kamwalker

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  1. I was tripping the other day and the thought did occur to me for a second. It can be REALLY hard to see your own bullshit sometimes. You might think you're too smart for that, but it can happen to anyone. No matter how many times Leo says it's not a cult you have to be really careful. I check myself by never listening to one person exclusively. I also accept my own direct experience as truth regardless of what someone else says above all.
  2. I’m curious as to why these people are not just continuing to use this forum to discuss whatever. Why make another one?
  3. I wonder how adamantly meat eaters would still defend their choice if they were forced to watch a video of the animal they are about to eat being tortured and slaughtered prior to every purchase. A lot of this still comes down to out of sight, out of mind.
  4. I can't understand how people here say they are conscious of being God and yet aren't happy. Something is missing within your knowing if this is the case.
  5. I mean I have yet to come across a person who operates in every day reality at infinite levels of consciousness. Not in person, not on YouTube, no where. The finite being still dominates because this is the only way to maintain the illusion. So that's why people still talk to one another regardless if they have the knowing of the illusion.
  6. If one says they are conscious that suffering is imaginary and so it doesn't actually matter if one eats meat or not then they should also ask themselves why they selectively choose to not induce suffering in other aspects of life. Just acknowledge you have an egoic bias towards eating meat.
  7. The mind is creating all the supposed problems in one's life. People are trying to solve these problems to reach a point of peace where problems no longer matter. Everyone is doing this in a variety of different ways. This does not mean everyone is directly conscious of a specific state of being they want to be in, they just know where they are right now is not where they ultimately want to be. What people actually want is a complete dissolution of the ego, they just don't realize it. You can be happy or sad person and this still applies. It applies to all.
  8. MDMA gets demonized a bit because of its potential for abuse and supposed neurotoxicity. People who take too much, too high of a dosage, too frequently and sometimes already have a mentally unstable mind are going to be at a higher risk of a bad experience. If you use it responsibly you can avoid almost all of that. I have taken it several times a year for the last 5 years without a bad experience. My last time was a few weeks ago and was ground breaking for me in terms of my connection to reality. I'm the happiest I've ever been. Not saying I'm immune from a bad experience, but I take basic some precautions. 1) Keep the dosage reasonable. I don't cross 120 mg, I actually prefer to stay closer 100 mg. 2) Stay away from redosing. You will feel a noticeable difference in your physical and mental state the next day and I think this is honestly where a lot of comedowns stem from. 3) Test your shit of course, make sure it's actually MDMA. 4) Exercise, eat well, meditate. Take care of yourself and don't rely on the drug alone to create a positive experience for you. I'm usually already beaming with joy before even taking it.
  9. Everyone is seeking enlightenment whether they realize it or not. It might look on the surface like they are doing the exact opposite, but every action someone takes is just an attempt at reaching oneness. Of course some of these actions are a less efficient method than others for getting there. But the ego can only mask the soul for so long.
  10. No such thing. You make that up in your mind. I’ve done loads in my life and yet Im happy just sitting on my couch doing nothing
  11. It's been a gradual build up, but really ramped up these last few weeks. I've been doing psychedelics for years so my mind was already pretty open, but when I discovered this channel last year it was like finding someone who could perfectly articulate everything that had been simmering in my mind about reality for years. I had an MDMA trip a few weeks ago and hit some new levels of consciousness. Felt a stillness so pristine it was as if I could choose to cease existing if I so desired. I then listened to the Solipsism video a few days later and things got really crazy. Since then I have been feeling ultra present in my daily life at a level I haven't felt before. Feel more love for myself, "others" and reality than ever. I felt a layer of ego just shed off during that trip (which is honestly strange because MDMA usually doesn't have such a psychedelic feel for me) and it hasn't returned. It was somewhat scary at the time because of how jaw-dropping it was, but so beautiful simultaneously. I've also become more conscious as to how let go and just flow through reality without resistance. I love waking up in the morning to what I am in reality and never know what is going to happen. I feel more and more connected to everything whether it's a person or a tree. I feel an acceptance for whatever is happening and don't feel the need to change anything. Everything feels perfect as it is. I feel as if though there is no end to how much more I can self-actualize.
  12. Self-actualizing has been bar none the greatest thing that has ever happened to me and I thank you Leo for the life changing content. I see a lot of doom and gloom and controversy regarding a lot of the topics you discuss and I feel like the point sometimes gets lost. At the end of the day I am SO much better off having discovered this channel and it's honestly shocking to me how rapidly my state of being changed. It's just incredible.
  13. Yes. My parent's being an illusion doesn't make me sad, I now look at them with more love than I ever have in my life. I will cry at the most random times as I become more and more aware of the illusion. It's the most beautiful thing. Experiencing yourself as God within the illusion. How does it get any better than that? It just does somehow
  14. My love has only increased for everyone and everything in my life with my continued awakenings of reality
  15. Sorry to hear that. Hopefully over time it starts to improve. I was listening to music really loud in my car in the other day and was feeling great, but it did hit me right there how I take for granted that I am able to hear normally and how much it would suck to not be able to listen to music again. I immediately turned the volume down.
  16. You just want someone you can feel good around and feel comfortable sharing your life with and who doesn't judge you for what you are. When I look at my closest friends this is how they are. They aren't perfect but they're good enough. I don't see why we act like our romantic partner is supposed to be much different. It gets a little tricky because for most of us physical attraction matters for romance whereas it doesn't when it comes to friends. So finding a person who meets both of those is a little tougher. I haven't found someone yet that I can bucket into that, but I have a much better understanding of what I want.
  17. There will always be someone who has it "better" or "worse" than you. There are people out there who got dealt a much worse hand than you who are extremely happy and those who were born rich and good looking who hate life on a level you couldn't understand. That's because none of that shit matters. It ultimately comes down to acceptance and then consciously living your life. Do you need food, water, shelter and a few other essentials to keep your physical body alive? Of course. But beyond that there's nothing preventing you from living in pure ecstasy other than your own mind telling you that you can't.
  18. Had a trip last week with a huge breakthrough and I haven't been able to stop saying "Wow" since then. Just constantly throughout the day. And I can't stop smiling. Reality is just so fucking insane and perfect.
  19. I'm a guy and I don't like having long pubic or armpit hair, I feel more comfortable when it's short. Really just applies to hair in general, when it gets too long I don't like the way it looks. As a result I just prefer the same on a woman.
  20. I have friendzoned many girls who wanted something romantic from me and I just wanted friendship.
  21. Too risky for myself as a man. People go through many changes in life and I dont want to lock myself into something I can’t easily get out of
  22. I'm more sexually assertive if I haven't jerked off for 3-4 days and that helps me with flirting. But my sex drive also isn't what it was when I was in my early 20s so I kind of have no choice but to do that. If you're younger prob won't have that issue.
  23. I would have stopped questioning reality a while ago if i didn’t feel like it was benefiting my life. Most people don’t think it will so they don’t bother. But eventually once the dream starts to crumble people start to see the importance in spirituality.
  24. It's hard to not unconsciously judge people's physical appearances. I don't like the rating system either, but I'd be lying if I said I don't evaluate someone's physical appearance when I first meet them regardless of whether I want to or not. It also is very subjective though. I like women who look more plain. I find one of my close friends really physically attractive and even though other people do as well, I can tell she is still a bit insecure about how she looks because she doesn't look like a physically fit IG model. I find her way hotter than some random "9".