human state of consciousness.
  20. Our words and thoughts impact the dream mortals consider reality. However, according to our calculations, this practice alone is unlikely to create Ego Transcendence in the vast majority of humans.
  21. Roger that, I'll have to take that into consideration in my experiments.
  22. Thanks for the info, btw how did you determine Harmaline specifically causes those physical disturbances?
  23. I bought freebase Harmine/Harmaline off Amazon, and plan on taking it in a size 4 capsule at night having fasted the same day(so that there should be very little Tyramine in me at the time).