funkychunkymonkey

would you be able to concentrate say if you wanted to deconstruct your mind? or is ayahausca just too? distracting? ive never tried it.

im thinking of expanding my toolbox, smoking dmt is a struggle for me and i dont really wanna go through the process of obtaining it, i have no sources... but i do spend quite a bit of time in ecuador.

@Recursoinominado whats it like?!?!?! im so excited and a little scared

this is a facinating thread, no matter how hard i try i cant verify leos existence and for some reason i still feel attached. i feel this is what fucks me up a lot is when i cant accept my direct experience, leo isnt real XDDD

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@bmcnicho hehe way ahead of u i wanted to try something new cuz i dont like fires if ya catch what im saying

i cant wait to try, would you be able to deconstruct your mind on aya? or would it be just too... motherly? to wanna do anything?

@WeCome1 damn i cried reading that crazy this stuff is illegal

update- im working ona video i wanted to call the traps and dangers of social media, and as im thinking im wowing myself im crying as i catch flow with this, i wish i joined you guys and contemplation sooner, man i was missing out!

I began to undo becoming addicted to mystical experiences and meditative experiences. I find a nice joy in a simple cup of tea, this issue of wage slavery i cannot break. Sure i can tough it out, i can try to zen through it but deep down its eating me. i just wanted to post this so if anyone else feels like this, your not alone. i wonder sometimes if ill ever get out. it hurts, i try to take it slow and roll with the punches, maybe one day ill be able to do what makes me happy, and lean into it to sustain my life. mystical experiences are great, they have transformed me, one thing ive learned is life MUST be appreciated in all the ways it exists and unfolds for you and if you dont wanna work for nice things and sacrifice. you wont get your happiness. as much as it fucking hurts, i have a little flickering of a nightlight in my heart that tells me to hang on, eventually your punishment wont be a job it will be that you got all that you ever wanted and consciousness was always free. just like the best things in life, just gotta water the plant i guess.

i realized that i was in a room that never goes away... what makes me happy.... rest.... i rested forever in heavenly peace. then badabap bada bap im back! AAAHHH XDDD i wanna eat cheetos and masturbate!

its not that hard of a concept to fix my family life personal life spiritual life and proffesional life... the lack of love turned me into who i am today... realized i am love now i remain headless and have a clear formula to follow to try to live my best life.. as of now! that can change if i fall back asleep... im still rookie at this and i know that i need fucking work.... anyone else having a hard time letting go of leo?

love you all the best i can, at least i know how to break my coke addiction now LOVE TADAAA! HAHA

fun little insight i got while meditating its funny how whenever you enter a room 2 things are missing, a human perceiver, and there is no fourth wall! i used the fourth wall concept to help me with self inquiry but of course this insight is peanuts and i know that LOL!

Ive spoken to groups of people running meditation classes just fine, some reason speaking to a camera i seem to stutter far more and lose track of my thoughts. how have u guys built comfort speaking to a camera if you have struggled? should i keep notes behind the camera? lol

honesty, acceptance, no blaming, NO PUTTING YOURSELF DOWN but you should b humble, validate the other person and make it clear that you understand them. the first response was pretty good better than anything i could tell ya.

@funkychunkymonkey JJDIDTIEBUCKLE justice judgement decisiveness integrity dependability thats all i can remember :c

compassion, understanding, tact, being just in actions (tact), integrity, honesty, and for those who know JJDIDTIEBUCKLE if you get the reference u know where i got that from!

@Jacob Morres im so happy! i guess i am a leader in a way i like to make people smile and not be so serious. leadership is such a beautiful thing! thats a wonderful way to help people! I can talk ab it all day!

im so excited! i wanna start a business and run a team one day, from the military i learned a very toxic, and controlling form of leadership. Personally i hated it, i cant wait to hear another perspective!!!

thanks all for ur help, i havent gone in a while but im much more comfortable in my skin. love u all

for the first time ever i stepped out of my comfortzone and went to a nightclub. i had a fucking blast! i used to be afraid to dance i was terrified, but felt the music said fuck it and i had a fucking blast that was a phobia i really was afraid i could never face i did now i wanna be a great dancer lol ANYWAYS! what do u guys think a newbie to clubs should know? and how the hell do u properly navigate a dance floor? i had to take a fucking piss! ended up holding it for like a half hour till a tiny hallway opened up. much love guys!

@something_else thats the sense i got, just have fun. if you look stupid a good smile and having fun will drown out anyone pointing and laughing anyways (which i dont think anyone would unless you were going crazy to a point where the bouncers r called lol)

@D2sage <3 thank you, success can be taxing on relationships, guess thats how the ball rolls (im sure for ego and selfishness reasons, jealousy(i know i would be!)) but thanks for the reply, i feel better :]

:C i have a best friend who i would always drink and smoke weed with. Now that i am chasing business, sales, entrepreneurship, marketing, i can tell if i am with them its literally almost like a slow downhill. lol its numbing my mind that i need to be successful. i guess the thought of cutting friends out makes me sad, i did make some new more professional friends, i have the boxing club. but a lifelong friend im struggling to drop :C